/lit/ - Literature

I wrote a poem about bathroom tiles today, and it is my best work so far. I probably will not post it here.

James Abbott McNeil Whistler is my favorite painter :)

>>11939638
Based Grimshaw poster.

I want to bring book that i'm reading to work, but my hands are always dirty and i would ruin it.

>"Is it not better to fall into the hands of a murderer, than into the dreams of a lustful woman?"

Yet already I begin to fall into her dreams, despite hardly knowing her. I thought it silly when reading similar posts in these threads about women; yet here I am, doing the exact same. Lord, do I ever despise this base biological impetus. Abstinent or not, I cannot resist her.

I need to quit being such a weenie and just talk to her

>>11939638
Reading Ulysses near the end is very discouraging. It feels like he accomplished almost everything thats possible in writing

>>11939756
God is love. By denying the love of the flesh, you are denying God.

>>11939769
t. satan

pre-marital intercourse is a sin

>>11939756

>>11939856
arthur... easy on the poodles...

I have built up a metal defense against developing feelings for anyone. Firstly, because I've only experienced false starts in my relationships and secondly, because falling in love would be the only thing that would stop me from going to teach in Japan.

It's impossible to talk about this without being called a weeb, but I am unironically saving myself for a Japanese woman. I know this is a terrible idea. I barely speak the language and everyone I've talked to said it took them at least a year to get to the point where they could hold a conversation in Japanese. Even my closest friends don't believe in me, and I can tell that my parents aren't one hundred percent on board with me marrying a non-christian, but at least they respect my decision.

But I have to go. When I went to Tokyo on a study abroad trip I made contact with something. I don't know what it was or when exactly it happened, but I feel like I was briefly able to interface with the Japanese lobe of the universal unconscious. Ever since then I've had dreams of being back there.

I am in the process of making peace with the idea of living celibate if it comes to that. I must find the source of that sensation. But if I find love there, then I can proudly say I've made anime real.

I've lived a live of good and reasonable decisions, I'm thinking it might be time to make some bad ones.

i'm in a bad relationship anon, but improving myself

>>11939638

Americans are fucking stupid.

>>11939919
yeah, FUCK drumpf am i right

>>11939922

Yes. Trump is a stupid American.

>>11939927
t.

>>11939895
What makes you think returning to Japan is the only way to recapture that feeling? It could have just been something related to being outside of your comfort zone.

I've been wondering if I should major Outdoor Leadership and Management or Poli Sci. I've always felt a magnetic draw to power, but I don't see a path to salvation through politics, and I'm afraid that the sliminess of the political world may rub off on me. If I were to work a more nature oriented job I would be contented, but I'm not sure I could ever be fully fulfilled. In other words, I need to decide which path to head down, and either one I choose, I feel like I would be leaving a part of myself behind.

>>11939638
no

>>11939950
At the point I'm at life/career wise, returning to Japan is the only way for me to step outside my comfort zone in a meaningful way. That and teaching abroad is the cheapest way to explore the world nowadays.

>>11939953
If you consider yourself to have a "magnetic draw to power" then you are slime. Political science is not about becoming a politician you wanna-be authoritarian, its about understanding political systems that interlock for the presumable benefit of society. And if you feel your only choices are to be a "slimy" politician or be unemployed, then your priorities are way out of line.

The ability to create within, resides in your heart and all body consciousness. Where does it call you. Your calling is for you. It’s unique It’s special, whatever words you decide. This is life at all its levels. See the perfection. Yes in a matter of fact I do. I learn to let go of letting go. Nothing is wrong or right. I let go of letting go. Fractions of the mind and its need to let out the wa waaaas Our life is short so the birds come out of there cages. Everything you wanted to be you already. And if you want it to make you sad. You can do whatever you want. Letting go Let life butterfly. Soft Love connection. Don’t judge others because there are no others.

>>11939895
>But if I find love there, then I can proudly say I've made anime real.

Im in a shitty time of my life where all I can do is wait. Apply for job, go to interview, hope. All while everyone around looks down on me and I have to grovel for help like a pathetic mooch.

Oh well, books help pass the time.

>>11939674
buy a cheap copy of it u dont care about ass-bitch

>>11940012
“Absolute power does not corrupt absolutely, absolute power attracts the corruptible.”

I didn't think this video would be so sad and funny
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IG2tiH0qWnY&t=196s

>>11940179
Partly true although I think a better way to put it would be "fragmented power and the need to maximize it corrupts absolutely". Such is seen in democracy and modern politicians, bureaucrats, etc.

If Europeans are so cucked why do Americans only ever do peaceful protests whilst the frogs are chucking shit and apples at the authorities and the Greeks are throwing molotov cocktails at cops?

Why are Americans so pathetic?

>>11940200
Cause our police will literally kill us at even the hint of hostility towards them

>>11940215

Why not do violence on them first and incapacitate them from killing you? There are more non-cops than cops at any protests. I thought every American had a gun? Or at least access to a bottle and some petrol and rags.

A young girl, no older than 15 years old, comes out of a long, refreshing sleep. Her name is Aliah, meaning exalted, noble. She comes from an affluent family, her every need catered to, healthy/organic/delicious food. The family dachshund snuggles up beside her as she yawns and stretches her limbs. "Good morning Kippy" she says to her dog through a yawn. She flips the blankets off the bed and sits on the edge of the bed, cracking her neck and taking slow, deep breaths. She closes her eyes and tilts her head upward, then opens her eyes and stares at the ceiling for a few moments, then stands up. Kippy comes to the edge of the bed to meet Aliah, Aliah pets Kippy tenderly and scratches behind her ears, and gives her snout a little squeeze.

>>11940226
And they have armored vehicles that can drop of 20 heavily armed swat at any moment. You absolutely DO NOT want to test the police. Half of them just came back from a war where they basically played god and smited people from the sky, that power gets to your head.

I don't know where I'm going or if I'll end up with a bullet in my head. I'm tired so maybe thats got me down

>>11940240
here's a couple
>one of them is a fucking tank

>>11940240

Wait a minute, I thought your GUNS could defend against a modern army?

>>11940246

None of those are tanks.

>>11940246
You know police in Europe walk around with machine guns?

>>11940246

Also,

>polizei
>polis

Americans are afraid of European law enforcement? But Europeans are not and still fling shit and flames at them? But Americans are brave and uncucked yet Europeans are cuckold cowards?

>>11939638
I am 100% sure a bug crawled into my nose and is lodged in my nasal. I had this strange tingling sensation behind yesterday, and now my eye hurts and throbs. My vision goes in and out. Occasionally I have the sensation of sneezing but can’t, and I hear a crackling in my ear every now and again.
It is very strange to have a bug in your face. I wonder how it will come out.

>>11940247
>>11940249
>>11940251
Well now i got egg on my face
anyway i guess sometimes we do go toe to toe with the police but it's rare and most of the time you really don't want to kill a boy in blue in fear of other angry cops
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bo9Vu_X6lKw

>>11939638
Can someone please tell me how to stop prematurely ejaculating?

>>11939638
Everything is so tiresome. I just wanna devote myself to God. I’m considering joining a monastery.

I sobbed today out of anger. At dinner my gf indirectly told me I’m not good enough for her. She mentioned that her mother asked about me by using my first name for the first time, and then asked her daughter if this was the kind of guy she’d want to introduce to her parents. Then my gf stopped talking, not a word more, and continued eating. My heart dropped. I instantly realized that my gf was ashamed of me, that I would never meet her parents not their expectations. It brought about a terrible feeling in me. Livid, I began ostensibly apologizing to my gf for not being Jewish, for not going to med school, for not making 6 figures, like her previous boyfriends. All she could say to my rant was, “sorry, anon, my parents just want the best for me.” My face and chest burned with emotion. That was all the confirmation I needed. It had been a culmination of things up until that point. For weeks I thought our relationship had grown toxic and wondered if it would last. But that was the moment I knew I had to break up with her, for my sake. Even though I love her, I love myself more and don’t want to hurt again the way I did tonight. I’m happy with my life and don’t want to feel inadequate by my gf’s parents. So what if I work at a process serving company and part-time at a bar? I’m a good person. That’s what should matter. Judge me by my character, not by my wallet. Something also just occurred to me. I met her friend from Harvard this past weekend at brunch. Her friend didn’t ask me what I did for a living. Odd, isn’t it? That’s generally the first thing people ask when meeting someone for the first time. Wonder if my gf told her about my work and not to bring it up in front of me. Perhaps I’m just looking too into this, but still. I don’t deserve this. This isn’t what I wanted. I never thought relationships could be so much work, so painful. I don’t want to be just some toy for her before she goes off to medschool next year. I’m such a fool. I should’ve known this could never be. Classes aren’t meant to mingle.

>>11940320
I'm sorry buddy. Honestly she sounds like a cunt. She'll have a life of material wealth and emotional mediocrity. Work whatever the fuck you want as long as you can pay the bills.

>>11939638

Nick Land prowls the neighborhood at night, as he does every night, hoping someone nearby left their dog outside. He peers over a fence. Nothing, damn. He hears an engine and ducks behind a bush. He looks through his night-vision monocular-- just that beater truck again. Nick squats there for a few seconds. The sound recedes into the cool autumn night.

Nick slinks out from behind the bush and continues his trek. He walks parallel to the jogging trail that circumnavigates the neighborhood, his moccasins quietly patting against the dirt. A stray leaf crackles under his foot. A noise-- he freezes again-- jingling.

He can almost smell it. His erection is throbbing. Nick raises the monocular to his eye in a smooth motion: that's it. A golden retriever is scratching its neck with its hind leg. He looks both ways and, satisfied by the lack of pedestrians, creeps toward the waist-high fence. The dog has stopped scratching. It trots around the yard. Nick touches the fence, feels its rough, bare grain. He steps over it softly.

