/lit/ - Literature

SNIFFFFFFFFF, HMMMM

>>14429466
butt and pusy

Anime is so fucking bad

>>14429466
looking for books to ease my sex drive. i have tried several of the traditionalists. i am trying religious writing presently. i started the russians
where do i find a book that shifts my priorities and frees me from this prison

The man who indulges in impurity is like a person labouring under the dropsy. The latter is so much tormented by thirst, that the more he drinks the more thirsty he becomes. Such, too, is the nature of the accursed vice of impurity; it is never satiated. “As,” says St. Thomas of Villanova , ”the more the dropsical man abounds in moisture, the more he thirsts; so, too, is it with the waves of eternal pleasures.”

”Totum hominem,” says St. Cyprian, ”agit in triumphum libidinis.” (Lib. de bono pudic.) By lust the evil triumphs over the entire man, over his body and over his soul; over his memory, filling it with the remembrance of unchaste delights, in order to make him take complacency in them; over his intellect, to make him desire occasions of committing sin; over the will, by making it love its impurities as his last end, and as if there were no God.

>>14429510
St Augustine - Confessions

>>14429510
You need to force yourself away from any sexual thoughts or stimulation. It feeds off itself and creates one big giant behavioral loop. You are what you repeatedly do.

>>14429556
is it all oriented toward this or are there specific sections i should be looking for

I'm a mess /lit/. It's becoming increasingly clear to me that no matter what I do, no matter how far I go in life, I'm always going to be a disappointment to myself. I can't even register the idea of not putting pressure on myself as anything other than complete and utter failure, and no therapist I've talked to seems to know how to make me satisfied with my own accomplishments.

what am I even supposed to do with an instinct this fucking insatiable?

>>14429582
Read the the poem, the man in glass.

>>14429510
Buddhism.

>>14429518

Thinking about death
It's weird to about lack of consciousness
Not being there
I wasn't here for billions of years
I didn't choose to be born and I won't choose when I die
I'm a blink
Unless consciousness can be transferred after death
The fact that we don't know a lot about the nature of consciousness actually gives me a bit of hope that I, not as in me but as in my consciousness, might continue to live on
It doesn't matter though. I will die. Better not to dwell on it.

>>14429586
I think the man in the glass is predisposed to despise me. For him, peace was never an option

>>14429590
thank you, can you elaborate or recommend anything specific to read. i skimmed the dhammapada in high school i wouldn't say i've retained much

It physically angers me how ditzy and clueless she is. For the longest time, I did not even think of her but now that I remember the turk I can only think of how fucking stupid she is and it drives me up the wall. This shouldn't even anger me as much as it does. She's like the manifestation of the phrase "airheaded."

>>14429614
It can feel like they are part of a different species.

She's got the brain power of a fucking potato. Do not leave, piao liang. Do not leave me with them.

>>14429510
>looking for books to change my biology

>>14429637
t.

Imagine how little time we would waste if we truly understood that we were going to die eventually. You would never download discord, browse this website, consume any media that wouldn't enhance your life or increase your knowledge and happiness, or really attempt to do anything that didn't contribute to making the absolute most of our existence in any given moment.
Unfortunately, some biological mechanism stops us from ever truly grasping the finite nature of our lives, and so we are stuck here wasting our time because we don't really know how real it is

>>14429637
Your biology is subject to behavioral inputs, brainlet, which can be in effect hijacked, and then reinforced, and then even survival and propagational functions can be maladaptive. You can be obese. You can be hypersexual. You're just midwit whose last end is carnal delights so any negative impact borne by them is unnoticed and inconsequential.

>girl asked me out
>I said yes but I canceled last minute
wee lads, I almost lost my virginity there

nuggets of text on my computer long past my recollection of having deposited them there and wondering how i can become disappointed in anticipation of meaningful content inside when i was the author, whether memory loss would account for my tone-deafness towards the thoughts i'm thinking about as i'm thinking them or even after i've written them down.

>>14429626
I should be much nicer to everyone but holy hell, it makes me seethe how someone can be so clueless.

>I am, therefore I think

>>14429678
You are just an observer of sensations, thoughts, ideas, observer of the observer. There's no such a thing as wasting time, that's just your super ego taking over.

>>14429710
You are, therefore you think.

>>14429518
this speaks to my very soul

>>14429686
>You can be obese
>You can be hypersexual

Yes, brainlet, but the impulses that exist in an individual person to make them this way can't really be altered. An obese person is obese because he has the desire to eat more than others. He can exert his will power to control the amount he eats, but he certainly can't read a book that will diminish his appetite for food. These impulses are biological; they vary between individuals but they mostly remain in place

>>14429466
Bunny Bulma is hot as fuk

I think therefore all is

>getting lap dance
>girl puts her head on my chest and just lies there for five or ten minutes while I stroke her hair
Not the feel I paid for

>>14429726
You win I mean I win, actually

When do the damn hats go away!?

>>14429724
For you

I mean, do you actually expect me to view someone I talked with everyday and some random twit I vaguely knew a decade ago the same way? Is it physically impossible to see the world from someone else's viewpoint?

You're all a bunch of fucking idiots. Except you, Cait. I actually do feel bad for the mean words to you. The rest of them are dumbasses though.

thinking about my pet millipedes

>>14429510

>lower my sex drive
>traditionalists

Real traditionalists would be hunter-gatherers who would tell you be a man and have as much sex as possible by conquering women with your strength and cunning. They would see your desire to curb your sex drive as pitiful and weak, rightly mock you as a eunuch and a coward, and shun you until you grew a pair.

Read Sun Chief: The Autobiography of a Hopi Indian; the Epic of Gilgamesh, Roman Honor; Yanomamö: The Fierce People; and/or Argonauts of the Western Pacific if you want real traditionalism (from different cultural contexts) instead of pearl-clutching Pauline or Augustinian sanctimony. I know you won't though because you just want to read things that reinforce the worldview you already have, just like 90% of everyone else on this board.

>>14429489
Yea. Manga can be good, though

>>14429576
It talks about a lot of things but his attachment to carnal pleasures plays a very significant role and recurring theme all the way through book 8 or 9. It's been awhile since I read it so I can't really mark it any better than that.

>>14429723
The entire filed and well-documented clinical efficacy of cognitive behavioral therapy would say otherwise. You simply lack discipline.

>>14429711
So? His super ego IS real, you know that, right?

>>14429466

>>14429849
Which one

Aristocrats are inbred degenerates, the proles will behave like animals. Sexual morality is obviously the exclusive domain of the middle class. The pay off is that the middle class can never produce art worth a damn.

>>14429466
I want nothing more than for my friends to stop playing this shitty game so I have no reason to play it anymore. All it does is stress me out and make me mad but they want to play so fuck me I guess. I just need one reason and I’d uninstall in a heartbeat

I really fucking hate women.

>>14430082
The usual excuses?

You know, it really just effects you. It's your affliction you muster up and it does no good for anyone, least of all you.

>>14430125
If you said this to me face to face I would drag you by your hair and bang your head against the pavement.

>>14430128
As if I'd let my hair get within arms length of you.
>said
I asked you a question, you quivering ballsack

>>14430158
Shut the FUCK up.

>>14429466
I want to slide my penis in that ass

>>14430082
Why? I think they're quite nice.

>>14429518
Sounds like the same kind of mental slavery they use in Alcoholics Anonymous. I genuinely feel bad for people that are locked into this kind of way of thinking.

>>14430220
>posts a boy

>>14430272
I like boys, but I much prefer girls. When I have enough of a girl, she serves me still as a boy

Is there any way to help these angry, hateful ragers that have flooded 4chan and other places over the years? They're mostly young men in profound personal pain, most likely having suffered terrible abuse and neglect in their personal lives. They're attracted to Trumpism and neo-Nazism because they've been conned into believing it will improve their lives, when it's only led them into worse hells, fueling ever-deepening extremism.

This is a serious mental health crisis, and I think should be treated as such, but that isn't "politically correct" because these tormented human beings are also incredibly useful for spreading far-right propaganda because their vulnerabilities are easily exploited.

Nobody wins here, it's just destructive cycles of abuse that are reproduced both socially and interpersonally.

There's a kind of dull, earthy stench that you can smell when you walk into a bathroom right after somebody's taken a shit.

>What an astonishing thing a book is. It's a flat object made from a tree with flexible parts on which are imprinted lots of funny dark squiggles. But one glance at it and you're inside the mind of another person, maybe somebody dead for thousands of years. Across the millennia, an author is speaking clearly and silently inside your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people who never knew each other, citizens of distant epochs. Books break the shackles of time. A book is proof that humans are capable of working magic.

-Based Sagan

anyone here gone through years of severe depression and cognitively bounced back without scarring on the other side?

My mind has been taken over by a Highschool of the Dead fanfic I want to write, and I think I'm just going to do it. I've practically plotted out the whole thing and I used to love the manga back in the day. I've been rereading all the old chapters just to get the character interactions precisely right, so I'm just going to write it.

