/lit/ - Literature

>>13821288
>Be honest, this is you, right?
yes. been saying it for years now.
how do i fix myself bros

>>13821288
Not really, I've been skeptical enough to not think this way. For about a week I had a past-looking version of it though, where I tried to convince myself my real life had-begun, and that I just needed to keep linking each new day to the last. But alas, the books I read have more continuity than I do.

>>13821288
not at all. its more like
>tomorrow, my life ends
and it never does.

every night I go to bed wishing not to wake up!

>>13821327
Well, every new beginning is another beginning's end.

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time

>>13821288
According to TLP this is narcissism.

>>13821361
so fucking classic.

>>13821288
I've been saying this since I was 17, 8 years ago.

>>13821288
Well, yes, but I will change

>>13821378
If you could go back and try again, would you have done anything differently? Would you have done what you knew was best for you? If so, then realize that there are people who look back on your current age, and regret what they’ve done over the years. Someday you will look back on this time and either regret your actions or be satisfied. You choose which path you want to take now.

no, if you're here then your real life has faded and we're in the epilogue.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jGL1x40p46s
There's a better Kaiji quote for this but I can't think it at the moment.

I've been away from the grid for so long that I'd love to start but have no idea where.

Time is a human construct. We all live in one infinite day that spans forever, it just gets brighter and darker periodically

>>13821288
I see the people working
And see it working for them
And so I want to join in
But then I find it hurts me
Some say that knowledge is something sat in your lap
Some say that knowledge is something that you never have
I see the people happy
So can it happen for me?
'Cause when I am unhappy
There's nothing that can move me
Some say that knowledge is something that you never have
Some say that knowledge is something sat in your lap
Some say that heaven is hell
Some say that hell is heaven
I must admit, just when I think I'm king
(I just begin)
Just when I think I'm king, I must admit
(I just begin)
Just when I think I'm king
(I just begin)
I've been doing it for years
My goal is moving near
It says, look, I'm over here
Then it up and disappears
Some say that knowledge is something sat in your lap
Some say that knowledge is ho-ho-ho-ho
I want to be a lawyer
I want to be a scholar
But I really can't be bothered
Ooh, just gimme it quick, gimme it, gimme gimme gimme gimme!
Some say that knowledge is ho-ho-ho
Some say that knowledge is ho-ho-ho
Some say that heaven is hell
Some say that hell is heaven
I must admit, just when I think I'm king
(I just begin)
Just when I think I'm king, I must admit
(I just begin)
Just when I think everything's going great
(I just begin)
I get the break
Hey, I'm gonna take it all
(I just begin)
When I'm king
(Just begin)
In my dome of ivory
A home of activity
I want the answers quickly
But I don't have no energy
I hold a cup of wisdom
But there is nothing within
My cup, she never overfloweth
And 'tis I that moan and groaneth
Some grey and white matter
(Give me the karma, mama)
I'm coming up the ladder
I'm coming up the ladder
(A jet to Mecca)
Up the ladder
(Tibet or Jeddah)
(To Salisbury)
(A monastery)
(The longest journey)
(Across the desert)
(Across the weather)
(Across the elements)
(Across the water)

>>13821812
What kind of bullshit definition of time you got?

>>13821288
>>13821873


How do you think she comes?

>>13821288
Someone post that Kaiji pic

>>13821288
>>13821378
>>13821460

Any and all warning of this reply would have done nothing to change the fact that you're reading it now, this is what Death is like. From the God's eye perspective, none of our lives ever began.

>>13821288
Be honest, why do you ask?

>>13822051
If you think about it time is actually just the human way of measuring the decay of things. But nature shows that when one thing decays, another blooms

>>13822263
That doesn't answer my question and poor attempt at dodging.

Heeeeeeathcliff

>>13821288
Sometimes. Othertimes I think of life as cyclical and that I am living the same life infinitely as I am reborn and that makes me calm down and enjoy the now because it is both instant and fleeting and eternal and inescapable. Then I breathe more deeply the pleasures of now and accept the moment as it is completely.

>>13822321
Time is the fourth dimension and is an illusion of our own conciousness. To conceptualize this think of a flat two dimensional conciousness. Think of a little circle moving around and living on this flat plane. Then to conceptualize time as the third dimension imagine that this circle is actually a cylinder that is passing through the plane like a sheet. But this is not actually how it works. It is more like the sheet is passing across the cylinder. That is how the fourth dimension or time is in relation to us. Only within the engine that is our third dimensional plane and our conciousness combined is it even percieved as linear. We exist and percieve in relation to the moving sheet possibly because that is the only way conciousness can percieve because like frames in a movie if they were all shown at once they would be unintelligible.

Do drugs bro.

>>13821311

>>13822892
>dimension
what’s that?

