/lit/ - Literature

>>11546233
I’m 30 and I’ve accomplished absolutely NONE of my goals. I’m just another lawyer who doesn’t write but wants to, in a relationship i’m not passionate about because I was/am afraid of dying alone, working all day and too tired to read much after a long day.
I had all these big plans in my twenties. none of them happened

>>11546250
>I had all these big plans in my twenties. none of them happened

Fuggg. I'm 24, friend. I'm an aspiring writer who's recently discovered young love for the first time in his life, something I wish every anon could experience. Often times I tell myself it's not about the money and that I will pursue my dream of writing literature. Any advice you want to share with me, boomer?

>>11546233
i'm a fucking retard

>>11546250
Fug this sounds like its gonna be me in 5 years. Except I dont really care about being a writer.

Time is an inevitability, to control it would be to destroy it.

>>11546233
its eating the sausage

>>11546302
AND THEN IT'S GONNA EAT ME

a pretty girl smiled at me today :)

>>11546259
Sure. my advice is:
don’t listen to your parents with regard to your career. they do not have your best interest at heart here, no matter how much they love you.
don't settle for a partner who you don’t love to the point of insanity. nothing less than that is worth the time/energy.
try to work for yourself and not for others
manage your debts.
do not under any circumstances go to law school.
save $ not for retirement but for taking long periods of time away from work to see the world, and by see i don’t mean your 10 days of corporate slavecation, I mean quit your job for a year (i did this, AMA).
stay in touch with those you love because they can die or disappear just like that.

>>11546250
This is like 99% of boomers I know. Im not sure if/how I could live like this.

>>11546433
How hard is it to get a job after a year off? what did you tell them?

>>11546446
it was hard. luckily i got one recently. i told them i was working for my friends startup that unfortunately failed

>>11546433
Let’s say someone said fuck the money and their career path and then went on to pursue their dreams, do you think they’d go later on life regretting it? How would society, particularly people around the same age (boomers), view them when they’re raking in 6 figures while some artsy faggot is working at a bar to support his art? It’s hard to escape money when it’s the God every man bows down to. For me, this is the most difficult thing to overcome. Once achieved, everything will come easily, I imagine.

>>11546433
Damn, I could have used this post a year ago. My parents talked me out of a once in a lifetime job opportunity because it was too far away. I'm now suck in my "safe" job and hate every second. Don't get me wrong, I make good money for an underachieving collge student but I'm misrable. Hopefully it's not too late. I have a list of countries that I want to visit but even though I wouldn't even think twice about quitting, I don't think my gf would quit her job to come with me. It's almost humorous, I have everything I've ever wanted, a good paying job, a woman who loves me, legitimate stability in my life, and I've never been more unhappy

A girl made a joke in front of me today, but my mood was so sour i just looked her blank in the face, getting her to look away awkwardly.

Her moaning gets me off. I love to suck and squeeze her nipples, just to receive that look of hopeless pleasure from her dreamy eyes.

>>11546302

The sausage is eaten!

yes

YES

I am angered that suicide is now the only dignified option before me, and shocked at how unafraid I am of sticking a .40 caliber handgun in my mouth and annihilating myself.

>>11546557
livestream fag

My younger sister has a stable and good paying job, and finished her degree. I'm a college dropout that sunk into crippling depression and is unemployed for a hole year now.
My sister is dating a guy from work who's job is even more rewarding and they're probably going to marry in a few years. My last relationship was a poliamory threway thing between my best friend and his girlfriend, that ended with a disastrous heartbreak for me.
I envy my sister. And at the same time, she and her boyfriend are some of the shallowest people I know. I wound not trade places with them, even if I'm still miserable.

>>11546259
Don't be above self-publishing if all else fails. I won't shill my own books here, but I've self-published (via Amazon) two after a decade of rejection letters (when they were polite enough to send anything at all).

The first grossed around $25,000 between 5,000 total downloads and prints. The second is doing almost four times that and feeding interest in the first again, and I've gotten feelers from Amazon Studios about adaptations. We'll see what happens. In spite of whatever future successes I may have, I'll never be a real writer, as I never had the pedigree to go to fucking Savant College or whatever, then be part of the underground cocaine-buttsex art scene in Savannah and so on. I'll just be the guy whose day job was managing a mattress store and self-published his own "sci-fi" before getting lucky with a TV development deal. No torrid love triangle with Donna Tartt and Dave Eggers for me.

I guess it depends on what you're after. I cared less about having a real writer's rep and more about actually being read and making a little money off of it. Maybe if the dev. sees the screen I'll get some lit. cred. Probably not, but I'll at least get paid.

>>11546588
>a hole year
I think I know why you're unemployable.

>>11546632
The year has been a "hole" in my life, anon

>>11546642
>i was really being metaphoric

>>11546630
Come on, what's your book called? Not asking you to shill but I'm interested in /lit/'s work.

>>11546630
thats dope dude, congrats

I want a job. My parents keep bugging me to get one, and I also want to be able to support myself and have some disposable income. I just don't want to work retail, and I don't want to work food. I've worked both of those over the years and I've sworn I'll never go back.

I would really like a job that lets me use my writing skills. Particularly, I wish I could find some job that lets me use my editing and proofreading skills. They're two things I'm actually really good at. I've helped countless friends and family members over the years get jobs and secure grants by editing and proofreading their letters, PowerPoint presentations, and opening statements. I've almost never asked for money doing this, preferring to purely be kind. But surely there's a market for someone with my skills, right? I just can't seem to find an opening.

Is there a common trait shared by all art in all its mediums? What does it mean?
In short all I can think is art immitates life immitates art. Is it meant to educate us, about some broad, complex problem in the form of a short, abstract piece? Is it meant to show a snapshot of what is current, our desires? Why do we dance? I have only questions and no answer.

It's hot and my teeth kinda hurt. Storm tomorrow.

>>11546588
Being miserable doesn't make you deep

>>11546913
Why not get yourself a degree in proofreading or editing or whatever it's called?

>>11546368
nice one lad

Is this the /r9k/ crossboarding containment thread?
I had a nice dream about a girl that goes to the same day hospital as me last night and I didn't even feel bad about it after I woke up.

>>11546250
>I’m 30
>muh young dreams
Boo hoo hoo. Deal with it, your future is still longer than your life has been so far, unless you die accidentally or from cancer or whatever.

>>11546913
Programming? Accounting?

>>11546840
It violates the ToS and I can't evade bans because I use 4chan pass. And, although there is a vast chasm between /lit/ and, say, /pol/, I don't want to have my name (pen name, actually), associated with 4chan. There is virtually nothing in my work to incite feminists and their ilk, but as I'm not an overt lefty, I could see them trying to pull the rug on the dev. deal in order to make space for their own bullshit.

I am flattered anyone would ask, though.

>>11546233
Should I buy a cross to wear. I am reading the bible and finding faith. I want a cross but I don't know if it is something I should buy for myself

>>11547284
I get it. It's just rare to see someone on here who actually writes properly.

