/lit/ - Literature

>>14027531
Short and to the point. Always present is the tone of "you're just talking out your arse though".

My inner monologue is more streamlined and to the point. I don't like to mess around with trivialities. Examples are:
"Dayum, that shits fucked up."
"Fuck you clowns, imma go get pizza."
"Whoa, that chick is ugly as fuck."

Don't indulge them. If you self-narrate in your thoughts, it spirals out of control. Also, there is evidence that subvocalizing has an actual response in the vocal cords, which means there is a remote chance you could could blurt out it by accident.

I have tinnitus too but I'm not going to stop listening to loud music until I'm completely deaf because I'm a retard

>>14028943
I also speak random thoughts out loud probably due to sustained LSD and other psychedelic abuse totally many hundreds of trips and roll experiences. I don't consider it or the peripheral visual hallucinations to be a real problem because I'm in control and know what's going on but I'm pretty fucked up. Stupid fucking jam band music.

I just keep on firing non stop questions and try to answer them or slowly build nental imagery for a certain scene I think is cool

>>14027531
It drifts between posh and aristocratic to frank and working class.

>>14027531
It tells me to run over glow in the darks

My inner monologue shifts uncomfortably between the past and present tense.
Right now all I hear are Doors songs.

>>14027531
Mine depend on what language I`m using at the time.
Pretty messy to handle when you know 6

>>14027531
I'M SO FUCKINGF HORNY AND LONELY
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK
SHIT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>14027531
I just go around thinking 'nigger' nonstop and sometimes I'll imagine anime girls saying 'nigger' back and forth between each other I don't even know why or how it started but it's pretty much all I think now. I mean, say I'm just sitting in a chair and to all appearances I'm just looking around like normal but in my head I'm just consciously repeating the word 'nigger nigger nigger' in a monotone, steady pace.

If my mother asks me to help her unload the dishwater I'll say, "sure" but I'll be thinking 'nigger' and as I'm putting the spoons away I'm aware of putting the spoons away but it's constantly just 'nigger' as I look at the spoons and 'nigger' as I close the drawer and 'nigger' as I open the refrigerator to get a glass of milk.

The anime girl thing is actually how I've decided to deal with all of existence even if they aren't saying nigger but like if I'm reading something (still thinking 'nigger' all the while as I read the words that aren't 'nigger' on the page) I'll imagine all of the characters as cute anime girls. So Raskolnikov, for instance, is an anime girl in my head. And Dante's Beatrice is an anime girl and Dante himself. Yeah I guess even historical figures like Plato or Augustine I imagine as anime girls as I'm reading their works.

But when I'm not reading it's just 'nigger' and sometimes two imagined anime girls saying 'nigger' back and forth between one another in my mind.

Even as I was typing all of this the thought 'nigger' never reached surcease.

>>14029390
It seems like a certain someone has Abstract OCD

>>14028943
>there is evidence that subvocalizing has an actual response in the vocal cords

Can't wait for the technology to exist to be able to literally read your mind by analyzing your vocal cords

>>14029390
Same but replace "nigger" with "kino".
I wish I was lying but I'm losing my mind.

>>14027531
I used to have one but not anymore. Is it possible years of depression have damaged my brain? Or is it being online so much?

>>14027531

How long do I have to keep this up? If I left, my family would be okay. It would really hurt my girlfriend at first, but in time should would be better off. Eventually she would see it. My mom would never forgive me but everyone would understand. I can't catch the dragon, how am I supposed to beat it? I can just zone out again for another week, make it to Friday, take a few more pills and be some semblance of happy. Or tomorrow I could just go to the top of the tower and jump off. Pretend I could fly until the ground wakes me up.

I reckon I'll push forward a little longer. If I wait long enough something will do the job for me.

>>14027531
I sit in mutual silence with my inner monologue

>>14029430
no, i think the brain just goes through periods of change over time. what books have you read lately?

Your inner voice is just a part of your brain. Like a really close twin. It doesn’t control speech but communicates with your other side of the brain lightning fast, sometimes with complex thoughts.

i just constantly think of music. literally every second of every day im thinking of a song

>>14028962
fucking same here, sometimes when I'm talking to my friends it feels like I'm blurting out my thoughts uncoordinately

>>14029545
I get a brief little tune every once in a while. Too bad I forget them

>>14029390
same only i say cuck

>>14027531
i mostly just think about all the people who wronged and betrayed me and ruined my life. in a chronological narrative, over and over again.

