/lit/ - Literature

>>11948209
based and redpilled thread

write whats on your mind

>>11948209
There is a bug lodged in my nose. I think it’s crawled through my nasal and somehow gotten behind my eye. My vision gets blurry and I hear a crackling now and then. When it moves, I feel I have to sneeze and my right eye goes wholly blurry. I know it’s in there. I can feel it. I don’t know what to do...

also how do I get a girlfriend

I almost stuck a finger in my asshole this morning cause I was so drunk and wanted to see what it was like

Does the Earth's rotation freak anyone else out? I mean think about it. Every day we travel thousands of miles. It's kind of off putting.

>>11948265
it's not that bad, pal

>>11948265
im pretty sure our galaxy is hurtling through intergalactic space at absolutely insane speeds but im not an astrophysicist.

if speed is relative and the universe is much larger than we can see, than it's plausible that with reference to some other partof the universe we are moving close to the speed of light

pls do not call me a retard science people

>>11948236
>also how do I get a girlfriend

Speaking from experience, it's actually quite simple. You can start by improving yourself, by regularly going to the gym, church, recreational sport leagues, etc. You have to put yourself out there, otherwise it will never happen. It's not like it will just fall in your lap. You have to put in some effort, anon. Once you've incorporated, say, the gym into your routine, you'll begin to notice other regulars and make friends. You might even meet a girl you like there, and then work your way from there. It takes time, though. All that said, there are things you need to consider. Do you live on a farm in some rustic shithole? If so, the odds of meeting women might weigh against you. Do you live in a trendy city where all the women are batshit crazy and liberal? If so, it shouldn't be hard to meet women and make one your gf, especially if you're not some effeminate liberal bugman. It also helps if you're a Chad. Godspeed, friend.

>>11948209
I'll never forget the time I bothered to register a reddit account, left a comment and saw it downvoted. I didn't ask for any of this.
I stopped using it after that. I don't need that fucking stress in my life.

>>11948290
when i was like 17 i used to make reddit accounts and try to rack up as many points in a 24 hour period as possible. I dont remember how many I got i think around 5000. This was in like 2010 so there were less points to go around

then I found 4chan and my inner contrarian blossomed into an absolute abomination

why are computer "scientists" and coders so fucking smug all the time? What makes them think theyre so superior despite being complete shut ins with no physical activity, social interaction, job security, or competitive pay rate?

TEchnocrats deserve only bullets

This society is a joke, I'm so tired of dealing with morons every day and their retarded opinions

>>11948209
is reddit everything wrong with democracy

>>11948273
if i goes to the gym may i still have junk foods

>>11948272

I'm pretty sure that we move the speed of light relative to everything outside of the observable universe, but I'm not sure that counts as moving.

>>11948209
The fool hath said in his heart, there is no God.

It’s amazing how you can be so strongly against Christianity, thinking you understand it, and later realize you were wrong. If I can change my view, then so can you

I keep coming up for ideas for novellas or novels but I'm a brainlet who can't write for shit, the average child is probably a more capable storyteller than me.

Also I can't go outside without wearing noise cancelling headphones, there doesn't need to be music playing it's just that without them on it feels far too much like I am in the real world and I don't like that feeling. Can anyone relate?

i really really want to fucc

>>11949117
read this or something like it

>>11948209
Sometimes college feels like a fucking joke. I wrote a history paper in 2 hours expecting to fail and I got a B- for talking out my ass.

It is said that even the gods must slumber from time to time, and when they dream, stories manifest into reality. The gods have very different dreams, according to their natures and environments; fiendish gods who dwell in hellish places dream of rotting flesh, sexual deviance, intoxication, and all manner of dark things. There is no light in these dreams. Earth bound gods who exist as ghosts on the earthly plane tend to dream of past lives, missed opportunities, loved ones. The highest gods, those who dwell in heavenly places, are the most complex sort of beings, in the dreaming sense; heavenly dreams have two distinct manifestations: ordered dreams in which angels have locked their gaze on a specific object, perpetuating the thing by virtue of a focused and singular will, and chaotic dreams, in which forms of the mind swirl around the central character like a tempest, forcing said character to question his or her own choices. I should think the ordered dreams more interesting than the chaotic ones, but only on account of my own chaotic nature; as they say, the grass is always greener on the other side.

>>11949147
Yeah It killed my motivation after two years of the same thing

I’m getting a cavity filled today for one of my molars. Its been a long time since my last cavity, which has sparked up a bunch terrible memories from when I was younger. Embarrasing, terrible memories.
Why are dentists the root of so much trauma?

I feel like my suffering these past few weeks has been too real, too directed, too narratively connected and meaningful to be coincidental.
I've never felt pain as meaningful as this.
It makes me feel alive, yet I've never been more wildly depressed.
It makes for some great inspiration, at least

>>11949147
Undergrad is literally a joke, even at the best of universities.

>>11949147
Like the other guy said undergrad is a meme and complete waste of time if you aren't doing your degree specifically for job prospects or planning to move on to masters and possibly academia ect

Only so demanding it can be with the absolute state of education and considering so many people go to college in the first place.

lads, I can't stop Zip posting

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p978u4r-q4c

>>11948236
brace for metamorphosis

>>11948290
>>11948302
the average haters of Reddit, everyone

>>11948209
I only see colors and shapes in my head. So, grey car, brown wheel, bright red circle, grey car, black man, bright flash, pain, pain, I hear sirens? I don't know what's happening. I really wish I could think in sentences. I don't even know how I write. Sometimes I feel like an animal. Not like "Oh, I'm a crazy person," but like I'm running on instinct and reacting to everything.

Edit: thank you for the gold, stranger!

why does everybody on 4chan pretend they don't use Reddit?

reddit routinely shuts down subreddits because they are closet 4chan outposts

the people who "object" to using reddit as an aggregator of links are intimately familiar with its lingo and posting style

the top threads in all the media boards are usually directly ripped from reddit

>not here!
yes here. If some article gets traction on r/literature it comes here too, and the people who are reading this comment probably post in its thread

you guys use the same memes, interact with the same media, and talk about the same same stuff in the same way

>>11949623
>can't fathom that there are people that actually don't use reddit

>>11949623
Yes, we are all the same, brother.

>>11949623
I just don't like the wait time on posts. if you think i'm going to wait 10 fucking minutes to insult someone then i might as well plot their murder

In my country, redditor ranks lower in social hierarchy than dog, cockroach or even pedo.

>>11949623
the comment section on Reddit amkes me want to commit genocide. I cant read more than like 5 posts

>>11948209

I have a sincere sense of gratitude at having discovered the solution to my problems - quitting alcohol. When I'm not drinking, I read a book a week, write almost every day, and have clearer and more well-articulated ideas worked out on the page.

...but I still drink. Why?

Protect positive squad. Stay blessed, never stressed.

>>11948236
this fucked me up bro keep your disgusting bug problems to yourself jesus christ

>>11948209
Another writing thread ruined by a stupid pic.

>>11949800
>shaming anon for his bug problems
fairly turqoisepilled desu

I just realised a novel I wrote was a litrpg novel disguised as a sci-fi novel.
I feel so dirty. What do I do, could I still salvage it.

>>11948761
No you can't fatty.

>realized the magical realism story idea I kept telling myself was a guaranteed award-winner for a year is actually terrible
>the trashy YA novel I wanted to write can't even pull a plot together

I seriously starting to want to give up

The subject/object distinction is a necessary condition for the enterprise of epistemology, but what if such distinction collapses in nature and ontology? What do we do?

>>11949869
What the fuck did you even just say

why is my reading speed so fucking slow, i remember almost everything i read but even 20 pages a day is difficult for me

>>11949919
I have the opposite problem, I read fast but hardly remember anything I read

>>11949905
esoteric academia stuff, all bullshit probably

>For the conversion of his money into capital, therefore, the owner of money must meet in the market with the free labourer, free in the double sense, that as a free man he can dispose of his labour-power as his own commodity, and that on the other hand he has no other commodity for sale, is short of everything necessary for the realisation of his labour-power.

How does a laborer having no other commodity for sale make him free?

>>11949869
you become a monist

>>11949942
>the All, the Absolute, God, the One, Brahman
it's all cancer

>>11949923
let's combine forces and form a normal functioning human being

whats on your mind

>>11949117
Post your ideas, I'll use them.

>>11949660
Posts are not instant?