Nick is salivating. He pushes off the fence like a sprinter from his block, vaults a small raised garden bed, and makes straight for the dog. The dog hears him, but it's too late. Nick tackles the dog, grabs it around the muzzle, gropes around for a hairy leg. He works his way up the thigh and feels the retriever's dangling member. He squeezes. The dog whines.

His eyes wide like a wild man, Nick fumbles furiously, trying to pull his sweatpants down one-handed. He succeeds. The breeze chills his precum-primed erection as he feels for the dog's asshole. He finds it-- fumbles-- jams his cock in. The dog struggles, whines against Nick's visegrip on his snout. It is futile. All Nick perceives is the rich fur, the musky odor, the dry sphincter.

>>11940345

He thrusts into the dog with a mad fervor, on his face is plastered the distorted expression of a man consumed by lust. The dog has stopped struggling. It whines softly with each thrust. Nick pounds faster as pressure builds. He shifts his hand back from the snout to the dog's throat.

Nick can take it no longer. He cums hard into the hound, squeezing ever tighter with one hand on the dog's neck and the other gripping it's meaty thigh. He is spent.

The dog isn't moving. It lays on the ground pathetically. As Nick comes to his senses he realizes that he must have squeezed the dog too hard. He pulls up his gray sweatpants and puts a hand on the canine's ribs, corrugated like those of an anorexic. He feels trembling and jerking. The dog wheezes shallow breaths.

Nick takes a deep breath. He works his way to his feet, dusts the fur from his t-shirt, and brings the monocular out again. Scans the night. He sees no one. Calmly he pads over to the fence. He steps over it gently. He casts back a final glance at the dying dog; the dog blinks back. Nick flashes a closed-mouth smile and sets off toward home. He whistles the Battle Hymn of the Republic as he strolls satisfied down the jogging trail.

>>11939756
Pseud
>>11939762
Based

>>11939638
I'm old now, never went to college. I'd be lying if I said I even understood everything I read here, all I have is my experience- and these days I'm not sure thats enough.

>>11939953
As an outdoor educator I’m going to tell you to fuck right off. If your heart is not in it, you have no business shaping people's minds about the wilderness in any type of responsible way.

>>11940320
I warned you in that jewess bait thread two weeks ago. Dumb shabbos goy why didn’t you listen to me?

>>11940277

Just admit that for all the blustering and the blowhardiness that Americans are pussies and cucked.

I'm majoring in microbiology but am mortified of going to grad school because of how many people I have had tell me that getting their PhD was the biggest mistake of their lives and that they'll be paying it off until they die. I want to move out of state to Boston. I can feel disdain from my mom whenever it comes up. My grades aren't even that good I can't finish anything I start maybe I should give up.

also, bro's is becoming involved with a coworker a bad plan?

>>11940297
>pleasure function broke. Error. Seek input
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Anhedonia is taking over everything I once enjoyed. Some of it was inevitable with aging I suppose but I'm just in my early 20s and it's only going to get worse I fear. What do you guys do to feel some sort of happiness/contentment from time to time anons?

>>11939638
My journey through nofap Continues

>>11939762
I dont remember the name of the game but it was mad fun to play

1. Your favorite gun
2. (((Your darkest secret))

I'll begin
1. Lebel 1886/93, or any if the more modern versions.

2. (((I have been doing gay ERP with this one guy for years now. Every fetish shy of stuff like scat and piss we've done, stuff like mpreg sex slave to alien rape dungeons, to even just general romantic stuff. But recently I've felt genuine feelings for him, and its begun to impact me in real life. I deleted my tinder because i can't see myself with women anymore, and I long for his messages. I know my family would never accept it though, and i still feel that i lean towards girls, but he's genuinely the only one that seems to understand me, and when he talks about other guys he knows irl it physically hurts me in my chest.)))

I'm an asshole. A pristine, unvarnished, crystalline asshole. An asshole of profound dimensions, a cosmic asshole. One without limits and infinite horizons, a great sea of an asshole, an asshole that can contain multitudes.

And while I am sure of my status as an Asshole, I somehow manage to not be a Dick. Dicks and Assholes go together like vanilla ice cream and apple pie. When I think of Dicks it's not long before I think of Assholes. So how do I manage pulling off being an Asshole but not a Dick? My mother must've taught me some manners.

It's 2 AM. I slept from 8 to 11 PM, and now I'm doing a coding project listening to Michael Jackson while my window is open and the night air is freezing as it blows in on me and my shorts. I wonder if it's really so bad to be up at this time of night since it feels so peaceful. I have class at 8 AM, but I can stand being tired. That's why we have caffeine.

>>11940524
I have severe anhedonia but I'm not sure we're on the same page. Since it began, the emotions I feel are less like real forces of nature and more like shallow impressions of a hue so faint it blends to transparency. I could go on really, but biological anhedonia is very rare among the population at large so I assume you're describing ennui instead. And to that I say: Ditch your expectations - they are the death of men. There was a quote by a Frenchman I think that said the quickest way to lessen your experience of something is to set an expectation on it. Happiness comes as a product of your actions; the earnest nature of your desires is irrelevant really.

That might have come off a bit autistic but I do believe that understanding you're less flawed or fucked than you believe is a good start. I wouldn't be so optimistic if I thought anhedonia or ennui didn't have a cure, but, well, they do, so let's agree not to worry about it and move on to bigger things. Don't chain yourself to your own suffering - you are cut out for much more.

>>11940306
That would be going in the wrong direction

>>11940654
Stay at it , friend.

I wish my grandma would stop watching television. All she watches is Fox News and a televangelist whom she gives money to. It's sad. Almost 99% of her day is spent on her recliner blaring out religious and political propaganda. She has become a hateful person thanks to it. Insufferable.

I have mildly poor vision. I don't like using glasses because it makes life look too much like a photograph, I prefer to see it like a painting.

I quit drinking, I don't care if it's not /lit/ to not be a raging alcoholic I hated the way it made me feel anytime I wasn't at the bottle.

>>11940782

Pretty dumb. You only hurt yourself more. I didn't wear my glasses in school because I was stupid and I look back on that and think how stupid I was.

>>11939638
This audio production project would be a lot easier if my parents hadn’t doped me up with SSRIs from age 7-18, killing off all the fine auditory cilia in my inner ear, destroying my low range hearing.

I hate them so goddamn much.

wojacks are genuine art

>>11940785
I just get lethargic and have diarrhea.

>>11940320
Holy shit you're that guy from the thread. Drop her now. You probably won't, but at this point you're just punching yourself in the face in front of a crowd wearing nothing other than your underwear.

>>11940782
Don't ever fall for the LASIK or PRK meme. The flap that is cut only lasts for about 5 years and the procedure can only be be done 2-3 times total, and if repeated to the fullest extent, you'll suffer with chronic dry eye, future corneal degeneration, and inability to wear eye contacts at that stage. You're better off wearing contacts/glasses as needed than be swindled by the LASIK surgeons. Most people are happy to get it at first. You ask them 12 years later, they have major regrets.

Does anyone else just not eat?
I've been subsisting on probably ~700 calories a day, sometimes more sometimes less, for the past few weeks.
I just have no appetite, and feeling hungry makes my mind clearer and life easier.
This probably won't end well

Tired of seeing the patterns. I tried to push back and break them but it just made me fall back into old ones. Now I'm trying to just go along and suck it up but I feel my sanity slipping away. I just wish I could forget about them.

>>11940856
I rarely eat or drink, but I pee many times a day.

>>11940853

My mom got LASIK in 2001 or 2002 and has zero problems.

>>11940861
>n=1, the post

>>11940857
I've just realized living for the reason of living is just suicide in itself and I've never felt more at peace.

>>11940861
Your post made my eyes tear up really bad.

>>11940297
Check out non ejaculatory orgasms. It involves a lot of training though

My penis and I are having conversations. When I started to masturbate it felt good. I started to thank it. Years later it would thank me back. I am no longer human.

This site made me hate christians

Camus imagining Sisyphus as happy is the most infuriating conclusion I have ever read. It's infuriating because I desperately wanted Camus to convince me. The man claims he has a solution to the absurd nature of life that has recently been dragging me down and I tore through The Myth Of Sisyphus to find it. But I didn't. It isn't fun struggling to fall asleep, and struggling to wake up. It isn't fun having your passion leeched out of you simply by existing. I'm tired of rolling the boulder /lit/. I want to die.

>>11940979
Was he bullshitting? I'm not sure if I read the correct version but I don't remember a proper explanation of the idea and how it should work at all.

>>11940973
This site made me like them enough to read their theology, deeply entertain it and wish that God existed. I would wholeheartedly be a Christian if I believed in the metaphysics of it.
You just hate them because you're a degenerate and you view it as a no fun allowed sort of deal.

>>11940657
Risk of Rain

>>11940979
>the struggle is enough dude lol
>fucks models and writes best-selling novels

no but honestly there's no philosopher that's going to convince you that life is beautiful and worth living if you're depressed and stuck in a miserable life.

the boulder is not waking up in the morning and trying to make it through the day, wondering why you were made to be alive
the boulder is the struggle to create, to thrive, in spite of always falling back to where you try to climb up from, without fail or exception

the struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill a man's heart, embrace the struggle

>>11940994
No? Stop making baseless assumptions, you are just fueling my disdain.

>>11940816
Me too anon, now at -6 at probably still getting worse. I don't want to go blind but it may actually be a serious thing for me to think about

>>11941011
I would disagree kinda, no philosopher will bring you there himself but they certainly can impart the right mindset to overcome your current struggle. The Sisyphus metaphor is terrible at this since when you examine it closely, you find there's an implicit submission to the state of things and also that there is no way to view these events other than meaningless and bad. All one needs to do to create a better system in fact is to address one of these two points and immediately you're already a step ahead of the Sisyphus analogy. For instance, in a biological framework, life for the sake of life is the ultimate good. This of all things is what the natural world insists we take to heart. You can even take this a step further and assume it as a universal rule that holds true even as your own biology and mind fails because it's just that ubiquitous. That right there is a start.