>>14028947
i have tinnitus but i dont think its from listening to loud music. i honestly dont care as long as it doesnt get worse

>>14027531
>What's your inner monologue like anon?
Subtle, and lucid.

>Is it influenced by the style of whatever you're reading?
No. The amount of energy that is required for externalization/subvocalization is inversely proportional to that which is required for internalization/imagination by way of simply listening to one's own consciousness whilst reading. This is moreso the case for stylistic enactment.

>>14028933

Your inner dialogue is shorthand niggerish.
Best to fix that before your skin darkens

I have dialogues in my brain. I like to explain to my friends about books I'm currently reading, or movies I just watched. I pace back and forth through my small apartment engaged in a heated conversation in different languages depending on which friend I'm talking to. If it's an argument I win most of the time, but when I don't it fucks me up for days.
It's much more interesting this way, because irl none of my friends care about literature or movies other than the latest blockbuster. So these dialogues in my brain help stave off the loneliness. I'm not lonely, I just don't have anyone to really talk to.

When I'm in public, I repeat dialogue from the plane scene in The Dark Knight Rises over and over again and try not to chuckle. When I'm on my own, I don't have an inner monologue.

Schizophrenic paraplegic retard with no comprehension of the state of (((reality)))
I find myself more intuned when im a lich in a screen fuckking insulting people over their dullminded dogshit.
Spread the psychosis but it doesnt spread like a mindvirus, like a political idea a philosophy its not, its something higher up the ladder but the ladder is broken and the splinters form a vision of the future.
A future of no knowledge of what was nnot even the upper rulers know what once was, the past is equally closed as the future and the present moment flutters in non existence.

The most common phrases in my inner monologue:
>I don't know and I don't care
>Whatever, who gives a fuck
>Let them live their lives
>Yeah, stop right in the middle of the sidewalk faggot

>>14028943
How do you not self narrate? Do I teach myself to think in pictures?

>>14029390
Same but with women desu

>>14028943
>Just stop thinking

>>14029732
Lol this

>>14029939
It’s actually really reassuring to know other people do this. I have more imagined conversations with my friends than real ones. Usually about politics

I think exclusively in dialogue. My thoughts are always directed to someone, usually within the context of some grandiose thing where I'm being interviewed because I'm a person of note for whatever reason. If not that, I pretend I'm writing a reply to someone on some sort of internet forum.

Depending on the activity I either lean on self 1 or self 2 to do most of the "heavy lifting" if you will. If I'm playing a sport or something self 1 does everything and I simply act, but some tasks like washing dishes for example are much too menial, so I almost completely immerse myself in self 2, and get deep in thought. Also unless actively doing something or thinking, music is playing in my head.

>>14027531
Am i the only person here who imagines typing something out on imageboard before actually typing anything in?
There are so many things i want to write out, so many thoughts, but on less than 10% of that i really express here or anywhere else.

Should i start writing books?

>>14029434
Shut up faggot. Do some exercise and try to be as helpful a person to others as possible if you have no goals of your own. Faggot.

>>14027531
Lectures.

I give myself inner lectures.

I am pretty sure I'm not the only one. I always imagine myself giving a presentation in front of my classmates. This occurs quite often. Whenever I'm reading a book and find something that strikes me as particularly interesting, I rise out of my chair and start walking around the room, explaining it in a mental lecture. I often develop the concept, so that my lectures are not limited to répétitions.

When I think about my memories, however, I imagine myself describing them to some confidante, usually my sister or some friend.

I am always in a monologue. I can't think of a single type of non-musical situation in which there are no words going through my mind. Language is my way of experiencing things, any thing. Even food is accompanied by a monologue, even sex. The *only* exception is when I'm thinking about music: then I can "silently sing", a whole movement of Beethoven and very few words will occur to me while I do so.

My inner monologue is the critic and rationalizer, alternately pointing out my hypocrisies and defending them. When I was daydreaming in church yesterday, my inner voice accused me of being a hypocrite but then defended me saying that hypocrisy makes life tolerable.

>>14030844
Of what kind is the inner monologue that accompanies you while eating food? Is it about the food itself?

>>14029390
anime pussy

>>14029390
God tier post

>>14028943
This is true. Found out the hard way. Can't seem to stop it now. :-/

>>14030844
it’s reassuring someone else has the same weird thought process as me, thanks anon

If you’ve ever read Hunger, by Knut Hamsun, that’s almost exactly what mine is like.

