/lit/ - Literature

>>13545880
But, you ARE God.

>>13545888
No, I'm not. I'm a normal human being and everything is perfect the way it is.

Hhahahaa
(it's a illusion, but who cares)

>>13545880
>All I wanted was to find a purpose in life. All I wanted was to find a meaning, to find God, to find happiness, not lose my sanity.
The Catholic Church is what you're looking for.

>>13545900
He said 'find purpose in life' not 'rape little boys'.

>>13545900
I've been there. I was a catholic before.
Can't go back now. I'll just try not too think too deeply about life.

>>13545880
>find
vs.
>make

Finding God isn't an easy task. It takes legwork and sleepless nights. But he'll be there for you. You're in this together.

>>13545919
Besides reading, what have you been doing?

>>13545880
When society itself is insane the only way to find truth is to dive into what society calls "insanity".

Also stop taking the drugs, the fact that your mental health took a turn for the worse after you started should be reason enough. Blaming it on thinking about things is retarded.

>>13545993
>Also stop taking the drugs, the fact that your mental health took a turn for the worse after you started should be reason enough

I WILL

Thanks, anon

I'll stop taking antidepressants
It made things worse

>>13545893
Has it occurred to you we're waiting to be saved?

Why do you think the world is so shit and you're brunting all of it?

>>13545996
antidepressants made me hypomanic, so you might want to watch out for that.

>>13545911

>>13545880
You are God but the I you refer to yourself as is not God

sry buddy you're already insane, but I'm insane too if it's any consolation. Living out in the woods won't work either, I've tried it.

I'm God too if it's any consolation, but that is cosmic consciousness welt an sich arena. Just because everything is connected doesn't mean that we could ever necessarily witness it however

Did you know that you live in different psychical realms and that you can lose your sense of self in them? Yes probably. Psychosis is proof that you can divorce from "REALITY" that there is an objective place upon which genes/memory is found. Perception isn't REALITY, even if it is "reality". Also, I think of God as a realm rather than an individual.

https://youtu.be/nrYgm5MML58
Start at 17:04 if you don't want to listen to it all but it's all great generally

>>13546417
(2/2)

Also, and I'm not religious, but I found praying to God helps in times of psychical disturbances

>>13545880
Same here, man. I just can't do it anymore. In my search for meaning I've become a sleep deprived, delusional, alcoholic. I've pushed all of the people I love away from me. Fuck.

>>13547263
Don't become physically dependent anon. The drinking works temporarily but the next day the anxiety will make you insane.

The most whacked out i've ever been was because of alcohol. the ups and downs are so bad for your nerves. I remember just crying and having panic attacks for no reason and this was before I developed a true physical addiction to the stuff. Once you become physically addicted to alcohol you won't have to worry about philosophical problems because you'll be to busy trying to get your next drink in you to think about it .

Hang in there friend. I'm sober now and have been for almost a year, but I know that one slip up and i'm off to the races. Bottoming out on booze helped me to find God.

>>13545880
Read Jung. He is going to heal you.

>>13547295
it's a tormented mess and im in the thick of it, but leaving alcohol never solves all my other problems, and girls are so much willing to take me when im drunk that i dont get how to go beyond it

>>13545880
Please share with us how philosophy made you insane. I am genuinely curious. Also please refrain from quitting your medication.

>>13545880
read don quixote.

>he hasn't yet reached panpsychic enlightenment
the sooner you recognize that your body is an object, that your brain is an object, and that experience can arise in inorganic systems, the sooner you become one with the grand consciousness of the universe and abandon all anxieties

>>13547496
This.

Also, you can't find meaning by reading books, books are there to facilitate your understanding. Meaning only comes to you when you go out into the world in search of it.

>>13547809
>Meaning only comes to you when you go out into the world in search of it.
What do you even mean by that?

