/lit/ - Literature

Masturbation is a temporary lobotomy.

>>12158879
Why are you guys so obsessed with masturbation? I get the issue with porn, but Jesus...

>>12158886
That's actually stupid. Masturbation without pornography causes the same physiological effects as doing it with it. Pornography is what makes it become a habit in the first place by offering novel material. "Quitting" porn and still masturbating daily, you're just as stuck as before, if not worse because now you sabotage the imaginative faculties to conjure base sexual images instead of serving higher creative ends.

I'm sad that my drug dealer was arrested last night. But I'm happy because I might get laid tonight.

>>12158901
SIGH
Who said anything about masturbatng daily? Just don't be an autist about it.
Also, let's end this here before you post some study cell picture or philopher quote, or that screencap about loss of semen causing madness.

I've been in bed till 2pm, ate something. Now I'm back in bed. I've become a vegetable. Depression sucks so much

How do I escape the terribleness?

i'm a sick fuck i like a quick fuck
i'm a sick fuck i like a quick fuck
i'm a sick fuck i like a quick fuck

>>12158922
I know why you view it as such an anathema. Those practicing conventional "nofap" are the ones battling against arousal itself and are always in a losing battle, at best gaining limited pyrrhic victories. Against that, it does seem, and I agree indeed is, foolish to exclude the logical conclusion of the start of the sexual process to which the practice of total abstinence is ludicrous. I consider abstinence broken and over with the moment sexual frenzy overcomes the individual, masturbation is simply a rational consequence. Abstinence, if practiced wholly and in the total absence of arousing stimuli and thoughts is effortless. There is no unabating horniness or struggle that accompanies it; baseline sexual desire is markedly decreased. It gives such a state of productivity, conferring an almost superhuman amphetamine-like motivation, that even intermittent casual indulgence is a waste. Masturbation usually leads to more masturbation or sex which invariably seems to settle in habit. If it doesn't for you, that is great. Even if future habituation does not ensue, I postulate that there also is a hormonal rebound whenever abstinence is broken, meaning you're going to be indulging in it daily at least for 1-2 weeks so the "just once" is never just once and generally ends successful periods of abstinence. If people use abstinence tactically over several week periods rather than adopting it as a lifestyle, I feel it can still immensely benefit their lives.

Not a huge fan of black people 2bh

This is all a simulation, I refuse to believe I exist in such a world.

i hope i dont get tornadoed on.that coyote last night wouldn't go away,it layed down 20 yards away and stalked me all night i should probably get a slingshot so i can smite the persistent creature.,i ran it off a few times but got tired of it,i think if i could have put some hurt on him he would have fucked off

>>12159037
Don't hurt animals

>>12159037
Gus?

>Girl in chat thinks we need to overthrow the government
>Buts also that we really need to overthrow capitalism
>but wants to give everybody basic needs which she than says that if we needed to expand the government to do so than we should

???

>>12159030
Yes. We are watching and recording your responses and occasionally giving you clues as to the artifice of your life. Sometimes you'll hear a unique and particular phrase spoken aloud that you only just were reading, or a seemingly random number will have a sudden significance and reappear frequently in your life. Sometimes you'll see this exact experience referenced in media, usually in the form of mockery

That's us trying to reach you

You already know what you have to do to stop it

>>12159071
I know what I must do but will I meet my family on the other side? Are the people I see, the people I love really just coded phantoms?

What if the other side is worse?

>>12159013
YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING HOE

For a few hours I forgot my own birthday.

I can't bring myself to study. I wish I were in a coma.

>>12159163
I want this feel.
>>12159164
I have this feel.

>>12158875
I guess I didn't do a very good job, but if I'd known I was doing anything I would have prepared better.

Movement, anything, give me a sign
I'm choking and can't die
The demons are as clueless as you and I
How are you I'm fine

>>12159313
If they can see you clearly you're not above them
It's the clouds that make you exalted
If you can't see the stars right now you never will

>>12159323
The bottomless pit intrigues the novice, but the mountaineer knows that what makes the depth isn't the fall but the impact
You need strong legs to die

>>12159337
The gods' secrets are painful
So first sleep with the pigs and learn theirs
Lest you get blinded by the light and lead on by the devils

I think I'm a fundamentally angry person. All of my greatest achievements were motivated by anger, and a desire to defy or surpass people around me. My moments of biggest failure, too, were ones in which I was incredibly angry and did terrible things because of it.
During my teenage and college years I repressed my anger, thinking that I should be soft and kind and gentle. But it still seethed under the surface, and I was terrified that I might slip up and lash out at someone. I don't want to be afraid of myself, and after breaking out of the progressive paradigm I no longer hold a feminine personality as my ideal. I don't want to lose control of myself, but I don't think this anger is inherently bad. I'm going to allow myself to be more angry from now on, and I'm going to channel that anger into good and productive pursuits.

After a while you can kind of just take confort in knowing you were never going to become much of a person. This seems to cause major concern and even anger in others when you address this about yourself directly for some reason

>tfw winter depression already setting in
>tfw angst reaching new levels at the prospect of graduating college
help

>>12158875
I friction burned my forehead by sliding in my bed.

>>12159389
>He gets depression in winter
You southlings amuse me

>>12159405
How does one "slide" in bed? Is your bet at an angle?

The only reason I don't kill myself is my cat. I look at her and I remember that without me she'd be lost and alone. We are always together. She's 5 years old.

>>12159350
I suppose you can relate. I have a bit of a temper too. But I wouldn't describe it as anger more than a kind of neutral combativeness. It feels very important to me that I stand up for myself and set the record straight in all cases and instance. That I don't back down from a just fight. This is a vital aspect of my personality and without it I would be much less of a man.

>>12159381
It's not true, but that's not why it bothers normies. It threatens their ideology of self-determinism and equity (which, to your credit, are actually impossible to achieve according to the value systems that most people unconsciously adopt).
You should examine some of your definitions: what is a person, what is success and failure in being a person. I encourage you to redefine words before you admit defeat. Remember this anon: it's not you who's crazy, it's actually unironically the world that's gone insane.

>>12159042
>>12159054
no

touch, touch, touch, touch

>>12159455
Hmm, combativeness is a good word. It's definitely centered around conflict. But I don't seek out conflict, I just thrive in it. And I also get passionately angry about the things I believe in or people I love, even if it's not in direct contradiction to anyone around me.

Hmm, seems we have that in common. I don't go asking for trouble. But as I see it, I have been dealt a litany of wrongs in life, and anyone who tries to add one more to that list is in for a world of hurt. Emotionally and intellectually in most cases, but if need be physically.