If there's more to Sisyphus I haven't picked up on, I would appreciate someone telling me. But to my knowledge, there's not much to gain from it.

>>11940816
I do wear them in school and when I need them, just not all the time.

>>11941040
Try some pilocarpine drops and an NSAID. Can improve eyesight especially bad cases. Don't put the NSAID in your eye. I'm not a real doctor (or am I!), no, I'm not.

>>11941080
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3023964/
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3939740/

>>11940856
become a monk my dude
sounds like your thing

I've never read Don Quijote, but my knowledge from several Donald Duck parodies should be sufficient for my class presentation.

Also,

hegel

I'm reading All the Pretty Horses and it made me remember what genuinely enjoying reading felt like. I've gone through a hundred pages in about two days, and it probably took me five times that to do the same with To the Lighthouse. I enjoyed Lighthouse, and modernist works in general but McCarthy is something else

I'm scared of losing my sight and hearing eventually. What do I do if this happens?
my ears and eyes do things that are not normal. A silent dark existence.

I hate university so much. I'm a poor kid who did well so now I'm at a rich one. I hate them all so much. Humility just doesn't exist. It's just pure, unfiltered narcissism.

But the worst part is all interaction feels so fake. everyone is about networking. Who knows who. It's disgusting. It's about jobs which is fine. But these people have never ever considered anything other what is in their immediate vicinity. It's so empty. The whole goal is just to sell your labour to some rich dude 99% of the time. Structuring my whole life around the idea of selling my labour just feels subservient. Yes I can start my own business. It will take ten years of capital accumulation however. But even then how does that progress anything? 99.9% of businesses are literally useless. They add nothing to humanity's overall progression.

I was also reading crime and punishment and loved this quote “Talking nonsense is the sole privilege mankind possesses over the other organisms. It's by talking nonsense that one gets to the truth! I talk nonsense, therefore I'm human”. It's why I like public schools kids. Amongst their retardation they spew nonsense, but it feels human. I miss it so much.

I know everyone is going to shit on me for not being some sort of incel. I just need to dump this out of my head.
I have a friend who is half-mexican. We met the second week of school. This friend, let's call him John, sleeps around alot. I have had 3 girlfriends since meeting him, he has had 13. The relationships fall apart the same way everytime. The first girl had anxiety issues which were too much for him. He gradually distanced himself from her. They split apart without even talking about it, as there was some sort of unspoken understanding. The second girl had depression. At first, their time together was jubilant and every day was packed with joy. However her seasons came and went. Her lack of energy disappointed him. He was restless, always wanting to hike or to go biking. She was the opposite, wanting to wallow in her own misery. When he had begun fooling around on her, he stopped answering his phone. She called day in day out, but the understanding was lost on her. Her season had passed. The third girl was in a sorority. She had a busy life, and a ceaseless energy. I thought she was it for him, she was going to stick around. Not so. She had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and his life was a mess. They started arguing almost immediately after they met. One day, the shouting got so bad the cops were called to her dorm. The next day he stopped answering her calls. I asked him why he kept doing this, why he didn't simply tell them he wanted to end it. He told me that the tides came and went. There was no reason for words.
It was last weekend when he said his sister was coming into town. I was excited. She was a traditionalist, always cooking and cleaning while maintaining a 4.0. No girl in my generation was like her. She constantly would say things like "let me cook for you, you're boys, you eat alot," and would cook for us without any of us asking. A large party was planned. There would be live music and punch. I remember seeing her and smiling. She immediately gave me an embrace, saying she missed me, that she still went back and reread my essays sometimes, remembering how our teachers in High School always raved at what I turned in whether for good or bad. I asked her to dance and we went out in the living room and she pressed her ass against my crouch and I got low and we moved back and forth to the sound of the drum, the jazz quartet's rising and falling. It was high tide. We moved outside and I asked for a hug and she said I could have more than a hug so we made out on the steps in the cold. I asked if she wanted to come back to my place, we could walk, it's right around the corner. She said yes and we walked arm in arm on the side of the street.
When I was having sex with her we would make eye contact. This was heavily arousing. It was as if we were in sync, on the same level, that we could do something as intimate and animal as have sex without breaking eye contact. But at moments I would get too into it,

>>11941215
I know how some of this feels.
I go to a good uni with smart people in it.
I somehow did well so I got in. Now I'm struggling to maintain average grades while everyone else is effortlessly getting top grades. This makes me feel out of place so I don't socialize.
I feel like a fraud. Everyone else is smarter. Everyone has a good CV and is gonna go somewhere. I don't know if I will. They're good at networking.

>>11941215
I know what you mean anon. Part of the reason I like going to a big state school is they're not all landed folk and don't take themselves so seriously. I feel like if I went to an Ivy like some of you I would go nuts.

>>11941221
cont.
I would get too deep into her eyes and see her brother looking back at me. I felt a nervous tickle in the base of my balls anytime I did this. At that moment I thought, I can't do this, I couldn't fuck my best friend's sister, but I couldn't stop. I came. She asked if I would give her head. I nodded and began to stick my middle and ring finger in her. I always remembered what some girl told me a while back. She told me that "pussy was sturdy." It could take a beating. It gives birth to children, what makes you think that your two fingers are going to do any real damage. Now that doesn't mean you don't have to trim your fingernails, but it does mean that you can roughhouse a pussy, you can get deep inside and go up and down like a maniac, so long as you don't scratch anything.
I gave her head for a while until she had a few orgasms and told me she was good, I could stop. We lay together panting and breathing for a bit. I saw her slim stomach rise and fall. Up and down. She told me she always wanted to do this with me, she always wanted me. I was flattered. This girl was so above and beyond anyone I could have imagined would be infatuated much less willing to share my bed. We slept not long afterwards.
We had an early morning. I asked if she wanted coffee, she told me pancakes. Where did you want to go I asked her, she said here, let's buy some and make some. So we went to the grocery store after having cappucinos and showering. We walked around and I liked to think people saw us as a couple. We got the pancake mix, I paid for it. She made them lovingly, the only adverb that could describe anything she could do for me. At noon she said we had to go to her brother's apartment, she had things there and had to leave for Houston soon.
He was standing in the kitchen in pajama bottoms, smiling at me when we walked in.
Quite a night you two had he said laughing a little.
She took good care of me I said looking at her for approval for what I said.
I don't want to talk, I don't have time, she said. What a good girl she was.
She said she was missing an earring. We went around the room and found it under blanket. I helped load up her car she gave me a kiss and drove off. I probably won't see her for a while. Still, we talk, even facetime sometimes, but the magic of that night can never come back. It passed through my life and went out the other side and will not return unless in another form.
This season, the ups and downs, were all packed into one night and half a day. I could never have known the tide could wash back after only a few moments of treading water.

>>11941215
Fuck off

>>11940994

Lmao expecting people to unironically believe in a controlling fairy tale and when they don't like the harbringers of retardation saying they're degenerate

There is nothing fun about Christianity and the entirety of it is bullshit from alpha to omega

>>11941275
Not even him but I am confident you've hardly read about Christianity at all.

>>11941277

Tell me something fun or believable about Christianity or refute that religion is a tool of bourgeoisie control

Going to do my best to be a non-consumer for real this time. Just going to buy the clear essentials for a healthy life and going to stop spending my time in places designed to make me want to buy/consume things

>>11941285

What is up with this attitude lately? I'm noticing it more and more. I agree with it completely.

>>11941280
Things can be fun and believable while still being a tool for control. None of that is mutually exclusive.


You're allowed to not be a Christian, lol. Did your parents send you to your room because you kept quoting the Origin of Species to them?

>>11941285
I honestly don't know if I have hit a new level of contrarianism or what but I refuse to spend money. Not because of saving or I plan to invest but because it looks subservient to buy shit. The big companies WANT me to buy so out of rebellion I refuse to. Granted I buy essentials but that is it.

>>11941292
More people are noticing the system is fucked so they don't want to contribute to it.

>>11941292
yes what the other anon said, it comes from not wanting to contribute to a system which I think is fucked. I know I won't make a difference in the grand scheme of things, im not trying to be an activist. But it will make a difference for my well-being.

>>11941304

That is how I gave up smoking my pipe. I was quite literally poisoning myself and lining some asshole's bank account whilst doing it. I decided that if I wanted to smoke I would grow my own tobacco and cure it myself. If I don't do that then I reckon I don't want to smoke enough.

Hard to juggle wanting to be anti-consumerist but take part in an actively consumerist hobby (Warhammer, for the art of it). I do try to buy stuff from eBay and limit myself but there is a lot of FOMO and everything is marketed to you as NEW and AWESOME. I think it's my one vice that I just can't (and don't want to honestly) give up that I have had since childhood. I do try to ignore the marketing of it, though.

>>11941215
dumb animeposter

>>11939638
I'm sad I keep finding out about interesting writers and artists only from the media attention when they die

>>11941709
Or on Google Doodles like Joanna Baille

What are some books for learning how to hold conversation

>>11939638
I’m too picky with women but now i’m 26 and still alone so I think it’s time to settle already. What are your thoughts?

>>11941748
Explanation
Girl likes me. I like her. She always initiates conversations and I end then with one sentence. I don't know how to learn to talk

>>11941755
Never answer her questions, just reply with a question of your own.

>>11941755
Just keep asking her questions anon. People fucking love talking about themselves, eventually she'll hit on a topic that you have some experience in and you can go from there.
Otherwise you'll come across as an alien trying to fit into human society by following the rules he's been taught, à la Mark Zuckerberg.

>>11941768
>>11941778
OK, so she asks how Im doing. What do I say?

>>11941795
It just hit me
She asks how I'm doing. I say good, how are you. She talks. I ask a question about x that she mentioned and let her ramble.
Is this the key?

>>11941778
I don’t understand these kinds of conversations. If you don’t have anything in common with her than what are you talking about? I don’t want to ask questions because I don’t want to know. I want to talk.