>>14429510
get off the internet
it's the easiest way

>>14430364
Yes

>>14430364
yeah dude i was "depressed" for most of my teenage years and early 20's, i tried to kill myself at some point with minimal success now i am basically fine, more or less well-adjusted although still got a bit of the 'tism
after i was able to free myself from depressive thinking i realized it was never real, there was nothing wrong with me, it was all in my head and help from outside is impossible when the real problem is being a little bitch who magnifies their petty problems to astronomical proportions. depression is literally not even real, it's just a maladaptive mindset, a way of thinking that traps you but you can logically walk out of at any time

>>14430354
upvoted

>>14430341
>They're attracted to Trumpism and neo-Nazism because they've been conned into believing it will improve their lives, when it's only led them into worse hells, fueling ever-deepening extremism.
But I actually have a job now, unlike during Obama's reign. How is Trump negatively affecting my current immediate livelihood?

>>14430341
>mental health crisis
ah yes the "everyone i don't like is crazy" angle
this is why we can't have red flag laws

>>14430341
Has it never occurred to you that people can arrive at their political beliefs via much the same the process of introspection and research that, I can only assume, you assume as the foundation for everything you are ideologically committed to?

This idea that "everyone who disagrees with me is pathologically disturbed" is actually really creepy and authoritarian. Not the authoritarianism of the Nazi but of the psychiatrist's couch.

>>14430341
I don't get how you could look at Bush and Obama and not see Trump as an improvement.

I guess since I'm not an American, I have a different perspective.

>>14430341
I've studied this problem to an extent. While I haven't completely decoded it I've drawn the following conclusions.

I never embraced political extremism, but I did go though a very ugly period years ago in which I quite bloodthirsty and anti-social sentiments. I believe what was going on in me was not an isolated case.

*Online extremism is expression of a lack of meaning, identity and purpose. It is a perversion of a perfectly healthy, natural drive that cannot find satisfaction in the current social order, a crisis of meaning.

*It is a form of "acting out" against perceived overbearing liberal social agendas. Rather than concede to these new power formations, and adopt a more perceived subservient role, they lean into the demonized portrayal they are already being represented as. Like a child who does exactly what he is told not to do because he is told not to do it.

*Much of the neglect and abuse that you theorize is more in their heads than manifest. The anger is not completely unjustified but it it shades over into the irreconcilable once murderousness is sanctioned.

*Reduced socioeconomic prospects in younger generations play an active role. Especially when these reductions are contrasted with great expectations.

*The internet itself, and its profusion of mixed signals, cherrypicked information, misleading propaganda, and grievance cultures goes a long way to transcribe the personal into the political.

*It is possible to "walk down" someone who has gone down this path, but it takes particular negotiator skills and psychological deftness to bypass these men's often overtly hostile and distrustful attitudes and defenses.

>>14430341
Get them to start praying the Rosary every day.

>>14430538
Americans don't know what they want. It's a country where the "status quo" is completely arbitrary and exists on a whim.

t. American

>>14430539
>Rather than concede to these new power formations, and adopt a more perceived subservient role
"No!"

how much wood would a woodchuck cuck if a woodchuck could cuck wood

The more I think about it the more I am convinced that the impeachment of Trump is political theater. What has he done that no other president hasn't? Why did they not impeach Bush, who lied about the entire pretext of a war that resulted in the deaths of hundreds of thousands? Or for warrantless wiretapping? What about waterboarding? Why was Reagan not impeached for the Iran-Contra affair? Withholding chump change from poor little baby Ukraine is somehow worse than covertly selling arms to an embargoed country to fund rebel groups in Nicaragua when doing so was expressly forbidden by Congress? Why wasn't Obama impeached for the extrajudicial drone killings against American citizens?

>>14430243
Says the communist fuck

>>14429466
I want that ass to sit on my face.

>>14430341
>They're attracted to Trumpism and neo-Nazism because they've been conned into believing it will improve their lives, when it's only led them into worse hells, fueling ever-deepening extremism.
If anything the last 4 years of my life have been the best. The anger you speak of sounds like projection to me.

>>14430341
>This is a serious mental health crisis, and I think should be treated as such, but that isn't "politically correct" because these tormented human beings are also incredibly useful for spreading propaganda because their vulnerabilities are easily exploited.
That's very transphobic, anon. Please reflect on what you say.

>>14430533
>"everyone who disagrees with me is pathologically disturbed"

This is the kind of rager I'm talking about. They literally want to kill people. Pretty much any thread is filled with them. They're obviously massively emotionally disturbed. This isn't the result of introspection and careful inquiry.

>>14430644
Dismissing people's concerns as not fitting whatever progressive delusions of proper society you have, and silencing people under the threat of social exclusion, is what pushes them to hatred in the first place. More silencing and more social exclusion certainly won't help.

so i met this cute boy on omegle who is a total normie but somehow he's taken an interest in me because im not the typical hot shallow bitch he goes for. idk how i feel about him because he keeps talking to me about his will to self perfection and doing all these disciplined tasks like abstaining from alcohol, porn, blah blah (lowkey get phony vibes from him but omg he is so cute) and never missing a day at the gym or some other macho talk. he doesnt browse 4chan but somehow read and loved the 12 rules for life, also i feel that he may be somewhat less intelligent than me since he is not a marxist. and all intelligent people are marxists, it's just how it is.

i dont know. he is a mega cutie but he kept talking about wanting a gf who's into 3somes and im a weird virgin who holes up at home spreading socialist propaganda.

we'll probably not make it within a week but im bored and i like the attention from a mega cutie. wish me luck boys

3D women are not worth it

>>14430797
based and redpilled

>>14430797
Neither are 2D. Reject lust and pray.

>>14430872
Jesus Christ is the original waifu

I'm an Airbnb host. Most of my guests are couples. At the very least 3 of them have had sex while staying. I've confirmed this because I heard two through the walls and I found a broken condom wrapper in one of the rooms for the third.

Literal strangers have had sex in my own fucking house before I did.

>>14430644
Pretty much any political position outside of the status quo is ambivalent to the lives and well being of those that impede its chances of actualising. We could go back and forth with screen caps from chans, reddit, twitter, of lefties wishing for the deaths of small business owners, righties for the jews, etc. End of the day you just come across as an apologist for whoever happens to be in power at any given time.

>>14429510
i'm the opposite.
what books could increase my sex drive? i read bukowski but nothing changed.

>>14430884
you should join them

>>14430884
Next time write in the advertisement that you make discounts for couples looking for a bull.

>>14429678
I don't know which discords you hang out in, but it's certainly not detrimental to knowledge. E.g. there's no consistent precense of math PhD's and postdocs on /sci/, but there's some good discord outlets.
This already does with people who just read more than you. No matter what city you"re in, going global will help with finding people who read certain things.

>>14430884
>I found a broken condom wrapper
LMAO what a cuck. Imagine that: some guy takes his bitch on a trip she still doesn't let him feel the inside of her pussy. AHAHAHAHAAHA

>>14429466

Her name was Sabrina. She was a high school freshman living in a Midwestern town, living with her divorced mom. Dad was out of her life by age 5, and since then Mom worked all day until 6pm. The only time Sabrina had with her mom was in the morning when she was a small child, which was when mom would drop her off at elementary school. Now, Sabrina goes to and from school alone, or with male friends who'd drop her off after having a little bit of fun together, even several guys at the same time.

Sabrina was mostly alone, getting picked up by the seniors guys with cars during her walk home, and she grew a reputation. Guys who have heard of her would approach her and exchange numbers, and she didn't refuse anyone. During lunch she would sneak into the boy's bathroom and meet her friends there. If she didn't feel like it, her friends brought gifts or money, and she would pull her pants down to either feel a hand, dick, or a mouth on her. If there wasn't enough time to get the next boy or herself off, they would meet after school. Nobody liked condoms, so Sabrina only wore them on certain times of the month. Otherwise, she enjoyed raw sex and being filled up...

>>14431045
>wet pantyhose
doesnt look comfortable

>>14429466

I dreamt of her last night.

Her embrace was the warmth in a day of cold.

My life is a long winter, and I long for the summer once more.

I wanna take a Bitter.

>>14429590
Buddhism was retroactively refuted by Shankara

bump

I wish I had an assistant or a machine which would write down all my great ideas into coherent narratives. I would provide the ontological insight and presuppositions, while she would do the trivial peon work. Then I could fix all where she has made error, and so iteratively repeat the process.

RUTUTU
RUTUTU
RUTUTU

>>14429510
>>14429518

I don't have a sex drive.

A little anxious about posting this, but I need to get better so crticisms please. I could have made more rhymes if I spent a little longer writing this but it is what it is.

https://youtu.be/5Frq7rjEGzs

With a stomach full from steam cooked beef
And my spirits jolly, I leave the streets.

Wading through thick mud in determined march
I recant your words both untrusting and harsh.

Am I in love with the idea of you? An imitation? A figure I wish to see?

You will know, my babe, if you answer the questions I put to thee.

In the mud I found this grass. Is this not greenest on the Earth?

Do the trees that feed my lungs reside in the West?

Are the sands that warm my feet found in the East?

Are the peaks who inspire my spirits North?