>>12159598
>>12159560
Meant to reply to you

Don't just let it get you bent out of shape or cause you to be petty. I can control it now but as a teen I was off the walls. I was actually a little dangerous.

>>12158875
I saw a very cute ginger on the tram then I got sad because I was once again confronted with the fact that I will never have gf, which also means I'll never have a family. I would really love to have a ginger waifu to give me two ginger kids.

>>12159389
How can we help?

>>12159612
Aw. Why do you think you will never have a gf? What warrants such pessimism?

Goddammit why can I never remember surnames? Why the fuck do so many of you have to be called David too? Genuine Jewish conspiracy there. FFS I wish phone books were still a thing so I could process of elimination this

I slept in the fucking park

>>12159855
cool

>>12159847
I've always hated people named David and Andy.

That's a great album.

>>12159904
I think I've only known one Andy. I know five billion Davids, all of which have nicknames because there's too many of them. I shit you not but the first day of college, two different Davids introduced themselves to me as
>I'm David but everyone calls me Bob because too many Daves
There're so many they're taking over nicknames for other names. That said, all of them are very nice.

You're right about Andy though. He was a dick.

"Oh god, why am I wasting time", I tell myself for the 10th time, and then continue browsing internet

>>12159952
You're not saying it to yourself, you're thinking it into empty, unresponsive space. Don't flatter yourself.

Unique races that might go extinct soon.

goddammit baked chickpeas are delicious AF

maybe I can survive another 3 months instead of 2 months. was gettins seriously bored of canned beans

>>12159847
I used to be decent at remembering names but over the last few years that skill has just gone. First names and last names, as well as place names. I can recognize faces and places just fine, but what they're called? No fucking way.

Consummating with a creature from another world is not breeding, its masturbation.

How am I simultaneously lonely but not? I just find almost everyone some combination of boring or obnoxious. And upon being reminded of this, I realize how happy I am to have myself and how little I really need other human beings.

Not to imply I think any of this because I am some kind of hyper intelligent gigabrain. I probably just have crippling autism.

>>12159904
Davids are fine but I've never met a Joshua who wasn't a cunt.

>>12160125
You guys are all wrong, it's Nick's that are pricks.

>>12158922
>Who said anything about masturbatng daily?
Everyone who's been willing to discuss the subject, from my own experience.
I don't know if any study has been done, or how useful a study on this would even be, but daily masturbation seems far more commonplace than occasional masturbation.

>interact with a black guy
>he's needlessly rude and standoffish

>>12160133
Nate I hate. Ricks make me sick. Also Zachs tend to have a piece missing.

>>12160411
>asked for direction by a black girl
>automatically say I don't know
>she replies "okaaaaaay", sarcastically
this fucking annoys me.

>>12158875
I love Andy

>>12160429
You can have him

>>12160411
>interact with middle-aged white guy
>he tries too hard to be chummy with me

>>12158917
good luck anon. rip to dealer

>>12158901
Masturbating without imagining anything is GOAT though. If you do it slow it's like meditation but with a happy ending.

i have entered the winter of my life. the rose tinted glasses have turned grey. a once vibrant life has turned dull, the saturation drastically reduced. the flowers don't bloom on this side. the leaves of trees have blown away with seemingly no promise of return. and i seem to have lost the capacity to care

>>12160458
>his life has ever been vibrant

mustve been nice

I'M SO FUCKING

the highlight of my life is when a woman smiles at me in public or makes eye contact

it only happens when I dont jack it though. and I jacked it today sigh

who /deranged/ here

>>12160411
>interact with a white boomer
>he's polite but you know he'd be up for torturing you if you damaged his riding mower

>>12160494
You can overcome the habit. I have faith in you.

>>12160460
it lasted about 3 months. longest period of happiness i've experienced in my 21 years and its gone

Im a loner now and one of my old friends tries to reconect with me on facebook and I just couldnt give a fucking crap. I realised that I never even really liked any of those people

>>12160519
>tfw haven't been happy for more than a day or two at a time since high school
I'm not meant for this world. I just wish I knew why.

>>12160538
>hes been happy in high school

I wanted to kms in high school and still do

Game of Thrones is terrible and I am the only one who can see it. Everyone else is broken, I am the only one with a functioning brain.
I have always felt smarter than my peers. I have always been the "outsider" who didn't agree with popular opinions or bandwagons. And I have always been proven right eventually.

>>12160536
Me too. Back then, I was just excited to have friends. But now, I wonder what I ever saw in them. Would rather stay home and read a book than hang out and do drugs, listening to shitty rap "music"

>>12160411

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMB SQUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!

>>12160546
so did I but I could get the odd week or half-month were things seemed ok.
also even if I was miserable I always had some inane hope that things could get better. now it seems things are almost certainly going to get worse.

>>12160547
I know anon, the series is shit. The fucking characters speak like in YA books. Even that savage speaks like any other person. I feel rage that other people cant see it but i also feel like maybe i am too reactionary or something. Maybe years of maiing fun of my father gave me a diagust for authority of any kind: popular opinions, teachers, etc..

>>12160546
I haven't been happy since I was 11 years old.

>>12160572
same

>>12160572
>>12160576
>tfw cried during our elementary school "graduation" because I knew on some level my childhood was over

I can't go on the internet without having 70 browser tabs open within minutes. It impedes my life. All my attempts to prevent it are somehow circumvented.

I need to use the internet to get shit done but if all I do is blink and suddenly I'm lost inside a galaxy of unrelated information I'm up shit creek without a paddle. I just need to close everything and start from scratch.

>>12160538
>>12160546
>>12160564
>>12160572
>>12160576
>>12160580
sending you anons hugs no homo. at least we have /lit/

I had a bad fallout with my faimly especially my brother and my dad, and today I thought how if my dad died itd be easier. Because now I have these thoughts that I should say sorry or reconnect with him, but I feel a mix of hate and pity towards him and regret towards myself, and if he simply died then problem would be over

>>12160593
The internet gave me fucking adhd. I would sit there as a teenage boy with my back straight and study a text book for three hours straight without moving. Now this shit is like some kind of dopamine high in which my attention is darting around like a squirrel. What the fuck happened?

>>12158901
ah yes higher creative ends, like posting on 4chan's /lit/ everyday

>>12160593
Right now I have, split between two browsers:
>a french play
>a lecture on quantum mechanics
>a browser game (fallen london)
>rilke's letters
>the tao te ching
>the bible
>an article on turkish coffee
>a recipe for turkish coffee
>an article on category-theoretic adjunction
>a french essay
>the wikipedia article for process and reality
>two bandcamp pages
>four active 4chan threads
>two archived 4chan threads I still need to copy info (book recs, etc) from
>five youtube videos
>a page of drawing exercises
>a pissarro painting
some of these things have been up for MONTHS
fuck me I need to get it together lads

Should I join this cult?

https://happy-science.org/joinus/

Not because I would earnestly pursue it, but as a kind of social experiment. I'd journalize my experience and sell it to Vice or some other edgy media outlet. I think it would be such a freakshow of an experience, and I haven't done anything fun like this in too long.