>>11546630
So five thousand peeps brought a self published book by an obscure author. Is that a good number? How did you get the exposure anyway?

Alas, on various amusements
I squandered many of life's good hours!
But if my nerves had not been weakened
I still would worship dancing floors.
I love the madcap fling of youth,
The crush, the sparkle and the gaiety,
The girls' elaborate dress, the novelty,
And how I do adore their feet. Scarcely
Through all of Russia could you find
Three pairs of slender women's feet.
Ah! For long I never could forget
Two little feet… Now sad and chilled,
I still remember, and in my dreams
My heart is troubled by their charms.

i had once before been blindly sure of something. its only my recollection of my half - devotion and naiveness that weights on me now as i attempt to weight the possibily of complete devotion to something that seems so far fetched

>>11547294
What kind of cross would suit you? Are you an outgoing person? Do you care about the environment? Maybe a traditionalist?

>>11547294
Yes, it can serve as a helpful reminder of the path you have undertaken, lest you stray too far from it.

>>11547458
I don't care about the environment I would consider myself a traditionalist and not really out going. I'm not trying to make a statement but after speaking to people I would like one as they help keep and gain faith.

>>11547294
Don't buy one, make it.

1. read every day
2. go for a walk every day
3. limit your exposure to mainstream media
4. cook your own meals
5. don't drink soda
6. pick an artistic, creative hobby to specialize in and work at it until you master it
7. find the love of a beautiful woman
8. look people in the eyes
9. don't play video games
10. experience nature

>>11547497
How about this traditional wooden cross? If you subscribe to our newsletter we'll add a crown of thorns extra! For free!

>>11547514
And then what?

i can't focus at work because i keep thinking of all the good looking girls in my office who wear short skirts and sandals in the hot weather
i just want to cum on all their feet all the time

>>11547547
what do you mean? that's how to live life not how to achieve a goal.

>>11547202
What's the point? I already have a Literature undergrad degree, and I'm getting an MA in English. That ought to be sufficient to land the sort of job I want.

Maybe I'm just being autistic and not going about it the right way.

I like having all my stories take place in the same universe/continuity for some reason.
I'm working on a LOTR knockoff romance. It's sitting at 10k words and I think I'll be done at 15. I love reading and writing scifi/fantasy/superhero romance stories. The guys are all heavily idealized versions of me and the girls are based on past crushes or beautiful actresses.

>>11547311
>Is that a good number?
I don't really know, but it happened in a short amount of time.

>How did you get the exposure anyway?
I paid for top listing in the Kindle Store and I paid a good designer for a good book cover.

>>11547731
Was that all you did? Did you pay for any outside marketing?

>>11546485
Fuck dud
I have nothing of these and I long for them like no other thing in the world
Will it be the same for me too?

Hope you get better

>>11546233
I still don't understand how "The origins of totalitarianism" by Hanna Arendt isn't a mandatory work for every german-schoolkid, instead of drudgeing through years of pointless information without a view of the bigger picture.

Why do I have to learn about the Bretton Woods system and the Pan-movements on my own and not in school?

>>11547514
Solid post, desu

>>11547284
>>11547300
Literally the guy who goes on with his delusion of being a published writer for almost a year now
Someone post the pastas please

>>11546345
nobody is going to eat you, milhouse

>>11547843
>I still don't understand how "The origins of totalitarianism" by Hanna Arendt
what is something in there that isn't already known intuitively?

>>11546233
Fap on ego

When I made a successful presentation in school I had a boner. Not very hard but I can feel it.
Once I presented something that was useful to the class and some people thanked me afterward. I felt so excited I could have fapped to that but I didn't want to ruin the experience.
It felt different from watching porns, which would give my dick actual erection but would not give a fuzzy and warm feeling to my chest and not put a smile on my face.
It felt different because the porns doesn't address to me. It doesn't let me know that I am a special person with a special talent and that people like me for it.

I haven't feel that for a long time since I left the school.

Is all meaning and substance in this world derived from disparity?

>>11547951

Well, like I said, the importance of the pan-movements and how they evolved into the "chosen-people" myth, that turned an extroverted-ideology into an introverted-ideology.

The reason why the jews pretty much were tailormade to be the victim of those ideologies.
Generally the whole lead-up from the advent of nation-states to the rise of totalitarianism in the form of Nazi-germny and Sowyet-Russia.

The examination of the jewish duality alone is worth reading for anyone who grew up a 2nd generation migrant.
About how every jew was forced to decide to either be a social pariah or basically betray their own upbringing, to signalize their "excpetionstatus" before they would be admitted into society.

The breakdown of why the british empire and france evolved differently in their antisemitism.

All we learned in history was how thankfull we have to be for the marshal-plan and that nazis are bad.
No real deeper understanding of the circumstances that lead up to it.

We pretty much started at WW1, skiping all the setup.

Not to mention the examination of the differences between colonialism and imperialism and how imperialism was a neccesity of the new economic realitys.

so much to unpack

>>11547987
there is likely some meaning and substance derived from similarity

I genuinely cannot bring myself to complain about my life anymore after realizing that all of my issues can just be met with "you're just lazy".

>>11548020
>and how imperialism was a neccesity of the new economic realitys.
what do you mean by that?

>>11548030
If two things are perfectly the same then they would be indistinguishable from one another.

>>11548020
>We pretty much started at WW1, skiping all the setup.
What was the deal with the set up? What are the unintuitive/unobvious aspects surrounding it?

How is power wanting more power, not obvious?

>>11548059
>If two things are perfectly the same then they would be indistinguishable from one another.
so absolutely and technically, we suppose, by our careful definition, yes. But then again, there are 'rough sames', like the same type, of apple, of tree, of bird, of car, of golf ball, etc.

>>11547274
What’s your point

>>11546233
The fun with library
(Naturally you can google keywords as you read online. This is not a competition to that)
When I read in library I began to have a strange feeling. Sometimes I walk into a section I am unfamiliar with and pick up a book semi-randomly. In the middle of it people were talking about a small place I might have heard of but don't really know which continent it is in. Then I look around where I picked it up, read from the spines of other books, and instantly get an idea what they were talking about. This is probably the fun with library catalogue.

I know doing this is problematic because I never really finish one book instead I just scan them over. I know that all I am getting are fragments. But sometimes fragments add up.

When I read books on an unfamiliar topic, at first I read every word not knowing what I am reading. Most of information are just lost. But one day when I am reading other books, fragments of what I read before would come back and add up with what I am reading. It created interest for me to study the topic more systematically.

I'm sitting at the very beginning of my adult life. College is halfway through, yet the only thing I can think of doing is teaching in hopes of becoming a principal or superintendent. The pressure of not having enough money weighs heavily on me, but the fear of working my fingers to the bone in a cubicle at a job I hate weighs on me more still. My depression is only getting worse. I quit my last job rather foolishly and made myself look like a complete bitch in the process, but I couldn't stop thinking about suicide while I was there. Now I'm somewhere less lucrative but potentially better, but that still doesn't solve my existential dread. I don't want the future to come. I just want to fall asleep one night and let that be the end of it. Maybe I'm just a flawed individual; lazy and weak perhaps.