>>14029545
I do this, too. I make up songs but by the time I go home I forget. Sometimes I will record to my phone if I am alone at work.

Whenever I experience something, I take a concept from it and apply it to an ongoing story in my head. For example, if someone was acting like a child, I’d imagine a character (most likely an antagonist) with that negative character trait and imagine how they would deal with certain scenarios. Also, I look at real world events and imagine what it would be life if my characters were experiencing that situation in their own world’s way.

>>14027531
I feel like I rarely have explicit, linguistic inner monologues. And if I do they're lectures like >>14030844 .
Even when I'm trying to think of something systematically (STEM fag here) I don't think it explicitly, out-loud in my head. I just kinda stare and rumble until an understanding "pops" up in my head. This understanding isn't linguistic either, it's like getting a joke: you have no new linguistic information on the joke you just see it differently--you "get" it.
Am I retarded or a genius?

>>14029390
I can actually relate to this.

>>14027531
Read Eckhart Tolle's a new heaven and a new earth. You don't need these pointless thoughts.

>>14028962
>>14029651
Ive done the same thing. I think I have the stress/trauma of isolation + LSD really messed with my head.

>>14027531
i wonder how those feet smell, jk! haha! that would be so weird!

>>14027531

Meaning, not necessarily in words, but like a lukewarm wind that is as huge as it is gentle.

>see someone with an expressive type of face smiling
>think "Somebody stop me!"

>see male taller than 6'2"
>think "I said pick up the soap!"

>see woman taller than 6'
>think "Death by snoosnoo!"

>see a qt or Stacey near me
>think in a mock girl voice "Like, ew! He's not Chad! Get away from me creep!"

>see white woman within ten feet of black man
>think "Blacked!"

>see mundane object
>think "It's an [object] episode."

>constantly thinking "Dare I say it?", "What did he mean by this?", "Sneed", "Chuck" "Was it age appropriate?", "Braaaap!", "Imperious man mountain", "Quintessentially British!"

>see balding guy
>think "Look at dis doooood"

>see fat guy
>think "That's me after starting strength"

>see sad looking woman
>think "I only got fucked by ten Chads last night! Life on hard mode!"

>see guy smartly dressed in suit
>think "The Fisher account!"

The most annoying one in my head right now is something like "If your name is Chuck you should suck and fuck on the floor", to the tune of that really popular J Lo song.

>>14029390
Upper case NIGGER for most kino experience

>>14030343

Me too, I’ve actually just had an imaginary dialogue where I told my friends about my imagined dialogues and that I’m not only one who does it, so I’m not weird.
I thought this was normal, but as I see from this thread it seems to be rather rare.

>>14028943
Do you people actually not think in your own head? Are you retarded?

i'm not conscious of any internal monologue most of the time. when I focus on it i can "hear it", or when I'm writing, but otherwise it's like I think conceptually rather than in words

>>14027531
uhhhh it's basically oooh and aaah when I'm feeling good

and deep shit when I'm feeling bad

>>14029390
based

>>14031649
Why do you need to read your own thoughts allowed to yourself? They're your own thoughts right? Surely you already know them? When you were a kid learning to read and the teacher said "now do it in your head" she didn't mean it literally faggot. You actually never made it past that point you fucking anime poster.

>>14029457
None of what you said has anything to do with what was asked, nor can it be proven.

>>14027531
I wouldn't know, I suppress my inner monologue with music.

>>14030844
That describes exactly my monologue (except the music part). When i feel like im not quite grasping an idea or its disorganized i imagine myself lecturing my family or my friends.

>>14030844
>>14029939
>>14030429

I almost constantly have a constant narration/monologue that isn't exactly 'me', but the character 'me' - which will sometimes just exist as a thing thinking about things, and sometimes be a more well-defined character within a fantasy. Usually, I will be stuck on a particular issue or topic, and integrate that into either an imagined conversation with myself and other characters, who may or may not actually exist. Usually, I imagine my 'real-life world' becoming a spectator to my externalized fantasy, with the majority of the content coming from my imagined self and other fantasy characters, some of which identify as myself too.

It sounds pathetic, but to illustrate it's something like, imagining you're having a quiet dinner with your friends or family. Suddenly, a strange group of people enters the scene to either accost me or play with me, or act out some type of fantasy plot. Due to the strangeness of the situation, everyone but myself at the normal dinner are stunned into non-action. And so, I am free to participate with the fantasy without having to deal with what those real-life people would actually probably do. Sometimes, I get self-conscious of this and attempt to reconcile the fantasy with the simulation, which usually ends in the fantasy characters making fun of me.