The entry level membership fee is just $10. What do you think? Should I become a Happy Scientist ™?

>>12160643
me personally Im in the chainlink cult on /biz/. Its nice, never been in a cult before this one

>>12160643
you'll probably end up suckered in and in six years end up arrested for planning an act of terror

>>12160651
chainlink is the funniest shit, please continue

At Happy Science, making a Happiness Planting offering is an expression of gratitude, and it is also an opportunity to practice “love that gives” which is one of the principles of happiness. The important thing is to have a pure heart when making the donation, not expecting anything in return. Also, offering is an expression of faith and gratitude to the Lord El Cantare.

>>12160651
Wasn't there this like fun little cult invented somewhere on 4chan? It was some kind of anime-themed sort of techno-futurist thing, about trancending your spirit into the digital universe or something. More some college student's web design project than anything.

I doubt my date will show up tonight. I have no reason to think she won't, but the thought is there nevertheless.

>>12160686
This is why I always arrange multiple dates at the same time and place, increases the chance at least one shows up and if multiple show up I just pick my favorite and feign ignorance towards the remaining.

>>12160662
>you'll probably end up suckered in and in six years end up arrested for planning an act of terror
Not if I bring a strap.

I cant imagine the possibility of going on a date. I just dont see the point of it

I dont want to have a family and I can always go fuck a whore if really need it

>>12160691
Nigga I barely got this one, forget multiple.

>>12158875
It bothers me to no end that I cant get Katie out of here. Its been 7 years since highschool and i kick myself on how i missed to be with a good looking girl who was fun to be around and didnt have the cunty american spoiled princess mentality. She was into me but i didnt see or i didnt care. Now it ends up being one of most regretted things i've done in my life.

>>12160703
yeah dude Im still in love with a bitch I last seen 3 years ago

sometimes I wonder if my family raised me right I would be strong and natty and going out, smoking a joint and banging a new ass every week like those other men are doing

>>12160703
hey it could be worse anon, you could have a had a qt christian /lit/ girl literally ask YOU out then turn her down because you panicked and your autism took over. hahahahaha I want to kill myself

>>12160703
I wish women wore long dresses, they're so beautiful.

>>12160684
That's called accelerationism

>>12160684
You mean Tsuki/systemspace?

>>12160703
I wish I could lay down in the woods like it was the 1800s again without ticks being everywhere as they are today.

I'll be done with infinite jest in 50 pages and I really, really really don't want it to end. I started reading it something like a year ago. Not long into the book I knew I liked, it, him, and I started listening to his interviews all while feeling very ambivalent about feeling inspired by a guy who eliminated his own map. One reason I've been slow to pick up the book is that it makes me very sad to think of him. A week ago I listened to an interview his sister did about what he was like, and it made me feel somewhat at ease, so I went and swallowed 300 pages and now I'm hugging the thinning pages with dread. A good book is like getting a friend. So it's nicer when the author isnt dead, let alone dead by suicide

>>12160828
Looks like I'll have to pick it up. You convinced me anon

>>12160828
I kinda feel the same way about Hemingway

>>12160844
Hemingway was an asshole though

>>12160871
So was DFW.
Also DFW was loaded. Two rich professors for parents. Never had to worry about money or real struggle his entire life.

>>12160876
>rich
>professor
were things different back then?

I thought about getting a pizza tonight from [fast food chain] (not going to advertise for them). This is going along with my earlier thoughts of convenient consumption. I'm hungry. I can either get a pizza which takes quite a long time and give into the craving or make pasta at home. Just carbohydrates, sauce, and cheese, right? That's all pizza really is. I only ever get mushrooms and spinach on my pizza so what is the point? I have both here. And cheese I can put on the pasta.

I'm trying to lose some weight too so the calories in the pizza are not ideal. I know I will eat the entire thing too since I'm starving. It wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't eaten a large amount of pinto beans for breakfast.

I will not be getting a pizza.

Just who the fuck is this person?
Idk 3/4 of what is going on online

>>12160903
some far-right (former) twitter commentator or something, I don't fucking know. Why they fuck would you ever use twitter?

>>12160903
Laura Loomer, a talented and brilliant young Jewish journalist who is known for exposing the conspiracy behind the Vegas shooting and for sexually harassing and stalking young men. She was banned on twitter for attacking the new Muslim Somali congresswoman from Minnesota, so Laura decided to handcuff herself in protest to the Twitter building in New York as part of a stunt to portray her banning as motivated by anti-Jewish animus.

Dog bless America :DDD

>>12160882
If you were part of faculty, yes, especially tenured faculty like his father.

>>12160738
No it literally isn't, fuck off.

>>12160918
>>12160943
I thought the far-right hated the jews
>sexually harassing and stalking young men
She's cute tho

>>12160959
the far right just like the far left isn't a unified front
that said I think a lot of the far right would put her to the wall given the chance

>>12160943
>exposing the conspiracy behind the Vegas shooting
Is this a thing?

Is there a tinder-like app for making friends? I just want someone to go to the gym with then shoot the shit with afterwards.

>>12160979
there's a conspiracy for everything anon, the internet let all the untreated schizos talk to each other and it's destroyed any sense of coherent reality

>>12160980
Enjoy your band of low IQ hooligans who are probably sodomites.

>>12160983
I can't tell if you're talking about my app idea, where you're probably correct, or going to the gym, which is patently incorrect because "just get ripped bro!" is the advice given to every sad young man and gym populations reflect that.

>>12160982
To be honest anon, after MKULTRA, I don't doubt anything about the americans

>>12161005
oh no there are definitely real conspiracies, some of which nearly approach the level of "the shooting was faked by soros using holograms and false-memories!"

>>12160979
Yes, you can look on her blog/site to read about it and some other people covered it too. Despite her being sort of a joke she actually does document how there is some super shady unexplained stuff going on and Vegas police been caught lying several times about stuff.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCxpF4ehABk

starting to think creativity is a really rare trait. at first i thought it was my intellectual interests that set me apart from people and prevented me from wanting to spend time with them but i've since realized this is not the case. even the people i share common intellectual interests with still come off as boring and uninteresting. i love having discussions with them but they very seldom if ever generate new possible connections. meh its probably because i go to a shit school.