>>11548084
Then those things would be defined separately but closely by the small disparity between them, while being separated from things completely unlike itself by a greater disparity.

>>11548143
So the opposite of the original statement about:
>Is all meaning and substance in this world derived from disparity?

The only thing that would fit the definition of 'similarity' would be if the entire universe was a single substance with no difference, if there was only similarity, if there was only, if the entire universe/reality was only say, 1 single giant golfball, or only a billion exactly the same identical golfballs.

So: is all meaning and substance derived from the fact that all of the universe/reality is not only 1 single golfball, or a billion identical golfballs

>>11548056
Well, according to what she outlined in her book. It was a neccesity of the economic realitys, because domestic markets where both in their limits of production, due to limited resources and saturated in terms of investment. Big money had no more points ot invest in, in the classic sense of investment into production to then reap benefits from selling produced goods with a profit.

Other markets were usually closed down, since these markets in differnt countrys suffered the same issues.

The only option was investment into foreign-ventures. So basically a change from productbased profits to speculation overseas for profits.
Which in turn lead to a huge amount of swindles and loss of bigmoney, but more importantly small money.

So nationstates were forced with money leaveing the country with the outcome of either huge loses for both their big-investers and a large amount of small-investers or big profits.
The way to ensure those profits was to exhert power over the countrys in which the ventures/resources were located.
Another benfit of that was, that they could not only export violence, but could also get rid of unwanted elements of the population. Unemployed, criminals etc, who basically followed the promise of the capital of big profits.

That was also the difference between colonialism and imperialism that I really wasn't aware of. Where colonialism aims to incorporate "land" into it's main-empire/holdings, while "uplifting" the natives by neccessity. Imperialism really doesn't want any of the sort. It's purely an economical move to "open" new ressources.

Interestingly enough, that was the reason why the pan-german and pan-slav movements inevitably turned into introverted us vs them, conquering ideologys.
The only option for "opening" new markets was conquest for them. Other than overseas ventures, as was the case for france, britain or the netherlands.

I'm still on my first readthrough, so there might be errors. Still, very interesting stuff.


>>11548065
I wish I could live in the easy to understand world you seem to inhabit, where no nuance and detail exist. And you can reduce everything to a caricature of itself to assert superiority over another human being.

>>11548153
Similarity and disparity are inverse descriptors. Two things with that are greatly disparate from one another are only slightly similar. Two things that are highly similar are only slightly disparate.
When things are disparate then we may define them as such, for example a small golf ball to a large golf ball. When things are exactly the same, like if the universe were one golf ball, then the golf ball would not even be able to be defined as a golf ball since there would be nothing it may differentiate against. A universe of a billion golf balls would not be one without disparity since one golf ball would be in such and such a location and another golf ball in a different location, which would create disparity and so they could be defined separately by their disparate locations.

>>11548172
ok, so if absolute similarity (in a universe with multiple parts, what I tried to represent with the billion golf ball example) is so near impossible, and we are only working on scales, from nearest possible similarity, to little further, to little further, etc, towards over half different, towards, nearest possible disparity

then the original statement:
>Is all meaning and substance in this world derived from disparity?
If something like the billion identical golf ball example could be given as something quite close towards the maybe impossible even theoretical of 'total similarity', well, if it can even be said 'these two objects are closer to being similar than to being absolutely disparate? Or due to the definition of these words, your telling of the golf ball example, its impossible for anything to exist and not be disparate, therefore making that original statement by definition obvious? All that can be brought into question, as attempted, is the nature of the scale and modes of judgement of, (1)most possible similarity between 2 objects <--------> (100) most possible disparity between 2 objects

Torn rotator cuff and pain.

>>11547514

based and redpilled

>>11548162
hadnt there been international interacting with trading and banking and stuff prior? Was this imperialism necessity just more people being involved, more people than before able to want power?

>>11548207
fuck nazis

>>11546250
>have a stable profession and relationship
>"waaah muh young dreams"

>>11548162
>The trigger for the war was the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand of Austria, heir to the throne of Austria-Hungary, by Yugoslav nationalist Gavrilo Princip in Sarajevo on 28 June 1914. This set off a diplomatic crisis when Austria-Hungary delivered an ultimatum to the Kingdom of Serbia[12][13] and, as a result, entangled international alliances formed over the previous decades were invoked. Within weeks the major powers were at war, and the conflict soon spread around the world

Is it well known in history books exactly how that event led to the starting of war? (the conversations involved, between nations, and high ranking members in the nation, the exact things stated that actually led up, or is likely pretty simply: they killed our archduke, we gotta go to war with them now)

If that event did not occur would war happen?

Is it known what the ultimatum was:

>before deciding that it would give Serbia a harsh ultimatum on 23 July
>Just prior to the Serbian reply to the ultimatum

What was austria-hungry hoping to accomplish? What did they believe could be the results of their actions? They would grab some land? Show some people their strength? And thats that?

Yesterday I finally order a fleshlight for the first time, the 'mini-lotus' texture. I eagerly await the hedonistic pleasures it will allow me to indulge in. The funny thing is that I'm a smart, funny, tall 8/10 who gets told once a week at work by customers that I should be a model. I just happen to be at a stage in my life where I'm really busy with work and don't have the money or time to take girls out on dates to woo them.

>>11548162
if the austrio-hungry-german leaders of ww1 who were most vocal in starting it, knew the ultimate outcome, do you think they still would have gone ahead with it?

weiners

>>11548344
i've always been curious about getting a fleshlight but i'm not really sure what advantages it offers over just having a wank
also i'd probably neglect cleaning it and it would stink after about a week

>>11548162
If according to the economic systems in place then, imperialism was necessary, what economic systems would have to have been/be in place for imperialism to not be necessary?

Does imperialism exist today? More or less than then? And colonialism?

>>11548441
>but i'm not really sure what advantages it offers over just having a wank

It feels way better, that's the whole point

>>11548172
also we must ask>>11547987
what they meant by substance? and meaning for that matter: what are some examples of 'meaning' in the world?

>>11548172
>what are some examples of 'meaning' in the world?
well for starters, language can be considered 'meaning' or meaningful: and don't we imagine it could not be as such, if language did not contain disparity? for instance, if there was only one word, or letter to describe everything.

Last night I had one of the most beautiful dreams I ever had. I fell in love with a girl from another world and we went on a journey deep within my dream world. We were two souls in full flight directly experiencing true wonder and beauty. I can't believe such beauty can exist, even if it's only in a half-remembered dream within a dream. Waking up crushed me

I've been reading about high level chess players and the processes they go through to improve their game. It makes me want to pick up my own hobby to improve like that, though nothing stands out to me right now. Maybe I'll try my hand at writing, it could be fun to see my progression over a month or two.

nigger

>>11548473
ok
do i still have to move it up and down or are there versions you can stick to a chair or something and fuck?

>>11548610
You can hold it in your hand and move it up and down with your dick inside it, just like you do when you jerk off, or you can stick it into a chair or bed and fuck it, or you can buy one of the small mechanical devices that moves it up and down while you don't have to do anything.

