/lit/ - Literature

Cato read Phaedo before he slit his gut open in a bath

You could try that

St. Paul's Epistle to the Romans.

>>11958798
the bible so you know the gravity of the decision youre making

>>11958798
leaves of grass

DONT CARE

hahaaha

>>11958843
>>11958798
House of Leaves

>>11958798
The Alchemist by Paul Coelho

>>11958798
Sisyphus

Your favorite book of course... You're looking for a book so good it'll make you want to live, aren't you?

>>11958798
Infinite Jest

>>11958798
unironically suicide note by mitchell heisman

>>11958798
Please don’t kill yourself, anon.

>>11958798
The trouble with being born.
That will sober you up

suicide by edouard leve

>>11958947
There is virtually nothing that will make me want to live at this point. I have absolutely no escape. Even if I run away and become a hermit to escape the ills of society and just read all day to feel better, my body is falling apart and I have chronic pains (stomach, back, kidney) that will only get worse with age. All I have to look forward to is pain and misery.

>>11958798
Infinite Jest

>>11958952
Reading that Encyclopedia Dramatica page on him.amd his work was hilarious.

>>11958823
>Cato did not immediately die of the wound; but struggling, fell off the bed, and throwing down a little mathematical table that stood by, made such a noise that the servants, hearing it, cried out. And immediately his son and all his friends came into the chamber, where, seeing him lie weltering in his own blood, great part of his bowels out of his body, but himself still alive and able to look at them, they all stood in horror. The physician went to him, and would have put in his bowels, which were not pierced, and sewed up the wound; but Cato, recovering himself, and understanding the intention, thrust away the physician, plucked out his own bowels, and tearing open the wound, immediately expired.
fucking metal

>>11959080
Read up on Mainländer. According to him God preferred nonexistence and thus commited suicide by dispersing his being (thus creating the universe). In order to reach true paradise all of the universe must revert back to nothingness, completing the holy suicide. Check out the book Weltschmerz, it gives a good explanation of his philosophy as his work is yet to be translated.

>>11959080
There is only one man who can save you.

>>11959173
It's not futile if it ends my misery.

You should write A Confederacy of Dunces, then breathe in some car exhaust. That’s how patricians do it.

>>11958798
Why wait? Reading is a waste of time, just do it now.

>>11959183
How do you know and what does it matter ?
Think of your parents and siblings if you have any, how can you be so cruel to them ?

>>11959183
>It's not futile if it ends my misery.
Suffering is the dominant force in the world. I think you are wrong in trying to reject it. Furthermore, you cannot make the conscious decision to kill yourself, you will only do so when the fear of life outweighs the fear of death, so you are only adding to your agony by entertaining these thoughts. By resisting suffering you are submitting to it. If you must do something, reject desire instead.

>>11959249
There is a difference between the "suffering" of life's toil and active bodily chronic pain that I experience every day and that I have yet to been able to fix because I don't have money for expensive surgeries. It feels that all the injuries I had as a kid are now coming back to haunt me.

>>11959149
Did this really happen?

>>11958798
No brainer: the Divine Comedy. Keep in mind that I've never actually laughed (so much for a comedy, am I right?) but some have said what an eye-opener it was. I guess they were already pretty myopic by this point, so it wouldn't take much to correct their "eyes". Anyway, read through it, and then report back for the keks.

>>11959080
Damn that's rough. I wanted to kill myself too, so in some way I can relate, but I'm a healthy young man and I don't know what chronic bodily pain is like. All I can say is that I also had no hope for the future. I absolutely refused to believe that anything could ever get better. I thought things could only get worse. But they did get better and I'm a much happier person now. Sometimes you just need to fix your mind. I'm not going to tell you that you shouldn't kill yourself. Suicide really is a beautiful thing. But if you're up for it, you should maybe see a therapist and try out some medications. Who knows, maybe the day after you kill yourself someone invents a new cheap painkiller that would solve all your ills. There's always a solution, sometimes that's suicide, sometimes it isn't.

