/lit/ - Literature

>>12555862
For some reason it's really difficult to find pure LSD in the states these days

>>12555872
That's what the dark web is for.

>>12555862
I have, and I’m pretty sure it fucked me up.

I have these strange melding of senses, but not in the manner you’d think. I tried to connect the dots and I think I’ve come to understand what’s going on. I have a larger than average vein in the area of my brain responsible for language and body awareness. There have been times where I’ve scolded people for being idiots and it has felt strange. I’ll give a metaphor to describe what I mean. I’m so aware of my body and what I have planned to say that sometimes I interpret my body as telling me what to say before I am cognitively aware of what something means.

Anyone else have similar experiences? Also, how do I fix this

>>12555862
I have. Still suffering from HPPD after 2 years. :/

>>12555862
i have and i'm looking to do more even though i fucking hated it

I have a couple of times, which was fun. About half of the times it turned out to be dud acid, which sucked and turns me off from the experience. I don't think it was anything life-altering. Just fun.

>>12555862
I have hundreds of times already, eventually I came to the realization that LSD was a beacon drawing me to esoteric and mystic literature, and that after a long period of studying and implementing the lessons of said literature I reached a state where every single moment from when I wake up in the morning to when I fall asleep (and even in my dreams) is more profound and interesting than the height of a LSD trip. I still have a deep appreciation and love for psychedelics but once you reach the supreme bliss they are a 'step down' from reality in a sense, still enjoyable but ultimately only an entrancing distraction that just confirms what you already know. I still like to partake of them on occasion, in the same way that select cinema on occasion can still be really profound but in the end all cinema pales in comparison to the profoundness of real life.
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>>12555899
>it's really difficult to find undistilled product
>use something completely unreliable to verify product quality

>>12555909
It's called autism.

>>12555964
As opposed to the always reliable and clean neighborhood crack dealer who bought acid from the dark net himself.

I kind of feel like, if it weren't for the fact that it would warp my soft, developing brain, 13 would have been the perfect age to trip. For the past few years I've been able to work myself into panic-level anxiety just being on my own and totally sober.

>>12555872
Just buy ETH-LAD or any of the other legal lysergamides

>>12555959
where to start with esotetic. litarature?

>>12555862
>LSD
>babies first psychedelic

>>12555966
Explain the rationale of your diagnosis, doctor

>>12555909
>Also, how do I fix this

more lsd

>>12556003
Anon, I don’t think that will do it

>>12556001
LSD didn't give you superpowers or some other shit. You sound autistic as fuck. Go see a god damn psychiatrist, not /lit/.

I dont want to end up like the Beatles
you guys saw what acid did to them

>>12556014
create incredible music?

can anyone compare the experience of taking lsd to dmt

>>12556008
All good here guy

>>12556025
more like ruin their music

>>12556026
>dmt
Condensed spastic Neuro mining
>lsd
PARTY ROCKERS IN THE HOUSE TONIGHT

>>12556042
>has to take an autism test to prove he doesn't have autism
Anon, I...
>>12556026
They're not alike beyond the fact that they're both psychedelics. Plus, both experiences are incredibly hard to explain. You just have to experience it.

>>12556082
JUDAS, SAY IT ISN’T SO!
I think I’m more of a schizophrenic than an autist if anything.

Just don’t do drugs, kids.

>>12555909
Sounds based as fuck

>>12556047
yeah i wanna hold your hand and she loves you yeah yeah yeah are superior to strawberry fields and a day in the life. obviously.

>>12556102
You know that feeling when you’re fucking a girl and you think you’re goin to nut, but the pressure keeps building and you start to surprise yourself since your autonomic nervous system is still holding on? It feels like that. Sometimes I say shit that doesn’t feel characteristic of anyone I know of have read of. I don’t mean to sound mastubatory, but it sucks cause it can fracture my personal relationships

>>12555862
dunno where 2 cop

>>12555909
>I have a larger than average vein in the area of my brain responsible for language and body awareness
Dude arteries self-regulate their diameters based on metabolic needs, a larger than average vein will do nothing unless it's literally compressing the nervous structure in which case it will decrease functionality.
Fix it by being less of a self indulgent navel gazing pseud.