>>11948209
Cerebrospinal fluid

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just got rejected for another internship. must've fucked up the interview somehow even though i wasn't feeling that anxious for once, i actually thought i did reasonably well which makes me feel even worse i guess.

i thought it would get easier as I keep getting rejected but it still kills me every time. i feel like it affects me more than it should, makes me feel like shit for like 3+ days. how do i deal with this? is it just a matter of perspective? i'm sick of it, makes me want to give up

Fuck. I was carrying on a conversation with this person over text. I sent a long message, and there's been no response. Can't help but think I fucked up. I should just not text people, I'm awful at it.

>Have presentation today
>Reciting a poem in German and then talking a bit about it and while I like it
>Excited because this is a chance for me to showcase my intellectual and deeper side to >her
>She texts me before that she's not coming to class because she flipped a coin and it landed on her not going
It could have slipped her mind, but I'm pretty sure she knew my poem was today.
Fuck. I just want someone to care about me. I want someone to be as good to me as I am to her

>>11950254
what a loser

I feel like I cannot feel love. I finally started dating and it's nothing like I imagined. Once I got the hard girl, I lost interest. Once I got the obsessive girl, I lost interest. I feel like I cannot and do not want to live in a relationship.

What do I do? Should I accept such a fate and be alone? hook up and leave it at that? No matter how similar or different the person is, I don't feel anything. I don't want to say anything, fearing I'll hurt them. It's honestly not them, it's me.

>>11950269
post your cock

>>11949244
Times of depression are when I'm most creative. They provide an intense clarity.
I like your stoic attitude; learn from these weeks and improve.

I read my new Tarot book out loud for ten minutes. I feel accomplished.

>>11950282

I've been here for about a decade now and I know there are plenty here with no friends, no ability to unautistically express their personalities, no futures. I've at least got those things I guess. I've never had a gf though. I know that plenty of girls I've met have wanted me for my looks and my quirky-yet-sociable autism, but that's not even what gets me, what hits me right in that big ole feel nerve in the pit of my stomach. What gets me is the Houllebecq perspective: you may get a gf one day but you'll never have that innocent coming-of-age teenage gf. It's not even that I had no chance, on the contrary, the worst part is that I had the perfect chance.

She was a pale ginger, skinny, thought I was funny, liked my music. She was what God had gifted teenage me for my hardwork through school and my wholesome, as-of-yet-corrupted worldview. I didn't even have to ask her out; I never would have and I had trouble doing that until my senior year of college no matter how much I pretended I didn't. No, she asked me out straight up in middle school, and do you know what I said? Well you know what I wanted to say, YES YES YES! But I couldn't even say one simple word. I said "I don't know". She was almost instantly crushed, "what does that mean?" Well, I wouldn't say crushed, but she was surprised I suppose. She ended up saying "well it's okay if you say no" but I didn't want to say no, I wanted to say yes and I just couldn't. We remained friends but gradually drifted apart. She moved on and actually ended up going out with one of my good friends. It was an inconsequential event at the time and remained inconsequential for years to come.

Yet, a couple years ago /lit/ introduced me to Houllebecq and it's sort of turned me bitter over my inability to take advantage of that and similar situations as a teenager. I return to that memory every once in awhile and mull it over. Why did I say what I said? I know and will always know that I wanted to say yes, but why couldn't I just say it? Recently I've gone down a sort of Freudian route for an explanation. Surely it must be my parents' fault! I believe both of them were abused as children themselves, and so sort of overcompensated as parents by taking an agnostic "do and believe whatever you want and we'll be fine with it" approach. But at the same time, they were a beach chad/stacy couple so they're both super sarcastic dicks. This lead to a weird back-and-forth parenting style: one sentence they'd make fun of me for doing something unchadlike, the next sentence they'd sincerely tell me "if that's how you really want to do it, go for it!" This was exacerbated by the fact that I'm always been a bit of a sperg, outgoing and sociable but what people would call a goon, or clown, or spaz, or w/e. Suffice it to say, I did a lot of things in a quirky unchadlike way and their responses always left me confused.
1/2

>>11950354
Anyway, I've attempted to cite this as the root cause of my indecisiveness. And while I know that this did play into my split-second decision at the time to say "I don't know", I also know that this was not nearly the deciding factor and that putting the full blame on them is pure revisionism. Deep down I know that I can't blame them, the only person I can really blame for my indecisiveness is myself. I've got good friends I've known my entire life, a job that's better than most, a /fit/ body, and decent social skills. But I still don't have a gf and I've never had sex. Meanwhile that pale ginger girl is engaged to my friend from middle school who she went out with immediately after asking me. I'll never have that innocent Houllebecq-ian teenage love and I'll never marry my middle school gf, and the only person I have to blame is myself. It will haunt me my entire existence, not because it couldn't have happened, but because it could, should, and would have.
2/2

how can I be this interested in words that have no value whatsoever? I spend hours browsing 4chan boards I frequent, and then more time browsing boards that are about things I have no vested interest in. Usually after binging like this I realize the absolute scope of this drivel, but I keep coming back. over and over. how do I not be interested in something that is literally infinite?

>>11950364
because your time is worthless. if someone would be paying to NOT post on 4chan, you probably wouldn't be posting here. but nobody is doing that because you're an incompetent little shit.

>>11950362
>>11950354

Nothing can befall a man that is not natural to him. If something happens and it is natural...then why complain?

*kisses your forehead*

Move on brother...

>>11950354
>>11950362
I'll do right by you anon. When the time comes, I won't make the same mistake.

Reminder to be a Roman and not a Greek

>>11950354
>>11950362
post your cock

why not just kill myself if i haven't already done it i obviously don't care about myself or anyone else i'm just a fat dysfunctional selfish piece of shit faggot nobody gives a fuck i'm gonna jump off a fucking bridge fuck everything i fap to femdom on the regular including sph and ones where i'm forced to suck dick and only a few times and not in a long time but i've also fapped to legitimate cuck porn before it's too fucking late for me man i've failed as a person and as a man no woman will ever love me and even if they think they do it will all be over once they see me naked and even if all of that doesn't happen i will have to live knowing what a hoorendous excuse for a human being is fuck everything fuck it i wish i would have choked to death on my mother's placenta wrapping around my neck i want to die
i usually go with giant bowls of ramen (using 2-3 packages of instant) composed of leftovers or grilled cheese sandwhiches slathered in mayonaise cooked on a panini maker
Ate for about an hour solid at a local Asian buffet. It was pretty empty which made me forget how much of an obese shit I was being in public. Had four or five large plates of food, including an entire roll of sushi from the sushi bar, which is actually pretty decent for a Jap/Chinese buffet place.

i've accepted it. I would have fixed it by now if it was going to get fixed and I genuinely have tried at least 10-15 times to get my shit together and even a few times I almost legitimately did but I always blew it right at the most important moment and fell back into this to an even greater extent than I was before. Call me a pussy or a failure or whatever it's all true but I can't take it anymore. I can't take ALMOST making it just to fuck up right at the most important moment and tumbling all the way back down then climbing all the way back up again just to blow it again. If that means having no hope of making it then fuck it, I'm too weak to keep trying to force myself to become something I'm not. I'm a cuck and a degenerate and a piece of shit and I should just isolate myself from society so I don't do damage to it and instead I just make shitty posts like this, which I guess are bad for the board and i'm sorry about that but idk

>>11950364
I'm gonna take a guess that you engage in very little meaningful social interaction. 4chan acts as a replacement for this and (you)'s give you the dopamine necessary to not fall into total despair.

>>11950381
the world has enough romans at the moment; what it really needs is more greeks

>>11949869
You're full of shit.

>>11950381
>>11950397
What's the difference?

>>11950401
if you don't know the difference between a roman and a greek get off this board

>>11950374
I know anon, the decisions I make are the only decisions I could have ever made. Yet all this realization has done is made me resentful not at any one scapegoat but all of them.

>>11950405
Boy fucking obviously

>>11950392
4chan is very different than normal social interaction though
after getting accustomed to unfiltered 4channery it becomes sort of hard to get your fix irl. irl interactions start to feel like a meme

im extraverted so i have to have irl interaction regularly but it's just fulfilling a psychological need, it's not interesting or stimulating in the same way.

the worst is when you get drunk and start shitposting irl and nobody understands what the fukc youre saying and just feels like youre being an asshole

sometimes i start greentexting irl, ill just repeat part of what somebody says and laugh

>>11950416
Not that anon that replied to you but stop idealizing women so much. Only in today's sick and hyper sexualized world is being a virgin seen in a negative light. Rise above base passions and focus your energy into something higher. True pleasure arrives from the transcendental.