>>13822911
Take calculus. Once you get to calc iii you start adding more and more dimensions and it helps you better understand how upper dimensions work.

>>13821288
No

>start highschool and immediately get into drugs
>by the time I was 16, regularly do coke and psychedelics
>grades are shit but smart enough to do the bare minimum to pass
>focus all my energy in painting and music, recorded some music and sold some paintings for money
>realize once i'm 18 that im just wasting my life trying to emulate 60s-70s artists and that i dont have any true friends and i've fucked up all my prospects
>spiral into paranoia and depression, dont even show up to school anymore
>somehow get my diploma and spend two years wandering, working odd jobs i can get my hands on, constantly daydream about what I would do different if God would just put me back 5 years in the past
>get offered a job as a fisherman on the other side of the country
>learn what hard work truly is, what true companionship is, loved playing piano for the mates at the bar after a long week of almost dying
>they always tell me at the end of the week that i'm wasting my time, they were born in this and will die in it, i have a chance to actually do something with my life
>come back to my parents and apologize for the hell i've put them through for the last 6 years
>signed up and went back to high school this year get my marks up so i could apply for a uni
>studied for the first time in my life and got a 100 on one of my math tests
>cried tears of joy and laughed at myself for wasting all those years not knowing it was so easy only if I were to try earlier
To anyone reading this thinking their lives are over and wish they could go back in time to fix their mistakes. It's never too late, you're future begins with what you do at this very moment. I wish you all a good life.

Sorry for the blog post.

>>13823101
that was beautiful anon; what wouls you suggest for 18yo you?

>>13821378

STOP

>>13821311

>>13823128
Nothing. Maybe tell him to become a fisherman earlier. The past two years were the greatest in my life and I wouldn't of had it without going through the worst.

>>13821378
Same, bro. We're together in this one. There's still time, let's leap forward into the world! Tomorrow our life will change completely.

>>13821378
Tomorrow for sure! Fuck this shit. I’m done with wasting my life in this digital purgatory. No more 4chan. No more shitposting. This is my final post.

>>13823101
18yo. What should I seek in life? Should I take a risk to be an artist or settle for stable life?

>>13823155
I read this and it really didn't impact me in any way whatsoever
>I believe I will live forever! *dies*
based Robert

>>13823304
Middle ground would reap the most rewards, Just never lose your artistic drive

>>13823309
are you "how do i fix myself bros" bro?
A basic understanding of human psychology does wonders to help people parse their own internal turmoils and confusion, and Leary's 8 circuit model is really solid.
But most importantly, it's a gateway for some really remarkable stuff. John C. Lilly, Korzybski, Milton Erickson, Gurdjieff, Crowley...
>>I believe I will live forever! *dies*
obviously these parts have aged like whatever I put in that tupperware in the back of the fridge years ago that I'm afraid to touch now, but I still find the optimism of the 60's and 70's uplifting..

>>13821378
I started saying it a while ago, actually did make some improvements but I'm still a virgin autist. We have to be content with what we have.

>>13823383
Where is a goof place to start with Crowley, anon? I looked up all the other's bibliographies that you recommended and they seem easy enough to navigate, but trying to get into Crowley always leaves me confused.

>>13823457
I wouldn't say I've gotten INTO Crowley, I've just picked at him here and there for practical things. "Magic: Theory and Practice" for example. Matter of fact, I don't recommend getting into him at all. Get into NLP instead. Grinder and Bandler.

>>13821661
came to post this

>>13821311
>mfw I've been saying it for nearly a decade now

>>13821661
Thats so soul crushing

WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH LITERATURE

>>13822227
The dragon is right though

>>13821661
Normally, those people would never wake up from their fantasy worlds. They live meaningless lives. They waste their precious days over nothing. No matter how old they get, they'll continue to say, "My real life hasn't started yet. The real me is still asleep, so that's why my life is such garbage." They continue to tell themselves that. And they age. Then die. And on their deathbeds, they will finally realize: the life they lived was the real thing. People don't live provisional lives, nor do they die provisional deaths. That's a simple fact! The problem... is whether they realize that simple fact.

>>13823645
Read more and you'll understand moron

>>13823674
OP isn't clearly connected to literature. Of course you can find books that deal with most any subject, that doesn't mean you should post about just any subject.

>>13822892
This post: The most uninformed, talking-out-of-your-ass, intellectually lazy content I have seen here on /lit/ recently, I'd rather have looked at yet another pepe/apu meme for the umpteenth time.

>>13821661
>>13823557
>>13823670
what is the fucking solution then?
what is the right way to live life?

>>13821288
No, I'm living my life right now- the real thing.

>>13821311
What are you going to do tomorrow?
Do it today faggot, do it or I'll come to your house and kick you in the dick. I believe in you. Someone in the world believes you have it in you. Go do it.