>>12158875
my mother my mother my mother mein mutter my mother is a bitch and polygons do not belong in high school textbooks. my high school was filled with strange ones, the guys youd see and stare straight up towards the golden gates of heaven itself they were so large. their cocks too. oh boy how many cocks did i see in high school. bathrooms, locker rooms, under the staircase that one time with jack from creative writing... wait, what? sometimes i confuse dreams with reality and they mainly are mixed together when it's something like my mom saying the earth isnt in space and i can't remember--did that bitch really fucking say that? then again, my mom said a lot of things when i was a child that were absolutely unequivocally bullshit, like when she told me she quit smoking that one time, then that other time, and the following 16 times after. i dont know where im going with this so im ending it here.

>>12161059
do you dream of cocks?

>>12161005
MK ultra was originally German and is used throughout the world.

>>12161049
In the same boat as you bro. I know for a fact I’m not the smartest in my major, but it seems like everyone who is above my level isnt even interested in it. I know I’d hate to have a conversation with them simply because I have it in my mind that they really don’t care about it enough to have an original perspective.

I decided to cancel my home internet connection because I'm a pathetic addict who needs to go cold turkey to break the habit, but now that I've only got a few hours left before it shuts off with the new day, I'm really worried.

>>12161371
Download your favorite porn video before it's too late

>>12160641
You sound like an interesting dude with great taste. I hope you beat your procrastination

>>12161371
good luck anon
I'm pretty sure you can download the whole of wikipedia, that's something I'd definitely want if I was cutting off my internet. Wikitionary too.

I'm so melancholy. I know it's remedied by shutting it out. But I can't right now. I should be happy. I've got the best friends in the world, and I'm taking good care of myself. But I can't stand being alone right now. I keep staring into the light at the end of the tunnel. Which to me is death by suicide

>Beauty is another's good

I'm writing a personal narrative / novel thing, it's a collection of a bunch of short sections each describing a moment in the last two and half years of my life. That period was hugely confusing for me and had wild highs and terrible, literally-suicidal lows, but it was very important and formed me into who I am now. There's no overarching plot, each scene is just a description of what's going on and how exactly I was feeling at the time. I've always been autistic enough to view my life as a narrative, and I've been struggling with not wanting to let people and places and times go, so I figured this was the natural way to gain some closure as well as immortalizing the experience, in a sense. I have no idea if it will have any literary merit at all, and it sounds really pretentious once I write it out, but it's very important to me and I'm going to write it even if no one reads it and it makes me the biggest pseud on earth.

>>12161595
I've already got some dictionaries (digital and also an old multi-volume one), and wikipedia isn't going to be much good to me I'd say.

>>12159062
Don't take her seriously, anon. It's just a woman.

>>12160554
based

>>12161714
I remember the fist time when i smoked weed i started crying because i tought about my memories and how i was slowly loosing them. Now i have a diary.

I woke up super depressed today, now that it's getting late I am in a good mood all of a sudden.
Even when I think about the thoughts that brought me down it doesn't change my mood. Not sure why.

Life is shit and I want (51/49) to die. Nothing new under the sun. Monotony is accelerating the numbness. My world is so small. I wish I had some LSD right now.

the iceberg split of time that i have had sucked up my urethra and cant piss out im almost blind with diabetic joy to think about anything other than food when youre truly hungry i feel like ive missed out on my chance to be outrageous or at least it feels its made in a good direction its better than any of my brain all the time a biblical prophet am not permitted to have a mundane love life but that i must enact the fairy tale of the united states detroit mi and that furthermore i would help rebuild the temple in jerusalem dedicated to lucifer the daemon of mankind along with that ive had third degree burns before so it wouldnt even be a big deal its not even for pseud cred as a cook at some park and there nothing big but i could just go around having

>>12162226
Run on sentence written by a low IQ individual on some sort of psychotropic substance.

Diagnoses in chronological order:
Autism
ADD/ADHD
OCD
Anxiety/Depression
Bipolar
Gender Identity Disorder
Schizotypal
Psychosis
Schizoaffective

WHAT THE FUCK AM I

>>12162248
Full of shit

>>12162258
But I'm not. I was actually diagnosed with all of those things at different times, by different people.

>>12162263
Nah, you're fucking lying

>>12162264
Suit yourself asshole

>>12162270
I will, you lying fuck

>>12162248
A victim of sexual excesses, both by your parents during your time in the womb followed by yourself some many years down the road.
Tolstoy said it was immoral and an affront to nature to engage in copulatory relations during pregnancy. Look at wild female animals. They refuse to be mounted when pregnant.

>>12162277
I'm a virgin

I'm never going to get over her. I after finally getting rejected I would be able to move on, but instead it's just solidified in my mind that I'll never find anyone that meets the fantasy I had of her. Fuck me. I've done everything. I've exposed her flaws, she's not that cool. I've forced the situation to a conclusion, it's not happening. I broke contact with her, six months now. I recognize that I never loved her, I was only infatuated with a fantasy. I've tried to open myself to other people. I've focused on myself. It's not fucking good, she's still there, every fucking hour of the day. She's burned into my brain. I can't let go because you know what, it's all I fucking had. The crazed delusion that this girl liked me and that if I could be with her everything would be ok. I'd be able to care about things and not want to kill myself constantly and accomplish something. I'd be happy. How can I give up that up, no matter how pathetic and insane it is? I'm N O T H I N G without her. I'm only defined in relation to her. Even now. I'm so fucking pathetic. You could maybe try to justify this shit if we had actually had a relationship, but no. I'm crashing my life over a girl who MAYBE thought I was cute three years ago and since pursued because she would talk to me every day (no one else has ever done for it), compliment my art, and invite me to do things. I took what, to anyone else, would be basic human kindness, and, because of my fucking autistic lonerism, spun it into a whole cosmology. Fuck me. Gonna get drunk tonight boys. Blare edgy music until I can't hear. Imagine being brave enough to kill myself until I pass out. I'll never get better. Fuck

>>12162276
What was it that lead you to conclude that I'm lying?

>>12162281
don't get so bent outta shape over some pussy bro, chances are, if you actually went out with her, you would've hated her guts after a few weeks

>>12162285
Too much shit going on at once. then again, you probably have no reason to lie, but I know you are

>>12162293
Who said it was once? This was over a period of 8 to 28, so 20 years

>>12162287
that means nothing to the insane man I am, do you think I'm not aware of how fucking retarded I am? I can't help it.

>>12162295
doesn't change the fact that you're lying through your goddamn teeth anon

>>12162299
I swear on my eternal soul that I am not lying about the diagnoses. Though I think most of them probably had to do with my mom likely having Munchausen's by Proxy and coaching me on what to say to the doctors.