>>11950416

For what reason do you resent? For what reason does any noble man resent; he does not. Nay, resentment belongs to the man who believes the world is his oyster.

You don't believe such, do you Anon? For what reason should you? You are the only oyster to be had and such an oyster only belongs to thee. The more you sit, clamped shut, the bigger your pearl gets.

Discard your pearl. Instead, forge a sword. Learn from your mistakes. Or be doomed to be a sad pathetic neet on 4chan for the rest of your life.

>>11948209
I wonder if I'll ever get married. I have troubles with being self centered, such as becoming president of my college club solely because I knew it would advance my personal career, or selling myself as a president trying to do things for the club so I can get influence over people. It's not just the club, it's with people in my college major too. I think about myself a lot and, unless it's my family (siblings, parents), I always put myself first. I don't think it would translate well to a family.

>>11950440
>4chan is very different than normal social interaction though
Eh, I wouldn't say so. It is still able to fulfill the same need to a certain extent.

>after getting accustomed to unfiltered 4channery it becomes sort of hard to get your fix irl. irl interactions start to feel like a meme
This was almost the opposite for me. I learned to appreciate real life interactions a lot more back when I browsed 4chan much more than I do now. To each his own I guess.

>>11950455
for me irl interactions fulfill an emotional need. 4chan is for exploring possible people that youarent really, but that are like memes you pretend to be. it like drudges up all sorts of shit from your subconscious that you would never allow out irl

also on a board like lit you have a huge selection of people with similar interests you can talk to, it's literally imopossible to find that irl. In a university setting it will always be a kind of shitty selection, and everything is mired in censorship and ego.

im lucky enough to have a couple people irl i really can talk to, but it's still not the same

>>11950440
>sometimes i start greentexting irl, ill just repeat part of what somebody says and laugh
Normalfags do that all the time. Unless they're all secretly going on 4chan, you're fine.

>>11950444
>>11950445
I don't think either of you read my post, I said I'm not a shut-in NEET like 3 times and my problem really isn't with specifically being a virgin. I'll probably lose my virginity by Thanksgiving to this girl I'm texting, but no amount of sex will rewrite the past and redo what I did wrong on my own accord.

>>11950470

You're shut in your mind.

>>11949147
How the fuck do you consider a B- to be worth shit? Because you passed? Lazy shit

>>11950468
I can pass as a normalfag if I want, i started doing it when I was kid long before I ever knew about 4chan. I literally lived a double existence until I was about 20.

Whenever I start a new job(i am useless alcoholic that drifts from job to job) I pretend to be a new person. At my most recent one I shaved my head and pretended to be white trash from the ghetto, they all bought it completely.(im upper middle class). The accent i used was hilarious

At my job before that I pretended to be a russian immigrant, because I can speak broken russian. I lived in fear that an actual Russian speaker would appear at some point and my charade would fall apart

I never choose this consciously the instinct to lie just appears naturally and i follow it where it leads

>>11948851
If there's a God he's old testament, nigger. He'd fucking drown your ass and send you to hell in a second for spending too much time on 4chan. But he's too busy killing chinese people these days.

>>11949117
>can't go outside without wearing noise cancelling headphones, there doesn't need to be music playing it's just that without them on it feels far too much like I am in the real world and I don't like that feeling.
I feel ya buddy, I just only go out at night. Doesn't seem real without people.

I want to suck COCK

>>11950557

>>11950008
Thanks! I've been looking for this forever. It's literally the most inspiring short story I've ever read. +1

>>11950557
You’re female?

>>11950050
You can kill yourself, that's the only way to 'give up'. Human beings don't 'give up', every single human creature since the beginning of humans that proceeded you didn't 'give up' and that's why you exist now. All of that, and now YOU'RE gonna 'give up', SAD.

If i kill my true self and let my dreams fade away will it get easier to deal with the people telling me who I’m supposed to be? It feels like it’d be easier to just let myself be trained rather than keep twisting and contorting myself to save the peace.
Conflict was my beast to fight and perhaps it has conquered me

I feel like I'll never be taken seriously as an author because I'm Australian

>>11950715
well when you end every sentence with cunt it give the impression of you being illiterate.

i have a fucking cold that i thought i was getting over by now im fucking freezing and sick feeling so bad

>>11950390
Just get rid of your computer. Honestly, just get rid of every single thing you don't need, and I mean really need. Now go read every single book on the /lit/ reading list, it's not even that great of a list. What it is is something that's going to occupy your time, you're going to read, you're going to read and do nothing else when you have freetime and you're home. You can jack off, just not to porn, okay? You're gonna eat not healthy, but food that won't kill you, okay. If you can't stand your home or yourself, you're gonna walk or run until you literally can't anymore and then you're gonna walk home and sleep. And if you lay your head down to sleep and you're plagued by evil thoughts, scream, scream as loud and as long as you can, punch a wall if you must, then sleep.

I'm reading Camus' The Plague after Camus was hyped up so much and I'm honestly bored and forcing myself to trudge through it. I wanted to finish it before some other books came in but I'm thinking about dropping it.

dude i'm paranoid as hell rn dude holy shit i'm like worried the cops are going to track me down and give me a ticket for biking through a thing that says walk your bike, thats how fucking shitty my anxiety is, yo im straight up walking from now i got more audiobooks than i can ever listen fuck it not worth the risk

i want to fap but now that everyone shut off their air conditioning everyone can hear everything even one stroke half the building will know fuck my life why is housing so expensive

>>11950899
Are you really so afraid to die anon? That’s what your anxiety actually is, you know? You’re just afraid that everything is going to kill you or give you a shitty life.

Maybe not consciously, but that’s what your anxiety is.

>>11950913
i definitely have economic issues like if i got a ticket or even one of those trivial arrests where you can bail yourself ten minutes later i will be so fucked, but i think my anxiety is actually a result of being stuck in a total rut life wise so my mind is making up all these crazy things that could happen but what is actually gonna happen is i just live out another 20 years exactly like this and then croak

>>11950878
also nothing other than water for drinking, soft drinks and beir are inventions of the morning star. hot water in the mornings, nigger.

I need to get out of my line of work or i am going to die the slowest most painful death one day at a time
Anyone here ever do firefighting?
Whats that like

Jacob O'mahony was born at 1:37 PM on the 15th of July 1998, which was a Wednesday. He had spent 274 days inside his mother's womb, placing the night of his conception on the 14th of October, 1997; his father began sex with his mother at 10:12PM that night, but did not ejaculate inside her until 10:47PM; it took a further 67 minutes for the sperm and egg to make contact, narrowly avoiding placing the date of his conception on the 15th by 6 minutes. The sperm that would fertilise his mother's egg had been inside his father's testicles for 17 days, generated from a medium rare steak his father began eating at 6:23PM on the 26th of September (his father's 28th birthday), and didn't finish until 7:01. The egg was part of his mother's 204th menstrual cycle. His birthday was exactly 1009 days after the date of his parent's wedding on the 10th of October 1995 (a champagne bottle purchased by his father for their second anniversary was finished off on the night of his conception, and was crucial in his father initiating intercourse that night). His birthday was also 1969 (1969 was the year his mother born) days after his parents initial meeting at 11:48 AM 22nd of February 1993 inside a diner on Snyder avenue in Philadelphia, although it wasn't until 15 minutes after they met that they exchange words.

>>11950878
Oh shit also, the desire to improve yourself will come naturally and you know better than anyone how to do so. Once you know what you need, improve yourself.

I've never met Lloyd Blankfein, but I hate him more than any human being I've ever known. I'd love to see him beaten to death and ground up into dog food. It's exactly what he deserves.