>>11941798
It can be hard if you're shy or lacking in social skills anon. It's not that you have nothing in common, it's that you can't even get as far as finding out whether you have anything in common or not.

>>11941803
I'm not shy as much as I just dont say much. Even around family and friends.

>>11941797
I mean kind of. Maybe you see her on monday and she asks how your weekend was. Assuming you did fuck all, you can just say that it was quiet.
Then ask her about her weekend went, she might mention a tv show she watched, or a place she went to, or a book she read etc, then you can come back with "oh yeah, I saw that too, what did you think of_____" and so on.
If she says some things and you have no connection to any of them then ask, would you recommend that show, or, was that place good to visit and so on. Maybe by doing this you'll then find out a common connection "oh, no way, you've seen Twin Peaks too? pretty good, huh? Have you seen the 3rd season?" then you can talk about that.

>Lock myself out of my apartment
>Break the door down with three simple shoulder checks
I should have been a train robber in a past life.

>>11941848
Stop putting it on a pedestal. I see you guys discussing how to talk to her as if were some kind of tactical operation. This isn't D-Day. She's a regular person like everybody else. Talk to her like gay dudes do, they "bro out" with girls more than straight men do, talking to them naturally. And they open up (heh) to them and tell them everything.

>>11942157
the reason gay dudes can bro out with girls is because they have the common interest of liking dick. It doesnt work for straight people (mainly because women have no real interests apart from finding a chad to fuck). Not discriminating its just biology

>>11939657
Please?

reality'nt

>>11940134
kek

>>11942157
I mean I agree with you anon. I tried to write it as loosely as I could without it seeming like an instruction set. I used to be completely crippled socially, to the point of having to go to a psychiatrist because I was so fucking terrified of talking to anyone. The task of continuing a conversation is a gruelling ordeal to someone that has no idea how to go about it.
"Ask questions until you find common ground" is the tl;dr. You soon get good at it.

>>11940320
You have no business spending time with people that don't appreciate you as a whole person, let alone having a deep emotional connection with them. Fuck em, not worth your time.

I should grow a majestic Viking beard over the winter. I'm sick of being a clean shaven pussy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cl8DQG5oCXg

>>11942203
I have some familiarity with cognitive behavioral therapy from school. Let me tell you you're on the right track. The aversive stimulus (cute girls in your case) must be exposed to you in gradual dosages. Eventually you will build up a cognitive tolerance and establish a repetoire of effective behaviors to deal with those situations.

You won't get anywhere if your anxiety disorder is given sway over you and causes you to avoid the stimulus.

Ever since finishing Infinite Jest whenever I read something I wish I was reading Infinite Jest
>tfw we will NEVER have the 1400 page original manuscript

So I am fluent in Russian and English, I also need to learn Hebrew,
I speak a bit of Spanish and this is supposed to be helpful, but the voices in my head just keep switching the languages and it ca be torturous at times, But in all else, I am in contempt. I want to read more and write more and start working out again.
I have a question for you though, is it okay to put yourself in the mentality of a father while not wanting children or having a relationship at all. Just be the man a father needs to be just without the main aspect of being a dad?

>>11940247
>Wait a minute, I thought your GUNS could defend against a modern army?
You come across as a smug condescending idiot. Guerrilla warfare has been proven effective against larger, better equipped, and better trained fighting forces again and again. How did the U.S. government fare against the Viet Cong? How about the Mujahideen?

>>11940226
>Why not do violence on them first and incapacitate them from killing you?
Because despite what American media moguls would have you believe, most Americans respect the police, regardless of how they feel about the federal government. When I was younger and a little more reckless I was caught doing something with a firearm on my person that was very illegal legal in the state in question. According to the laws of that state, I was facing multiple felonies besides a slew of other charges. When I was 'interrogated' at the station the officer that was in charge of questioning me (who clearly wasn't happy about enforcing these bullshit laws) actually created a cover story for me, believe it or not. He essentially said: "If anybody ever asks, this is what happened, riiiiiiight?" Got off with a couple tickets. Most police are good people.

>>11940215
>our police will literally kill us at even the hint of hostility towards them
As they should. If some limp-wrist LARPing Antifa faggot tried to throw a molotov at you, what would you do?

There's that video of Mosley that gets posted here often, about globalization and miscegenation. I don't really care about the racial aspects, but (speaking as an absolute illiterate in politics and economy) the rest sounds about right.
Tell me, /lit/, have I fallen for ideology?

>>11942297
>dig up Dave’s corpse
>find the original manuscript
>it’s just 300 pages of Marathe-Steeply

>>11939953
If you get a poli sci degree you can apply to be the manager of your local forest service office???

>>11942405
I’d you find yourself being swayed by goddamn Mosley you’re probably a retard, but there’s a lot to be said about how capitalists have turned internationalism into something that benefits them and drives down the worker. This is not to say there is merit in nationalism, but perhaps there is virtue in the idea of socialism in one country.

>>11940654
Third day was easy because I had too much stuff to do.
Had a nightmare and felt uneasy the whole day thought, don't know if it has anything to do with it.

10. OBSERVE PSYCHOPATHIC DESIGN - THE SLAUGHTERHOUSE, IN WHICH ANIMALS, DUBBED 'LIVESTOCK,' WHICH IN ITSELF IS AN AGGLOMERATE WORD TO DENIGRATE THE STATUS OF LIVING BEINGS TO 'STOCK' WHICH MEANT IN THE DAYS OF TYRANNY AS 'SUPPLY,' SUPPLY FOR MEANS OF MAKING PROFIT. STOCK - FROM PROTO-GERMANIC STUKKAZ, MEANING LOG OR STUMP, FROM PROTOINDOEUROPEAN STEWG OR TEWG, MEANING TO HIT OR STRIKE.

FROM THIS LINEAGE OF LANGUGE WE CONCLUDE THE HISTORY OF PSYCHOPATHIC DESIGN, BEGINNING WITH THE FALL FROM PURITY, FROM THE LOST GARDEN PARADISE WHICH WAS THE EARTH, THAT WAS LOST; EXILED MAN BEGAN TO STRIKE AT THE TREES OF THE GARDEN, KILLING THEM, FOR SHELTER, THEN STRIKING AT THE ANIMALS OF THE LAND, KILLING THEM, FOR SUSTENANCE, THEN THE KEEP OF TREE CORPSES, FOR FUTURE USE, THEN THE DOMESTICATION AND RESULTANT KEEP OF ANIMALS, FOR FUTURE SLAUGHTER.

IN THE SLAUGHTERHOUSE, LIVESTOCK ARE "PROCESSED." BEASTS ARE LIVING SYMBOLS, OR SYMBOLS OF NATURAL LIFE THAT ARE ANIMATE - ANIMALS -, AND ARE SPIRITUALLY PURE -- CHILDREN OF GOD. THE DEAD SCIENCE, LACKING OUR BASIS, FORCEFULLY BREEDS ANIMALS IN CORRIDORS OF AUTOMATION, SEQUESTERING THEM FROM THE WHOLE OF THE WORLD, AND THROUGH THE SPECIALIZATION OF MECHANIZED SLAUGHTER, MUTILATES THEM FOR THEIR VISCERA, RESULTING IN HELLSCAPE, THE LOWERING OF WORLD ENERGY SIGNATURE AND ENDING THEIR LIVES IN CHAOTIC DEATH.

How2share poetry in 2018?
>tiny local mags read by a couple old women and that one autist
>be an Instagram "text-superimposed-on-image" meme poet
>4chan

I seriously need to stop sending my friends drunken text messages at 1:30 in the morning in which I sound literally exactly like a college frat bro. Here is a verbatim transcript of one such message barrage

We got this bro
I'm so ready to rock the world
We got this
Luv u]
Luve yu bro
I fucking LUV U
I'm invincible
Fuck with me
I dare you
Sorry, as you might have guessed I'm a little drunk when I sent the above(edited)
But I meant the sentiment
I can truly honestly relate to you like few of my friends in life
I hope this message reaches you
Cuz I'm being serious

>>11942508
This reeks of an adolescent who thinks his writing is so quirky and 'off the wall' when in reality it's jus cringe inducing and unoriginal.

>>11942513
I made a thread not long ago, trying to get opinions on my poetry because I'm working on a collection. I get your feels my guy.

Damn Grimshaw really sucks

>>11942513
Post poems, I have no idea about poems but I like the way good ones sound

>>11942643
Not the same guy but still, here's mine:

Hello drunken nights

Spilt cognac and a broken glass,
Hopping that this wondering will pass,
A pink cigarette and smoke,
Was all you let after you awoke.

Now I lay,
In utter dismay,
Alone in an unmade bed.

The sun, blown out like a candle,
Now I can't get a handle,
When my sea burns like tar,
This absence stings like salt on a fresh scar.

>>11941797
Never ask a girl how they are doing or what they are up to.They are both the lamest lines that every guy that's she's ever spoken to will use, just talk it's not hard go off on tangents and don't be afraid of silence, now that shit will kill you if you can't get over the fear of silence in a conversation you'll never make it

>>11942632
>>11942643
I want to make a publication for autistic 4chan posters. Absolutely anything goes, no censorship of whatever, it just has to be interesting. I doubt Ill ever accomplish that though.

I will get my degree soon. I feel that I wasted the years I spent at the university and that I'm not ready for the future (I will be destroyed by the market). Like a bugman I just focused on getting good grades but neglected all the other aspects of life. Due to my crippling social anxiety I just existed as a ghost, a faint entity walking from home to campus and vice versa. I'm almost sure that least than five persons know my name, once my parents die I'll be totally alone in this world. Now I have to face the real life but how in the hell will I get a job? I didn't make any connection, I would be a disaster in a job interview and I wouldn't stand the social pressure anyway once working. Nevertheless, my parents believe that someway I'll be successful or millionaire when I can't even perform the basic functions of human life. I feel so disconnected and alienated from the rest of the world like If no matter what I do, I will always be a pariah. I've been like this since childhood when I couldn't even talk. What can I do now? I just want to dissapear.