Are the gentle waves that replenish my soul to the South?

Then surely it's settled, Europa, my love is true
With the greatest convictions
Here are the vows I've made for you.

If you ever cry on rainy days, I'll dig all the dykes anew
I'll warm your insides with tender stews
Made from meat bone, and sinew.

When you tire in weary haze
From the suns ceaseless pelting rays
Ill plant the seeds o'er coming days
Into your soils of fertile clays.

And as the seeds mature and grow
I'll pick up what together we sowed
"Do you love me?" you grumble low
"Yes, I do" I hope you know.

Kill all niggers, time for food, huh I can feel myself breathing right now. Alright, really though, time for food. Can’t kill niggers on an empty stomach.

Of all the realizations I’ve had in life the one that hit the hardest was that life is not a romance novel and that things will not magically work out through passion alone. It broke something in me. I was always a romantic, and now all of lived life appears dull and colorless.

>>14432372
i know that feel. it's just sad that you'll never be in the right place at the right time.

>>14432372
I refuse to believe this. I think you're wrong.

i want to express myself and sort my thoughts through a creative medium but i'm allowing myself to wallow in how overwhelming it is to choose one.
as a kid i dabbled in drawing, painting, origami, stop motion, and game dev. ended up going with
gamedev for pretty much the next decade because it
made me look smart and i just love designing
new ideas. but i've failed to make anything worth
while in games.
i hardly enjoy them either.

so i've locked myself up in the cold, dry, basement that is my room and have just
been contemplating and googling other people's creations as a means for deciding.
rather than
experimenting myself.
i just want to have something completed that
i believe is beautiful and expressive of something
personal to me.
something where i can constantly find new interesting challenges and ideas.
something that can give that aesthetic feeling that
gondola threads give.

>14432372
>>14432496
stfu coward who lies to himself, you never had the passion, not strong enough to conquer your fears for example rejection.

One must out way the other and you lost.

>>14430601
oy vey!

>>14432372
There is still adventure out there in the world anon, you just have to fight like a motherfucker to go and find it.

>>14432528
Based.

>>14430887
>>14430644

The odds of a fucktarded person trying an attempt at holding down a thought from spouting their mouth are highly unlikely to rationalize that they too are the exact villain they haste.

Emotion driven actions non emotional, they all motion them to prudely become their own fear. Lack of actual dialogue and actual communication vs soundbytes and one sided POVs are detrimental.

Undergrad who sees no future for myself. Even though some part of me knows, from an adult standpoint, that this adolescent angst is something a lot of people my age go through and most will get over it, I still feel on the verge of genuine collapse, like I’ve ruined or finished my life even though I’m only in my early 20s.

Even though we’ve all heard and had a sense since childhood that an English or philosophy degree aren’t the most practical (to put it mildly), some perverse part of me made me drift through uni mostly taking these classes, and now it’s too late to study anything practical. I may use the skills I’ve gotten to apply to law school but even the thought of that overwhelms me because it’s not really me, I wouldn’t really enjoy it.

I can write pretty well when I want to and even have some interesting thoughts but I can’t apply these skills to anything because I have no life. I’ve tried to start novels, short stories, or poems but I always stop in despair shortly after because I realize as I’m writing: “I have no life. How can I write about anything when I have no life?”

I’ve studied myself into a cave, I’ve turned myself into a hermit. All the reading and writing I’ve done is superfluous. I can write with a poetic prose style, but this is useless in the modern age. It’s laughable. I’m unfit for more serious and qualified jobs and also too sheltered and effete of a hermit to work more down-to-earth jobs, like in retail or as a doorman (both of which I worked as once and suffered awfully in).

I can’t even handle English classes anymore because I see no soul or artistry or thought in them, just overly academic analyses of literature. Pathetically enough, my only real interest at this point is philosophy, and getting a philosophy degree is suicide. My GPA is nowhere near high enough to imagine becoming a philosophy professor.

I should’ve just become a fucking plumber or something, but the high and impractical expectations of my immigrant parents who didn’t go to college has me by the balls. I’m supposed to be the prodigy of the family because I’ve always loved reading, but instead I’m just an over-educated failure.

Maybe I’ll spontaneously become enlightened and get over my stupid suffering somehow.

>>14429466
>Toei filler
>what if re-purpose Bulma's character model and make her brainless skimpy girlfriend of Kuririn who breaks with him after the filler ends?

>>14432131
I wish this was me.

>>14432745
You can become a philosophy professor by becoming a Jesuit priest. They do not care about your GPA if you're actually intelligent.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCW3KIdGR1Q&list=PLb77V50-OslBof_XWdCpn5NuAcrlTeq-1

>>14432593
>you never had the passion
i never had

>>14432745
>I have no life
Have you thought about taking time off to do some backpacking or whatever? Do you ever take the time to try something spontaneous and completely different from your normal life?

>>14432978
AhHahahaha, absolute madman. Yes, by a nice enough synchronicity, I’ve actually considered becoming a priest just to escape from the unsavory prospect of having to fit into a mostly anti-intellectual culture (trying not to sound arrogant or like an ivory-tower type but that’s how I see it). Unfortunately, it would be a farce since I’m not a Catholic except maybe in the most mystical and heretical sense. Thanks for the advice, though.

>>14432745
>>14433006
Just do the Gorky way
>After an attempt at suicide in December 1887, he travelled on foot across the Russian Empire for five years, changing jobs and accumulating impressions used later in his writing

>>14433016
Convert to Catholicism. Yes, even if you don't believe in God. Often the most atheistic priests are the most conservative by the way. Jesuit is the easiest path to the intellectual aspects of the religion, and carry little of the pastoral duties or baggage of a parish priest.

>>14433006
Thank you for this advice and the sympathy. Unfortunately, my finances make this impractical right now, but I may have to do the cliched “backpack around and find yourself” after I graduate somehow, change up my life spontaneously somehow before I go insane or become an alcoholic.

>>14433022
Thanks for this too. I’ve fantasized about this since in the lives of a lot of writers you hear of stuff like this, but the truth of the matter is, I’m trapped in suburban America, there’s no hope for me like that here. We’ll see though.

>>14433039
Mmmm, I believe in God but would feel like a fraud being a Jesuit. I would be “converting” to Catholicism to save my own hide, not because I actually have a calling towards Catholicism. I actually find a lot to criticize in it and most Catholics would be horrified at my heresy and dabbling in occultism, pantheism etc. it’s an interesting thing to consider, though.

>>14429466
I met a girl at the beginning of this month. She said she really liked me. She took my virginity. Now she no longer likes me as much. It seems like she loves me but is not in love with me, so to speak. Our first two weeks together were good. Then she became sad. It doesn't feel like we "click" anymore. At times I wonder if she stays with me because she pities me. Yesterday I went deep into her instagram spam, and saw how deeply she loved her ex-boyfriend, who broke up with her 8 months ago and used her for sex after that. This love is nowhere near how it seems she feels towards me. It seems like she's broken, as she said so herself. I wish she wasn't sad. I wish she was in love with me. I'm not even obsessed with her. I'm just sad. Maybe I'll find someone who loves me.

>>14429847
Basado

>>14429847
does the sex drive correlates with intelligence?

>>14433170
It seems your only option is to regain your virginity. You can do this by letting a faggot coom your anus. Goodluck!

>>14433170
Time to listen to this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Mln4XgMPmM

>>14433170
Addendum- I got high on weed, for the first time in my life, on Christmas eve with her, and for the few hours she was high it seemed like she was animated with the same passion that she once had towards me, and actually loved me and wanted me. She was so warm and open. Too bad I was not receptive because I was having an incredibly painful headache. Hopefully I'll get high again with her and enjoy a short time in which I feel close to another human being.

>>14433117
Just go for it, your finances are shit and you have nothing to lose. You're better than 50% of most Jesuits going in. You'll never need to stress about money, retirement, or other shit again once you're in. You're not going to be rich but at least you'll never be in constant agony worrying about scrounging together enough bucks to make rent or afford 1500 calories a day. It is the calling to the lifestyle you want, and a remedy to your other issues, and the only way to become a professor with a subpar GPA. You made a post about wanting your suffering to stop, wanting a return to a /lit/ lifestyle, and this is your chance. If you still feel bad, or like a fraud, speak with a vocational director, address your heresies with him face-to-face, and he'll let you know whether it is a good path for you or not.

>>14433204
I think so, the higher it is, the more intelligent one is. However, the more intelligent one is, the more of a distraction they see it as, and the more the desire for celibacy/continence.

>>14433328
So coomers have the highest iq? Who would've guessed? Not me atleast.

>>14433390
No, they fall in the midwit range as they fail to see a problem with the behavior.

>>14429466
I feel so happy right now. Meditation feels great.

>>14433403
Marcus "no sex allowed" Aurelius's meditations?