I fucking hated going to school as a kid and come from a very uneducated family that never went to college and I didn't wind up going either. I just don't have the desire to become formally educated, I like to learn on my own time and I know this isn't ideal but I still manged an ok job and a gf even without it. I really don't know how to feel about my life situation. This world is only getting more specialized and will likely leave me in the dust for not having the proper credentials. I have no clue what I'm actually good at or passionate about. Feels idk man. Being a self aware brainlet is some kind of sick curse

>>11548045
same. but also if you have nothing to work for most things will seem not worth it

>>11548441
I have two other sleeves but not a Fleshlight TM. I agree that they feel better than your hand but if you don't wash it not only will it stink but bacteria will grow there and if you use it again you could give yourself a urethral infection like my buddy did. No it wasn't me. I'm a germophobe and know better.

Sidenote: No it doesn't feel as good as bare pussy. Nothing will be invented that will feel as good. The /r9k/ers who think animatronic sex dolls will make women obsolete are crazy.

Transhumanism will not be the continuation of humanity in the future but merely the death of humanity and its complete replacement by something alien.

Atop the silo, the negroid had the most glorious view of the white boy's ass. Nothing made him harder than the thought of pozzing virgin white negholes. Already, semen was leaking from his urethra. He would have to hold it longer, as he dare not waste a drop of his precious, lethal seed. It was imperative that this white boy was not only alone but far from view of passerby. When the white boy set off along the dirt road, he knew it was time. The biting insects and vermin of the tall grass through which he crawled emboldened him to carry out his deed, as the diseases they brought could only enhance the experience of pozzing his prey. The negroid himself had taken on the aspects of these creatures as he shimmied like a spider across the lakeshore. With soft tiptoed steps, he reach around the white boy's waist to grab his crotch and rubbed his own penis against the white boy's ass.
"You know what I gots to do to youse, wyboi."

>>11547559
Oh. Pretty gay desu

>>11548162
>On 1 July, Viktor Naumann, a German journalist and friend of German Foreign Secretary Gottlieb von Jagow, approached Berchtold's chief of cabinet, Alexander, Count of Hoyos. Naumann's advice was that it was time to annihilate Serbia and that Germany could be expected to stand by her ally.[24] The next day, German Ambassador Heinrich von Tschirschky spoke to Emperor Franz Joseph and stated that it was his estimate that Wilhelm II would support resolute, well-thought-out action by Austria-Hungary with regard to Serbia.[24]

>On 2 July, the Saxon Ambassador in Berlin wrote back to his king that the German Army wanted Austria to attack Serbia as quickly as possible because the time was right for a general war since Germany was more prepared for war than either Russia or France.[25] On 3 July, the Saxon military attaché in Berlin reported that the German General Staff "would be pleased if war were to come about now"

>>11548162
> Franz Josef's letter explicitly stated that the decision for war against Serbia had been made before the assassination of the Archduke, and that the events of Sarajevo only confirmed the already pre-existing need for a war against Serbia.

>>11548162
>Tisza warned that any attack on Serbia "would, as far as can humanly be foreseen, lead to an intervention by Russia and hence a world war". The rest of the participants debated about whether Austria should just launch an unprovoked attack or issue an ultimatum to Serbia with demands so stringent that it was bound to be rejected.[52] Austrian Prime Minister Stürgkh warned Tisza that if Austria did not launch a war, its "policy of hesitation and weakness" would cause Germany to abandon Austria-Hungary as an ally.[52] All present, except Tisza, finally agreed that Austria-Hungary should present an ultimatum designed to be rejected.

>The setbacks that the Austrian army suffered in 1914 and 1915 can be attributed to a large extent to Austria-Hungary becoming a military satellite of Imperial Germany from the first day of the war. They were made worse by the incompetence of the Austrian high command.[128] After attacking Serbia, its forces soon had to be withdrawn to protect its eastern frontier against Russia's invasion, while German units were engaged in fighting on the Western Front. This resulted in a greater than expected loss of men in the invasion of Serbia.[128] Furthermore, it became evident that the Austrian high command had had no plans for a possible continental war and that the army and navy were also ill-equipped to handle such a conflict

>>11546433
>do not under any circumstances go to law school.
What if I got into Columbia Law and I'm a smertypernts?

>>11546233
the air about us mourns the snuffed spark of our lost humanity. twists of fate, overthought. was and lacking. umbilical. buried.

>On 12 July, Szögyény reported from Berlin that everyone in the German government wanted to see Austria-Hungary declare war on Serbia at once, and were tired of Austrian indecision about whether to choose war or peace

Just a quick question for y'all fiction writers out there: how appealing does a short story sound if it was just a single sentence? Of course I'd just a shit ton of conjunctions, but the story is about a woman suffering a mental breakdown; she's trying to rescue a puppy runt that'll remind her of her of her traumatic childhood with a borderline abusive mother and her borderline autistic younger brother that is either dead or in jail. The story would get so intense that the reader wouldn't be able to tell apart the young brother from the runt puppy.

>>11549587
Eh, do it if you want but it doesn't add anything to the story so it's just a gimmick.

Can you just stop hating me? I didn't do anything wrong. Every reason you have for disliking me is stupid. I really was a great guy.

Books about drugs and quitting? I've been bottoming out for a while and I want to try and quit. I started infinite jest and the part about the guy waiting for weed is how I feel.

Tinder makes me sick to my stomach. An hour hasn't even gone by and I'm ready to delete it again. I need to message the girl from my public communications class last semester. That would hopefully feel better than the trouble of Tinder, considering that's how I met my ex in the first place. I need to find better places to vent but I like all of you and for some reason feel comfortable here.

>>11546446
It just seems incredible to me that if you can't find work for a year people refuse to hire you ever again

what the fuck is up with that

I want to read about romance but with a robot

and not just any robot but a robot that doesn't look anything like a person

>>11549753
I feel a bigger connection with the average Anon than I do with a lot of my Facebook friends. We're all alike in the end, aren't we? We all found our way to 4chan because we all, ultimately, have things in common.

I've finally gotten a job and I'm supposed to show up this Thursday but Iḿ really nervous. The people there are around my age ( 19 ) and I don't know how I should act around them, I'm scared of coming off as weird.

>>11549825
you will come off as weird and look back at yourself in 5 years with that sinking uncomfortable "oh my god I'm an embarassment" feeling which will quickly pass as you realize nobody but you even remembers it

i'm commited not addicted but it keep controlling me

>>11546630
How was the whole process? I am interested because it seems like more people are just going the Amazon route more and more.

>>11549842
What does this mean

>>11549987
it means he hasn't owned up to it yet

>>11549775
2001 space odyssey

>>11549987
You can be committed to raising a family, or building a shed, and not addicted to these ideas, but your commitment to them is an amount of control over you by the idea

>>11548518
Jacob?

You said you liked it. I hope you saved what I wrote for you that winter and read it sometimes.