>>11942662
Depends on how/where you base it. I mean, would it be online, or how would you publish it?

>>11942656
babbys first poem

>>11942679
Well I'm trying to improve, although it is quite liked in its target audience

>>11942677
an online site but you could buy various little collections that I would arrange by theme in a paperback format

>>11942685
You could run it through Amazon, atleast paperback, you wouldn't have any cost for printing

>>11942157
>>11942185
>>11942203
>>11942296
I'm not socially awkward. I talk to her and people in generally the same way. I dont have a lot of common interests with anyone. I surf, woodwork, dont watch movies or TV, you get the point.

>>11942657
More relevant advice to my situation. Thanks.

>>11942728
Also, maybe its the situations. Its a fast paced environment and she asked me about my hobbies I said "surfing" and like 1 sentence and management told her to go elsewhere. Maybe I'm just put in a bad situation.

>>11942372

Yeah, Americans are pussies.

>>11942656
Man, this is the type of shit that we (young men) get made fun of for. Let's check for the usual cliches:
>alcohol
>cigarettes
>women
All in a single verse! I like the comparison of the sunset to a candle being blown out but you really need to cut out that edgy stereotypical city-boy shit. Also salt wouldn't sting on a scar because a scar is not an open wound. All in all, it could be much worse.

>>11942751
>you really need to cut out that edgy stereotypical city-boy shit.
there is honestly nothing wrong with that stuff. That's how he feels, that's how a lot of guys feel, so whatever.

It's not the most interesting poetry in the world but who cares

>>11942656
Stop telling people how you feel, make them feel. That’s the point of poetry. You can’t just say wah I drink and smoke and I’m sad

>>11942751
>>11942767

Thank you for the input guys, I really appreciate it :)

>>11942656
Learn what meter is. You don’t have to be an iambic autist, but it’s clear you don’t try to make the poem flow at all.

>>11942779
I agree with you and I'm trying to improve, I appreciate all your input

>>11942643
I wrote this recently but it’s still rough as fuck and I need critiques. I hate sticking to a single structure so it’s just sort of a ramble:

Do not forget the love that wind carries my friend, for as long as the clouds are steady in their transit, she is there for you. When I was young, the world made me very old. I’d pat the dog and grab my keys, I’d climb in the car to find my destiny. To train tracks, a bridge, to something, I’d go.

Every time I made the same mistake. She’d pound on my windshield, begging me to let her in, fiercer and fiercer the closer I got. Every time I would obey. I’d roll down the windows.

Up through my hair and across my face she’d wander, cradling, caressing me, whispering in my ear one soft and powerful gentle word.
Stay

If for no one else, I am here for you. For in every tilting blade of grass you are here for me. You, oh glorious aspect of my world, who flies in the sky and knows the subtleties of my heart, I love you.

>>11941848
>>11942157
>>11942203
>>11942296
I am not afraid of talking or silence. Its not fear. I legitimately don't know what I'm supposed to talk to her about. Recently she asked what my hobbies were, I said surfing, she asked if I was good, said I'm decent (I should've lied), then before anything else was said she was moved by management.
>>11942657
She asked me how I was doing. How do I start a conversation without asking someone what they're doing?

Really I have two problems. Finding a good situation where we can talk, and how to start a conversation with anyone - not just girls.

I’ve been laying in bed for the past 12 hours, feeling really low. I skipped class due to this, as the warm embrace of my bed overpowered the cold harsh reality of life. My isolation is finally breaking down on me, as the only person I would dare call a friend is on the other side of the country with only the internet to keep us in contact. I’m alone, and I don’t know how to stop being alone.

>>11942796
This is a prose poem. I personally don't mind them but it's not really the same thing.

I am almost done with a short story. I’ve cried several times during writing and have made a few beta readers cry.

It would probably be shit on by critics and /lit/, but I’ll be damned if I’m not enjoying myself.

In the centre of me lies Demonic Pride. The rest are numerous elaborate facets I've unknowingly created to ward it. These appearances aren't exactly fake, I myself was well fooled by them, but they are utilitarian. The numerous fears, the labour I've spent years on, the good deeds and the bad deeds, latter being way more vast than the former. I never actually understood why I do what I do. Why those fears have such intricate conditions, why I fail to do simplest things and yet enthusiastically commit myself to something I don't need. All these years of anxiety, all the times I've thought I was genuinely sorry for my shortcomings, breaking promises and running away, all of that was, as it becomes increasingly clear to me now, carefully designed to protect my pride. To think that I believed myself to be a good person when I in fact wasn't a person at all.

>>11942628
>This reeks of

This reeks of this reeks of.

>>11942847
>have made a few beta readers cry
Duh, should have tried it on alphas.

>>11942853
I feel you 100%. the only time in my life I was a good person was during a manic episode where I thought I was in communication with the ultimate sublime, and I knew profoundly at that time that I was not a person. The rest is vanity and illusion

I feel decidedly amoral today and it feels way better than being a pessimistic moralfag all the time. Feels pretty zippy, pretty nice.

"Their're is literally nothing wrong with the world unless you spook yourself into thinking they're is" - Shakespeare

How do I apply more of what I read to my daily life?
I've recently become unhappy with the person I am, at least in the small details when around others. I hate being around people and therefore when I am I try and act like I don't hate it.
An example of things I do that I find annoying would be like the other day. I was speaking to a classmate about a quiz we took and he told me he got a 100%, I jokingly said "you suck", because he got a higher grade than me. I obviously didn't mean anything by it and he and I both laughed at it. But I criticized myself in my head immediately after it. I don't even think I'm mad because I necessarily said it, but because it was the first thing I thought to say, not to congratulate him and say good job but to criticize.
Other things would be self-depreciating jokes. Inadvertently revealing too much of myself than I'd prefer people to know.
I get very annoyed and frustrated at myself on my drive home from social interactions. I've tried to apply more stoic philosophies to my life but when around others it's easier said than done.

>>11943269

There's a Finnish proverb that states, "talking is silver but silence is golden." I think this could apply to you. Don't just blurt out words like a fool but consider what you will say. I think it's hard for Americans to do because they ramble but after some practise you will get there.

>>11939638
I feel increasingly out of touch with everyone I know except my very closest friends.
I'm extremely outgoing and I have an easy time making people like me, but most people I talk to simply aren't that interesting to me. Because of this, I have a tendency to become friends with someone and then suddenly become disenchanted with them and break all contact, mostly because I realize that I've been acting falsely to gain their friendship and that it isn't worth anything if I'm only pretending to be a kindred spirit.
I've done this with a couple of girls that I've been dating too, but every encounter makes me more lonely, especially if I've been intimate with them.
I feel really superior to these people, but this just makes me more lonely. I wish I wouldn't have this feeling.
As mentioned above, I do have a couple of very close friends, whom I respect very much. However, they suffer from almost the same problem even though we have each others' company.

Tales of Cuck Fiction #12 (this one sent by JoseLucio)

I am a lonely young man from the mediterranean Spain cost who felt in love with a pseudo gypsy. That girl is now a flamenco-pop star in the country by I can proudly say she was my waifu before anyone else.
Her grandmother lives next to my abuela in the same block, and when I was a teenage I spied her in the park near round. Once I invited her to play role with my four virgin weaboo manga friends but she didn't want to join, sadly I remember we pick a very hazed quest in which the Master (me or my friend Kenji-san) would end cumming in the mouth of the werewolf and I pretended the werewolf were this gypsy-girl, but I repeat, she refused the proposal. I imagined beautiful hentai scenes with her daily, had a proposal of learning to draw just for sending to her my mental pics, but I've always said: "just after the fap".
While fapping it passes seven years and my gypsy love is now a popstar, I could have engaged with her. She did could be mine, but I was too busy watching the fucking Naruto and Luffy defeating their 359th enemy stronger than the rest of the series in my grandma house I mean what the fuck
Two months ago I tried to be a popstar myself to approach her with a collabo, but my voice is sick of cigarrettes and my mind is so fucked by marihuana that I am treated as a trap singer, but I don't get any respect or attention of my waifu. She did a concert and I went just to jerkoff in the first line, for live cock tribute her, but I was afraid of the feminist forces scattered around the stadium who weren't afraid to expose me online. I mean, they hate men, obvious. I didn't want to be ashamed. Oh, hot pseudo gypsy, fire of my loins, Dulcinea del Toboso, waifu-samaaaaaaaa

Cuck Stories #12 (this one sent by JoseLucio)

I am a lonely young man from the mediterranean Spain cost who felt in love with a pseudo gypsy. That girl is now a flamenco-pop star in the country by I can proudly say she was my waifu before anyone else.
Her grandmother lives next to my abuela in the same block, and when I was a teenage I spied her in the park near round. Once I invited her to play role with my four virgin weaboo manga friends but she didn't want to join, sadly I remember we pick a very hazed quest in which the Master (me or my friend Kenji-san) would end cumming in the mouth of the werewolf and I pretended the werewolf were this gypsy-girl, but I repeat, she refused the proposal. I imagined beautiful hentai scenes with her daily, had a proposal of learning to draw just for sending to her my mental pics, but I've always said: "just after the fap".
While fapping it passes seven years and my gypsy love is now a popstar, I could have engaged with her. She did could be mine, but I was too busy watching the fucking Naruto and Luffy defeating their 359th enemy stronger than the rest of the series in my grandma house I mean what the fuck
Two months ago I tried to be a popstar myself to approach her with a collabo, but my voice is sick of cigarrettes and my mind is so fucked by marihuana that I am treated as a trap singer, but I don't get any respect or attention of my waifu. She did a concert and I went just to jerkoff in the first line, for live cock tribute her, but I was afraid of the feminist forces scattered around the stadium who weren't afraid to expose me online. I mean, they hate men, obvious. I didn't want to be ashamed. Oh, hot pseudo gypsy, fire of my loins, Dulcinea del Toboso, waifu-samaaaaaaaa

>>11943385
Not only that, Americans think stating their opinions as loudly and as obstinately as possible somehow makes them correct.

t. an american.