>>11951026
he's not even the ceo of goldman anymore who gives a shit, blame clinton for repealing glass-steagal

liar liar pantsuit on fire

Old wise tale

I think I might be in love with some random girl I follow on instagram. We matched on Tinder when I was traveling through Portland and I never had the balls to message her so I just followed her on Instagram instead. I like a lot of her posts and she likes mines back, and you guys might imagine that is insinuating an interest on her part, but my Instagram doesn't even have my name or pictures of my face so like, I'm pretty sure she doesn't know who I am. What do anons? inb4 zoomer issues

Not a regular poster on this board, I only want to share my personal love experience and emotional status:

I met the love of my life in the university of Salamanca, her name is Carmen Salud btw. We both from a wealthy family. Like my twin, so united.
I can't regret it: I went after her delightfully just after meeting her, because she agreed with my love honestly and we made a decision of building something together. After finishing college, we made a lot of trips all allong Europe for years, learnt a lot of things. In Deutschland we started smoking marihuana and our relationship changed its dynamic, now it was sweeter and warmest. Later in Britania, Carmen Salud developed a high feeling for flowers and perfumes and her aspirations changed from being a doctor to being an artist, me, there I discovered the true feeling of reading and made it a habit. While my perpetual honeymoon was always full of happiness, our drug addiction was increasing. During our staying in Suisse, I used to read Stendhal to her while opium smell impregnated throughout the bedroom, later both took an acid trip in Greece after interiorizing Plato.
Finally drug addiction made me live in a psychopatic rutine. After a few years of travelling, we settled up in Cádiz, in a house near the beach with views to طنجة, Morocco. We two get addicted on MDMA and Ectasy, made a lot of money in few time whereby keep affording a vicious life. During a summer hollyday I managed to collect at least a dozen of pills and my fiancée and I took them once in a week. That rocky experience made us weaker and we swore not taking ectasy again, but the promise was broken by both parts, first secretly, then openly.
We survived two months more until the "Critical Week", our drugdealer was arrested, I tried to search for another one, but I was frightened of entering to the suburbs. Those seven days was the longer ones I ever lived, full of dark feelings, rage and resentment.
No MDMA or Ectasy for a month. Yes, we are addicted, we can manage it, we need to support each other. But my fiancée got crazy and depressive, histerical, hostile with her family and coworkers, started smoking cigarrettes, drinking coffee. She get used to the drama performance of leaving me and coming back after two hours like nothing happened.
It is sad; we tagged ourselves as nihilistic, existentialist, but reality is we were living truly hedonistic. Was that life? I doubt it. For what purpose we exchange 'fun with drugs' for 'drugs for fun'? All those experiences were empty because I never had an identity, and all I've ever known became to fade in the form of just curious facts. I guess that's what they call "postmodern condition".
She's gone back to Madrid, she says she doesn't love me anymore but I know it is a lie. I want to go to see a therapist, and I want her with me. I'm travelling right now searching for my Carmen.
While writting this I've filled two hours of travelling, we're stopping to pee in a gas station so bye

Getting pretty good at Chinese but it's going to be a long time till I can actually properly read chinese books

>>11951431
>>>/adv/

the npc meme is eyeopening to human behavior
i like it

i had a realization today that i am quite neurotic.
i need something to channel this energy.

Not a regular poster on this board, I only want to share my personal love experience and emotional status:

I met the love of my life in the university of Salamanca, her name is Carmen Salud btw. We both from a wealthy family. Like my twin, so united.
I can't regret it: I went after her delightfully just after meeting her, because she agreed with my love honestly and we made a decision of building something together. After finishing college, we made a lot of trips all allong Europe for years, learnt a lot of things. In Deutschland we started smoking marihuana and our relationship changed its dynamic, now it was sweeter and warmest. Later in Britania, Carmen Salud developed a high feeling for flowers and perfumes and her aspirations changed from being a doctor to being an artist, me, there I discovered the true feeling of reading and made it a habit. While my perpetual honeymoon was always full of happiness, our drug addiction was increasing. During our staying in Suisse, I used to read Stendhal to her while opium smell impregnated throughout the bedroom, later both took an acid trip in Greece after interiorizing Plato.
Finally drug addiction made me live in a psychopatic rutine. After a few years of travelling, we settled up in Cádiz, in a house near the beach with views to طنجة, Morocco. We two got addicted on MDMA and Ectasy, made a lot of money in few time whereby keep affording a vicious life. During a summer hollyday I managed to collect at least a dozen of pills and my fiancée and I took them once in a week. That rocky experience made us weaker and we swore not taking ectasy again, but the promise was broken by both parts, first secretly, then openly.
We survived two months more until the "Critical Week", our drugdealer was arrested, I tried to search for another one, but I was frightened of entering to the suburbs. Those seven days were the longest ones I ever lived, full of dark feelings, rage and resentment.
No MDMA or Ectasy for a month. Yes, we are addicted, we can manage it, we need to support each other. But my fiancée got crazy and depressive, histerical, hostile with her family and coworkers, started smoking cigarrettes, drinking coffee. She get used to the drama performance of leaving me and coming back after two hours like nothing happened.
It is sad; we tagged ourselves as nihilistic, existentialist, but reality is we were living truly hedonistic. Was that life? I doubt it. For what purpose we exchange 'fun with drugs' for 'drugs for fun'? All those experiences were empty because I never had an identity, and all I've ever known became to fade in the form of just curious facts. I guess that's what they call "postmodern condition".
She's gone back to Madrid, she says she doesn't love me anymore but I know it is a lie. I want to go to see a therapist, and I want her with me. I'm travelling right now searching for my Carmen.
While writting this I've filled two hours of travelling, we're stopping to pee in a gas station byee

>>11951513
Is this a larp? Is that her in the pic? Absolute stacy. Get fucked druggies.

7 am wakin up in the morning gotta get fresh gotta go downstairs, gotta have my bowl gotta have cereal, seeing everything as time is ticking and i go outside, and my friends are in the car, one in the front seat and two in the back, there's room both in the front passenger seat, with kevin, and in the back seat, with eliza and maria, and i dont know where i should sit, does kevin think im ugly oh god i wanna go back inside okay okay just smile i'll sit in the back hi eliza hi kevin hi maria oh my god he didnt even turn around do i even exist to him fuck you kevin just drive alright you fucking second string piece of shit why do i even care about you please look at me i just wanna get out of the car no maria i dont have any lip balm why would you even ask you fucking gargoyle

>>11951431
forget it
that's not even a story dude, how the fuck is your idea of love so shallow that you think you're in love with someone you've never met or talked to?
it's a retarded pipe dream and if you had anyone else to project your loneliness onto you'd do it

>>11950376
underage ban plz mods

>>11950966
What's your line of work, Mexican cartel?

>>11951513
tl:dr

>>11951493
Are you learning by yourself or do you have a tutor?

>tfw want to dedicate myself entirely to some goal like Sartre says you should
>tfw can’t decide if it should be being a research mathematician or an author

Help

>>11952048
What about finding a goal that's not completely useless?

>>11952071
All goals are useless that’s the whole point of picking one and going with it

>>11952076
make finding a goal your lifes goal

>>11952084
Genius.

>>11949623
I've never used reddit but I don't complain about it on here either.

I think you're right that most vocal redditor opponents on 4chan are probably former redditors because of their knowledge of the site.

I don't know enough about it to respond to anything you just said apart from the first sentence, which is wrong.

Is Fallen London /lit/? It’s really comfy desu

I overthink the smallest social interactions because I had no friends growing up. I thought this would go away with time and practice, but I've been practicing for years now and the same insecurities run through my head.

Currently I am trying to decide whether or not to send a bland 'have a good trip!' to someone I started talking to. She hasn't responded to my previous message sent yesterday about unrelated things, so I don't want to seem like the socially awkward creep I actually am. I realize I have no frame of reference for 'the average person's mind', so all I can think when I try to imagine what others think are distortions.

>>11949623
i actually started browsing reddit for the first time this year, 4chan is just too shitty, there's never new content it's just the same shill threads on repeat every day, ever consider the anti-reddit whiners are somehow stakeholders in 4chan and dont want you to switch brands? reddit's censorship is annoying but you can still find some great toxic communities if you pay attention

>>11952402
rip r/IslamicDiscussion

>>11952373
Don't send another text until she responds, if she never responds to your previous text you need to leave a decent time gap before you text her again.

>>11948209
I'm only 24, but i don't want to die. There's so much the world has to offer in terms of knowledge and exploration. I'm never going to get to experience most of it, and I'm scared of just "no longer existing." Really a haunting thought that one day, we stop existing.

>>11952669
same
unfortunately ive only started giving a shit about my health so i can live a long time recently. i wonder how many years ive lost to being dumb and lazy in my youth

>>11952501
Damn why are people so complicated.