>>12162281
Honestly my man it sounds like the problems in your life don't have anything to do with the girl, and that the feelings you're having over her are a symptom/manifestation of something else.

Based on how you mentioned suicide it sounds like some depression etc. (Im sure youve considered this already).

Youre not a broken, fatally flawed being anon. Youre living in a broken society thats making you feel that way.

>>12162298
I've been here before too, bro. Shit is unimaginably rough, but I got over it by surrounding myself with people I hated and was able to drown my sorrow in a sea of boiling anger

>>12162301
not him, but drop it.

>>12162301
Here you go, fucking lying again. when this dude gonna learn

>>12162280
Masturbation is included under the umbrella of sexual excesses.

ok listen, guys...

i dont smoke
i dont drink
i dont masturbate
i dont commit crimes
i dont do gay stuff
i dont sleep in

i do my homework
i listen to others
i respect my elders
i do chores
i work
i make friends

i just wanted to get that off my chest

>>12162313
Why?
>>12162314
You would suck at poker.

>>12162321
This nigga talking about a fucking card game.

>>12162248
A fantastic example of the depth and complexity of humanity and the shallowness and simplicity of modern psychiatric medicine.

>>12162320
Whats it like?

>>12162337
It's good. To be honest, I'm trying to manipulate you into being a better person with network science.

>>12162347
Ah, so its like propaganda then? Not only are you a boring waste of space but you also have a shit-tier agenda too

>>12162347
>network science
?

I forgot to eat again today
probably gonna starve to death

>>12162397
>literal sloth has access to the internet

>>12162351
Yes. Propogating. Propoganda. Like a virus. Like what you're doing as well, even if unintentional.
>>12162358
Social networks. I'm spreading the contagion of desirable social changes. People like to emulate their connections. You're connected to me as a fellow 4chan user, and I can influence you without you knowing. Example, if we all say we're smokers, then you might be influenced to think there's more smokers here than not, even though there might be more nonsmokers who you're just unaware of.

>>12162415
Too bad the changes you're trying to implement are dumb as shit

>>12162434
Think of something better then. I'm saving the world.

>>12162453
Bullying kids like you at the lunch table

check out r/PostNutClarity to see why nofap is a scam peddled by pedo priests who want u fornicating with thots to increase their flock

I have been writing characters and stories to keep myself company and give me something to do since I was a child. I keep doing it even now, even if I am way past the point of it being normal.

>>12162521
>postnutclarity
>dude have clarity for 5 minutes until the horniness starts back up 10 minutes later!!!!
I'd rather have clarity all day, thanks.

>>12162547
Revolving your psyche around your sex life is pathetic. Ecstasy is worthless. Always transcend.

this shit is fire as hell

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3cK30tFGyA

>>12160453
you mean with only imagining

>>12160728
i do
not a woman though

fuck yea George HW Bush fucking croaked, good riddance bitch, now we get to see all these faux woke news outfits like nytimes swoon over him and write about what a great guy he was since one of the "good" republicans not like trump, sickening, but at least he's in the grave where he cant commit any more war crimes

>>12162618
I want pics, tranny

how to get out of mental 'rigor mortis' and get rid of the physical discomfort and head pain that it causes?
in other words how to get rid of the headache from over thinking?

>>12159030
Fuck you nigga I'm real, you're the fake one

I'm reminiscing about this comfy cottage a relative of mine owned back in the day. When I was a teen we'd go down there, and sometimes my mom would leave me there by myself, to inevitably drink my uncle's honeyed whisky and smoke cigarettes as I read 1984 and wrote my story, The Town and the City.

The pens I had with me were in ridiculous colors, popping pink, electric yellow, neon purple. I don't know why but I wanted to write the story with these pens because it kept looking at it interesting.

Outside trees crowded in lazy, heaving bushels and the road, bumpy with foot-cutting rocks, was unpaved. Down the way was a path leading to the Lake. A lake as warm as piss except for the cool spots where in the blue darkness the small fish would sometimes dart in the corner of your eye.

The sky there was busted open, reeling to an infinity as fast as a speed boat. Yet in the hidden corners and glades were sleepy frog ponds, the echoes of children, tiny fairies.

I remember the solemn majesty of the night, the echoing silence of except for the murmur of an insect choir. The musty taste of the beer I would drink as I stared up in wonder at the universe buzzing and drunk with me in the milkyways above.

>>12162628
have you tried not thinking?

>>12160106
I enjoy the idea of being a social person more than I do being social

>>12161371
I didn't have internet for a year in 2015. After a couple weeks you just forget about it

>>12162628
Work out if you don't, or you're just dehydrated...

The irony that after finally climbing out of depression all my writing now blows...

>>12162619
Oh shit I didn't know this happened. I agree anon, fuck that guy. My family is going to celebrate that faggot thrown in the dirt

>>12162358
https://ncase.me/crowds/ fun intro

>>12162674
yeah i try to take naps every now and again

I have trouble distinguishing reality from other realities. In 6th grade there was a minor concussion which might've been the origin, or my origin. My memories seem either false or completely absent. I'm a body snatcher with amnesia.

I met an e-girl claiming to be 21 and mute. I know this is a common strat for faggots pretending to be girls, but does that phase really last till you're 21 sometimes? I know mine ended at like 15. Or maybe she's also lying about being 21. Fuck.
Bros I need your help, how do I find out whether she's really a girl? Are there trick questions that expose shit like this?

>>12163079
Dreaming of Babylon by Brautigan.

theres a russian qt at the bookstore with her mom they look very similiar
i can only understand a couple words such as russian for “book“
tfw no russian book gf

>>12163330
Fuck finding out, make him/her read Nadja by Breton. See what that makes them.

>>12163359
Novel with Cocaine, my fren

>>12163362
what does this MEAN

>>12163365
Smile at her, tovarisch. ;^)

>>12163386
god i smite me from this fucking earth
im gonna die alone

It turns out I'm good at stand-up. I went to an open mike night with a long time friend and I just went up and did it. Mind you, it wasn't 100% improv; I have a writing app I open to log not only one-liners and longer jokes, but also one-liners of the more serious variety. I burned through my material and took to improving by involving the crowd, asking for names, their jobs etc. then working off what they told me and it worked. I'm not tooting my own horn when I say I was the best in the house.
I'm not going to say it was one of the best experiences I had, hell it's not even top ten really, but it was fun. I intend to go back come two weeks from now and see if I can find recurring success in making laughter. Hopefully I can use my darker jokes and I won't alienate too many people.

>>12159054
>>12162628
For an actual answer, read the rotation of crops by Kierkegaard

>>12163417
>gonna die alone
Everyone will. Doesn't mean you can't still have fun.