>>13823101
god speed anon

>>13823723
Be nice to others and do what you want

>>13823708
>OP isn't clearly connected to literature
It is, you're just 14 and don't understand yet. Go read more.

>>13823840
stop shitting up my board

>>13821288
i'm too neurodiverse to have a real life in this society. really, I'm on both outer edges of the bell curve at the same time. They cancel out to form the struggling 21 y/o autistic midwit that I am.

>>13823843
>my board
Ok, time for bed, champ

ONE DAY THIS WILL BE MY REALITY EXCEPT SHE WON'T HAVE RED HAIR
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5tFaqzecZR0

>>13823906
god i hate women

>>13823515
Thanks for the recommendations.

What hope is there for a 28 year old ugly beta autist meek charismaless loser male with no friends or social experiences since school, no female attention ever, who has never been to a pub, club, or party (all of these despite having many jobs and having been to university for four years while living away from home, and living away from home for work), and who is blackpilled enough to know that his ugliness makes his life extremely hard and, that fact, along with the knowledge that women and chads get everything handed to them, has killed his motivation for anything in life?

And who abhors wagecuckery, with even bare minimum 9 to 5.30 Monday to Friday work feeling like a prison sentence? And who has a job in London but he pays a lot in rent? And who isn't enough of a normie to be promoted quickly in jobs?

And who wasted all his free time on mindless internet browsing because he is so lacking in motivation?

And who hated his university degree and therefore squandered all intellectual potential?

And who is genuinely jealous of young people today and youth in general? And who is terrified of becoming 30 years old?

And who finds that everything except for mindless procrastination feels like work due to his zero life purpose?

And who is a genuinely zero friends, everythingless with women, except prostitutes, loner? And who finds being among people a totally enervating ordeal because they all look down on him for being an ugly beta? And who imagines the ways they probably make fun of him behind his back?

And who isn't stupid enough to have his entire life redeemed by having a job or going to the gym or through self help? And who can see the arbitrariness of all philosophical axioms?

>>13823101
>rejected true life for mediocre and meaningless existence

>>13823906
these are the types of videos you have to be in a very weak and hazy mood for in order to enjoy them. otherwise it just intensifies the loneliness cause u feel so pathetic for watching them.

>>13823940
Sick blog post bro

>>13821288
My parents destroyed all of my writings and diaries when I was 11. I distinctly remember the moment, at age 14, where I decided that I was going to stop moping over lost material and start writing seriously again, and how if I didn't start now I'd only regret it more at 16 or 18.

Last month I turned 30 and I still have nothing to show for it beyond a bullet point list of ideas and the rare cohesive half-page passage. My procrastination is the only thing saving me from suicide.

>>13823965
for me i feel the procrastination is really just the realization that you're not as talented as you think you are. To avoid coming to terms with it, youkeep pushing the confrontation, i.e. the writing itself, further into the future. This way, you can keep going through the motions of life, because "at least I'm a good writer", "I'm just doing this so I can have time to write in the future" etc.

>>13823985
fuck it, i'm getting the rope

What is today but yesterday's tomorrow?

>>13823940
The four noble truths:
Life is suffering
The cause of suffering is clinging and grasping
The end of suffering is the end of clinging and grasping
To end clinging and grasping, follow the noble eightfold path
https://www.dharma.org/resources/meditation-centers-and-communities/
ctl-f england

>>13824027
there is no end of clinging and grasping, stop the idealist bullshit

>>13824030
the end of clinging and grasping, is feeling like you're so on top of everyone and everything else, that you can finally relax and let go. that's the rat race, and there's no escaping it. maybe through psychedelics, but that's not a natural state to be in and those can really mess with your mind in the long run. alcohol can make you feel at peace in the moment as well, but that's even more toxic. The only way to get some temporary peace of mind, is to set a hard but possible goal for yourself, and attain it.

Eh fuck this shit.

Today I'm changing my life. Right now!

>>13821288
>tfw mental problems keep me down every time I try to improve my life

post more kate bush

>>13824274
Right there with you, just left my girlfriend and deleted Hearthstone. Now I'm ready.

>>13821288
Nah, I am accepting my real life will never be and am a subhuman piece of shit

>>13824498
Now go and read. Or else.

>>13821288
Im entranced with the beauty of this woman

>>13824554
She's not that cute imo. I've seen cuter

>>13824575

>>13824575
>>13824579
Like? Not her obviously.

>>13824581
Fais l'amour, célibataire involo

sounds trite but few people ever live lives

stop thinking of your life as "waiting to happen" and start enjoying the waiting period. there is nothing wrong with waiting - it is what keeps you waking up. if it consoles you, no one will remember you and very few people think about you when their mind wanders. if you haven't already been forgotten, you will be relatively soon

>>13824575
Kate bush is not "cute"

>>13824717
nous sommes d'accord, alors.

>>13823101
nice fic