I want to be unshackled from the government and move back that city

>>11549753
Tinder is the worst. It's like a drug. You keep coming back to it, it's addicting. It is instant gratification by looking and seeing that these people have expressed interest in you. But then you realize that that is just passing satisfaction and finding substance there is impossible. It's hollow pleasure. Deep down you realize that and that's why it makes you feel sick. I had the same realization a few months back.

I purposely got myself banned so I couldn't go back even if I wanted to in a moment of weekness. Find substance anon. It'll help a lot more.

>>11550298
why couldnt that exact same style platform/layout work for nonhookup, but real dating? when was tinder ever officially considered only for hookups or sluts? It doesnt have to be, and it may suck that that stigma scared away others who may be afraid to use it because they think it can only be for that, but what an efficient way to meet members of the opposite sex.

In the end its not that much different from plenty of fish or any other dating thing: pictures, bio.. talk or not.

but I guess it kinda just so happened that that platform was for flings, though there are all kinds of success stories of relationships from it... just need to have the certain personality condition that lets you brave the 'this is only for depraved sluts' and 'maybe there is another decent person out here who also is enticed by the efficiency of this platform in hopes to find serious'

>>11550283
Nope.

Good Morning Lit, have a good day ok!

>>11550478
>have a good day
yeah..

>>11550478
You too, friend

Despite being quite the pacifist I can't stop reading war memoirs. Goodbye To All That started it, I think. Now I'm reading Parachute Infantry by Webster and Interrogator about Hanns Scharff. Going to read Helmet For My Pillow next.

Stuff written by writers who were actually there is great. Webster's book is much better than Ambrose's. I read Winters' book a while ago and whilst it was okay Webster definitely has him beat. I tried to read One Bullet Away but I just couldn't get into it.

Looking into Grossman's book about the Red Army and I am hoping it's not full of bullshit like Gulag Archipelago.

>>11550478
you too pal

>>11547744
Outside of the Kindle Store, no. Honestly, if you can just keep your book listed on page one or in suggestions/searches for maybe a week, which is fairly inexpensive, if it's not utter shit and has a decent or interesting cover, you could probably do 500 to a thousand units no prob, which is at least enough to break even with marketing/production costs and have enough left over for a celebratory weekend in the big city or something.

>>11547896
Nope. Sorry.

>>11547843
>learn about the Bretton Woods system
The only people who learn about that are IS and econ students and if you're in any way associating it with totalitarianism you are probably mentally retarded.

>>11549863
I'll try to make a long story short, being unsure whether you're asking about the entirety of my efforts as a writer or the process of self-publishing with Amazon.
>take a fiction writing class in college for an english req. as all the business writing was full
>turns out i like it
>prof. says i have "real talent" and gives me a bunch of info on how to find a lit. agent and submit for publication and all that
>spend ten years submitting stories, novellas, and two novels to contests, agents, publishers, etc.
>never win or place, usually get no replies, sometimes get rude and cunty replies from lit. estab. types
>but also get some encouraging notes, even if they're in the form of rejections
>chuck pahlaniuk's agent told me my second novel was "bitter and ambitious chaos, in the best possible meaning of the expression"
>he said he wished more writers were like me, and that he further wished he was still young enough to represent me, but he was mere months from retirement and was hammering out the last details of chuck's latest option for adaptation
>barbara kingsolver's agent actually paid me a 5K option for my first novel, but declined to publish after i dug in my heels on the exclusion or editing of a couple of grotesquely violent scenes
>after all this frustration burn or delete everything and don't write anything for another ten years
>then have my best three ideas ever
>do the self-publishing gig twice
>make a little coin
>might get a TV deal with Amazon Studios
>hoping that, if it succeeds, will lead to real lit. deal for my third novel
As for the process itself with Amazon, it's zero problem. You just click on the Self-Publish link in the Kindle Store and follow the instructions. 90% of the people who do it are deluded shit writers who will sell nothing, but 10% are capable people who have been overlooked by the lit. estab. because they didn't go to a Seven Sisters school and weren't taken under the wing of a well-connected lit. prof. with purple-framed problem glasses. Either way, you lose nothing by self-pub. through Amazon.

I´ve never really written in the last few months, I´ve only ERPed

Bald men are underrepresented in literature. Why is that?

>>11547973
This is the result of pornography addiction which subverts dopaminergic motivational pathways and conflates everything to sexual motivations.
An erection always subdues prefrontal neurotransmission, which undermines speaking ability, eloquence, and critical thought.
What you said is akin to bragging about how breaking a bone helped you with a race. It is a ludicrous premise and assertion.

>>11549697
Or you only think you were a good person but you're mistaken.

>>11546233

I wonder if it's worth it to get both a trade degree which I'm already half done with, and an unrelated arts or engineering degree. I want to have a family, but I'm insecure about the future of the country and of my own happiness. Will I still be able to stay in shape? Will I still be able to read? How will my children turn out? Can I handle the hardships of life once I'm finished with college? Do I want to pursue a trade? Is there as much job security in pursuing something else? Will I be able to handle it?

>>11547514
1. Read every other day.
2. Walk only when necessary.
3. Yes, limit your exposure to that dirt.
4. Cook your own meals occassionally. Enjoy takeaway occassionally.
5. Soda is great. But not too much okay?
6. This is ideal but much easier said than done. Lets not all get too ambitious. Be realistic my dudes. Hope for it but dont bet on it.
7. Fuck a hooker. Love is overrated. Turns sour in the end. Just get laid as often as necessary to avoid becoming a beta fag.
8. Yes, do this.
9. This motherfucker lost his mind. Videogames have been one of my biggest helps/escapes during tough times. Play 'em up boys, play that shit up.
10. Best advice of the lot.

>>11548699
I feel you bro.
Same situation.
Worst thing is that im considerably smarter and infinitely more fun than people i know whose parents spent a truckload on education. But oh no, im the guy who dropped out of school at 15 and had to work because hes family were so poor, I couldnt possibly have educated myself or have any interesting points to make. Im clearly just a peasant.

>>11549417
worst possible decision you could make. doomed to golden handcuffs.

>>11552458
Somehow worse than the trite original

I spent 5 hours cleaning my rooms as an attempted stay against the all-consuming dread that life induces in me at times. There is nothing to look forward to anymore. My best years have come and gone with nothing to show for them, only memories that I can barely recall. I'm fundamentally dysfunctional as a human.
This sounds melodramatic. It probably is. Hopefully it goes away soon. It usually does. Sometimes not. We'll see.

>>11549760
That's not the half of it. What about a year in which you did not work, but lived by your prepared savings. Even that is shameful.
>Anon you took a year off, your career is suffering!!

>>11552669
Very melodramatic. Why do you think there is nothing to look forward to? Was there ever?

>>11552669
How old are you to say that your best years are gone?