*googles something in order to feign knowledge during an internet argument*
Nothing personal, kiddo.

when you think about it if you have a 9 to 5 job you're essentially in some sick fuck's habbo hotel roleplay. everyone pretending they're doing shit and accomplishing anything meaninful at all when it's plainly obvious it's just an irl larp with basically musical chairs of scarce resources thrown in. the economy is pass the parcel dogshit with people dishing out natural resources they don't have any right to or claim on in the first place, and society is a pyramid scheme that everyone pretends is good like a giant yesman cult. the internet is a skinner box designed to milk you of intellectual orgasms which drains you and prevents you from seeing what a pile of shit your life is, if you totally unplug for even a week you will notice how empty and voided your life is without it. relationships as they are envisioned by modern industrial civilians consists of 2+ fuckups codependent and trying to fill the gaps in the other, chimps going around totally dysfunctional looking for a magic quick fix in another chimp with no utter clue. the entire food industrial complex is built around fat sugar and salt, and snarfign down as many cheeseburgers as possible before you need a gastric bypass. even 'health' foods is based on the industrial paradigm of what can actually be sold to you on a mass commercial and processed scale. paper money is good for nothing, except maybe to wipe my fucking asshole with. a complete scam system that has had recessions multiple times owed entirely to corruption in the highest levels of power that people jsut turn a blind eye to every time, a complete dogshit planet if i ever fucking saw one. the internet is the black stone, it is the death tech. we have almost reached the post game score screen. humanity is in last place.

>>12163607
based and redpilled

I come to find the reason I often get into violent sounding arguments with /pol/-fags isn't that I necessarily feel a need to protect the groups they're attacking. It's that I just don't like them. I don't like authoritarian stooges. Call me Captain America or whatever but it's not even that, I'm not consciously defending liberty. I just don't like people who think they have it all figured out when they demonstrably do not.

>>12163666
>666
Sure thing, Lucifer XD

Why do girls smell so nice? Have a girl who asked me to movies, go to gym to together. I asked her if she wanted to go out with me but couldn't say "it's a date by the way" like I had in my mind. God, if she just thinks of me as a friend I'd be disappointed. Why do I make a nice friend anyway? Always thought I was pretty lousy

>>12163666
CRINGE.
Authoritarianism is a spook.

>>12163607
Smoke some weed and chill

>>12163701
>why do I make a nice friend

because you're homosexual

>>12159026
gay

>>12159095

you are asking the wrong questions

seek the correct questions, then the answers will follow

>>12163607
Very good post

>>12163940
AHHHHH

>>12163607
just be yourself bro

>>12163666
Being hungry and without work limits your freedom more than "muh authoritarianism", Captain America.

My autism is raging and I'm trying to think up a little math problem. It's called guess who posted it. Basically you take the metadata of a 4chan thread and you try to mathematically deduce who posted what.

As of this thread we have 231 / 17 / 82 /, that's 232 posts/ 17 images/ 82 posters.Rounding up that means the average poster posts 3 posts. Clearly however, some posters posted more and some less than 3. Can you find out which? Is it mathematically possible?

First you would have to assign each individual poster p a subscript identifying them as an individual, so you have a set of posters P = {p1, p2, p3, ..., p82}. Each poster has a number of posts that "map" to them as it were, as in a one to many correspondence.

Of course right now the parameter of this function is the value of the variable we are trying to determine. But without any identifying information based on any given user it is hard to distinguish one anon from another. To do that you could do some kind of lingustic analysis to identify regularities in writing style that pick out specific users. Without that, I'm not sure you can deduce who posted what based just on posts/images/posters unless those values are small.

This is a cool problem because plenty of agencies research anonymity online and try to surveil this site. So it's interesting to me.

>>12163711
What are you talking about? We agree on that.
>>12164028
I eat enough, trust me. And being without work says more about the society and its failures of education and affordability than it does anything about me. I work as much as necessary.

>>12159016
How am I supposed to avoid these thoughts when they are conjured without any rational input?

Girlfriends friend despises me because she is aware that I mold her mind like clay. How do you not shape a womans mind, I don’t understand.

>>12164042
You would need to sort each member of class P based on some identifying characteristic in each of the posts. But you would need one more information or the problem is undecidable without trivial values. If you took the timing of the posts into account and perhaps even the "No." it might help the probability estimate. But you could also use binary search to sort those who use the oxford comma from those who don't, those who use British versus Americanized spelling, etc.

t. NSA agent

things never turn out the way I want them to, huh
I still have 50+ years of this shit?

>>12164081
You hiring?

jesus christ just give me a tall gf already. i'm a fucking manlet (172cm), the suffering is enough already and i don't want to pass it down to my kids. i absolutely demand a tall gf to dominate me and improve the genetic pool.

havent nutted since october 29th, feels good desu

When will my parents divorce already? My mother is an insufferable, clingy, neurotic wreck, and my dad is likely gay.

With one son fully independent, and the other on the verge of becoming so, there is no reason for them to stick together. The writing's on the wall.

I'm going to renounce the flesh. I may not believe in christianity but I'm a sinner nonetheless.

>>12164042
>>12164081
People rarely reply to themselves, that'd be your biggest tool

I'm worried that I may be developing and showing signs of Anhedonia. I seriously feel as if I am bereft of joy. Everything I try to do, as a "hobby" or even a more serious undertaking, just results in misery and resignation. I'm not sure if I even enjoy anything anymore.

>>12159037
i like this writing style. any recs?

>>12164608
watch one piece

>>12164632
anon -- collected 4chan posts
why hasn't this been done, you could probably make a killing off of the collected feels of this place

I am extremely shitty at making people comfortable and overall emoting. I just don't know how to be generally more expressive and charming. I can be okay when I'm comfortable but when I'm not, I'm a fucking autistic wall.

bum budum budum budada bum badadadum

>>12164757
hello me

>>12164470
i havent fapped it in a week but since im not really horny i probably nutted in my sleep still going to wack it tonight since its the weekend and you're supposed to get a nut off on the weekend

>>12164028
ever heard of EBT faggot? just because you blew your whole balance on scratch tickets the first week of the month at that shady paki bodega is your own fault commie brainlet

How do you grow a beard, literally just stop shaving? How long do I have to try it to know if it's ever going to look good?

this site is so dead im trying to waste time shitposting but all the threads are the same repeats from the last couple years, weak af content pham

>>12160711
tfw i know i will never get over my ex.
fuck this soppy life

Got a lung infection. Haven't taken a decent breath all day.

I should just delete my twitter idk why I still browse that shit, its just pussy ass women acting tough and "woke" and unfunny garbage.