I really hate people who refuse to take politicians at face value, assuming that they always have nasty ulterior motives and that everything they say is mere window dressing (unlike them of course, who are honest, transparent, and consistent). Politicians lie as easily as they breathe, but quite often they genuinely mean what they say. I also hate people who can't see that rarely does one single factor drive people to do things. "If america is so committed to spreading democracy then why doesn't it do so in Saudi Arabia?" If you think like this then you shouldn't even touch politics.

>>11952373
Don't text you retard. As the other anon said, if she didn't reply then you need to let some time go before you text her again.

>>11952702
it's easier to fake it if you pretend you're talking to lots of people and dont have time or care enough to get caught up in these things

>>11948209
I feel like a dysfunctional man, incomplete.
I can't seen to relate or bond very well with other guys, I'm always comparing myself to them: body, height, face, posture...
Doesn't matter if I "win" or not, the outcome is always some toxic feeling.
It has come to the point that I'm having some weird homo thoughts, even tho I don't feel genuine attraction. It's just about seeing who is the superior one. Fucking ridiculous.

>>11952813
u sound like a fucking chick, what a pussy

this shit where u have to "hold cmd + q to quit" on chrome is the shittiest user experience decision ever known to man, had to switch faggy firefox, which still allows popunders for some reason but at least it doesnt break the constituency of my os

>>11952850
>constituency
consistency fucking spell check sucks ass

>>11952813
>>>/fit/
vanity is very toxic, and male vanity is not well understood or accepted by society
i wish i had better advice to offer you

>>11952813

Not exactly the same as you, but maybe overlapping a bit. Only in my early 30s did I realize that unskilled parenting and the resulting trauma had caused core narcissistic wounding in me. I've been reading all I can about that stuff since.

>>11948307
why does being a brainlet make you this defensive anon

>>11948307
ten bucks this is a foid, only women accuse geeks of being "smug"

>>11949147
try studying math at any decent uni

>>11951431
Zoomer issues are making me incredibly hopeless for the 21st century. Bitter old people were right all along

I wish my dad was a rich cunt who could get me a job through nepotism. Doing things the straight and narrow way leaves much to be desired. People look at you like you're failing, when you're starting from scratch with nothing to your name. There's good reason our culture is so depressing when lucky idiots get trotted out as examples of success and talent. I think I'd rather be a lucky hack than a talented nobody.

>>11953143
talent is a social construct

Would you rather walk against a river to find its origin or with it to find its end

>>11953206
Walk with it to the end, enjoy my time with that and then go do something else when it's over.

anyone know any good youtube channels

>>11953206
stealing this for /cyoag/

It is most uncommon one finds themselves with lust towards that of most the detestable of reptiles, but so as it is rare that it is memorable. One evening while gorging myself on nuggers and honey syrups the shimmery bauble of some swimming thing had grabbed onto my eyes to hold them hostage. Feverishly transfixed I lay down my jars to seize the beast, and on doing so I realized that it were no beast at all.

That turtle is now my wife.

>>11954034
Turtles are some of the nicest reptiles

I got banned for posting factory farming stuff in an /an/ vegan hate thread. Apparently telling people where their meat comes from and the terrible conditions that leads to the death of lives is trolling. I hate capitalism. I hate this country. Fuck.

>>11954063
You’re right but they’ll take a chunk out of you if they bite. I saw one walking down the road the other day and picked it up to take it to the other side and it started doing this terrible hissing noise so it scared me and I threw it. I hope it did not land on its back

There is a loose but under-appreciated practical relationship in any halfway decent philosophy. Once you realize that everything is a philosophy--as in the virtual agency of ideology--you realize that the philosopher is the true riddler of the world. Everyone, everything, has a philosophy; not so much in that it has a philosophic description, but that it embodies a philosophy in its form and function.

I just finished watching Jaws. The movie itself has a philosophy--for one thing it is OK to misrepresent the behavior of sharks if it makes for riveting entertainment-- but the shark itself has a philosophy.

"I am an evolutionary machine that must eat to supply its enormous vestigial mass. I will fulfill this function without regard for human ethics or a concept of their suffering."

Furthermore, in response to such a being philosophy we develop our own:

"I am a man. The notion of a sea monster devouring young children and biting men in half defies my deepest sense of the wrong. I am compelled as if by a higher cause to kill it."

And so on it goes in a Hegelian dialectic until some productive result is achieved.

test

>>11948273
>you'll begin to notice other regulars and make friends

Lol!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>11948273
You sound like a well adjusted guy, which puts the lie to your whole piece of advice. People like you have a hard time understanding how socially crippled some young men are these days.

Instead of learning to socialize properly as children they were playing videogames or watching memes on some forsaken corner of the internet. Their social development has been hampered.

Believe me, I know what I'm talking about. I struggled with it myself and have only liberated myself painstakingly. Even then I have problems in some social situations where I am confronted by a desirable stranger.

This guy's problems run deeper is all I'm saying.

i think im being to impatient with my gains but im unsure, i just wanna be natty

>>11954084
Stop fucking with turtles then. It's not like their range of movement is enough they should have to bite you. You're clearly getting in the way of their mouth.

>>11950390
dumb nigger

>tfw job interview tomorrow
I don’t want to go

>>11954498
Yes you do. What’s the job

>>11954503
Lab tech at a pharmaceutical company

>>11954512
That sounds like a cool job? I only dread job interviews when I know I won't find the role interesting.

>>11949185
Honestly, it's just white dentists that have the shitty attitude. Asian dentists tend to be much more humane.

>>11954512
Oh God. Never mind, I couldn’t live with myself

pige

>>11954575
Pige

>>11954564
I remember when I got my wisdom teeth pulled out. The dentist was this withered, treeman-like old boot. You could tell he had enough to retire in minks and lavishes, but that he liked doing it.

"Alright kid I'm going to pump you full of gas because I've gotta cut you open."

Loud, empyrean classical music begins playing. The assistant places on the laughing gas mask. I briefly, in my frightened stupor resit for a second.

The dentist looks at me . "You wouldn't want to do that. It will hurt."

I release myself to my fate. Late I awake and the rest of my day is one of blood and vomit, the gas having made me physically ill.

>>11954512
>being a wageslave to the pharmajew

Yeah now I can see why you don't want to go. Hopefully it pays well, at least.

>>11954793
>Lab tech
>Pay well
lol

>>11949936
He is not bound to participate in this system he was born into. Think of it as "going off the grid."

>>11950362
That feeling of remorse and despair you feel when you think to back to this interaction is perfectly normal.
However you're putting so much energy and attention into a fanfic you created where you have your ideal fulfilling life.
Just be rational. Imagine feeling this dread and despair because you didn't invest in bitcoin when it was selling for cents.

What is this pain? What is this malefic glowing orb of dark lightening energy, cutting inside me, flashing and striking at my organs? This pain, forced on me like a wound, a pain vivid in all its essential reality. This carnal, brutal, direct sensation, a malicious wine, the electrifying drunken sensation of the body's shattering.

I drink it in, breath it in, snort it, and in my acceptance, it dissipates. A large component of pain is emotional. In fact, morphine functions by disabling the limbic emotional response to pain, not the activation of the nerves.

>>11954793
>every industry is owned by Jews
why don't you go look up who owns the biggest pharmaceutical firms nigger

It's so hard to hide

I WANT TO KILL PEOPLE

>>11954944
You’re right it’s not Jewish, that meme has got to stop, but the whole pharmaceutical industry is definitely bigger than it needs to be

>>11954932
Anon I don't even imagine what it would be like, so much as I know that things would be different and they would be different for the better no matter how we ended up.

>>11948209
Would a story involving a lonely guy falling in love with a ghost that's haunting his new home be good

I keep seeing people that look like her. The real her lives on the other side of the country now and I haven’t spoken to her in months. Fuck.

>>11955043
what a novel idea

>>11953206
Its origin, it's much more mysterious. The end of a river is most of the time just another larger river or a lake.

>>11955043
No, unless there is a lot of ghost sex and ghost blow jobs.

I have no where to blog about my homoerotic desires. I was banned from /lgbt/ for a tasteless joke.

I just want to carouse with a bunch of college bros and drink beers with them, and then totally ungayly give each other brojobs. Does my desire to bro out with them negate my desire to blow them? I'm not self-loathing or anything, but as one who is drawn to the straight man's world (I'm not super faggoty) I've always felt my difference as it were.