>>11546233
I'm feeling very paranoid because I haven't spoken to some people for a couple of days and don't know what they're doing without me.

https://dancefighterredux.wordpress.com/2018/07/21/towards-the-pseudo-formalization-of-a-bad-attitude-part-1/
https://dancefighterredux.wordpress.com/2018/07/21/towards-the-pseudo-formalization-of-a-bad-attitude-part-2/
https://dancefighterredux.wordpress.com/2018/07/22/towards-the-pseudo-formalization-of-a-bad-attitude-part-3/
https://dancefighterredux.wordpress.com/2018/07/22/towards-the-pseudo-formalization-of-a-bad-attitude-part-4-4/
https://dancefighterredux.wordpress.com/2018/07/29/against-malatora-and-towards-a-draconic-post-human-future/
https://dancefighterredux.wordpress.com/2018/08/01/draconic-values-a-meditation/

>>11552713
Living their lives and thinking very little about you, if at all

>>11552735
They're people who are very close to me; we made plans but they post pictures on social media that look like thye did it without me and whenever I ask them about it they don't tell me much.

>>11552746

Sounds like they aren't very close to you, anon

>>11552765
Then who is?

>>11552774

There are probably people who are and you're being disingenuous. If not, you need to find better company for your own sake

>>11549987
it means i don't really care if you cry
push me to the edge all my friends are dead

. keep your chin up
. always look straight
. NEVER look down to the floor
. don't stare but don't lower your gaze either

I have had a bit too much to drink and I need to submit some writing by the end of the night. This can only go well.

>>11547514
done/do all of them still unhappy and lost

Is it gay if a cute girl pegs me with her penis?

>tfw late 60's King Crimson or Moody Blues will never compose a score to a Ghibli movie
It's a rather specific feel.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wYRgCZIRTLA

>>11553508
It would have to be a pretty dark one, or melancholic at least

>>11553532
If King Crimson were to compose the soundtrack the movie would have to be somewhat melancholy, but the Moody Blues can compose some happy sounding songs. In fact, this is the next song off the same album.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Lshw3uApF0

>>11553576
>>11553508
I like these:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prpGDxhA_kM&

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EQbRqGixA7Y

>>11553596
>>11553576
these too from that album

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-L7lIIy7DjA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbotTWgFzn4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tri0XWbL7Ws

>>11553596
>>11553608
Nice!

Anybody will do anything given the right circumstances

You have a good day lit?

Hit the gym today. All of my body aches, but is the good ache. I've missed it.

On the other hand, everything about me that is not my physical body hurts because of her, and this one is not the good ache.

Sic ego nec sine te nec tecum vivere possum.

>>11554336
keep up the good work, anon. go read a book or something to relax while your body heals.

>>11554243
I suppose. I read on my kindle pc reader for a while at work today. So I got paid about 28 bucks an hour to read random things off project gutenberg, which is nice. Also got a free lunch. Unfortunately, when I arrived home, I squandered all my free time playing video games and only managed to read a dozen pages or so. Feels bad.

A new hire at my office is the most beautiful creature I've ever encountered in my life, I'm totally stricken with her.

Is it okay to not have any real ambition or lofty goals? I don't really have any kind of career choice or anything I want to do beyond just being myself, I guess. No real point with the coming collapse and climate change and all that. I just want to be content with the life I have and maybe start a garden soon. Write a bit. Read more. Have decent times with my friends. Overthrow the bourgeoisie. That kind of thing, you know?

Is ambition a meme? A lot of people that try to do things never accomplish them anyway.

Honestly I have been planning my suicide for this weekend since this Monday. I'm tired of the ups and downs, I'm tired of disappointing myself and just never being good enough. It's not like I'll ever get anywhere in life.

>>11554356
whats your work?

>>11554510
consultant

>>11554471
if you have any family or friends you should reach out to them. ive been there before, and it can and does get better

>>11554471
>>11554661
I'm depressed, anxious, and think about suicide every day. Sometimes friends/family are ok to talk to. They may not understand if they haven't been thru it themselves. It's better to go to someone who knows what they're talking about like call a hotline or talk to a professional.

>>11546250
poor kid

>>11554387
Life needs structure. How are you planning to over throw the bourgeois if you are skinny, lazy, uneducated and inexperienced?

>>11554387
No ambition is not a meme. You have to have goals. If you have no goals and are not working toward something then what are you? If you decide you're not worth anything and will never accomplish anything then you are just beathing air and eating food that could be used by someone else who actually matters.

Why would God give man reason if he was only meant to be a worm, eating and shiting, then dying?

Stop being pathetic and get your life together, anon.

I find people that can't take enjoyment out of life incredibly irritating.
I do not hate anyone - not niggers, not weebs, not furries - as much as I despise those faggots that wake up with that 'Ugh, another day of this shit' attitude towards life. And it's amazing to me how they always talk about how bored they are and how meaningless life is when they do nothing at all. They're either playing video games or indulging some sort of real life vice - if they read history or philosophy, it's only so that they can say they "know" what they're talking about when they're less informed than a first year undergraduate and read at a snail's pace.
I'm actually too untalented and skilled to express in words the amount of loathing and hatred I feel for people, especially privileged ones in the West, that do not wake up every day eager to live life to the fullest. They are truly the greatest cancer and I would unironically gas them all. There are clinically depressed people that show more enthusiasm at another day and optimism towards life than your average angsty 20-30 yo that likes to wax poetic about how meaningless our human existence is only to follow up with a talk about his favorite Marvel character.
FUCK THESE PEOPLE.

This is a poem I wrote for someone who's very dear to me:

I fell
Down
Some stairs
Naked
While
Pooping

I lost this goofball last week. Just ten months old, and a fucking parvovirus epidemic on the neighborhood took him away. Teaches us to miss his vaccine reinforcement rounds. Thankfully his sister was cleared of it, albeit with a tick disease that has her swallowing down antibiotics every day for a month. And now, it's living without him, which was surprisingly simple.

I remember being utterly devastated when my brother broke the news to me that morning. I yelled 'no' at the top of my lungs at him, and then went to the sofa and cried my guts out. You know, curl into a ball and go through all five stages of grief in one go. All the while my mind was telling me to calm down, and that crying won't bring him back. My body told it to shut the fuck up.

A spontaneous trip ensued, where me and my family went to pick his body over at the vet, and then onwards to our beach house. Buried him five feet deep into the sand, right alongside our old and steadfast Golden. Went home, and we all went back to our lives.

A week later, and his own existence feels like a lifetime ago. Like distant memory, or a dream, a wisp that I can recall and smile at, but not get the full picture until I look at photos of him. The bump on his head and the ball at his mouth. He fucking loved balls, and he would always get torn when presented with more than one. Some times he would try to pick up both at a time, and fail, but damn it did he try.

I miss you buddy. Keep good old Pipo some company in dog heaven.

>>11555212
kys

>>11555310
Damn anon that's rough. But look at it this way. The loss of one pet and cause the strengthening of a bond with another. Yes the loss of him was great but you still have his sister. Use her to help get through the pain. Animals have bonds with each other as well, especially if they are family. So the one still fighting is also feeling pain for the loss. Make sure to give her extra love and attention and she will show her appreciation for it a thousand times over in the future.

Stay strong my friend!