>>12555986

The following list is a series of 10/10 gems from a variety of spiritual traditions pertaining to said category. If you come across words that you don't understand while reading them you can look them up online for clarification. If you still struggle to understand these texts even after doing that then you can look up what school of thought the text in question comes from, download for free on lib-gen secondary books about that school of thought written by academics/practitioners, read that secondary book, and then the text in question should make sense. This is a list of texts from half a dozen esoteric spiritual traditions, but if you study and reach a point where you can understand them well and utilize their teachings; then you will reach a state that makes LSD looks like childs play. I am completely serious. If you are fairly intelligent and well-read then you might not even need secondary books to understand these texts, but if you fit the aforementioned qualities it should only take you at a minimum 1 or so secondary books (if you even need them) to understand the texts, the time spent reading them is well worth the rewards one can reap from them.

https://realization.org/p/ashtavakra-gita/richards.ashtavakra-gita/richards.ashtavakra-gita.html
http://www.sacred-texts.com/isl/egt/index.htm
https://www.holybooks.com/wp-content/uploads/The-Origin-of-Western-Mysticism.pdf
https://archive.org/details/onehundredpoemso00kabiuoft/page/n12
http://www.anandavala.info/miscl/Avadhut-Gita.pdf
http://taisa.si/wp/wp-content/uploads/2013/12/Tao-Te-Ching-by-Jonathan-Star.pdf
https://terebess.hu/english/chuangtzu.html
http://promienie.net/images/dharma/books/longchenpa_treasury-of-the-basic-space-of-phenomena.pdf
http://www.sufism.ir/books/download/english/molavi-en/masnavi-redhouse-en.pdf

>>12555909
(arteries in the brain, I mean, although it happens to a less refined degree everywhere else)

I have done acid alone well over 200 times. Smoked deemsters on acid a few times (why the fuck does it smell like a payless shoes store), smoked deems with most people I know for their first time. Eaten grams and grams of MDMA, snorted tons of ketamine, huffed lbs of nitrous, have my own 20lb tank in fact, have grown boomers and harvested my san pedro several times ;^)

https://youtu.be/NeHrYNV1PwI

>>12556026
lsd: Harp noises
dmt: radio static at volume 50

>>12556224
Everything I’ve read about dmt makes me really want to try it once
>>12556206
Have you found that, having done acid that many times, the way you think has changed? Bacislly I guess do you feel like it has fried your brain at all?

>>12556206
fuggin druggo m8

>>12556180
Which of those works stand taller than the rest in your eyes

>>12556231
Yeah I see shadow figures/flies and flashes light in the periphery of my vision. I don't do a lot of drugs ever anymore, though I have a hit of acid in my fridge. Man I fucking love moe. Seen em 40 times. Phish and the disco biscuits might be better technically but famoely for life.

https://youtu.be/sNkUODB6huE

>>12555909
>I’m so aware of my body and what I have planned to say that sometimes I interpret my body as telling me what to say before I am cognitively aware of what something means.

the left side of the frontal lobe, or the top part of your cerebrum, controls speech. during an acid trip your brain has a total less blood flow but 90% of it is active in some way. More brain usage, but less over all blood. the part of your brain that controls speech has less blood flow and shows less activity while high, this explains why it is hard for people to explain what they are feeling or seeing when they are tripping.

Sounds like after your trip you are getting more activity there. take more acid and see what it does.

of course no one will know exactly what is wrong unless you get an MRI.

>>12556238
the first, second and seventh; in that order

>>12556283
Fucking normalfaggot. All esoteric nonsense is the delusion of satan. Run along and perform the LBRP, but first, watch this
>drinks 5 feet of san pedro in tea
>accepts christ as lord
Begone witch

>>12556283
Thanks, based esoteric poster

>>12556305
You should read the book of the law and the book of lies to realize how full of shit crowley was and how he wrote basically about jacking off and then maybe if you're feeling feisty track down a copy of melchizidek and the mystery of fire and then morals and dogma. The only way out is through. If you succumb you were a weak retard. This is what people like masons and rosicrucians and babylonian jews believe.

i have but i understand the hesitation. i was a shrooms only guy for a long time, acid has a scary reputation, then i find out acid is just like the fast food version of shrooms, cheaper, dirtier, weaker

>>12556316
Read crowley, indoctrinate myself and then read links related to shed said doctrination? I’ll play

>>12556318
>dirtier, weaker
Confirmed for never having done real acid. True LSD has a clarity and length that far surpasses mushrooms. You're probably a youngfag who got it in college or something? Regardless, you did NBOME. Reasonable mushroom doses only touch acid when you start eating more than 5 grams or eat them freshly harvested and wet before the pure psilocin degrades into psilocybin which your liver then has to reconvert

>>12556331
No, if you read it keep in mind these are very influential texts and how batshit they are. You will also find researching this that literal demonologists and hermeticists agree the name of jesus christ is extremely powerful.