Bear in mind I'm not clueless. I know i'm not the first /lit/ homo to find himself in such predicaments. The mere statistical prevalence of the fact does not alleviate the sadness.

Nothing fixes the sadness, not even the obtainment of the guys themselves. (My hands have glided up enough abs, caressed enough muscled arms). Maybe "love" or a "relationship" would fix it, but for some reason that hasn't happened. Not sure I did anything wrong besides have this sexual orientation.

>>11955108
I imagine the closest they could do in terms of sexual activity is mutual masturbation. Unless it's a grudge type ghostie.

>>11955108

I was already convinced this site was on a downward spiral years ago, but with the proliferation of utterly forced memes like boomer/zoomer and NPCs, everything being an edit of Pepe and Wojak, and the death of OC, this site has long lost any sense of creativity or fun. Also people need to learn to sage threads, but I guess newfags never learned because they never lurked prior to 2013.

>>11955500
>he thinks sage still works

>>11955500
>any sense of creativity or fun
the general atmosphere has diminished, but why would you be here if this was actually true? people place emphasis on their former lives above the reality of the circumstances.

>>11955500
Those are all good though

>>11948273
>you'll begin to notice other regulars and make friends. You might even meet a girl you like there, and then work your way from there

lmao.

have you ever set foot in a gym?

>>11952402
please tell me what are some good communities

>>11955691
We don't want you there.

Want to shit ao bad but im gona wait till i get home

I spent several days getting a five page draft perfect. It was extremely minimalist, and I had high hopes. Like every other writing project, it was received negatively. All of my care and attention was for nothing.
A week ago the weather started to get cold and my dry spell seemed to let up. I was getting consistent messages from around 4 girls. I knew a few of them well. Others, barely at all. I was feeling good about myself. My friend was hitting girls up, and just asking them straight up if they wanted to fuck. He said he was successful and slept with two of them. I thought, why don't I try this? If he is having so much luck. Well it turns out he was lying, because it ruined my relationship with 3 of the 4 and I feel like some sort of incel now.

A story I came up with but can't write is causing me severe psychological torment. It's been going on for three years

How can I purge it from my consciousness so I don't spend an eternity chasing this concept?

wtf one of my normie roommate's thot gf's was just talking shit about me fapping so i could hear it, i just stared at her like fuck off ho but that was fucking rude as shit

>>11948307
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NvOYv9c11hM
You mean like this?

>>11955943
now im gonna be self-conscious when i fap for the next two weeks

>>11955550
It does still work. And you're not old enough to know about the image complication it used have. Go google that, it'll keep you busy a while.

>>11955860
How did you ask them - and what did they say?

>>11955860
>thirsty incel busts a simp move

take the mgtowpill

>>11956149
I've fucked before, so I'm not technically an incel, just in a dry spell. I've even done relationships.
>>11956144
I asked "may I please have some coochie, Ma'am."
They all laughed and thought it was funny/clever or whatever but none were down.

>>11956210
>I asked "may I please have some coochie, Ma'am."

How old are you? That's probably the most autistic way you could ask anon.

>>11956222
I'm 20 and yeah that was the point.

>>11956246
when i was 20 i was like few years into a decade of lsd induced autism, so i certainly can't say i was less retarded, in fact im still fairly retarded but not totally wacko

>>11955860
are you significantly less attractive than your friend anon? looks actually matter quite a lot

>>11953206
I don't mind which way we go, so long I can go with you.

is all of the Border Trilogy worth reading?
Or does ATPH well enough explain the other two?

>>11955090
I was thinking end because oceans have cool stuff like crabs but you changed my mind. What does this mean?

i fuckin love trump man, this dude is fdr tier maybe even bigger, we're witnessing something special

>>11948209
I want to fucking kill that shitty fucking mascot. Fuck reddit, fuck reddit. Fuck "Snoo", or whatever the fuck that space-monkey is called. Fucking niggerlicious faggot.
Oh, isn't it fucking great that Jewgle knows every time you post? Fucking hell, when is gookmoot gonna fix that shit? Oh, but he won't. Damn it all.

>>11956399
Hitler did nothing wrong. He could have prevented this.
Ron Paul would have been much better than Trump. If only he was elected in 2012. SPIN: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdXtIJNNVZM

>>11956400
How Ron Paul was cheated (notice any similarities with SPIN?): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hFeyau7SUE
Also, daily reminder that Brick and Mortar is shit.

I'm 28 and I'm still not sure what I want to do with my life. I'm privileged enough to not have to worry about it yet but I still don't know. I don't want a career. I hate the idea of being tied down to one thing I do for the rest of my life until I retire. I just can't do tjat. I feel like I have a new hobby every week. A lot of interests.

I hate how capitalism makes me think about how to make money off of something I enjoy instead of just simply enjoying it.

>>11956411
>capitalism
You mean life?

>>11956422

No I mean capitalism. The shitty entity pushed by sociopaths and retards that infects every facet of life and makes it a nightmare.

>>11954944
>>11954982
Jew is just another word for capitalist, which is another word for degeneration and exploitation.

>>11956431
Not all Jews are capitalists and you don't need Jews to degenerate, exempli gratia, the Han Dynasty.

>>11956451

I think the point is to stop solely blaming the Jews and start blaming the real problem: capitalism

Last night I had a dream where my sister and I were backpacking out somewhere. We followed along a lake, her talking about skiing and how I should have brought mine, and there came a river crossing. It looked unmoving and so I stepped in. It carried me off out of the mouth into endless ocean with all these old cars floating in it. I got in one and drove it deep into the ocean's bowels, and just as I began to panic from the realization that I was drowning, I woke up.
I miss my sisters. I don't think they care for me much at all, they have boyfriends/fiancees, and I don't make any effort to talk to them. I had another dream the other night where I spouted off a bunch of racist shit at my other sister. I wish I had actually grown up with them.
One day I'd like to be a good uncle. Someone my sisters can trust. I love them so much.

>>11956457
>capitalism
>the "real" problem
Capitalism is a problem, but not the main issue right now.
Juche is the best form, but it's still shit.

>>11956469

Capitalism is absolutely the main problem for humanity right now. Without its existence we would not be in such shit.

>>11956400
FREE BIRD!

>Out walking my dog through an old cemetery
>Shabby drunk woman is wobbling past me on her bicycle but stops and speaks with me
>"Hiya"
>"Hi"
>"I see you walking your dog all the time by yourself"
>"I don't mind being alone"
>"I'm a loner too, it's better that way. That way nobody can let you down, except yourself..."
>Don't reply as she haphazardly cycles away

Felt like I was a character in a book

>>11956529
The idea that “we’re in shit” is not true, you have all the onions you want and an endless stream of media and information to entertain you

>>11956616
Now I know why that other anon called 'Holes' propaganda.

>>11956529
No capitalism is not the problem

it is merely indifferent to utilitarianism as are free markets in general when left to themselves - American corporatism is the best economic/political system out there, complain all you want

>>11956634
Not him but your last sentence is retarded. Even feudal forms of capitalism have points above American corporatism and a greater chance at actual corporatism. At minimum you should aim for an economic or political policy where the prime example of its "power" isn't the Moonies.

>>11955691
There are none. I have an idea for an image board but with some twists that I want to try out but I’m not autistic enough to actually create it.

>>11956634
Capitalism is literally going to cook the planet over the next hundred years so if it’s really the best system anyone can conceive humanity may as well just end itself now.

>>11956616

Propaganda is a hell of a drug.

I feel fucking mediocre. Every single thing I've ever done, it's like I can't put in the effort. Even this post, even the image I've attached to it, even my body, even this sentence, even this thought. Even the song I'm listening to. Even the board I'm on. I feel like I'm locked to a certain frequency by God and I can't escape it. Even the rhetorical device I was trying there has backfired. I feel I don't even think or pay attention to what's going on ever. I am always badly adjusted.

Even today when I was in the throes of the most wonderful manic episode and had had the perfect amt of caffiene to boot... I was still an 8 at best. And all this speak of numbers. THere is nowhere I belong, there is nothing I am good at, there is nothing that I evne like. What the fuck? I don't even know why I'm on this board.