>>11555155
If he is content with being the way he is, then what more could one ask for? Does anything matter anyway? I think if anything he's got us all beat.

>>11555423
You're just trying to justify being as lazy as he is. Do you really think mankind and society would be as the stage it's at now if everyone thought like the two of you do? Nothing would of come out of anything if our ancestors thought "I'm perfectly content sleeping in a cave wearing animal skins"

You're the reason the reason why societiatal progress is stagnating.

>>11555567
You're the reason why*

Oops should have proof read

Good Morning Lit, have a nice day ok!

>>11546250
I feel you man: I wish I didn't but I do

It's my birthday and I feel like shit

might do shrooms but in my case I don't think it will help my mental health in the long run

>>11555803
Happy birthday anon.

Remember, get hugs not drugs

>>11549021
>/r/bluemidterms2018

>>11555850
Thanks anon

you're right I wish I was surrounded with people who had a peace of mind like that to share

modernism has blurred all possibility of me trying to understand the abstract succinctly, when I read philosophy I am never understanding it, the historical context, what is necessitated by it. I feel as if my life and my thoughts are a never ending torment on the fact that I know how to read language but not books. I live in a sort of hell where I can see people who are clearly better than me, but am not able to reach the pinnacle of sociopathy that would allow me to even be with it. When I read psycho analysts like Lacan, Freud, Jung I try to understand how of it would work with a systematic approach. I feel hopelessly lost with my reading, I am not intelligent and I can never understand literature. Only making hopeless inferences as if I was looking at foreigners with a telescope from a home nation and being infinitely disturbed by the similarities but never able to empathize intuitively.

I don't know what happened, my girlfriend began to suffer from a worsening anxiety about even banalities of day to day life, by some point she began to feel an intense anxiety when we tried to be physically intimate. I began to feel responsible, like maybe it was just being with me that was tainting her emotionally. Whenever I tried to be close to her I began to feel an intense anxiety myself that I was a corruption not just to her, but to those around me in general. Whenever I began to feel intense attraction to her, i'd hide it and end up masturbating in the bathroom to alleviate the heart palpitations. I just told her how this had been going on for just over a month, and her reaction was the obvious. I don't know how I let myself become like this, especially when she had already become so dependent on me as a respite from her own stresses. I feel like a cliche abomination of the 21st century, an absolute joke. I used to hope for so much more and somehow the idea of jeopardizing my own life became some kind of twisted fetish

i would like to be

>>11546233
I'm listening to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O185DTU-B44 and considering posting on my Facebook.

I will not do it however, because I understand that my brain wants me to do it in order to get attention.

>>11546250
You were in your twenties one year ago.

Save money and travel somewhere on a month long vacation with your partner.

>>11546485
Similar position here. Got offered to work nice places in other states like 4-5 times but family convinced me otherwise. I've been on this job for 9 years now and unless I quit, do something really stupid or the country declares bankruptcy I can keep working here for the next 45 years.

>>11547509
This but don't worry about making it perfect.

>>11547548
I can't even imagine how much pain this woman will feel on her legs/back in the future.

>>11548699
>>11552521
At work everybody just assume I have a degree. You got to see the look on their eyes when they learn I dropped out.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ontological_security

Ever once in a while I come across an article that's a real kick in the gut.
>Children are more likely to have a positive ontological security when the child's parents own their own home.[2] Reportedly, home ownership also improves parenting and allows for a future transfer of assets, thus facilitating ontological security.
This helps explain the depersonalization and all the other bullshit I've been going through over the course of my life. If only I knew what to do with this information-- suicide?

I think my masturbation is related to my anxiety. I had a great two week vacation and didn't feel like fapping at all, but I simply HAD to fap when I got home on the first day of work.

>>11557194
I feel you bro. Feels bad man.

Is "growing up" a fucking meme? I mean I don't think people should sit around playing vidya and eating cheetos at age 25 but most of the "responsible adult" traits are idiotic. Get a career brah, get a wife brah, have some kids brah. Fuck off.

>>11557764
Yes growing up is definitely a meme.

I want to have sex with my girlfriend so bad but she's at work and when she gets home I'll be at work. Thursdays are hard because we basically don't get to see each other with our conflicting schedules.
I have been watching porn thinking about how I want to make her dress and what I want to do to her. I'm going to make her wear black stockings and high heels and matching black bra and panties. Then I'm going to force her head down on my cock and then when I'm ready turn her around and fuck her like a dog from behind.
This is totally possible if you have a gf. Those of you without are totally missing out.

I wish I were normal

>>11557981
God I fucking need to get drunk

I swear the real reason why most of us are still around is because we're either blind to the fact we'd be better off dead or we're too weak-willed to do "it"

>>11558038
Not at all

Have you seen the thread about Billy Something earlier today who presumably had his whole face severely burned and tried to go on tinder? Now that's a real reason to kill oneself. Most of us are alright

>>11557104
wrong

Our human life's and perceptions are an incredibly small portion of the totality of reality. God and the ultimate of reality in of itself and the essence of god will never be laid bare before our eyes and all we can do is try to see more of the truth in petty vain. And all of life including my own is nothing but Vanity, images and passing shadows. Suffering lasts only for a little while then dissolves. Joy lasts only a little while then dissolves. I am a petty man for emotions can sway me, though they do not rock me internally my exterior actions are still in the form of the illusionary and transcient.

How long until I am changed? How long until I become Good? How long until this world is changed and the heavens are rolled up like a scroll and the elements melted in fire, how long until the fire is divided and the earth is in earthquakes and all air is rushing and the thunders are felt and all things are changed forever? How long until that glorious day where eternity and the immortal shall consume the temporary? The fading? How long until I partake of full knowledge and experience of the glory of the first mind? How long until the days of perpetual reception of true untainted knowledge? How long lord how long until I look upon the father of lights ? Cast this world away from me, cast this imagination away from me, cast this logic and emotion away from me, cast this reason away from me, cast the experience of suffering away from me, cast pleasure away from me. Cast concepts, ideas, even Pure emptiness of mind away from me. Cast even my own consciousness away with me. Oh lord give to me the perception of only your unity, your nature, your energy and power. Your essence. The Truth of Truth. The ultimate, the essence of essence. Bones of The ultimate. True God. Come Lord Christ, Come.

listen to this stupid fucking poem i wrote

https://youtu.be/mcDLRwppW6c

>>11558160
Poor Billy. I have no answer for him. Can he find a companion? Maybe a nice blind girl? I'm not even kidding does that have and chance of working?

>>11558268
He definitely can, just not an app that's 99% about looks and first impressions. If literal autists can get gf's a guy who's "only" physically disfigured can manage.

Looking for Kissinger's senior thesis. Not sure why posts about it have been getting deleted.

>>11557764
I think maturity isn't a meme, but getting a wife, a steady job, kids doesn't make you mature. Thinking it does is immature and is a disease of the middle class demented majority.