>"When you have savouries and fine dishes set before you, you will gain an idea of their nature if you tell yourself that this is the corpse of a fish, and that the corpse of a bird or a pig; or again, that fine Falernian wine is merely grape-juice, and this purple robe some sheep's wool dipped in the blood of a shellfish; and as for sexual intercourse, it is the friction of a piece of gut and, following a sort of convulsion, the expulsion of some mucus. Thoughts such as these reach through to the things themselves and strike to the heart of them, allowing us to see them as they truly are. So follow this practice throughout your life, and where things seem most worthy of your approval, lay them naked, and see how cheap they are, and strip them of the pretences of which they are so vain." - 6:13

>>14429510
Wouldn't fucking someone just get it out of your system?

>>14433476
that depends if you seek sex or intimacy

>>14433488
What do you seek anon?

>>14433476
It increases the cravings of your heart.

>>14433515
True, but why deny the inevitable?

>>14429710
This is what Husserl was saying

My main motivation to write is feeling massive hatred towards something but I'm so calm on the inside that it's killing the only talent I thought I had.

>>14433576
Resentment is superior to hatred.

>>14429466
All memory is subjective and we only observe the past.

Allow me to explain: can you recall something that happened very long ago? Perhaps when you were a child? Something your parents said to you maybe?
It cannot be a life changing moment, because that might be something other people remember too, or something there is footage or proof of.
Now, imagine if the only other person who was there with you at that moment denied that that moment happened, or claimed the moment happened in a different way.
You brain tells you it happened with your version, mainly because "you were there".
This is really hard to explain in words but, simply put, you are certain. Because right now you are reading this and it's undeniable that you are. But what about three months later? You will be able to guarantee yourself because "you witnessed" but that does not mean it's true.
So, with this in mind, how do you know 50% of what you observe or have observed is true?

And what if you are only experiencing the past? Your brain isn't infinitely fast.
There is a reason reactions are slow. There is a reason it takes a second to stop saying a sentence. It's because you're always observing the consequences of past decisions whether they are made by you or something else.

I can't stop and I won't stop. I rather die than change the continuum of my mind. I rather destroy my soul, whatever that truly may be, than convert my spiritual purpose and direction to another's.

>>14432579
oh my god
are you me?
[I mean expect for the game develompent part]
>i just want to have something completed that
i believe is beautiful and expressive of something personal to me.
>constantly find new interesting challenges and ideas
exactly anon! I'm the same and I'm sorry to say that I have no real suggestions of how to improve this situation as I haven't advanced from the wallowing in overwhelming feels about it myself.
just wanted to drop by as it was so relatable.
don't have fear anon, try and just do something, even if it's tiny, start small have have no fear of failour!
bulid up, brick by brick to that big expressive something.

So the one time I go home sick from work in 6+ months I see my ex, my first girlfriend, with some other dude, literally the bus stop before mine. What the FUCK dude, why rub it in my face, she lives across the city. I know that it's probably unintentional but it's still fucking retarded. And she was the only person I ever dated, which was by complete luck. So there is a possibility I may never even have another partner again because I don't bother to flirt with girls I think it's stupid and fake even though it's a fact of nature

>>14433170
Faggot, realize you were just her easy rebound. Why are even with such a difficult woman? She will not love some whiny homo, anyway. Hit her, leave her, or both.

>>14433831
appreciate the energy, anon!
i was browsing through the creative boards to see what was interesting and thought photography would be a cool direction
took my phone and drove my car with no destination
stopped by a piece of land that looked pretty neat and just parked my car and took a bunch of pics that i thought might look nice
was a little spooky because i heard gunshots and this guy came to me on a 4-wheeler asking what i was doing
i explained that i was taking pictures and that i'm about to head out if it's private property
took more pics of places i passed by and bought some food for myself

was a pretty enjoyable time and the pictures serve as memory
give it a try yourself!
gave me a reason to go outside and i feel like it could be a career full of capturing moments and ideas, and having a reason to travel
plus the idea of being in the shadows capturing something honest is pretty nice
i'm not sure how long i'll stay interested in photography - or if this is a one day thing, but i hope it helps you out some

I both want to sleep but also don't.
I do feel tired. my eyes feel heavy and the yawning has commenced, however, i don't feel like i can allow myself to sleep. I have done nothing of worth today, well, for quite some time, more than a few days if i'm honest; too long. it's like I have to justify my sleeping, which I know is retarded but still, a feeling non the less. it's a stange feel to be in.
maybe i'll go and make another coffee and hopefully do something other than give (you's).

>>14433989
anonnnnn this is weird lmao
i'm actually quite into photography... it's my chosen way to be creative atm. although I'm mainly an opportunist photographer lol i just keep an eye out for interesting photographic things while i'm out and about.
haha wow, that sounds like an eventful outing! but those types of thing are the ones you remember:)
>capturing moments and ideas, and having a reason to travel
exactly! my best photos are from a time a time i went abroad a little.
>being in the shadows capturing something honest
so true! I love candid photos.
thanks for the suggestion btw:)

>>14434037
what! lol that's awesome
have any cool pics you want to share?
i don't really know much about photography, but this came out nice on my phone
this is a pretty neat coincidence though

>>14429923
> celebrate homosexuality
> encourage gender dysphoria
> make cuckholding mainstream
> promote pornography
> get abortions
> constant birth control use
> fail to reproduce at replacement rate
> have sex strictly for pleasure
> sexually moral

>>14429518
Didn't Our Lady reveal at Fatima that lust would be the main cause of perdition in this coming age?

i have finally decided on a suicide date

>>14430644
Nobody WANTS to kill you, they're tired of almost a century of you facefucking everything their ancestors created, destroying everything beautiful and interesting, turning the entire world into a playground for braindead "I like to have fun!! :P!!!" children, ruining the essence of humanity itself by turning everyone into a pill-addled intellectually stunted faggot with low testosterone and ten different addictions. You faggots have run the asylum for generation after generation, you keep promising prosperity and utopia, but you're either in league with capitalist slavers or you are so fucking stupid that you are the ideal useful idiots for capitalist slavers. All of this was STILL tolerable for a fairly long time, so long as society remained basically stable at the surface, but now Islamists are brutally torturing a hundred people to death in the middle of Paris and blowing themselves up in small towns in Sweden, there are rape and murder gangs preying on children in the thousands in Britain, horrible fucked up shit is happening constantly and instead of listening to reason you are doubling down and asking that we be patient for just one more generation, one more century of living with psychotic murderous minorities with no theory of mind who spit on the floors and invasive Chinese immigrants who shit on the floors.

I don't understand what you want. Like I said, you are either an unbelievably useful idiot for the people who want to turn the entire species into a homogenized soup of spiritually and genetically degenerated abstract labor, or you are actively in league with those people and act as their propaganda and astroturfing wing. Do you want people not to fight back at all? Is this more gaslighting and demoralization? You wage all-out war against every culture, religion, nationality, tradition, you destroy what it even means to be a man and a woman, you allow pedo death cults and suicide bombers into countries that used to have a murder rate of 0.7/1,000,000 yearly, and then you say "why are you so hateful??? why can't you just live and let live??" when people finally, after decades, start to reply "wait can we slow this whole thing down a bit so I can get my bearings"?

>>14434188
>he doesn't have fun
wew lad

>>14429582
motherfucker, try harder or something different. idk YOU GOT THIS! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

>>14434162
good luck, anon!

>>14434138
ikr super cool :)
huuum i've attached one i took on the rare time i found myself on a ferry lol. the circle things you see in the sky are the ferry indoor lights. idk why, i just really like this photo.
lol i don't know much either haha but sweet! ty for sharing a photo!
we can continue chatting/photo sharing on discord if you like? no pressure tho! feel free to add me: sup#5469

>>14430644
>They literally want to kill people
There are plenty of people on the left who literally want to kill people.

>>14434238
real bfly?

>>14430644
>They literally want to kill people.
boo hoo hoo won't anybody think of the poor journalists, sand niggers, etc

>>14434375
oh no are you all fake bflys =((

>>14429466
Greek mythology is very overwhelming and I feel like a legitimate retard for thinking the battle of troy was a real historical battle.
It's like every sector of the mythology has an entire catalogue you have to absorb and reread multiple times just to understand whats going on with everyone.
The only things I retain are the birth of the titans, their war with the gods and the creation of humanity, everything else is a confusing blob of fragmented information.
Also, Zeus is a stupid fag and the only cool god is Prometheus, end of story.

>>14432372
What if I told you that you're even more of a romantic now?

>>14434378
yep. they be trolling

>>14434378
Holy fuck I haven't seen you in years

>>14429754
nice pusy

>>14434426
i'm just here cuz i learned the riskycat i've been talking to the past 4 years has been an estonian /lit/anon imposter and the real riskycat is somewhere in portugal. really i just need to retrieve the best album i ever made (he MAY have it, my harddrive fried yrs ago and i lost it)

>>14434453
back to your discord, tripfaggot. nobody cares about your e-relationships.

>>14434477
don't assume shit bout me this is old /lit/ shit not some discord garbage this goes years back before discord and im drunk and belligerent so dont fuck with me

>>14434477
you know what your board can go to hell i dont give a shit and you know what else im out bitch cuz real risky cat gone as hell and none of this shit matter so bye bitch

Last night I read the chapter in V where Esther gets a nose job. This is the first I've ever read any of his books but I already love Pynchon so much.