I can't even be around my father, he reminds me of the regression to the mean. There is nothing I want more than to have something, to do something, to be something. WHy is art and all creativity so hard? I don't even care enough about it to do it. Why couldn't I be born alittle more talented? Have a few more life experiences? At the base of all this ist rying to be God, trying to look above the world, I think of all these thoughts before I so much as have a single desire. Before I can have a single clear desire. Everythign is frustrated and broken within me. Bceause whenever anybody has a desire they have it and they chase it. God I fucking hate my father .Fuck I am so full of hatred. I don't know what to say. That's what I'm talking about. I'm trying to clear the mediocrity by posting my mind's own read out in a nice cute way but it doesn't work. Also I leave in the typos but that doesn't work either, my mind is always twisting back into itself like the teeth or horns that if thye aren't worn out by animals chewing or struggling against each other curl back pierce the brain and kill them.

Even that stupid curt abortive metaphor is a facade, something that they gave me that isn't mine I can't give up control I can't not see myself I fucking hate this

>>11952669
>>11952700
me too anons. i always daydream about how great it would be if there was a time machine which would reset your life and allow you to live your life a different way. one life really isn't enough

>>11948209
whats on your mind

>>11956669
>>11956706
The great virtue of American democracy has been its ability to transfer most political power into the hands of corporations. We complain incessantly about "Crony capitalism" or "corporatism". But corporatism is the best economic system ever devised (which is why it exists pretty much EVERYWHERE). Who honestly wants politicians(bureaucrats), with no business experience, running this country? Or for that matter, who honestly wants the rabble running this country? No, we want businessmen running this country. In fact, we want the best and wealthiest businessmen running this country. They will organize society to be the most competitive and most productive.

The Soviet Union and other socialist states have tried to transfer power to intellectuals/politicians/bureaucrats; But that class of people don't understand how to run much of anything. A system run by intellectuals is doomed to failure. A system run by businessmen is destined for success.

Of course the downside of this all is that economic grown becomes the primary concern -- the end-all, be-all -- of life in the West, which often runs counter to utilitarianism.

>>11956836
lmao shut the fuck up. You’re going to destroy every good thing this world has to offer and then stand there confused at why it happened. Fucking moron.

>>11956846
I won't be "confused," I know full well how this system will likely end because I realize corporations are inherently amoral sociopaths. Their only goal is profits. And profits come not only from production, but from consumption.

I was like you and once -- hoping that eventually this system would collapse. That the people would eventually get tired of it. But the people have become so corrupted by it, and have become so reliant on it. It really can't be changed. At least half of the people in this country rely on government directly for their very livelihoods. Social-security recipients, welfare recipients, government workers, bankers, corporations, etc. There is just no possibility of a revolution, the forces are aligned against it.

I've now become quite fatalistic about all of it. I think you'd become more content in the long term if you did the same anon.

>>11956848
I’m resigned to our fate as well but I don’t go around extolling the “virtues” of the system.

>>11956836

>>11956836
Yes, of course everyone wants to marry into the Moonies and tithe to their great mother the true mother of humanity and fight communism. I mean, their other options are to live in countries which don't have the social or political or economic problems the US, S Korea or Zimbabwe have. One day those former empires of Europe with all their greater bank balances are going to have to transfer the money to President Moon once they realise the error of their ways and stop growing faster than the US. They're clearly just holding on to greater market share capitalisation out of Alzheimer's or something, and that is why the US defaulted to socialist China. Er, I mean, "delayed payment" on [insert euphemism for large amounts of debt to the communist party].

Where do I start with Stirner? Should I read things before him? I've read Plato and the stoics if that matters.

>>11949367
a favorite of mine

nothing that has happened ever really happened

>>11948209
I need more historical book recommendations. Specifically on European history.

people that buy little knickknacks should be send to re-education camps

people that buy funko pops should be shot in the back of the head

>>11949623
ive personally never been to reddit ive only ever visited here and spaceghetto

I'm so fucking needy when it comes to people, but only if it's someone I don't know well. Once I know that a friendship is solid, I take them for granted and the amount of attention I pay them lessens. But with someone new, they suddenly become the beginning and end of my life.

I really should ask that girl out

>>11957099
she'll say no

>>11957102
That would be even easier than if she said yes

>>11949623
>the people who "object" to using reddit as an aggregator of links are intimately familiar with its lingo and posting style
This is because hating on reddit is basically the most reddit thing in existence.

>>11956751
If your desire to create art stems from a vague fear of being mediocre while only having in mind the competitive and hierarchical aspect of social recognition then you will never create anything meaningful. First you have to cut these cords. Stop caring about what you imagine others think of you and your work. Then contemplate about what you actually want to achieve. If you still have the desire to be creative then go for it.
However reading your post makes me think that you don't have it in you. All you seem to care about is the recognition of others. That in fact does make you mediocre. You hate your father because you know that in your heart you are excatly like him

>>11956246
Being ironically awkward is still just being awkward. Don't do that.

I fucking hate being in love. I can't do anything on my own any more, every 5 minutes I need to check if she sent me a text, and if she didn't then there's something wrong and my mind starts to wonder. It's been a year but I'm still that same school boy. It's exhausting, and I hope I get over all of it soon.

>>11954077
Everyone knows where meat comes from. Stop being obnoxious.

>>11957245
Not to defend vegans, but some places have reasonably humane animal slaughter practices and the shit they do in the US is unfathomable there. I still find it bizarre Americans stack cows in cages. It's like they really took Minecraft too far memes.

its tiem soon

>>11955500
They don't go past the pepe/wojak form because they don't need to. They're conceptual memes, the present avant-garde.
Besides, why would you go on 4chan for memes? They're everywhere nowadays.

>>11956538
wat

Why do so many supposed """right-wing extremists""" or whatever the news calls them use Twitter as their main platform and then act surprised when the San Francisco lefties that run the site ban their accounts for saying the wrong thing? Just do us all a favor and ditch the site already, the internet is too centralized and people need to wake up and realize a for-profit silicon valley startup is never going to be a designated free speech zone. I don't even follow these people or really know what they believe in, but the attachment to social media by so many """radicals""" across the political spectrum freaks me out.
I remember being told as a kid that in the future everyone would have their own website, what happened to that? If Zuckerbergstein tries to shut you down can't you just make your own site and ditch the middleman? I'm probably being naive here, but nobody has ever given me an answer to this question. Why does anyone try to attack the system using a platform that is so clearly controlled by the system? Why aren't there more anonymous image boards? Why can't people just get off the internet? Why do people talk like they're on the interment when they're in real life? It's all so frustrating.

>>11956851
Jeff Bezos makes $231,000 per minute. That money could do a lot of good in the world. Look at America. It's laying around in pieces. The infrastructure is rubbish, people die. That money isn't doing any good sitting in Bezo's bank accounts. It would be humanly impossible for him to spend and recirculate it fast enough.

Extreme wealth imbalances kill capitalism outright, and yet capitalism specializes in generating such imbalances.

>>11957689
It's called network effects. Feedback loops. A social media network's value is directly proportional to its size, Metcalfe's law: the effect of a telecommunications network is proportional to the square of the number of connected users of the system.

So you are free to use some alternative social network, (Hittwer, let's call it, a social media twitter for neo-nazis) but you won't be reaching anybody. So why use a social network that isn't very social and isn't much of a network?

>>11957750
I would like to have an Intellectual Law named after me. I have a few concepts that would make good candidates.

>>11957716
>tfw you can't by a new BMW every minute
Must be nice being so dirty rich

>>11957689
>why don't people just use gab.ai
because people don't use gab.ai
do you even know the first thing about social networks
>in the future everyone would have their own website
they also said everyone would have hoverboards in the future - turns out both ideas are stupid and impractical
>I'm probably being naive here
yeah you are but that's okay, no shame in learning something for the first time

radicals need mainstream social media precisely because they are radicals. Because they are radicals, they struggle to reach normal people long enough to even explain what their radicalism is all about. Because they are radicals, normal people are afraid to go near their secret radical clubhouse. A website made by and for radicals will only ever be visited by radicals, and can only be used for communication/organization/community between already committed radicals (these sites do exist btw). To reach out to, or interact with the mainstream, radicals need to approach moderates on a neutral common ground, like twitter/facebook/youtube. Not all radicals care about reaching out or growing their numbers or shifting the overton window in their direction, but the ones that do have to use mainstream sites to do it. You don't see street preachers in back alleys.
>Why does anyone try to attack the system using a platform that is so clearly controlled by the system?
because there are higher laws, legal, social, etc, that limit the power of that system and they think they have a fighting chance
>Why aren't there more anonymous image boards?
there are tho (some of them are used for inter-radical communication, like I said above)
>Why can't people just get off the internet?
information is the fundamental basis not just of human thought, but of physical existence. Not surprising that such an information-soaked phenomenon is intoxicating
>Why do people talk like they're on the interment when they're in real life?
there are no social norms preventing it anymore. We live in post-reality
>It's all so frustrating.
yes it fucking is

>>11957229
Aww you sound so sweet, never forget what it's like to being in love anon. It's a lovely feeling and you shod cherish it.