>>11942186
maybe

I lie to my peers that I’m still in college, lie to my parents about nearly everything except for money. This is the core of why I feel bad.

>>11943460

I have noticed that. I have noticed that they will often talk over people and above them instead of letting them finish and somehow this is correct. Is it not better to let them finish speaking, wait a few seconds (or even minutes) and then saying what you want to say with some actual thoughts?

I've also noticed Americans use a lot of filler words and small talk. They also vocalise what they're doing which I call "John Maddening" after the handegg commentator. They say what they're doing or what they're thinking instead of not or thinking it in their head. It's as if Americans cannot shut up. Is this why you guys have 24 hour television?

>>11943524
Just start being honest. Don't even address the lies, as if you have to apologize or whatever. Just start. The next time someone asks you about college tell them you dropped out.

>>11943449
10/10 would read again (unironically)

>>11942816
Go to class tomorrow. Retreating into your bed as a comfort will be the death of you. Work on what you need to work on. Stop being such a pussy.

>>11943524
The longer you lie, the worse it'll get anon. There's no escape other than telling the truth.

I hate the wait before going to work. Everything I do has a glaze of shit all over it.

I am filled with a overwhelming sense of pride and glory witnessing masculine feats of bravery and sacrifice. I wonder if this is not some kind of instinctual response, an ancestral echoing of the warrior's ethos. This sensitivity to masculine feats began in my early childhood and persisted throughout my life.

It's an honest shame that masculinity is associated with negativity in today's feminized culture. Masculinity is traditionally associated with the positive, the self-assertive, bold, direct, and questing. We do ourselves a disservice, both as men and women, to ignore or let slide exceptional exemplifications of the male spirit.

In4 no homo

I'm no longer an atheist and it's causing a lot of issues with my new atheist parents.

I'm not really sure what to do, I wanna keep my relationship with them. But I also value my religious beliefs.

I feel like this is horribly ironic.

>>11943796
All of that time feels so worthless. It's what made me start honing in on exactly how long it takes to get ready and get there and then spend no time at all waiting.

>>11943801

>>11943861
Max is gay

>>11943887

His sexual preferences don't matter.

theres nothing on my mind

im 25 years old

>>11943822
Yeah, that's kinda the reverse of what typically happens. You have me pretty curious. What led to your conversion? How have your parents reacted? Have you explained your reasons to them?

>>11943822
>>11943822
Avoid the subject and realize that two people can have conflicting life values but still have a positive relationship.
My mom hates Plato and jerks off Aristotle
A classmate thinks trump is brilliant for the economy
The janitor thinks Jesus is the best
My father would prefer to not be stabbed in the eyes
Some people like Pink Floyd
Some retards play league of legends


People are gonna do what they're going to do man, it's all about self control and how much you appreciate them. Talk to them about it and ask them to respect your beliefs if you respect theirs and never bring it up again.

>>11943953
>Yeah, that's kinda the reverse of what typically happens. You have me pretty curious. What led to your conversion? How have your parents reacted? Have you explained your reasons to them?

I have a test tomorrow so I can't write that much. But I went through various theological arguments and debates. A lot of previous new atheist rhetoric failed to convince me.

Well it started in college. I'm a math/chem major so I took a lot of logic classes. While doing them, I started to realize fundamental limitations in logic and science.

I've never told this to anyone, when I was on highschool, I was like 12, I seduced a girl by feet-playing. She stoled my case while the teacher talking and for avoiding the punishment for speaking out loud, I physically approached her with my legs, the only part invisible to the teacher. I undressed my footing and after a moment I undressed hers, we kept our feet dancing and it was pleasure. We didn't talk about it, both we would be embarassed, but anytime we got the chance we played with our feets again. It lasted a month, later I forget her, but now I can remind this moment and I wonder if feet would has been in the start of my sexual awakening.

>>11939895
First of all there are a lot of christians in Japan. Secondly, the notion that you can’t connect to weemin here in their native tongue but can connect to waifus in a secluded island nation with one of the hardest languages to acquire for American L2 learners, is absurd. You might feel a “”connection”” because they try to see past your misgivings on the merit of you being a gaijin, and pretend to give a shit. But that fades pretty fast. Rejection and exclusion are widely observed in nature and is the strongest confirmation a male can get to change the unflattering or repulsive qualities of himself. It does not, however, tell you that you should just leave your life behind and pursue happiness in some far away land motivated by orientalist fictions.

Let me recap that for you: If you can not make meaningful connections with people from your own country in your mothertongue you are never (a lot of emphasis on this) going to find more meaningful connections in other places in other languages. You don’t have the tools and very likely just have autism.

>>11943904
You are almost as old as me. Keep your chin up anon, it gets worse.

>>11943861
>>11943887
>>11943897
Not. A. Argument.

>>11939638
I am 25. I do not have a girlfriend. I have not read as many books as I would like. I don’t see myself taking writing seriously. I like food and drink. My family is nice.

>>11944143
Max is a spook.

>>11944169
What about my original point about how much masculinity turns me on? Ahem, intellectually...i mean.

>tfw 30yo boomer and life is getting more comfy

Based aging.

>>11944190
>tfw almost 30
>tfw still look like an attractive 24 yo
Based genetics

>>11943999
>I started to realize fundamental limitations in logic and science
Kind of a leap of faith to start there and arrive at Christianity. Also did you seriously try to debate your parents? If your goal is to alienate them, keep up with the theological arguments.

>>11944176
u gay

>>11944211
Damn.

>>11944190
I’m 27. Did you go through a phase of anxiety toward aging? I am having a full blown anxiety attack every day. I am graying, no girlfriend, etc. Any advice? I’m really starting to lose it.

>>11944210
Intellectually I'm purely agnostic. However, rationally Christianity has made me a more charitable and reliable person. I also had ideas for unethical experiments, that I not longer want to pursue.

They tried to debate me about it, but we failed to convince each-other.

>>11944217
Embrace the decay.

>>11939756
h-hot

>tfw keep suffering from anxiety whenever forced to socialize
>tfw anxiety is even worse over the phone
>tfw can barely function as a human being in modern society

>>11944217
Probably too late for you, enjoy the ride, at least you'll always have company on 4chan

>>11939638
im in love with a girl who has a boyfriend. im sure she loves me too but she won't break up with her boyfriend of 3 years. He is a fine fellow as well and I feel guilty about my feeling even through I have never stepped over any boundaries. If she had met me first we would be together. I'm trying to forget and get over but the sliver of hope in me is torturing me

>>11944217
By coming to embrace the sultry, big-balled daddy you were meant to be become. By not being a low-test girly man fearful that his curves and delicate facial features will spoil into a manly grimace.

>>11944407
Too late for what?

>>11944428
>im sure she loves me too
What makes you say that?

I'm in love with my roomate, she is an anarquist transfeminist cisgender white female from Western Europe and I am a socialdemocrat humanist cisheterosexual white male from Argentina, we both are high-classed but we play to be hippies.
She sells drugs to college students, she can be in any state she want because of using MDMA, smoking opium or microdoses of LSD. She thinks she is a self-made woman.
There's something masochistic getting down on this feminist way of seduction. She claims I've got to be educated in the feminist way so anything is validated by her subjectivity when arguing. She can impose me in any aspect of life and that turns me on like crazy and I fap every night with her FB profile, yes.

Approaching to her in this feminist ways I'm managing to see her naked and record it. She doesn't wear a bra, when she is drunk her nipples get hard and I just think to rub my cock against them.
We went with a group of her feminist friends to a beach in Porto, Portugal, we had must reffer to us in femenine. Near the sea, the girls droped out their bras and flashed me with at least seven pairs of boobs. I tried to cut my erection but it didn't work. I was so stoned.
I ran to the water in the quest of masturbate inside watching them bouncing and my face started to contort near to the climax. The girls saw me and started laughing, then stopping when realizing that I was edging near the orgasm.
My life was ruined. But at least I've had to try to fix it, I appeared on the shore completely naked and I said to her:
"What is more feminist than the figure of Adam (i'm body-shaved) giving his sexual desire to the Mother Nature?"
But they couldn't believe it: my cock was the only one they have seen in their life, some please it, but my roomate doesn't.

Last night I started brainwashing her into a bimbo sissy queen telling that these are my remixed and I'm a DJ.
I hope she could listen to my mixed and we both could be a pair of happy blonde hot girls in bikinis with big boobs

>>11944542

>>11939930
>likes trump and assumes anybody who doesn't gets their opinions on him from leftist media
Right wing npc detected

This is my first visit to /lit/ in 4 months and I can see that nothing has changed. You would think that people would ask questions to learn from the, breaking free from the chrysalis to become a beautiful butterfly. This is not the case. Well, shit. Now I'll be stuck here for the summertime. I'm reading Seven Pillars of Wisdom, by the way.

>>11944555
i don't give a shit about trump because i'm not an amerishart, however hating trump is about the most npc thing possible

>>11944542
have you had a mental breakdown??

>>11940343
>>11940320
I feel you bro. Mention what the other based anon said when you leave her.

There are amazing girls out there, but they aren't easy to find.

>>11940320
Do you guys seriously see people who go to Harvard or medical school as somehow 'better' than you? Have you talked to these people? What do you think goes on in these institutions, access to some type of esoteric knowledge only available to them? They read the exact same shit the retards read at a shitty state school. If you have access to a library and internet you're already on the same level. I really don't get this. The only benefit is making connections and having the name on your resume, that's literally it.

