/lit/ - Literature

Hey anon,

Get a grip on yourself. How dare you give so much weight to the past, when the only weight that matters is the present.

Past circumstances, attitudes, and patterns are not permanent. They are habit-forming, sure - but the only way to improve is to focus on the present and actively remove yourself from environments that allow your past patterns to persist.

You have the power to remove yourself from habit whenever you want. The hard part is replacing negative habit (either physical or mental) with positive (or even neutral) habit.

Change your environment. Go cold turkey on the old you. See what happens.

>>14098317
literally me so my diary desu

>>14098317

shut up you faggot. start stacking little things in your favour and compound-interest your way to success. grab life by the balls and make it beg for mercy.

>>14098317
>>14098322
He's right Anon.
I hope you can throw away the behaviors and habits that no longer serve you and get new ones that will guide your new interests of reform.

As for the book rec, read pic related. It's got that an hero feel.

>>14098317
Don't kill yourself because God has plans for you bigger than you can imagine!

From your post I can read you have gone through much suffering. You've had downs, but I know you also had ups (however small). You have doubts about your intelligence but you are definitely not the least bright person I've ever encountered. In fact, you show introspection which is a sign of brightness! You get mocked by other people which is a shame! Realize that the people who mock you aren't perfect either. You seem to struggle with certain sins (porn) which all can be overcome! All people struggle with sin! All these things can be overcome, you can find happiness and meaning!

Stop associating with past mistakes, current sins/vices and look upward to God who is able to guide you to glory! God loves all of humanity and want's everybody to thrive! DONT kill yourself because God has a plan for you bigger than you can ever imagine! Ask Jesus Christ to save you! His Grace will uplift you, transform you!

>>14098317
Well you can either come to the realisation on how easy it is to die, and then put yourself in a situation where you can't walk it back even if you wanted to
or you can make efforts to better yourself continually. Relapsing on day 3 doesn't matter as long as you buckle down and go for four next time.
The most important step is not the first but the next.

If you're truly committed to death just go swimming in winter and swim out as far as you can. Eventually you'll get too tired to turn back and drown. Life isn't for everyone and you don't have to force yourself, just square your affairs away before doing so. Pay back what you can or feel you should before taking that last journey.

>>14098317
It's obvious from your vocabulary alone that you're not 'too dumb' to get a simple job nor 'too low-IQ' to have (realistic) goals and aspirations.

If you are really short and ugly, then you'll probably have to settle for a woman that is also short and somewhat ugly. Keep in mind, however, that women weigh resources more heavily vs. looks than men do, so if you can get yourself into a decent economic situation you may do better than you think.

If you were severely autistic, you wouldn't even give a shit about romance or being liked (at least that's my experience of true autists). My guess would be that if you got into a cycle of success instead of failure, your social confidence and graces would increase with practice (not saying you'd ever be a chad, but you could be passable and perhaps even charming in your own idiosyncratic way).

I think you're salvageable; the very fact that you're self-aware enough to post this (assuming sincerity) suggests that you are. If you disagree, then try pic related... He will teach you both the simplest way to live a good life, but also why death needn't be feared. Be considerate anon, don't leave a mess and do minimize the potential trauma to others.

Life isnt fair.

>>14098317
Start to put in some work in your life faggot. Don't be a even bigger pussy and kill yourself

You're acting like a sooky child. You say you can't have this because of that, but never take into account that you have the power to change your own circumstances. But you're happier to blame the world for your short comings than shoulder responsibility to become better. So you lie to yourself and say you're trapped. It feels comfortable, doesn't it? But what could your life be if you decided to take on responsibility?It can be so much more, but you need courage. Stop lying to yourself, you don't have to be pathetic.

Bible

>>14098317
First of all stop making this sad faggy threads, filthy attention whore. Second, remember
>Childhood and poetry! How ephemeral is the first and how deceptful is the second! Childhood is butterfly, hurrying to burn its wings in flames of youth and poetry is almond tree: its flowers are fragrant and the fruits bitter.

>>14098317
I barely function as a human being, I'm an aspie schizoid with selective mutism. I barely passed high school with the lowest gpa average in my class. I have panic attacks over dumb shit all the time and come into conflict with others more than I get along with them. My first job was cleaning stables and I let all the horses out because I couldn't remember something as simple as locking a gate.

I stuttered through an interview, got another job, and now suffer through daily waves of discomfort among people I can't even understand and continually agitated by situations I cannot control. It helps when I can read Dostoevsky or Proust on my lunch break and dig in when I get home. If I can stomach this for years on end I think you can at least start with getting your GED.

>>14098322
fpfuckingbp

>>14098317
I was in your shoes once OP.

Get the fucking GED. Do it. Do it now. Then enlist in the military. I promise you will learn things, get life experience, and maybe even get your dick sucked. By the time you get out you'll be able to go to college. Fucking do it you big dummy. I did, and lookitmeesir! Up at 6am eating beef stew and talking suicidal manlets from the edge.

>>14098322
>>14098317
>How dare you give so much weight to the past, when the only weight that matters is the present.
"Your reputation always precedes you"
"It takes a 100 good deeds
to forget 1 bad deeds"
Bam, blown that self help shit out of the water with some real talk. Most people will know about you before you interact with them, whether you're known as the missing step on the stairway, to be tolerated but avoided when possible, or your known as Chad McThundercock due to the past actions you have done around these people. You'll never forgive yourself for your past actions, and others whom you've wronged in the past will never forget either.

>>14098317
me desu

>>14099080
just move you fucking faggot

>>14098317
Holy shit anon, you're basically me EXCEPT for

>too ugly/short/autistic to ever have a woman be attracted to me at any given capacity

Because of that exception I was able to attract and marry an orthopedic surgeon who owns her own practice. We've got hundreds of thousands of dollars in savings and I've contributed almost nothing. Guess she just likes having good looking guy to take out and be Mr. Mom. I'm not complaining otherwise I'd be in your shitty situation right now. Good luck!

>>14098317
Go start lifting and get /fit/