Also, I listen to music almost constantly. Before, when I was in school or had a different job, and so couldn't listen to music constantly, I used to play music in my head. Nowadays its usually just words, often with visualized text and shapes, depending on the topic.

I also like to become not-sober and do menial chores while listening to music, such as doing the dishes or folding laundry. It's almost like a bare minimum of complexity actually assuages my anxiety and helps me to think clearer. When I think I often pace too, whether this is 'real thought' or fantasy. In conversation, I usually move my hands and gesticulate quite a bit - I feel it helps order my thoughts. I try not to do this when I'm not talking unless I'm absolutely sure I'm alone - I have in the past for instance caught myself muttering to myself very quietly while moving my hands, and I realize that looks ridiculous. I am scared that someone will walk in on me and think I am insane.

>>14029341
THIS IS THE END
*DUM DUM DUM*
MY ONLY FRIEND, THE END

>>14029408
Holy fuck that's scary. I can think a sentence and feel it twitching in my vocal chords. I never realised...

>>14033110
It is the topic
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Internal_monologue
Proven? Maybe not. But precedents demonstrated
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wfYbgdo8e-8

>>14027531
>What's your inner monologue like anon?
it's audiovisual, dialogue, places and things,
I'm not sure how to describe my style, but it's quite similar to the way I write only with additional thoughts of certain mental images.
I'll do a short stream of consciousness if that helps you understand. any use of ( example )
is me describing the image I have imagined.
Topic: Penguins (3D wire frame render of a cartoonish penguin slowly spinning)
How odd these creatures are, I imagine they'd wobble merrily if I were to push them, like buoys in a rough sea but unlike buoys they squawk. I want a pet penguin (toy sized penguin on my desk, scurrying towards my typing hand but is frightened by how my hand jumps from one end to the other while typing) a penguin as a pet would be tiresome, but I'm sure its fluffy feathers (large penguin lying down and me using a penguins soft a feathery belly as a pillow) and odd movements (penguin standing and flapping its wings merrily) would make up for any hardship.
End.

>>14028980
>It drifts between posh and aristocratic to frank and working class.
Londoner?

>>14031649
>he can't think in images
imagine your thoughts being bottlenecked by the constrained verbal centers of your brain instead of the relative information highways of the visual centers.

>>14029390
real advice here. try staying off of 4chan and other similar forums for about a month or so.
QQUESTION: What happens if you read something that has a lot of uses of the word nigger?

>>14034611
>imagine your thoughts being bottlenecked by the constrained verbal centers of your brain instead of the relative information highways of the visual centers.
do you think of songs as images?
do you think of shapes as sounds?

>>14031523
idiot

>>14029426
kino

>>14027531
Me: You’re a scallion—why are running? I’ve known of no scallions who run, and that’s because I’ve known of no scallions who have legs.
Scallion: Look up, toward the ceiling. Set me in the edge of your vision once again. See my legs?

>>14033234
I suspect nearly everyone performs true kind of inner fantasies or 'scenarios' you describe, I'm pretty sure even normies on facebook have memes of such things. But that most won't go into detail because as you say they sound pretty pathetic/cringe when actually vocalised. I'm sure they serve a necessary purpose. Same thing with whispering/muttering to yourself lmao. I was walked in on once kinda whispering to myself as I thought about some passage from a book, basically just thinking out different interpretations/angles, by a family member and was acutely embarrassed, because I knew how weird it made me look. Luckily it was a close family member and they seemed to understand what I was doing, but I was a lot more careful from that point on lol.

>>14027531
Disjointed and not terribly coherent unless I'm actively thinking about something, in which case it generally matches my speech patterns.

I’m schizophrenic so I never have enough time to have an organized inner monologue, it constantly gets hikacked

>>14029390
i first started reading 4chan when i was about 12. by 14 i got really obsessed with the concept of "irony" and tried to channel it constantly, until my thought process got really bizarre and i would repeat things like "nigger balls” and "i love shitting inside nigger assholes" in my head for hours, and i would get really paranoid, start seeing things in the corners of my eyes etc, basically prodromal schizophrenia. im now on antipsychotics. i always wondered what the kind of "ironic" style of 4chan humor was all about; i think it’s the unconscious leaking in to the conscious, what jungian theory considered to be the cause of schizophrenic and schizotypal syptoms. i would advise all people who "get" 4chan to be careful because that likely means you have a predisposition to a mental illness. peace.