>>11944635
It's the fetishistic effect of the brand name. Everybody's eyes light up at the mention of Yale, Oxford, Harvard, blah blah. I've gone to public lectures at Harvard and Amherst. I've taken classes an Ivy League school. While the rigor and expectation is absolutely higher than most other places, a self-directed learner can easily outpace all but the most outstanding Ivy League students.

People need quick gut reaction heuristics to interpret the strangers they encounter. Harvard etc says "I come from this pedigree of educational expectation, and I live to tell the tale"

I also knew a boy in high school who's father was a Harvard alum. His sister, a thorough mediocrity, also attended solely on the legacy admittance.

>>11939638

>>11944635
What do you expect from Jews?

>>11944635
It doesn't really matter how you feel about yourself compared to an Ivy League student, THEY will see themselves as better than you, as will everyone who knows the reputation of Harvard etc but who hasn't thought about what that means.
It's in the interests of some to be seen as coming from a prestigious background, therefore it's in the interests of some to propagate that prestigiousness, whether it exists or not.

>>11944577
Where are you from?

>>11944666
New Zealand

>>11944594
>Not being a retard is npc
Guess I'm an NPC guys

>>11944542
books for this feel?

>>11944661
It's easy to forget that the wealthy and powerful have a private club where basically everyone knows each other and everyone makes space for each other's children. The elite schools are an extension of this class logic. Meritocracy is a myth.

I'm having a gigantic burrito that I'm deepthroating for dinner. Next to the burger the burrito is the ultimate in dining innovation. It can be held in the hands by a farm worker, it feeds and fuels you for the whole day, it contains all the essential food groups, grain, vegetable, legume, protein. Nothing like getting facefucked by a good burrito.

>>11944635
t. copelet who went to a brainlet university

>>11944737
I live in San Diego, my god are the burritos top notch here. Thanks for reminding me of its brilliance. I'm gonna hit up my favorite mexican joint and chill at the beach watching the boats sail by... I know it's a cliche at this point, but access to good food, weed, and scenery solves a ton of my problems

I think I just broke up with my girlfriend

>>11940857
what patterns, anon?

>>11944744
I never went to university because it's pointless for me. Did I want to enter a STEM career? Nope. Everything else I learn better on my own without arbitrary busy work and academia culture. I said what I said because my family is well off enough where I won't ever need a degree to work and I know a bunch of people going to Stanford and UC Berkeley

could you guys even imagine being a 270 kilo american goddamn

>>11944766
mmm university is more of an experience that distinguishes the 'learned class' from the dumb masses in my opinion. It's also about the qualification, but the socialization aspect is also significant. Like since I began university at the beginning of the year it has become too difficult to hold alternative views to those which are 'mainstream'. If you can avoid going to university and live a comfortable life then go for it

>>11942796
this is the only poem written in the past few decades that I've seriously enjoyed and read over multiple times. Good stuff.

>>11944800
I just went to the gun range, shot my guns, drove home in my V8 Tundra, and now I'm watching cable news and reading 4chan. About to make s protein shake and go to the gym tomorrow morning.
Eurofaggot fuck off.

Im a bad person by my own standards. I have decided to write a book with the words my heart says and when it is done I will give it to the world, despite knowing it will prevent me from living anything resembling a life.
I can no longer live with people who do not know me, even if that means they will no longer wish to live by my side.

>>11944834
Also I'm a virgin

>>11942513>>11944542
this ia why i visit this place.

Cool story babe, now get back into the kitchen and make me a sandwich. Ham, mayo and pickles, babe. Also babe, bin the crust.
Epic. Win.

>>11944542
I love this board

>>11944834

no one cares about you or your propaganda or your yank tank or your guns, you fucking beta cuck ham

>>11944943
>t. NPC liberal bugman

>>11944954
you forgot "so᠌yboy" and "numale"

>>11944577
Rey sucks

>>11944961
Nah, those are Reddit buzzwords my dude

>>11944943
I'm 140lbs 6ft, Imam.
The greatest philosopher ever was General Patton, here's my favorite
>The more I see of Arabs the less I think of them. By having studied them a good deal I have found out the trouble. They are the mixture of all the bad races on earth, and they get worse from west to east, because the eastern ones have had more crosses.
>>11944954
This
>>11944961
Fuck off queer.

>>11944954

american

>>11944967
More European than you, faggot.

>>11944966
>140lbs 6ft
A little early for Halloween, Mr. Skeletal

/lit/ I think my balls are shrinking and I don't know why. It seems like it has been like this since I got my job at a movie theater and I can't figure out. I feel distressed.

>>11944972

>>11944966
Jesus, what happened to this board

>>11944972

let me tell you something, BASEDBOY
>rolls coal in a yank tank
GOD gave me my RIGHTS
>shoots at a gun range
but your[sic] just a FAGGOT euro
>eats an entire mcdonalds
fucking liberal npc bugmen sjws
>makes a racist comment
get owned with LOGIC and FACTS
>watches fox news

what a shithole

>>11944995
This but unrionically
>>11944991
This but unironically
>>11944993
>>11944983
Ironically

>>11944993
It's not real. Or at least the poster's actual beliefs played up to the extreme. It's a bit obvious if you've wasted as much of your life on this site as me.

>>11945019
I actually am 140lbs, 6ft, and a virgin, though.

>>11945019
so many people seem to not get this anymore

>>11943822
well it's good that it's not lost on you.

>>11940320
>>11944623
I agree, don't be discouraged by the crippling death of a relationship. There are genuine women out there, and unfortunately they are elusive and rare. But I've found that it is easier to find them if you live your life confident and virtuous.

>>11943801
Why bother toiling and lamenting over these things when you yourself can evoke the masculine spirit? We are all well familiar with the circumstances, numerous writers have predicted this doomsday since the early 19th century--now it is here. It doesn't stop you from invoking a Goethean spirit. Stop looking for great men to look up to, strive to become one!

>>11939638
I just had a short conversation with another human being for the first time in over 3 years. I talk to people every now and then but it’s usually about pointless stuff like the weather or some work we have to get done. This was probably the first time I got to talk to someone about my interests. It was mostly boring small talk about movies, vidya, etc. but I enjoyed it. However a heavy wave of anxious depression washed over me a few minutes after the conversation was over. I started over analyzing everything I said and began to regret ever having that conversation. I guess I was content to live my life in seclusion and isolation but now I’ve gotten a taste of human connection and can’t help but want more. Like I’ve been starving myself for years and my mind is expecting a feast instead of a morsel. This mundane, useless conversation is probably going to be floating around in my mind for a long time, long after that person has forgotten about it if they haven’t already. I should probably just avoid talking to people. I’ve been depressed for the past 10 years and at this point I hardly feel anything. Just a constant fuzzy sadness. Now it truly stings again.

>>11945488
>Stop looking for great men to* have sex with, strive to become one!
Would be more accurate

SPAM. Is there any more glorious example of the succinct beauty of capitalism? SPAM! The can of luncheon meat of dubious providence that left an imprint on history, fed the marching Allied troops by the millions, staved off hunger in disaster ridden and war-torn lands, shaped the culinary culture of broad swathes of Pacific islander regions from Hawaii to the Philippines. SPAM! Glory be to you, O cube of salty-sweet processed ham! What secret formulas, what ingenious boardroom maneuvering brought about your noble rise? What would we do without your salted, fatty slab of greasy joy?

You are our inspiration, a product of food engineering that will stand the test of time.

>>11944537
she flirts with me all the time (within reason), that gut feeling when we look at eachother, as well as a close friend of hers who has told me as much.

>>11945500
No joke, get a job as a waiter or something similar if you can. When I first started I was a stuttering mess like you coming out of a 3 year self imposed isolation. Would be terrified of even approaching a table and asking what they wanted to eat. Over time I got a lot better and stopped giving a fuck, exposure therapy. I'm a diagnosed schizoid, I had to relearn the mechanics of socialization but now I have it. Just last night I dropped like 5 wine glasses in the middle of the packed restaurant. Before I would immediately quit my job and disappear into the horizon, now I laughed and went to grab the broom. It's not a big deal anon, nobody is over analyzing you like you over analyze other people, they are all caught up in their little bubble

>>11944748
burritos in san diego are overrated. the guacamole sucks there, they put cheese in it or some bullshit.

redpill: the burritos at the local tex mex chain are just as good as the oh so authentic burritos at the dives

I'll never tire of the time honored internet past time of reading about random shit on wikipedia or elsewhere. Learning about the obscure Korean stew budae-jjigae, or about some dusty old war fought centuries ago by now defunct kingdoms and principalities, finding out about some obscure ritual in a village in India when a girl of 12 is married to a toad. Or how about chanpurū, an Okinawan stir fry dish? Perhaps you would be interested to know that Danish Crown AmbA is the largest producer of pork in Europe?

Did you know that Mongolians drink an beverage of fermented alcoholic horse milk, Airag? Or that German soldiers during WW2 were fed rations of chocolate methamphetamine called Panzerschokolade, literally meaning "Tank-Chocolate"?

>>11945703
>burritos in san diego are overrated. the guacamole sucks there, they put cheese in it or some bullshit.

It's definitely not as amazing as people say but it's still fucking great and one of the best spots in the country for Mexican food. There's a ton of different places with their own little spin so if you aren't into something they'll always be another joint making your preference

>redpill: the burritos at the local tex mex chain are just as good as the oh so authentic burritos at the dives

Now you're a just madman. Have you ate at those places? holy fuck what a disaster. And this is coming from a guy that actually enjoys rubios lol. One of the worst meals I ever had was a burrito at this tex mex place in Paris. My mistake for seeking that kind of food there but I was a little homesick

>>11945755
>some dusty old war fought centuries ago by now defunct kingdoms and principalities
This is my favorite pastime, look for an extremely obscure, petty war and try to learn as much as I can about it. The breakdown of relations and mindset that leads people to take up arms and kill the people of a neighbouring city is always fascinating to me. I kind of wish we can revert back to low stakes local wars to take out aggression, now it's all or nothing

>>11939638
I feel lost.