>>14434522
>>14434532
this is exactly the tripfag shit i was telling you not to do you retarded faggot, stop typing like a "weird twitter" e-celeb and seeing yourself as some kind of punk rock rebel of internet chatrooms.

if you've been here since the board was a tinychat chatroom for namefagging queers like you, then you're like 30 now, so all the more reason to stop acting like a queer.

>>14434155
Yes.

>>14434566
HOW BOUT SOME MORE CONFLICT U FUCKING NERD

>>14434566
YOUR MOM HAS AIDS AND YOURE ON 4CHAN AHHAHAHA STUPID IIDIOT DONT TRY TO READ ME

>>14434566
ur 4channer based takedown shit is fucking annoying to me for the record im 23 and have sex =)

>>14434566
how much i shit on your board i dont care at all?

tascen can you please email me so i cum in the pussy thanks man

>>14434566
its okay man i understand you just protecting your board. man theres too many christians on here: why are ignorant ass ideology fueld ppl so damn righteous am i right? man youre cool man we cool

dude i wish i could tell you guys the real shit without you all asking for verification, i wish you could just trust me and believe me when i say i know reality and i know the human condition

I love everyone even 4channers =)

I was very very close to my grandmother. As she lay on her deathbed in the hospice, she had all the children and grandchildren come up to her. She told everyone some variant of "I love you." She didn't tell me she loved me. Instead she gave me a task. The task is doable, but difficult.
>3 years later
In order to finish that task, I have to make some ethical choices that I never thought I would have to make. Not by her design, but because of life. These things came to a head recently and I have not made the choices yet. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted.
/end blog post

>>14429790
are they soft?

>>14434362
No.
Real Zeta? I’m the real one.

>>14434453
Riskycat?
>>14434477
No one care about you. So save a captcha solve, bitch.
>>14434683
>drunk posting
Oh, Zeta

>>14429466
I just watched american son on Netflix and it is a solid movie. I enjoyed it and it had some nice dialogue. Went to plebbit to get hold of some of the public reaction and I got reminded once again how oblivious is the average person.

>>14429510
>looking for books to ease my sex drive.
Impossible. You need to exercize and build stuff (or woodwork, etc.), do something physical. Every time you're passive, you think about sex. It's normal, it's what being a man is. There's a very small category of men who can concentrate their mind on an intellectual endeavour and let go of their earthly desires, usually they're trained to do so since childhood, and you are most likely not one of them (neither am I), so you need to do something that will engage you physically to forget your sexual desire.

>>14433488
>intimacy
Biggest chimera in the history of ideas, overexploited today for marketing purposes.

This girl has been on my mind lately, the only girl I can say I fell in love with. Met her in college, it's been a year since I've last seen her. At the time she was dating a guy who eventually became her boyfriend. She's not wth him anymore, at least I think so. I'm not a 100% sure to be quite honest.
I want to ask her out, take the chance that wasn't available back then.
I am hesitant however.
I don't want to bother her, annoy her and I have no clue how to bring such a subject without looking like a thirsty guy just looking for some quick fuck, capitalising on a rebound. Just thinking about this whole situation is enough to trigger a small panic attack within me, I feel sick and full of anxiety.
But I don't want to be coward once again not taking any risk, I'm tired of being the coward who does nothing but watch life go by.
I truly believe there was something special about her. I felt comfortable speaking to her on our first encounter and it didn't take long for me to develop a friendship with her. Making a friend so quickly, boy or girl, was something that hadn't happen since childhood. And with a complete stranger none the less.
I'm a believer that love starts with friendship .

Anyway, that's the end of my blogpost, already feel better after writing this
I think reading Les Misérables made me feel somewhat romantinc thes past few days.

>>14429466
Dat ass

>>14434738
What was the task?

we incels are too pure for this wretched world

>>14430341
*inhales deeply (and racistly)*

NIGGER

>>14435028
Incels are not pure at all. They hate their own condition and envy the impurity of others, masturbate daily, lust and are full of self-reproach. They're even more degenerate than regular people in that their corrupt inclinations take center stage in their mind. Actual celibates (vocels)>>>>>>>>>>>>>> regular people > incels

>>14435002
Don't wait to long. If they have time to consider dating you, and the make up their mind not to then you will have a harder time getting the girl to go out with you. I was friends with a girl for 9 or 10 months and I had fallen for her in the first two weeks. I asked her out a couple weeks ago and she said that she'd considered dating my but had made up her mind that we could "only be friends". If I'd asked sooner before she had made up her mind I never would have had that problem. Don't make my mistake.

Unrelated to my advice, I'm planning on asking her again in about a year if we're still friends.

>>14429518
>tfw reading the replies to this
Casting pearls before swine, emphatically so swine, for what kind of a man plays apologist to the debasement of their will and of their action to the level of unthinking beasts? Honestly ask yourself, what difference is there between you and an animal when you don't control yourself and are guided simply by your hungers?

I don't expect to reach anyone, because like you, I have also been demoralized by a corrupt civilization since before I could even speak. We are all of us deeply demoralized and openly conflate the unnatural with the natural, the worst with the best, and captivity with liberty. It is purely by chance I suspect that I found myself above this tide, with what pittance of purchase I have. I myself know how deep these waters of iniquity flow, and that there's nothing to be done for the drowned.

>>14430644
The left is literally defined top to bottom by killing white people.

I got gift cards for books from someone special and I bought a bunch of edgy shit with them: no longer human and serotonin and the book of disquiet. I want to buy more wholesome books so I don't seem like a depressed edgy loser. Was thinking about buying Dietrich von Hildebrand's Aesthetics I, but I still need 2 more books. Ideally they'd be about beauty, optimism, etc. I feel like such a faggot for buying those books now with the money I was given

I feel like I would, aesthetically speaking, prefer to be a girl, but not to the degree of becoming a transsexual. Though this desire is somewhat pointless on account of my massive man skull.

>>14432332
With a car you can go anywhere .jpg

>>14434738
Tell us the task, anon

Why do I keep clicking Family Guy videos on my Youtube recommended feed? I do it out of terrible habit, and I immediately close it out of shame. They keep piling up, because I keep clicking them.

I am not enough. I was never enough. I am unable to transcend my family. To be the only smart person in a family of idiots is to be misunderstood and isolated, my personhood deminished. Perhaps if I was smarter still, I would've been able to transcend them. Alas, I am weak. I am unable to escape them, or escape myself.

>>14435506
I enjoy watching them especially if it combines many episodes into one :)

>>14434146
Yes, and?

>>14435002
27 year old boomer here. Thinking back, I wish someone would have told me the things I'm about to tell you right now when I was your age. I probably wouldn't have listened, as you probably won't listen either, but I'll try anyway, at least I'll have done my duty to a colleague.

>At the time she was dating a guy who eventually became her boyfriend.
She is a slut, forget her.

>I don't want to bother her, annoy her
Why, you think she's the Prime Minister or something? Her life is empty, she has zero personality, no hobbies, no interests, nothing. She only lives for male attention. YOU are the one who should not be bothered to waste your time with her. SHE should be bothering you if she ever dared come and speak with you.

>without looking like a thirsty guy just looking for some quick fuck
But admit it, that's what you want. Sex.
Or do you want this disgusting thing called a "relationship"? Like spending hours together pretending it's something deep and meaningful when it's absolutely nothing but sexual tension? Do you know how fucking awful being in a "relationship" with a woman is? How much it will literally eat on your soul, how fucking insufferable woman are? They're worse than children. You see her from a distance, she's pretty, she's nice to you (maybe) or to other people, in public, on the surface, sure, but do you know how she will be when she will get used to you, when you will be spending hours upon hours with her in the privacy of your appartments? She will become a HARPY. She will nag ALL the time, act irrationally, blame you for stupid things, for things you didn't do, she will scream, she will manipulate you psychologically, she will call upon your instincts of protection to abuse you. And she will find somebody better than you and abandon you. She will in return be abandoned by Chad Thundercock and come back to you crying probably, and if you're the biggest cunt on Earth, you will take her back. Either you or another beta little faggot who will accepted her loose-as-a-wizard's-sleeve used up cum dumpster of a cunt. Or she will become a lesbian, or the cool wine aunt. That's what's going to happen. That's what happened to my past relationships.

>But I don't want to be coward once again not taking any risk, I'm tired of being the coward who does nothing but watch life go by.
By "life" you mean getting into her panties? That's what "life" is for you?

>I truly believe there was something special about her.
Got any tangible proof of that? What is it exactly?

>I felt comfortable speaking to her on our first encounter
Oh my goodness fucking gracious my friend.

Read Pensées by Blaise Pascal.
Read this: https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/De_l%27amour_(Stendhal) in English: http://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/53720
And get familiar with this term: https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=oneitis

Good luck friend, I hope this helps.