>>13545880
Give it a read, one last book before plunging yourself into the abyss.

honestly a lot of philosophy is total garbage that confuses people if they take it seriously

>>13545880
I felt the exact same way after I read Thus Spoke Zarathustra. It was one of the first books I read when I started reading philosophy. Every night I would spend reading Nietzsche. My whole belief system tumbled and I fell into depression, something I'm still struggling with. Turn away while you still can. It's too late for most of us.

>>13545880
The cause of all your illness is malnutrition, no wild humans or other wild animals are depressed, the only other animals who get mentally ill are the animals humans keep as pets and the reason for all this is malnutrition. Once you get all the nutrients you need from your food your body will be able to create all the chemicals it needs to make you feel happy, at peace and strong. Then what does this nutrition consist of? animal protein and animal fat, preferably raw and unpasteurized. Do this and be as you are supposed to be.

>>13547877
OP here.
I read Human, All Too Human.

Nietzsche was onto something, anon.

>>13547520
(Don't) Read Nietzsche.

>>13546417
>>13546427
Yeah, man, everything is connected.

The more times u conquer crazy the more human u are and the better philosopher ull become

>>13547982
What book in particular?
Was it because it contradicted previously held beliefs? Or did it say something startling? Something you had thought about before?

>>13548182
>Was it because it contradicted previously held beliefs? Or did it say something startling? Something you had thought about before?

All of that.
It felt like he wrote FOR ME. It feels like HE WAS ME in a previous life. It's soo "haunting".

I read "Human, All Too Human".

>>13545880
You know too much, you have to die anon. It is trully over for you. Hell is awaiting your boipucci.

Friends, should I quit my medication (it's Fluoxetine) or should I keep taking it?
Perhaps, it's not the medication itself, perhaps it was because I took Fluoxetine plus another pill for anxiety. Maybe I should just stick with one. Without it, I feel too anxious and depressed.

>>13545880
>I started taking antidepressants, too
Kys

>>13545911
>being this brainwashed by libtard media
So we can pigeonhole all Christians because 0.00001% of them rape kids. But not wanting to ship in migrants en masse because blacks commit 50% the crime is racist.

Based

>>13548210
Man I wish a work of philosophy could resonate within me so strongly. It is an uncomfortable but important thing to find things out and follow them wherever they may lead. I hope you don't quit your journey for answers and that you get better.

>>13548228
I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of losing my mind.

>>13548243
accept the path of the schizo and become insane, go kill an arab

>>13547756
>your body
my, my, my. look at this retard of >>13547756. Amputate!

>>13548241
Friend, pls, help me here
>>13548227

I want my medication, but I don't know if I should keep taking them. I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of losing my sanity. I love life and I want to live life but I want to be aware of everything.

>>13548241
My life is very similar to Nietzsche's life, perhaps I was predestined to meet his great work. We've both suffered from similar (almost identical) problems.

Is psychosis lit?

>>13548278
Yes.

Do you suppose that those well educated in the ways of philosophy lead better than average lives and have better than average families and better than average everything?

Observe the philosophy student in action. Observe his mentor, the PhD laden professor. These guys aren't killing it.

Philosophy is questions, not answers.

>>13545880
>Philosophy is making me insane.
>I feel like I'm going crazy.
>I had a psychotic breakdown once where I thought I was God and ended in a mental hospital.
Better check yourself for schizophrenia and/or psychosis, these a clear warning signals

>>13548003
Am I wrong

>>13548640
No, you're not.

>>13545880
>>13545893
>OP doesn't know that he's a god

>>13545880
What were you reading?

>>13548664
Human, All Too Human

>>13548670
You were already suffering psychotic breakdowns and made to take antidepressants so you then went and read the books of a guy who had a nervous breakdown and died consoling a horse?
Why didn't you read the Stoics?

crazy people sometimes read philosophy, philosophy doesnt make you crazy. either read spinoza or read novels/poetry

>>13548248
Come on, even he had a lady that loved him deeply.