>>12556305
you're welcome, good luck in your journey

>>12556374
I've hear this before by fundamentalist Christians masquerading as demonologists etc. Does anyone have an explanation for why Jesus Christ is such a powerful name when the Christian Messiah's name was Yeshua or Joshua?

>>12556398
Because it's all "chaos magic" same explanation as kek

>>12555872
>>12555984
Or just buy 1P-LSD, it transforms in-vitro to LSD

I don't want to because I'm afraid of frying my brain. I know many of my good friends who drop acid think I'm a pussy for not trying it, I just have zero desire to do so.

>>12556555
What's it like having an outdated propaganda mentality of the world? Did you know you can actually look up acid now and learn what it is and how it works and not rely on rumors that 15 year olds tell each other?

>>12556426
>misuse of in-vitro
I should start cataloging all the pseudisms.

>>12556555
You probably won't fry your brain, at least not in any catastrophic way, but you are not missing out on anything special. The experience is neutral at best, horrifically demonic at worst. I wouldn't recommend anyone do it and am ashamed that I used to shill it.

t. done LSD seven times

>>12556570
>pointing out a mistake on a 4chan

end you life immediately, you are worthless

>>12556623
lmao how you gonna get that past the irb mister science word scientist?

>>12556607
>neutral at best
lmao sucks to suck

>>12555862
Unreliable quality. Probably just some research chems.

I did and it showed me what a loser I was becoming, right after the trip I quit cigarettes, weed, lsd, videogames and ended ties with shitty friends and started exercising and reading books. 10 months later im back on the cigs and videogames, but the reading habit and exercise stuck with me

>>12556645
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prelest

hey LSD bros, is the world waking up? ive been shitposting on 4chan for more than 10 years and i dont remember ever being the amount of esoteric/gnosticism/etc threads, well out of /x/ i mean. Is the world ego coming into its mystic stage once again?

>>12556809
No? gnosticism was much bigger here a year and a half to two years ago. People were constantly shilling it.

Acid is an electric monster in your brain and IT DOESNT LEAVE

>>12555964
Buy a test kit retard

>>12556680
this happened with me too

>>12556775
>muh religious delusion
>this makes LSD "neutral at best"
Yeah sucks to suck. Learn how to do drugs *brandishes booze, weed, guitar solos and The Woods*

>>12556569
yeah you stupid fucking nigger I've read about HPPD and other shit on Erowids.
>>12556607
thanks for the input pal, makes me feel better about my decision

>>12556878
You've been had.

>>12555909
>d what I have planned to say that sometimes I interpret my body as telling me what to say before I am cognitively aware of what something means.

Sounds more like OCD delusion to me homie. I similarly developed trauma from bad trips & the common intrusive thought was it was drug related. Best thing to do is let that shit go instead of try to decide whether or not your experience of reality is normal or different from before you did drugs. There is only now.

>>12555862
>not realising that MDMA is truly what you need for inner discovery

Going to drop MDMA tomorrow morning alone in my room. It's going to be fun writing and listening to music and watching cartoons and smoking weed and eating. It feels like a therapy session with yourself, wholesome as fuck. Sessions like this helped me understand that I'm asexual and also deal with childhood traumas.

I also have some LSA that I'm going to do in a few weeks. Stocked up on anti-nausea pills so I should be fine. Last time I did LSA I was grinning so much my cheeks hurt the next day. It really does have a unique euphoria that's mild yet sinks down to your soul. Makes me feel like I'm in the happiest storybook. Actually prefer LSA to LSD. The intense visuals of acid can be distracting.

>>12556892
You have to be me for that to happen
>>12556893
It was worth it, stolen face and all. Some people become wooks or never get out though. Oops.

>>12555862
I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia and autism and sundry other disorders, drugs will probably destroy me and my fragile brian.

I did but it was my first time and I took 225ug and blew my fucking brains into the next dimension and didn't get a lot out of it. I did kick my sissy porn habit afterwards though. I've still got two tabs and a friend who wants to try it.