>>14430341
You need to understand group dynamics and social psychology. Many people don’t have the patience to sit through a dry lecture on these abstract concepts, and so there is a fundamental misunderstanding between social and cultural groups in America. I’m going to go stream of conscious for a moment:
Ideas and customs, our modes of daily interaction, our various habits of life, the things that make up our cultural milieu. All of these build on one another like a pyramid. Each layer above it is dependant on each level underneath being completely secure and culturally in place. When we look at a pyramid, our eye is naturally drawn by the outline up the sides to the capstone. We rarely spend much time in wonder over the base of a pyramid, or the middle layers which seem to only be there to hold up the peak. But the base and middle layers of a pyramid do more to set the parameters than any section above them. The ideas that form the base of this cultural pyramid, this pyramid of ideas, are the ones we don’t even think about; because they are so self evident and so fundamental to a particular version of the world we live in that we don’t have to think about them. Let’s say our cultural pyramid is crowned with a lofty idea “universal human rights.” By the time you have gotten to “universal human rights,” that the concept of it could even pop into someone's head in your culture; you’re already standing on the shoulders of ideas that in their own time were crowning achievements of the human race. At some point, we had to be able to abstract the idea of man out from an individual human. That didn’t come naturally to us. We didn’t naturally climb down out of the trees into the savannah and have the ability to abstract out the concept of “man” from particularities. It’s an antecedent to something like universal human rights, but we don’t even think about how we have to be able to understand humanity as an abstract to be able to achieve it. This is a lower level of the pyramid, as are other abstractions: good, bad, right, wrong, so on and so forth. We have to abstract out these value judgments depending on the situation that they occur in. We have to abstract the principle of the good or the principle of the bad, that didn’t come naturally to us. A whole mountain of apriori axioms had to be drilled into us so deeply that they were completely solid, unquestionable, and self-evident before we could build anything on top of it. And as you move down the pyramid, the consequences of questioning something -and destabilizing it- become more serious the lower you go. Once you begin to question a level in the center of the pyramid of ideas, everything above it begins to shift around as well.

>>14435582
If you truly want to understand the “Trump” phenomenon, you have to begin asking questions about social forms and individual psychology. When you start doing that, all the consciously conjured explanations start to look secondary and even superfluous. This is one of those vortexes that will suck you in. You can start out reading an article on the alt-right and end up reading three books on developmental psychology.
From the way you describe them, they seem to be profoundly alien to you. You attempt to invalidate their opinions and beliefs by blaming it on mental illness or personal pain. There is a tendency to imagine that people of different cultures are more or less “just like us.” Only with different ideas or beliefs that inform their ways of life. I don’t think that’s true at all. Those religious differences and ideological doctrines? Those are way up at the top of the cultural pyramid. You can change a lot of them and not see a tremendous structural change within a culture. By the time you get to the consciously held and outwardly spoken beliefs, you’re only shaving a couple inches off the top of the pyramid. The differences between cultures, the things that really make cultures different are far deeper. Different cultures can produce profoundly different human beings. Somehow people infer a negative connotation on the recognition of differences. I think that tells a lot about how this point of our ideology functions. The propagators of this universalistic mainstream ideology in the west have pulled an interesting ju-jitsu trick. We decided somewhere along the line -very remarkably if you look at history- to disavow our own past of conquest and colonization. And to replace the false glory of that past with this universalist religion based on tolerance and human rights and the accessories that go with those things. Down at the core of this ideology is a deep belief that people everywhere are basically the same. Now, conveniently for our geopolitical goals and for our own cultural self-understanding we interpret that to mean that everyone everywhere is just like us. And must in their heart of hearts, if they were free to express it, or just had things explained to them properly, would want what we want and value what we value. So the next thing you know, we’re invading countries so that their people can be free to express their true inner nature, which we imagine must be that of a docile progressive democrat from the east coast.

>>14435585
When we decided to invade the Middle East, Donald Rumsfield said that we would be greeted with cheers and flowers in the streets. Of course that was propaganda, but it revealed a bias that is very prevalent in the US. Simply put, there is only one kind of human being. We have identified it, and encapsulated it, and if given the permission or adequate knowledge, everyone everywhere would act the way we act and believe what we believe. Deviations from our perceived norms are not taken on their own terms. Rather they are called extremists or mentally ill.

This has come to a head in the US over the course of the last ten or so years, and the internet has exacerbated it. There are two very different cultures within the US, both are vying for power. Both view the other as mentally ill, and mock and deride the other publicly. It’s not a cycle of abuse. It’s a fundamental difference a couple layers down the cultural pyramid. And as both pyramids continue to grow, the capstones will continue to drift further apart until a conflict is inevitable. Spats have started over the last few years. Antifa and the Alt-right. But there are other spats as well, things you don’t hear about. Go speak with your local blue collar workers. Listen to their stories. Hear what they have to say, and take them on their own terms. In your attempt to psychologize them, you are disenfranchising them. And that only widens the cultural gap and causes more animosity. There will be violence before the end. I hope I am gone before it happens.

.T. Trump Voter,

>>14435591
>There will be violence before the end. I hope I am gone before it happens.
I'm afraid you're right.

The most fun I've had in years was at a furry convention.

A fucking furry convention.

I actually made new friends there, something I haven't done in years. And the worst part is I think it's because I went into it with a super-yolo, fuck it attitude. I need to have that for more things in my life, I guess. Although the rest of my life is going pretty well (job/money wise) so that's good at least.

Fuck, man. It's hard to connect.

>>14430341
>lumping Trump and nazis together
Nazis are a democrat psyop. Trump supporters are just normal people who don't want their balls cut off.

Is the increase in traps going to lead us back to classical era sexual values?

>>14435591
You're right anon, but the people on these boards are easy to mistake for mentally ill, and that was OP's assumption. This extremism that's been taking place has been out of hand, any board will get flooded by these people who contribute nothing but their disdain of what is not their ideal, which is such a specific demographic, white and Christian.

>>14435759
Have you ever considered that ranting anonymously on 4chan might be their only form of solace and it is an act that allows a cathartic release of frustration?

>>14429518
>jerking off to cartoons is bad. We should all be toga wearing dip shits instead

How 'bout no.

>>14435861
>>jerking off to cartoons is bad. We should all be toga wearing dip shits instead
this but unironically

Jerking off to cartoons is undoubtedly the most disgraceful state for a man. Even crackwhores have more dignity.

>>14435914
Jerking to cartoons > fucking hookers

>>14429466
fat anime ass and titties

>>14435952
Based

>>14429466
I hate women, I hate how they all approach me in a "be my gay friend" sort of way when I am not even gay, I hate how shallow and resentful most of them are when confiding to me, I hate the fact that I'm just too nice to just tell them to fuck off.
How do I distance myself from these women despite the fact that I am not actively trying to talk to them in any way, I just want to stop having to interact with women and listen to their petty problems as if I'm their therapist or something.

>>14436264
>listen to their petty problems as if I'm their therapist or something.
Why cant you say that? Whats the worst that could happen?

he eats me
on my mind: horse snoot&teeth on my shoulder

Internally, I hold myself to the standards of pedophiles. The logic goes, if a guy who wouldn't kiss any girl that weighs more than 82 pounds would consider me for a quick fuck, maybe a nice man would like to take me as his girlfriend someday.

I'm utterly convinced that what the world needs now is a grand narrative that some statistically golden number of people can get behind with an almost religious devotion. It has to be perfectly formulated, chameleonic; racially, ethnically, culturally, geographically, politically nationalistically, linguistically agnostic; it must appeal to as many as possible and have some inner core to it that is so indisputable and obvious that there is nothing to argue over, nothing across which to draw battle lines and sow divisions. It must be uncontroversial, but not simply uncontroversial: controversy-retardant. Immune to being controverted, that is, bewitched by those acting in bad faith, to create cynical confusions for their own short term ends. It must operate with a completely etherial, autonomous impulse, transcending individual figureheads, representatives, or acolytes, motivating through the distributed information currents with autonomic reflexivity, as a force of nature. It must act weightlessly, without capital intensive requirements or gate keeping, available to all for nothing with no barrier to entry and no advanced education strictly necessary.

What of course would fulfill these requirements, this hopelessly irreconcilable wishlist of ideals? The answer, I would expect to be obvious by now, is some flavor of environmentalism. Nothing anybody cares about matters if the earth is destroyed, all other priorities are subordinate to it. This is an obvious, absolute fact, and indeed it is only not considered as such because the stability of the planet is taken for granted out of a kind of atavistic common sense. That assumption may be jeopardized, but for it to proceed, I must first shatter the illusion that environmentalism (and its greater theoretical possibilities and values) is a leftist or at all politically valanced conception.

Environmentalism indeed is not the right word. None of the old words are the right words. For a new world needs a new language, and we should look upon the birth of a new language as a new invention of human possibilities. Of profound growths of the human type.

>>14436334
nah man, pedos are perverted and mindless, not some bearers of high standards.

>>14436334
so you have an eating disorder or congenital dwarfism or smth?