I feel like i both know, and don't know anything at all.

Utter confusion consumes me. i am fully aware that i will die if do not move forward, but i might die if i do regardless?

What if i don't? i wont know. i am terrified.

Nervous about my college entrance exam results, I need to pass and if I don't I don't know what I might do. Im even considering suicide at this point

What I remember most vividly is the smell, of Sadie, of her home. A comforting smell one only ever gets a whiff of: aged and vintage wood that had been exposed to lifetimes of living, freshly brewed coffee, which Sadie always seemed to have been making but seldom drinking, citrus rind, lavender, and the faint wholeness of vanilla. A wondrous smell.

>>11945817
No worries anon I'm in the same position. The more I learn the more I realize how fucking retarded I am. I almost had a panic attack yesterday browsing a used bookstore because there was so much shit I wanted to read while realizing I'll never live long enough or have enough motivation to read them all. I have to pick and choose where I'm gonna be an ignorant fuck about. Got into Italian history, realized how much there is to it, so I narrowed it down to medieval/renaissance. From just that topic there's so much material it's overwhelming. Then looking at shelf for French history makes me want to punch a wall. It'll never end

>>11945782
I agree. You can even get metaphysical about it and claim that the universal is represented in the particular. Each war is the same psycho-political drama on replay, the same mechanistic reflex-tropism of diplomatic and military positioning.

Even some long forgotten war between two lost states erased by time captures the same mental routines and deliberations that apply to the biggest war movements of the modern era. The information is never irrelevant because each instance of a war is as valid a specimen of study and explainer of the phenomenon as any other.

>>11945836
My friend, i feel you.

its a specially crippling feeling because of the internet. there is an absolute deluge of information. both from the past, the present, and the future in the form of everything being recorded as it happens.

Whenever i want to pick up a topic, i am flooded by options,opinions, experiences from others.

It really doesn't help that i have fallen behind the curve and feel like i will never catch up.

I don't know if I will ever see my girlfriend again. It was only by chance that we met anyway, and I guess same chance will take it away. So much work and tears trying to be together, and it was all for 'naught.

>>11945838
100% agree, took the words straight from my mouth and worded it better than I could have. Even in the smallest battles and wars you see the same shit as you would reading about huge catastrophic war that took decades to recover from, it's all just on a different scale. Reading about these forgotten wars just reasurres me of my life as human and the chaos going on around me, it's always the same

>>11940856
Been doing the same thing for the past month or so. But for me its more because of disinterest and depression rather than anything physical

>>11939638
A lot of things have been improving in my life, but I know I can push myself harder. Im beginning to wonder if I should try to date again. All the times I did end up dating someone it didnt amount to anything, I didnt even like them, but I feel I should still try.

I wonder how much of myself is an excuse for cowardice

>>11940856
I've been like this my whole life, I hate eating. Makes me feel sick and it's boring and time wasting. Currently 5'11" 130 lb Auschwitz tier though. Starting a new diet and lifting routine soon and I'm terrified. Gonna feel like shit for a good while before I see results

>>11940856
Honestly maybe consider seeing a doctor.

>>11945970
Whenever somebody shows interest in me I mold myself to be a perfect embodiment of what I assume they want. I don't become a beta bitch and let a girl rule my life, but make small alterations that leads to her falling for me. After a while I get bored and realize I never liked the girl in the first place and only enjoyed the validation. Then I break it off and ghost. To all the girls out there, never date me for your own sanity, I'll leave you feeling like complete shit once I bounce

>>11940856
>>11946025
5'10" 105lb skeleton here, activity is a good way to make me have a heavier appetite but i generally don't eat a lot or many times a day, I tend to feel better with one meal and some snacking than I do with three square meals. Nutrient shakes help.

>>11946038
>5'10" 105 lb
Holy shit anon, how is this even possible. My arms look like literal chopsticks and I have like 25 lb over you

>>11946047
I once spent half a year lifting and bulked up to 117. I think my stomach is actually smaller than it should be.

I would love to blow the brains out of the the top of the head of the CEO that runs my dad's company. They are a foreign corporation chartered to do important and hazardous infrastructure work in the US. They have locked out my dad and his union, and in doing so have risked the lives of hundreds of thousands of Americans. Then they have the gall to ask for rate hikes (which mercifully the state gov denied). Rate hikes! These suit and tie NPC fucks should be guillotines, not pay raises! Not to mention my mother, who has a serious illness, now has no health insurance. They will suffer somehow, some way, God willing.

Already one young man has died from an explosion caused from a breakdown of the failed infrastructure, with another event closely avoiding catastrophe.

One day I will have my wish, and the crowds will cheer as I behead these cowardly mongrels.

>>11942847
Will you share it on /lit/?

>>11946062
So long as Americans continue to get their healthcare from their employers, they will be slaves. Giving your boss live and death control over your wellbeing is laughably insane. This country is at death's door.

>>11944706
Notre Dame
Victor Hugo

>>11946066

>>11944217
27 as well and dont have my shit figured out either, BUT I did date a 30yo when I was 23 and we dated for 3 years. Moved in, had a routine, vacations every year, were thinking of having a baby and we were financially very well off.

And then she decided to break up.

Life happens, but I think its pretty straightforward when you want to settle and actually start getting old.

>>11945656
Friends make awful lovers, separate the two anon unless you love drama and heartbreak.

>>11944542
Looks like something thrown together by google translate, if I had to guess from Spanish or Portuguese.

8/10, would maybe read again

>>11946099
i wouldn't call this girl my friend exactly. we dont hang out as friends much but when we do its more like friends of friends. i make sure sure not to be her friend, i dont want to be a faggot that surrounds her. the stupid thing is, I have a sliver of hope her and her boyfriend will break up, but theres nothin i can do. i know i should just force myself to move on, but i can't because i know there is something special there.

>>11944695
>>11944594
>>11944555

>>>/pol/

It stopped working as the containment board

>>11946084
I'm not a commie but I seriously think ubi is the only solution to this impending catastrophe. I know so many people that spend all their income every year and try not to think about the future. They all say they'll kill themselves once they hit 50 but I doubt it. These fucks will chicken out and work until they collapse. I make 70k a year after taxes and save 50% of it but even then if I don't gradually increase my income it won't be enough for retirement. Idk how the guys living paycheck to paycheck will do it. Gilded age 2.0 is coming. As long as the aesthetics are as good as the last time I won't mind it much

I am researching the pop industry structure and aesthetics. I've always hated Katy Perry, Ariana Grande and celeb music, now I can enjoy them under this vision.
I spent almost all my free time investigating about this topic, once I smoked weed while doing a research and I ended up in a random thread saving celeb pictures into a folder. In the background "Just dance, gonna be OK?".
What the fuck I think I can understand the celeb power after that.
C'mon, no one did a erotic techno dancing when "Poker Face" playing? I'm sure someone has done it too, I can't be the only one.
"Break Free" by Ariana Grande is the most bitching one

Just went in my backyard and smoked a joint, its now legal in Canada. Still feels surreal.

Its pretty amazing, but I hate the country for its liberalism and piety

It also lowers my nofap reserve, but hey, take some give some.

Music is fucking amazing

blz it faggits

>>11946167
You'll get over it soon. Califag here. Walking into a weed costco to buy your dank kind of takes the charm away. Still better than dealers though... don't have to take friendships anymore

I'm convinced that Camus would not be able to imagine a happy Sisyphus if he were around to see today's society.

>>11944128
i agree 100% with this nigga right here. do some mushrooms and fuck a white bitch already

Dancing looks fun but I cannot get over my own spook about it being gay or stupid for me to do.

>>11946206
What the fuck? Dude it's dancing, everybody dances. Dancing is fun, nobody gives a shit about how bad of a dancer you are.

>>11946130
http://www.marketoracle.co.uk/Article27835.html

None of it's a coincidence. Everyone near or below the median household income is in a purpose-made vise. Workers saving more is against the design of our current economic system. We don't even need UBI, we just need the unions back.

>>11946211

It's not that I will be bad it's that I am spooked and cannot unspook myself.

>>11946224
some people take drugs for this, but actually the only thing that's necessary is for you to be okay with looking like a moron. Even a relatively high-functioning autist can play awful dancing off as self-assured lightheartedness.

What is occult? But a pure desire for mass consciousness of people to instantly make something real, having that something out of their control

>>11945836
I had a hearty chuckle reading this and a stray tear by how much that sounds like me

>>11946066
>>11946062

You guys are neon bright

>>11939638
I know the genre is a bit trite and cliche at the moment, but I would honestly not mind living in an isekai or trapped-in-a-game world. There's something so exciting about that idea but I don't think I could adequately express it in words.

>>11946496
The game world is guaranteed to fulfill the now dead childhood longing for adventure, conflict and eventual resolution that is now non existent in modern life. It's no more a projected fantasy in which you understand that it isn't real but instead a reality you can fully embrace

>>11946509
Also, as representation of a game it opens up the possibility for it's system to be inevitably understood the longer you play, an idea that is impossible in the real world. You just get more confused as you age and never will figure it out

>>11946521
Final point, there's a clear progression with obvious rewards. No need go grow up and 'find your passion'.
Here's the goal------> complete it and you'll win. It's the most important goal. The best goal. The world is depending on you.
Maybe in the end that level of bliss will translate into the real life you fall back into?

>>11946509
>>11946521
>>11946579
Have any of you anons ever experienced this state of eudaimonia? What led you to it?

=

>>11939638
I am testing my ip.

I read 'Meditations' by Marcus Aurelius and adapting some stoicist points of view really helped me cope with stress, especially since things are ramping up in my life.
I almost no longer consciously feel it at all (still occasionally, but I can get on top of it easily), but I realised that my appetite has decreased, I'm feeling a little more bitter and cynical, and am quicker to anger. I also had a cold that was a little more severe than usual.
It's nothing too extreme, but I still wonder if I'm subconsciously stressed and am ailing from that.