>>12555862
I have, I loved it and it changed my life for the better. I got to directly communicate with my subconscious. I wish I had more, though it's not something I would do often.

>>12557148
>I got to directly communicate with my subconscious.
Did you dance with it?

>>12555872
get to know some travelers, hippies or deadheads.

>>12557037
LSA sucks. The only time I ever got off on it I ate like 40 Hawaiian wood rose seeds and I had to smoke like 6 grams of weed and also eat macdonalds to not want to die. I did eventually like travel the universe but I have done that on acid too and it didn't fucking suck.

>>12557172
Actually, yeah, I was listening to Beethoven's 9th and we were inside the music together. It told me to stop taking my SSRI because I didn't need it and it was right. I was tripping in the dark and the blackness felt like a blanket of hands touching me, comforting me. Great experience, microdosing is interesting too but not as vivid of course.

>>12557183
Or go see phish, moe, umphreys mcgee, string cheese, widespread, aqueous, twiddle etc if you're too autistic to go to a dive bar. People will just walk by and pitch it too you.

>>12557205
To clarify you can just go to where a phish show is you don't have to pay their ridiculous prices they have a lot almost always. The others you will probably have to go inside the venue for drugs. There is probably a "bar" reasonably close to you that is more of a venue for weird acts.

>>12557187
>I ate like 40 Hawaiian wood rose
That's way too much for actual good seeds. 10 seeds is like 200ug of LSD. I took 20 and it felt like 500+ug and made me puke a few times amidst multiple ego deaths.

LSA is hard to do correctly. The best success I've had was crushing seeds and putting them in a teabag with some peppermint and putting that in my mouth for 10 mins. No nausea and just straight up euphoria.

I think the LSA vs LSD is a personal preference thing. I feel like LSA is way more introspective. Like, it makes me want to close my eyes and drift through my imagination, thinking about philosophy, myself and the universe. It also makes movies incredibly awesome. Really brings out stories in surreal ways. In fact, it makes life feel like a fairytale. I think it does something with the part of my brain responsible for narrativising, its just the story drug. LSD is cool, but it makes me want to go outside and explore instead.

>>12557227
>way too much
Don't tell me what to do. The only problem you should have with me eating a ten strip of acid is if you sold it to me and it's not acid because I'm going to be livid when I stop crying

>>12557141
>I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia
How'd you work out something was wrong? What were your symptoms? Did you yourself feel "normal"?

>>12557364
someone's hypochondria has been rustled

>>12556333
i've done acid like 10 times from different sources. it's possible i've never done "Real acid" but it's what passes for acid in my parts. and yes I do know it lasts like twice as long as shrooms but the effects have been much weaker in my experience

Ctrl + F, "Tune in, turn on, drop out."

>Why are there zero results?
Come guys, you're slacking.

>>12555862
psychedelics are vastly overrated for recreational use. nothing good comes from having your head in the clouds after a "transcendental" experience off of 100ug of some shit you thought was acid.

that being said, actual ego death can be a pretty life-changing experience if you're able to integrate back into real life. if anyone here is looking to try psychs, check out shroomery.org and grow your own

>>12555862
>

Fucking spiders everywhere.

>>12555909
Nope, I took some with my girlfriend and we went for a walk in the lake District. We climbed some hill and couldn't stop laughing at hone beautiful it was at the top. On the way down, we didn't take the path and walked through a wooded area, pretending we were in our own version of the Blair Witch Project, pointing at natural twig conformations and feigning fear (in hindsight, we should have recorded this).
When we got back to the town, we passed a cafe that sold chocolate-based drinks and deserts. My girlfriend ordered us a monstrous hot chocolate drink each (which was an ordeal in itself). When the drinks were brought over to us they were too sweet for out Acid-amplified tongues and being around people was making us nervous, so we left.
We bought some bubble bath and went back to out hotel room (which had a hot tub) and flooded the wet room with bubbles, then life went on as usual.

>>12558220
I find that mild doses of LSD (I'm talking 50 micro grams, sometimes more), have a good stimulant effect without really harming your cognition.

I've used it in situations where I'll be doing something stimulating which would be more stimulating if not sober (the last time I did it was on a trip to a theme park).

There isn't much, if any, psychedelia, but it's recreational.

>>12556206
based