>>14436334
your logic is non-existent. you are a literal woman. congrats on transition, faggot

>>14436339
This reads like a shortened Borges story, I like it.

scared that i might be kidding myself that i can write. i just wanna be like adam driver in paterson

i've turned a best friend into a loving gf and it feels like my life has just vastly improved in every regard. Motivation is easy to find in everything, doing the most menial and small things together feels like a blessing. Before I fell in love I imagined it would feel like a great sense of euphoria every time I was near the person I was infatuated with, but now I've realized it's rather the opposite, I just feel bad when I'm not near her and the default mood I'm in when near her is just much better. We are compatible in basically every regard, from sex life to regular casual everyday things and it feels like life couldn't be better than this.

i feel like i want to tell every person i meet about just how great it feels and how hard it is to put into words. Every night I go to sleep with a smile thinking about her while she's laying next to me bros, i no longer feel empty and am finally at peace.

>>14436591

>>14436591
>I just feel bad when I'm not near her and the default mood I'm in when near her is just much better.

dont make me cry anon

>>14436603
>>14436614
before i coped by not thinking about it too much

you don't have to miss what you don't have, especially not if it doesn't help you get it
we're all gonna make it

>>14436641
>you don't have to miss what you don't have
that's just ignorant

>>14430644
>They literally want to kill people

Owzie wowzie you communist fuck, and then you say it was necessary for the soviets to murder their opponents.

nofap benefit is real man i got hd-er senses and hyperfocus

>>14436731
no masturbation only sex > nofap

>>14436754
undiluted celibacy >>>>>>>>>>>

>>14436758
celibacy with sublimation >>>> regular cope celibacy

>>14435952
based coombro

>>14429518
>The latter is so much tormented by thirst, that the more he drinks the more thirsty he becomes. Such, too, is the nature of the accursed vice of impurity; it is never satiated

I mean, if you are involved in something too much , like drugs, smoking, sex, video games, movies, consume etc, in time you will become like a slave, you will not be in control anymore, your hobby will control you. but at the same time if you ignore everything and have no pleasure in life, you will ignore something that make you human?

>>14435805
Yes, but it's not our responsibility to allow them; No one is obligated to respect someone who derails a subject.

>>14429466
Can one read philosophy while pretending that it's politics?

>>14435111
Can this lad get some recs? We need wholesome-core lit

I hate being home at Christmas and seeing old friends. It makes me miss them and wish I could see them all year ;_;

>>14437630
That would be like Jeremy Bentham's works :3

>>14430354
based

>>14429510
120 days of sodom. remind yourself that this is what casual sex us like and what it leads to so you feel disgusted when you have sexual thoughts. of course, monogamous sex for a purpose other than just sex (procreation or to feel closer to your partner) is different from sex for sex's sake.

>>14432302
I would maybe get a new hobby friend

>>14432372
Well, passion does augment your chances of success in almost all fields, even more if you do it right. It's a cruel world, Anon, but you can still take a bite out of it.

>>14430354
That's right. That's all books are, just a glimpse into the perception of other people.

Tell me how I know that Carl Sagan was a pop scientist :3

>>14429466
I'M COOMIN

Yes Sensei the first chapter of my book is written

Just like the ashfell of wind on a winter dawn, the singular drops of scent drew a curtain of airy cloths about the city grey. From the depths of despair those musical chants made knowledge physical in my mind and conjured in near sub-metallica metal, a beast of the urban fauna, “NIGGERS” I thought, Whimsical chance had played me an unfair hand and quickly I hugged the collar of my coat looking into the mysterious void of the shadows as their laughter and whorish chatter stepped closer to my being. I felt for my only defence in these harsh lands and fed her, her due, then the shadows excreted the beings into the light and clearly could be see the fruit shaped mellonin heads of my despair.

Just then one mouthed and spat words in my direction “YO WHTE BO WHEW YOSE GOG”
Unholy words once spoken and aimed at the core of my soul I demanded my mind to ignore reject the poison and acted as one who sought to right the world of these vermin.
“DIE NIGGERS DIE” I shouted in German and let loose those fragments of steel heart. The dark wizards head exploded like a melon, showers of seeds littered the devils path, surely he was more melon than man.

>>14432302
Not bad, Anon. I like your ambition.

>>14438181
>In German
>Shouting "The Niggers The"

>>14438181
It's perfection.

>>14437434
Why should what you call humanity be at the cost of decency? What keeps you fascinated in being human?

>>14431348
What a faggot you are.
Hey, everyone, look at the gay faggot!

>>14437468
You don't have to respect them. But understand that there are severe consequences in the real world for expressing these opinions. I have friends who were dis-invited from university programs (not for anything radical, but for taking a non-mainstream view on homosexuality) and others who have had their jobs threatened. I had a 50k scholarship revoked when I refused to write what I considered to be pro transgender propaganda. While that was not the stated reason for the rescinding of the scholarship, I know it was cause.
While you may be annoyed with constant spamming and derailment online (I often am too) you are likely not worried about having your future being damaged by wrong think. Online outlets are the last place where people feel as if they can vent about these things, and even then people get doxed and lose their jobs. So more resentment builds, and vitriol is put forward. It is a self perpetuating cycle, that much is true. But it is being propelled by the leftist cultural hegemony and the grass-roots right wing movements.
Many people use bombastic language as a pressure release valve. I'm thankful for it, because if people were not able to sublimate their anger with cathartic trolling, it would turn into real world violence very quickly.

>>14437434
>if you ignore everything and have no pleasure in life, you will ignore something that make you human?
no, being human does not mean succumbing to your urges. Quite the opposite in fact. What separates us from animals is our logos, our ability to reason. That very act of denying your base urges is the most pure, human act you can perform

I woke up this morning three hours earlier than I’d set my alarm for. Anxiety again. Once I’m awake, that’s it. Tired by midday. I have my first appointment with a therapist in one week. I keep vacillating between whether I should go or not. I have these periodic attacks of anxiety and periodic feelings of intense sadness. When I’m in these moments I feel like I’m experiencing life as it truly is. When I’m not, I feel like I’m in some kind of coma, sleepwalking through life.

>>14429466
He was there sitting on morning on the bus stop. The usual shade was giving ground away to the sunlite, in a senile attempt to stop its reign from crumbling. The phone, warm already, was the only thing keeping his hands comfortable. And he only had one sentence in his mind, as if to keep the rest of his body hot: "Nice butt".

>>14431045
>Her name was Sabrina. She was a high school freshman living in a Midwestern town, living with her divorced mom

for some reason these type of girls were the most bitchy women i had encounter in my life, sadistic manipulative bee queen bitches, fuck them

>>14437803
>I hate being home at Christmas and seeing old friends. It makes me miss them and wish I could see them all year ;_;

what a faggot lol

This is part of my LIBERTY series teacher

28/12/19

It was a dark and stormy night, I entered the local Beaner Bell to get away from the greasy rain coming from the local Chinese mystery meat shops downtown, the air was so full of grease you could almost smell it turning to soap. Unfortunately in my rush to open the door I touched the handle with my bare hand, the touch of beaner juice mixing with sweat residue made my skin crawl and inside I held my hand at a distance as I took note of my surroundings. 6 shebeasts and 2 whales conjugated near the front of the desk trying to order something from the menu of unidentifiable Mexican “Soul Food” that surly could never come from the mind of a White man in its deadly and mysterious concoction. A gang of Mexicans huddled in a corner speaking their voodoo like mixture of Mexican Spanish that I could only identify as a literny of insults, curses and black magic. Dark forces seemed to emanated from them and I quickly closed my hears to their spells as I looked for something resembling a napkin or a sink.

As I walked up to the desk I was summoned my the worker drone whose head was connected to a mainframe than insured all workers where achieving 100% output for the company. I asked for coffee and she/he/it handed me some frothy, sugary muk that looked more like dog puke than anything I would willingly imbibe.
To my left the shebeasts were having trouble with their order, apparently the shebeast did not like the taste of her mocha, choca, pro-immigration, pure sugar, melon flavoured, goy latte and was attempting to get a refund, for which could not be given as drinks are, to anyone’s chagrin, not for resale.

Then the white shebeast turned to me, seemingly I missed a queue as she then stomped her massive elephant leg and trumpeted before commanding me to do something. I shook my head which seemed to be not what she wanted. I could hear the squelching coming from her head, as her overtaxed sugar encrusted brain worked over time to figure out how to respond to my disobedience.

The squelching increased, faster and faster as her eyes shot up deep into her head, the veins pulsing across her forebutt like head and steam slowly rising from her ears as she commanded the poor slave in her skull to work for her. Then it came, the squelching stopped, her eyes came back to level only to find, I, nowhere in sight. I wise man once said, best to disappear when white shebeasts are near. And so at this revelation to my non-existence, like a child, she instantly forgot me saw the drink in her hand remembered her anger, bellowed like a beached whale and then like a bull in a china shop began to hit, kick, scream, shout, bite, tear, scratch everything and everyone for the unfair universe she inhabited that dare not do as she commanded..

>>14429466
I have SZA, PTSD, and gender dysphoria. I don't understand how I'll ever be a productive member of society.

it's 4 in the morning and i'm tired of always being the last pick

Every time I get a decent amount of time off work I ponder quitting my job altogether and living the neet dream

>>14430341
As long as we're talking insaneposters mainly, well, not really. They're after masculinity, and nothing but adding more pro social terms to the consensus of masculinity will help them. Of course, that kind of stuff runs against their ideology too so it's somewhat hopeless.