>>12159026
BASED and REDPILLED my fellow kekistani

>>12165733
I've done this twice now but for some reason I keep returning like a beaten housewife.

OH SHIT THE PO'LEECE IS OUTSIDE MY WINDOW

THEY ARRESTING SOME HOOD RATS IN A VAN

>>12165733
I deleted mine but then made another one that just follows news and general people of interest for me. It's locked, has no followers and I don't tweet or reply to anyone. Anyway it got me past checking it all the time and getting buttmad at pointless shit. It's now just a listening post for whatever shit I happen to be interested in.

dissociating super hard again i want to stab myself repeatedly in the leg

>>12165807
what do you even do on it? I seriously don't understand the appeal

My eyes are going and the thumbnail of OP’s pic looks vaguely like a coiled turd.

>>12165327
Blame /pol/. It finally crystallized the constantly shifting board culture into what it is today. It feels stale because before the board culture that's been dominate in the last couple years would naturally shift into something else by this point in it's lifespan, yet this time it isn't. /pol/ is the final chapter that overshadows the diverse chapters before it. Everybody will only remember and talk about the ending. To make it worse, it even became the back cover synopsis to any new readers

>>12165901
Read. I don't even post on it often.

>>12160871
DFW was more of an asshole than Hemingway. Hemingway never beat his wives.

New York City blues
Melting pot of humanity
Cesspool of niggers and jews
Mind your profanity

Had a dream that my computer broke and I started crying.
Thinking of sending it in to the Black Mirror writing team.

>>12166004
Not a bad premise really. You probably do most, if not all, of your socializing through the computer. Watching a man collapse because of his complete dependence on a computer for something approximating human interaction would be kino.

>>12159282
>>12159313
>>12159323
>>12159337
>>12159344
me likey

>>12165957
I feel the same way. /pol/ is a disease killing 4chan slowly. It now feels like it's in its terminal stage.

>>12166084
I would get rid of my computer if people around me didn't also only socialize online. There's nothing to do in my town but drink, smoke weed, or drive 2 hours to the nearest big city. My town is car centric on top of that so I don't even have the option of just walking around the steets and chatting up people like euros or even 95% of poorfags around the world do. I wish I had a stoop to hang out on or a street to call my own with the neighborhood boys you grew up with. My only option for real social interaction is through work or school.

I would leave to a more urban city but unfortunately I'm American so they only real urban cities are insanely expensive, and the cheaper ones are exactly like my own town except it's more dangerous and I'm not also surrounded by wilderness and nature. I would leave the country but I'm afraid of being away from my family for too long and don't want to miss my little cousins growing up

Everybody says to find a social hobby and while I'm sure it works it just feels so artificial and desperate that my body and mind knows it's a subpar substitution for the real thing

>see dubious looking service online
>pay for it anyway just out of curiosity
>they cancelled it without warning or explanation
>send they were sending me a refund but I never received it
It's only $7.00 but I'm pretty pissed just out of general principle. If I file a claim on paypal, what are the odds that I get my money back?

>>12164089
I'm sorry anon, it only gets worse.

The only reason I don't kill myself is to spite others.

>>12166714
HIGH FIVE

I have problems with inadequacy when it comes to skill. I paint Warhammer. I do it in the Blanche style (loose, dark, and grungey) and I like it. Then, I see how other people around me paint in vibrant colours and highlighting which is aesthetically pleasing and look at my own stuff and go, "why don't I do that?" But at the same time I don't want to. I like the way I do things but it doesn't fit with the rest of the stuff others around me do.

How do I get over this? It's stupid, I know.

Hearing my senile mother talk seems like listening to the void after death.

Supposedly, your brain dies, consciousness dies, all that's left is the void, right?
Well, hearing her talk, hearing the mumbling fragments of ideas she lets out, it's like I'm hearing whatever fragments of her mind are left while the rest slowly dies.
The rest is just filled out by void.

I got a poem published this year on a website. I found out on Thursday that they nominated it for a Pushcart Prize. That's really exciting and I feel very honored and humbled.

I'm probably not going to win, but it's just nice to think that someone who has no personal interest in my success thinks so highly of something I've written.

Fuck, I do want to win though. It would do wonders for my career as a poet.

>>12166916
It's cool that you paint Warhammer figures. I never got into that, but I'm autistically into warhammer lore and the total war game

I took a break from 4chan for like a year and have come back god knows why.

This board is a shadow of its former self completely infested with teens, shitposters, people who unironically use the phrase "incel theory" and people pretending to have opinions on a massive corpus of literature and philosophy for god knows what reason and the board is absolutely done, for good.

>>12167061

I've been doing it for 20+ years and I enjoy it. The lore is okay, honestly. It's fun enough but I dislike how they're fleshing everything out. I play small scale stuff and enjoy the games and lore I make up for my guys. Or using the setting to make campaigns. Hopefully next month I can run a game using the AoS skirmish rules (loosely because rules are boring) based on Roadside Picnic, sort of. It'd be like a previous game called Mordheim but updated to the new setting and way more narrative driven. Small warbands venturing into the realm of Mortheit (name not certain) to find warpstone, beasts, and other valuables.

Things usually fizzle out at my store, though. My expectations are low.

>>12167069
yeah i hate any faggot who talks seriously about immanuel kant i just do not give a single little nugget of shit the size a rabbit would produce about that shit, literature or fuck off, although i think incels are worth discussing did u see that article in the atlantic about how millenials fuck less than any generation yet? if the fucking pseudy blue pilled atlantic can "explore" these issues then surely we can

System gang. Chop block, running through the day. Roses, hay, sliver frogs, sunlight meadow cherry bird. Green flies, white lies, cute ties, I die

I'm so jaded you'd think I was the color green. Midlife crisis? Only if I die young. I've been having quarter life crises and sixth life crises and maybe even eighth life crises. The "struggle for existence" is no mere term of art resting on a textbook page for me.

I don't want to pity myself or grow any more bitter than I already am. And I'm bitter enough that I sweat gin. I don't know why I have all this pain or what I did to deserve it.

>>12167084
Which factions do you main?

>>12158875
Being a woman fucking sucks. Nobody takes women seriously. I wish I were a man. I'd rather my mind be valued more than my body. A woman is her body.

>>12167092
>i do not give a shit about literature

Okay fine, go to another board. Please. Why are you here?

>then surely we can

They are talking about this shit on /pol/ and /r9k/ constantly. Go there.

Why are you here? Do you like reading books???????