>>11950557
You can always get a dildo or something if you just want to feel what it's like to do the act. Or get a boyfriend.

>>11950715
I'm actually using an Australian in my sci-fi and fantasy story. One night when he went out for a drink and got pissed he helped an abbo woman that was being bothered by someone for just being an abbo. She blessed him as a thank you but he was too pissed to realize. When he went to the third pub of the night a demon from Australia folklore asks him to play some betting games. After it already took all his money the demon told him double or nothing, either you win your money or I get to eat your soul. The Australian being too pissed to think things through upped the ante with "Ay mate, but if I fuckin win I get your soul as well" and promptly finished his pint of fosters. The demon agreed to this and lost, meaning the eternally pissed Australian now had the powers of a very strong Australian spirit of folklore.

What I'm trying to say is that you should embrace your heritage.

>>11954978
We all do, normal people suck so much.

>>11956751
It's incredibly rare for people to be naturally talented at something. Getting good at things sucks because you're going to suck at it for a long time. But then you get less and less sucky and finally you get good at the thing you were sucky in, then after a while of just being good compared to your peers you're going to be great or even amazing compared to others.
And you know why that is anon, it's because you kept trying even when you could see for yourself that you were sucky or mediocre and you kept going till you weren't.

>>11957872
>I'm actually using an Australian in my sci-fi and fantasy story
I have a New Zealand character in mine. He's a journo. Based on Julian Assange, but different enough to be his own person.

People over there are interesting and have a quirky perspective on things and sense of humor. Living down under tends to do that I suppose.

I stole some of my housemate's milk for my tea but it had gone off so now I have no milk and no tea.

>>11949623
You need to Go back to r3ddit

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU KEEP INITIATING CONVERSATION IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME GODDAMMIT ARE YOU PURPOSEFULLY TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT ????

>>11958058
I'm sorry about that anon, I hope you feel better soon. Maybe it's time for a trip to asda or Tesco

>>11958058
Worst feel.

>tfw fresh apple cider is finally here
Sometimes New England is alright

>>11958246
Its always good. Unless you don't live in real NE

>>11958085
ayy get fucked

>>11958246
>>11958254
My boys. I should have never moved away. <3

I always feel like a brainlet about anything (films, music, literature etc) even when I acquire a more refined taste and have a larger knowledge about things. I wish I could stop feeling so inadequate.

>>11948209
My inevitable suicide grows closer by the day.Mmy memory has now degraded to the point that I'm only vaguely sure that I didn't pop into existence this morning.

>>11958254
I live in Massachusetts so it's only really nice during the fall and brief spring. Maybe I'll go further north once I graduate desu.

>>11958341
It can be nice around Christmas time as well. But having lived there for much of my life I can confirm that I basically didn't do anything for most of each summer or winter because it was either too sultry or too frigid to move. No wonder I became such a bookish type and the state is known for them.

>>11958362
Yeah the early winter can be good too, it's once the harsh winds start that I cease going outside for the next five months

>>11957105
>That would be even easier than if she said yes
This is me right now. I'm more worried about what would happen if she said yes.

>>11958383
It'll be terrifying but fun and worth while. Don't make my mistake anon, I had a cute, /lit/ girl flat out tell me she was into me and I didn't do anything I was too afraid.

If I whack it too much I get sinus headaches and my allergies start acting up. What's the deal with that?

>>11958416
Renounce the flesh. Temper your desires.

>>11958416
Allergic to your own penis

>>11958423
Jacking off makes you go blind. Your head swells up with all the extra cum your testes produces. Look it up.

>>11958397
I'll see. I just hate this feeling of uncertainty. It's as if I'm going to implode before the next time I see her.

>>11957716
>Jeff Bezos makes $231,000 per minute. That money could do a lot of good in the world.

you know what "good in the world" it's doing? it's creative a massive logistics and shipping network connecting producers with consumers around the globe, creating 1000s of jobs, allowing startups to scale up easily on the cloud, and many more wonderful things, see you get paid the amount of value you create....so excited to see newark nj is in the 3 finalists for second amazon hq, that city is perfect, and holy shit it will be reborn like never before if bezos moves there

>>11957689
real geeks already switch to mastodon a long time ago, and judging from all the gay anime avatars on there probably a bunch of weebs from here

>>11958539
fucking americans need to get off this board holy shit they don't even understand how stocks work

>>11958592
why dont u, oh wise eurotrash from a country with moribund market, inform us "how stocks work"

>>11958592
People who think americans are somehow dumb are ludicrously fucking stupid and butthurt. Americans run the most important universities in the world. Almost everything of importance is developed in America

Do you know why Americans have low test scores? It has to do with a certain demographic issue

>>11958600
Hint: the profits Bezos is receiving from his ownership of Amazon aren't being invested into "creating a massive logistics and shipping network".

>>11958604
American posters on this site are predominantly white, male, and stupid. The elite institutions may as well be a separate world.

>>11958633
The elite institutions in America were created by white men and are still largely run by white men. White men created almost all of modernity

>>11958604
It's because they take high IQ immigrants from all over the world, so 2nd and 3rd gen european immigrants are what makes these universities so "important". Your average american truly is one of the dumbest demographics in the world, especially in the western world, and i'm not talking only about blacks. American culture is incredibly low brow and anti intellectual.

>>11958650
m8 the immigrants were mostly Irish and Germans, and then slavs and italians. The aristocracy in America was Anglos, supplemented by later incursions of Jews.

There is nowhere on earth today with a highbrow culture because democracy precludes its possibility. HIgh culture is created by aristocracies, this isn't remotely debatable.

>>11958645
High IQ white men. Don't think you're part of the wonders the west created if you're below 130 IQ. Both the west and the rest of the world are a sea of mediocrity and only the wealthy and intelligent are the ones that guide history and progress.

>>11958657
Exactly, universities are dominated by imported Jews from europe. Not an American creation. The best thing Italians contributed to America was The Sopranos and Godfather. If you see the leading projects that defined America they were all dominated by Jews and Germans. Your culture is literally Judaism.
>There is nowhere on earth today with a highbrow culture because democracy precludes its possibility. HIgh culture is created by aristocracies, this isn't remotely debatable.
I don't even think it has to do with the aristocracy problem because democracy also breeds high class (because of capitalism of course). There is no high brow culture today because the enviroment is heterogeneous. Kids that are sons of billionaires or politicians waste their time playing Fortnite and League of Legends and shitposting haha le funy memes on instagram instead of being teached high brow culture. This is a problem of modernity and the information age.

A black cat crosses my path but not my mind.
I am cruising down Lakeshore in someone else’s car.
As I make the turn, I know that in five minutes, her lips will be pressed to mine.
And in ten, she will grip the sheets until her knuckles whiten.

A while ago I poured myself a glass of vodka and added two ice cubes. By now the cubes have melted and I'm sitting here staring at a glass of slightly cooler, slightly more diluted vodka.

>>11948209
I wonder if I would make friends if I go to reddit...

>>11958539
What a load of horse shit. Do you think most of Bezo's money goes into his company? It's called profit. It's normally pocketed not reinvested in the company. That's what stocks are for.

>>11959096
Do you think Bezo is storing all his money in his mattress?

>>11957223
aw swing and a miss, mac. it's not because I'm like him that's the problem.

Also I would argue that it's impossible to create a work without thinking at all about what others will think of you. I agree that to try to create something purely to make yourself look good is bad... but we have to write for someone, after all, even if it's just a friend.

Also, again, how do you even care about things? About anything?

>>11959118
No, do you think he's using it on amazon?

>>11959557
I think he's storing it in some kind of bank. Meaning the money is used to do whatever the fuck banks are doing. Meaning no matter how much wealth he accumulate the money is still doing what money do, circulating in society.

>>11959619
>I think he's storing it in some kind of bank
This is the caliber of person I am trying to argue with