Do you guys also experience great highs after reading and thinking about stuff until reaching a moment of total clarity, like you suddenly feel like you at least understand everything (or sometimes nothing)? Then crash a few days later into a very short depression where you feel like an idiot and that everything is pointless, only for it to repeat again in a couple of weeks? I don't know if I'm making any progress or not at this point.

>>14440222
What are you reading?

>>14436591
Dude same. It's great.

I was infatuated with her for a bit, then by a stroke of luck we got together, and she loves me more than anything, this I know for sure.

However my raging narcissism rears it's head when I'm not looking. I slightly resent her past, I like getting attention from other girls, that kinda shit. But I understand myself, and I got the reins on my stupid impulses, so I love her more than anything and I'm happy like I've never been

>>14440245
Mostly reading about philosophy stuff but also about various other cultures old and new. Currently reading about the history of art throughout ancient civilizations but I just started that one. It's seems that the thoughts about my own life and how it seems so limited and shallow compared to the kinds of lives and ideas that have come before me that bring about these experiences the most though, which I guess makes sense.

I hate vanity and it's infectious forms it takes. Why do people not act like humans and take the form of vanity to create their identity? Pursue being a human being.

Here's what's on my mind: I have something I want to say and I want (You)'s for it but this thread is already 275 replies in. Nobody will read my post. I'll just have to wait until this one reaches auto-sage and someone makes a new "Write What's On Your Mind" thread to make my post, because only then, if it is near the OP, will anyone pay it any mind.

>>14440293
How is vanity not a part of being a human being?

>>14440293
isn't rejecting vanity just another identity you create

>>14432662
Ok coomer

I've spent the last two days writing a Highschool of the Dead fanfic. It's already more than 20,000 words long.

>>14440533
post it

>>14440538
It's not done yet.

>>14434342
That deserve it, yes.
The rich are killing people now. Today.

>>14440295
I read your post.
XOXO anon

It amazes me how people I know still consider me a normie despite of my schizoid personality.

>>14434342
The namefag is a troll, just ignore him.

How do I know if I should break up with my gf? I haven't seen her for a few weeks (we live in different cities) and I think I feel happier and less stressed without her around.

>>14434188
based

>>14436339
Based.

Environmentalism, perhaps environment-preservation, would be a nice threat to rally behind. Problem is its politicized. To take the anger and spit out of that topic is a monumental upheaval, and bashing at it head-first with science would only worsen the problem, I feel. Logos vs. Pathos and Ethos, etc.

Though I think there is some sort of movement like that going as a sub-current in the world. Electric cars are on the up especially in China, Hydrogen technology is on the up, there is a "waste free"/"organic" movement in the food industry, human fitness has been rising since the 60's. So I think as a species we have become more mindful of our bodies firstly, secondly our surroundings. I've been to Beijing and Guanzhou a couple of times, them cities are packed with trees. There's a term in Guanzhou that translates to "No uncovered dirt patch". And this is coming from the fuckin chinks. More can be done though.

My generation of zoomers, at least the normies that I know, seem to be environmentally minded at the end of the day. Not many kids my age seem to think global warming is bs, are just unsure of the science of it, and quite honestly can't be fucked to form an opinion. They default to what everyone else their age says, which is shit's melting and we gotta do something about it.

>>14440968
If you can, meet her in person. It's not good to break up over text or a phone call. If you can't, try to make it as respectful as possible. Tell her what you said in her post, unironically.

thought this could make my fellow kings smile, and luckily there's always a thread for what's on my mind.

What do real women think when they see hot waifus such as Bulma?
I believe they know how desperate we are for some thicc ass and nice pussy. In fact, this is why they are so cruel to us, when we try to impress them.

Women can be coomers too but instead of porn they rely on The Clit Paralyzer 9000.

Kubrick should have made a Star Wars movie

Which books will increase my sex drive?

>>14441780
My diary desu.

>>14441786
Post a preview

>>14429466
How do I know if I'm in love?

>>14441916
If you cant stop thinking about her

>>14441916
When it happens, you'll know.

>>14441960
About them. Please don't assume someone's gender or sexuality.

Hello Teacher! My story for today is finished!
Its called, Glow in the Dark

A Day at the FBI

I woke up early in the morning, jumped out of the dog bed my wife made me sleep in last night,, coated myself in glow in the dark paint, Government issue, poured myself some healthy Captain Jacks cereal with two slices of toast and a bowl of pasta, as per the food pyramid, grabbed my standard issue NerfGun, single bolt, unloaded, detached trigger, as per the new laws that kept Amexicans safe from the cartels and black rioters who regulary showed their anger at the unjust system of oppression that stopped them from getting past the fourth grade.
I collected my mail and instantly signed for a new law that would make school noncompusotry and would award the higgest grade for having your name in the school system so that we could right the wrongs of the previous generations who kept coloureds down with strict unfair merit based education which was just white supremacy in written form.
As I stepped outside I said Hi to Jef from next door, he was an architect who had a wife and two kids, Sarah liked painting and his Son David liked football. Of course I had never actually spoken to Jeff, I knew all about my neightbours for seven blocks because I can hack information through the electrical singles given off by their electric toothbrushed and I have their Amazon go “Buy your own Wiretap” directly plugged into my phones instantnews app.
Then I got into my oneman car bubble, inserted my privilege card which dicatated how fast my car was allowed to move based on my skin colour so that no Natural Born Citizens could be singled out for always being late, which in itself was a racist, bigoted stereotype created by white supremaNazis.
I was 1 hour late as my bubblecar parked itself the furtherest space away from the building entreance and proceeded to alert every 10 mintues that this car belonged to a white piece of shit for at least a few hours so that I could receive equal amounts of crime.
I finally got to the building and said hi to the Technical Mapping Analysis Ping, our National Security Analysis Pong, the National Boarder and Customs Manager Paco and our Gay Ops Manaager Levinstein GoldShit.
Lev was always breaking my balls about Gay Ops, he always wanted me to fill him in on any Gay Ops possible around Iran, Russia, China, South America, Palestine, Iraq, Europe, New Zealand, TurkaDerkastan, or anywhere it would make life better for The Only Democracy In The Middle East™
If I ever complained he would say Im Boomer shaming him and he would threaten me with his powerful Chinese lawyers to subpoena Google for my bank records to check I wasn’t storing too much money abroad.
So I booted up the Government standard Issue Windows 95, inserted my privilege card which made the computer freeze, shut down, start up and then bluescreen and then make me play games for 2 hours before I could get to work ,I opened up the Gay Ops folder and opened up...

>>14441974
Part 2

I opened up the Gay Ops folder and opened up one of the many wire taps into different countries Amazon Go devices.
I had to remember to send those highly confidential files that Ping, Pong and Paco requested, then I logged onto 4 chan and Fed Posted for about 6 hours before my computer shut down and exploded.
As I left work it started to rain, I had to do some field work, one of the 4Channers fell for my Fed Posting so now I had to go and grab some C4 from downstairs and give it to him, then I had to catch him in the act, these days though it was standard protocol to just do nothing as it normally played into our favour and got Lev a bigger check at the end of the month. Anything for the Chosen People™. I went to Churhc everyday where I would donate 50% percent of my wages to Israel to help support 3rd generation Holocaust survivors buy their third house along the West Bank and help fund Peace Rockets to fire at Palestine, with Peace Bullets to fire at terrorists.

>>14441965
Sorry, I dont listen to skeleton trannies who cant lift 50kilos and kill a man with their bare hands. Please go to the gym and get a real life, stop filling your boring life with shitty gender science which is a total farce.

>>14429466
I wish I could stop thinking about the political implications of what I write and just admit to myself that I want to make cool shit happen on paper.
I want to write war stories, but then I get bogged down: are the good guys really good? are the bad guys really bad? if a poor shithole invades a "normal" rich country, surely there's a case for sympathy on the basis of their material deprivation, and so on and so on. It's all perfectly fine and logical as it goes, but the problem is I don't actually care. I can't repress the line of thought because it strikes me as a moral issue, but I'm not setting out to write war and peace: I just like military hardware and want to wordwank about it doing cool shit without real world consequences.

It doesn't help that people will always contrive increasingly demented ways to read things wrong anyway, so even if I was able to write the most moral military masturbation the world has ever seen someone would still contrive a way to imagine it was actually saying the Iraq war was a good idea. this is all arrogance anyway, nobody will read my boring words. that's the worst part: my delusions of grandeur are that a few people on the internet might like what I write. that's it. even if they all became massive war hawks arguing only for immoral wars, it would change nothing. zero. just more weirdos on the internet saying more boring words

>>14441965
Shut the fuck up

>>14429466
Bulma dummy thick no way vegetas little cock pleasin that bitch

>>14442214
Isnt that Maroon?

>>14429466
Her ass is flabby and she probably had cellulite. 2/10.

>>14441960
What if that's just infatuation? I have a girl who I always feel like speaking to and listening to.

>>14439704
>This is part of my LIBERTY series teacher