>>12167177
i like literature and literary criticism, not faggy philosophical faggot shit about epistemology or ontology or any other faggy shit

god dammit 5 more hours till this porno finishes downloading i want to fap now fuck the copyright cops for getting this scene removed from pornhub

>>12167182
The way you write suggests youre at most 16 yeard old.

>>12167216
writing like u have a stick up your ass is reddit where u shud go back to

>>12167191
>watching porn
>masturbating

goddamn this book is so good. I think its the first time I read a book without caring about how many pages I read. Every chapter is a banger

How degenerate is it to give myself an erection solely for the purpose of measuring my cock

>>12167176
Grass is greener. I would be a women if I had the choice. I'm content bring handed an easy life and opportunity to pursue anything I want without having to worry about money or recognition. If you are a 3/10 and above in the west I would kill to switch places with you. I'm not even bad looking as a guy either, I do well romantically but I don't have the sugar momma option

>>12167466
Any man who has ever existed with the understanding of cocks and measurement has done this at least once. Everybody. Think of the most morally righteous man in history aside from Jesus and buddah and know that they measured their dick. From cesar to st aquinas to confucius to Gandhi to some piece of shit peasent toiling in a eastern European shit soil in May of 1563 has measured their cock

>>12167501
u know i never realized this until i got older since i never get laid and am quite unsuccessful in life that women and gay guys always treated me super good like offering me jobs, drugs, food, travel, etc. i was like a chick going around thinking "gosh all these people sure are nice!" now i realize it was probably that i was a pretty boy who worked out 5 days a week

>>12167524
i measured only because some chick told me she cant fuck with dudes shorter than 6 i had to push the ruler like a quarter inch into the base but i just made it ! i was like "yes!" but really the thing people like about my cock is the thickness of it, and the big blue vein going down the side that matches my arm and my eyes lol im such a fuckin fag

>>12167532
As a fellow pretty boy it's only the tip of the iceberg compared to normal woman. I don't exaggerate when I say the only men who experience something similar are famous men, well known and well sought out. Not even rich unknown men get the same shit, and it's also not even about the quantity, it's knowing so fucking many dudes are just dripping of thirst to be with you and your body, not anything you've achieved or acquired, just you yourself. Although being a good looking male I have a more positive view of humanity than most, and was quite naive in even comprehending people being mean to others and not experiencing the same life I live

>>12167546
People, unsurprisingly, like beautiful people. Right then, moving right along in life...

>>12167546
Tis the price we pay for being beautiful. It's both a blessing and a curse. I honestly believe in reverse lookism.

There was this one video, I think it was a viral college humor video, about this one guy that was part of a friend group who was really really attractive. And all his friends would just talk about how all they wanted to do is fuck him, that his ass is like two holiday hams, all this other shit.

Although everyone (even other pretty people) have subconscious positive biases for attractive people, there's a dark side to that attention. And there are other malignancies to beauty, such as narcissism.

And I don't even look as good as I used to. I've ruined my looks though my grimy lifestyle smoking and staying up late. But I have enough insight into the matter.

I took a load of books out the library just when my interests shifted. I don't feel like reading, rather I feel like watching anime.

I just finally finished Dagashi Kashi S2 and it was so neatly done and rewarding. I'm finally watching Gochiusa and am almost done with Mitsuboshi Colors. I hope that gets another season because it's painfully entertaining.

>>12165012
Never had EBT. Never bought a scratch ticket.
Healthy white males, especially if they don't have kids, do not qualify for benefits or welfare.
It seems you're projecting.

>>12167662
healthy white males should go get an education instead of sitting around the coal mine waiting for the job fairy faggot

>>12167671
One does not simply "go get an education". That costs money. No free ride from affirmative action or or Pell Grants for the white man either.
Most you get with an subsidized non-parent loans are limited to cover basically tuition only. So no meal plan (starve); no room and board.
Even the few hundred dollar fee for community college is inaccessible.
And let's say you do get it, god forbid FAFSA doesn't come through with enough money, and you owe a school money for anything, you're completely done for. You can't even go to another school without needing to give that $10,000 for the transcripts.

The only time where you can realistically game the education system is for grad school, which is more generous with COLA.

>>12167701
as usual the middle class larper thinks poor people pay for college, no only the middle class are ambitious enough to enroll in expensive private school they cant afford in an attempt to catch up to the rich...fafsa easily covers community college and if youre not a total dummy repeating classes it will cover a lot of a bachelors at a state school, you are so fucking middle class you have no clue man lmao

>>12167610
It's good to have a wide array of interests. I'm glad you find so much enjoyment from these things.

As Voltaire said, "we must tend to our gardens." In other words, in a world filled with pain and suffering and senseless harm and above all chaos, we ought to hold on to and cultivate the small things that matter to us. Even if the rest of the world could give a shit.

For me this has always been my writing. I'm a madcap with it. One of the reasons i'm addicted to 4chan is because it's an oddly literary medium. Most of it is shit of course, but it is also a chaos that contains all the orders, just as an infinite sequence contains every possible subsequence.

I have no idea what I'm talking about any more. I'm just very lonely and need to change. But I don't know how. Not any more.

>>12167711
Do you ever feel as though you waste your best nuggets of thought debating assholes here?; as to where if you saved them and maybe vocalized them over a pretty picture on YouTube you could start a philosophy channel or something of the like?

>>12167168

Space Wolves for 40k and I played Dwarves in Warhammer Fantasy. Gone now. Got some Orlock gangers for Necromunda coming soon. The new ones. Played Adeptus Arbites way back. Not sure what I'm taking to the new campaign. Probably an eclectic mix of "good" guys.

>>12167706
This. I don't understand. Cc's are like $1000 a semester and UC's here in California are like $10k a semester, state schools even cheaper. If you go into debt attending a private or out of state school knowing you can't afford it than you deserve 100% of the misery and fucked up finances you shall receive. I seriously seriously do not understand this whole 'student debt crisis' everybody online talks about. How the fuck can an 18 year old supposedly smart enough to attend a good university not figure out basic addition and subtraction, I'm so fucking confused at these people. What the fuck did they expect to happen exactly? They see the cost, they see their bank account, they see the payment plan. It's like purposely flying to the congo and complaining about being raped and your brain cut out for a good luck charm

>there are people out there so corrupted by greed hatred or envy we may as well consider them pure evil
>they operate unseen among us for the most part
>they often seek out positions of power through which to safely exercise these urges without fear of getting caught
This bothers me a lot.

>>12167781

Good thing Bush Sr. is dead, then. Too bad it wasn't by the noose alongside hundreds of others.

>>12167873
His death brought me closer to my family, no joke. We all bonded over our mutual happiness

>>12159429
I live 50km from the actic circle, who the fuck are you calling a southling, southling.

>>12162521
>reddit
go away