>>11959274
>There is a difference between the "suffering" of life's toil and active bodily chronic pain
Nope.

>>11958798
The Importance of Living by Lin Yutang. It's full of old Chinese wisdom about how to enjoy oneself.

>>11959280
nah i just made that up

>>11959312
Is that so?

>>11959285
You didn't at least chuckle when the demons played trumpets by farting into them?

>>11959274
>There is a difference between the "suffering" of life's toil and active bodily chronic pain
>the DESIRE to escape pain isn't part of life's toil
Explain.

I woke up with a profound sadness today. Decided to say fuck it and call and set up an appointment with a therapist
I tried doing it myself and while I developed a few good habits and was able to change my minds workings a bit, the sadness and anxiety was still there

We'll see how this works. If it doesn't then I have the ultimate power of killing myself. Dying doesn't scare me, what comes after does though

The Bible

Or atleast Matthew

Maybe please try visiting a church for communion if anything before you decide to carry out what you are talking about.

It can't hurt, we're all here for you

>>11959370
god please tell me there are more old painting involving dancing skeletons around dead serious people

Whatever you do, don’t off yourself without writing something substantial. There’s 7 billion of you fuckers out there, each one a universe of different ideas, fears, fetishes, aches and pains, experiences, etc., and the vast majority of you leave no record of that. I hate to sound like that faggot John Green, but everyone has at least one great work of art inside them. Don’t live the unobserved life, anon. You’re better than that. Pour all that you are into one final work, then see if you still want to die. We won’t stay your hand.

>>11959416
There are hundreds of them, bro.

>>11959416
Look up the danse macabre on google images.

>>11959080
HEY DUDE IF YOU'RE NOT DEAD YET HELLO
I have cluster headaches with no hope of surgery and I'm still kicking (though it would be nice if I could hold a normal job), I fucking love being alive but I'll fucking punch god in the face If I ever meet him. Life's not THAT long, come on dude you can hold on for a few more years, can't you ? If you want I can throw in my discord if you want a fellow unfinished human being to talk to.

>>11959274
>because I don't have money for expensive surgeries
So make some money, ya dip. Or move to a country that isn't so barbaric it makes people pay for essential medical treatment.

>>11959219
>then breathe in some car exhaust
This would be my method when i finally decide to off myself. (after a day of drugs and whores of course).

What are the odds that OP is already dead?

>>11959447
I live in a post communist shithole and the public healthcare system is completely disastrous, while the private sector requires more money than I can make.

>>11959434
I understand that you mean well, but I really hate being alive and I haven't felt "happy" since I was at least 15. My parents thought it was just hormonal teenage moodiness but here I am, at the age of 30, still feeling like a depressed, worthless sack of shit except now getting out of bed physically hurts me. It also eats me up inside that I have less health problems than others, yet they are happier than I am, which makes me feel even more worthless.

>>11959934
Maybe you should get pills. I want pills but I have no healthcare

>>11958798
The Phenomenology of Spirit

cuz it'll occupy you til you die of old age

>>11959128
i think that some of his ideas are very compelling

>>11959378
dying and what comes after scares me

>>11958798
The Death of Ivan Ilyich

>>11960271
I think of what the stoics say. Dying is pretty much a nonevent, you're not even present. You likely won't experience death.
But the after part I can't find solace anywhere. I've tried to go back to God, kinda, but I feel like a fraud. Like I'm only doing it "just in case". My faith is not and never has been strong, unsure it ever could be desu

In Search of Lost Time

Not just memeing because it's long and will delay you offing yourself. The way Proust understands people is truly fascinating

>>11959080
What do you use to manage your pain? Kratom is a pretty good alternative to opiates. It’s definitely auite addictive, but it’s not dangerous like opiate addiction, so if you’re at a point where you’re considering (or using) opiates, it’s worth trying. You can buy it online, it’s quite cheap

Psycho Cybernetics

read the entire summa theologica

>>11958798

the long walk by richard bachman