>>11558160
>disagreeable physical appearance is the truly convincing argument as to the worthlessness of life
how american/shallow of you

>>11547782
Yes it will. But you won't fully understand it and accept it until you have it, so by all means fight for it and see the other side.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3x-SAyU3pQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KmnNhYrkfT0

rollerino

Loneliness is a debilatating illness who's only cure is geniune, lasting companianship, a remedy rarer than diamond rings. Sadness is finding comfort in how horrible things are and giving up on fighting the displeasure any more. Defeat is having nothing in your life, knowing no one is going to save you, and that you can't do it yourself. Anger is a blind rage that solves nothing and only serves to bring more pain and anguish onto others and yourself. Happiness is finding joy even without anyone to share it with. Contentment is being glad for the way things are. Comfort is a luxury to be cherished. Pleasure is a reward not a motivator. Things shouldnt have to be good at the end of the day for you to work your ass off, you should do it just to do it again tomorrow. Misery isn't a symptom, it's a lack of will.

I feel immature by saying this, but I can't help but feel unease whenever I watch someone go a bit too far to the "right".
The weird thing is that I don't really support the current left, and I wouldn't like to be judged based on stupid things such as musical taste and websites visited, but I do that with other people.
Hell, I listen to Black Magick SS all the time, but knowing this girls listens to white nationalist metal left me with a bad taste in my mouth... I'm a fucking hypocrite ideologue

>>11559667
girl*

I litterally cannot feel emotion, how do I fix this problem so I can become a functioning member of society?

>>11559924
>I litterally cannot feel emotion, how do I fix this problem so I can become a functioning member of society?
looks like this was your first step as it appears to be something of an emotional plea

>>11559973
So what's the next step?

>>11560065
you start to have full control over what emotions you want to feel

>>11560065
what emotion would you like to feel, and why?

have you ever felt hunger, or thirst? And did you not feel good and happy to sate them,

>>11558250
Wew lad.

What was your inspiration for this piece? What event in your life led you to write this?

>>11559667
Why do you feel this way? Is it because you believe yourself in danger from this person? Is there a threat on your health? Where does your uneasiness stem from?

I have a theory but you'd probably deny it flat out.

>>11559667
hypocrisy by itself is not such a terrible sin.
Making judgments about others is normal, but yeah, you can practice being more charitable in your judgements. Remind yourself that people are 3D just like you, they can't be fully understood just from a few tastes

>>11560069
But humans don't have control over what emotions they feel.
>>11560089
It's not like I want to feel emotion or anything. But being a human I'm expected to feel it except I can't. I would rather become an airplane or some other entity that's not expected to feel emotion and this is viewed as normal.

>>11546250
change. change now before its too late anon, im a zoomer but atleast i can tell when someone is at the point of no return ; when you turn 40 and have kids and are married with no more ability to change your life will leave you in pain which i can only imagine to be magnitudes above what you are feeling right now
do what you always wanted, study philosophy or writting if you wanted to that you whole life

Does anyone else wish the world was just a little easier? Like a fair competition? I'm all for perfection and excellence, but when I'm competing beside people who are innovating perfection itself to include an imaginary criteria of whatever extra energy they have to put in I feel like I'm playing a game that's not fun anymore.

>>11559489
you don't need to have will anon. that's a cheap idea and hasn't been properly informed by religion over the centuries where renunciation and servitude has always gotten by.

>>11552714
Stop spamming your fucking fag journal here, man. God.

>>11560152
what is some examples of situations where you have been expected to show emotion? Someones birthday party, they bring out the cake and start singing, and you are just standing there frowning, or with a death stare?

you are made that you may have to fake being happy in such situations, a person comes to you on the street' hey I havent seen you in soo long!!' smiling beaming, excited, and you are just, 'meh, yea...whats up.....' with a gothic stare

or someone 'hey did you hear the awful news of what happened, so awful and sad right' 'meh...yea...whatever...'

>>11560168
>innovating perfection itself
what is this situation you are in?

Trying to decide whether it's worth going to university at 25. I'm stuck in retail at the moment so it can't really get much worse.

Good Morning Lit, have a good day alright!

>>11560326
It could get worse anon. You could do a 3 or 4 year uni degree, then wind up back in retail paying off your student debt

>>11560092

My general philosophy and conception of life in relation to biblical Christianity, eastern philosophy, hermeticism and the like.
You look at the Vanity and obsession with appearances in the world then you compare that to the pure and beautiful spiritual models and the disgust of this world just increases greatly, as is the hunger for completion.

>>11560442
I'm not US so i don't have to worry about debt. I wouldn't consider it if i was American or had a similar system to that.

>>11560449
what you thinking of studying?

>>11560471
Humanities. I can't really do STEM even if i wanted as i don't have the prerequisite grades/subjects

>>11560105
As much as it pains me to admit this, I think I'm just biased to the left. My ideological views could be much worse considering what I went through in high school and university, but they still exist.
I also find it hard to believe there are "moderate right-wingers". Conservatives, yes, but ethno-nacionalists can't be moderate, can they? To me they are always hiding their true colors, and if not, it's just a matter of time before going full /pol/.
I'd like to hear your theory, but I'm already saying that I'm not an immigrant fearing hostility on my new country.

>>11560152
oh, but they do

>>11560423
i think today is the biggest day ever
i'll know if all my effort was worth or if it was all a waste of time
wish me luck i hope it wasnt a waste of time
i love you and everyone in this thread

I'm really sorry for my shitty behavior, but my mind keeps wandering back to the possibility of a life time of never feeling someone's love. I don't know if it is a false belief of not so I keep turning it around in my head, that is why I keep going from believing it and then not.
are they're some people that simply will never have a family in spite of their desire?
there is also the question of why this desire is so strong in me, that is something I am yet to reflect on.

>>11546233
i feel like i've wasted most of the day, i have to get some reading done after exercising

>>11561211
Since we are speaking in relevance to the political spectrum, I'll keep to that theme. You say there are no moderation right wingers? So in that sense, anyone who falls .01 degree to the right of true center, suddenly they are ethno-nationalists? In that same sense, if I think gay people should be able to marry, then that makes me a communist? Why did you single out "conservatives" as if they are unrelated to the spectrum?

My theory on why you feel this way and why so many other young people do as well is because you've been indoctrinated by the left. You said it yourself that you "could have come out much worse" from high school and university, you realize that the public school systems are skewed towards the left, they teach it and push it onto the students every day. Same thing with the media. They both over the years have made you believe that right-wingers are generally the bad guys, and anyone who holds those views are evil people who lack compassion of empathy. The idea that anyone who leans towards the right suddenly hates everyone with a darker shade of skin, has been beat into your head since a very early age.

Even though, throughout history, the left-leaning countries have been the ones to cause more famine, poverty, and commit more genocides than the right by far. But we are never taught that in school.

There's a line that I heard, I cant remember where but it went something like this.
>People on the right think people on the left are stupid, people on the left think people on the right are evil. Once you consider someone evil, its easy to demonize them and consider yourself righteous for it.

Once you realize that you've simply fallen for the propaganda, you can step outside of it and see things from a cleaner lens.

I feel distraught and confuser, because I am attracted to my girlfriend's twin sister. She does not live in town, but she visited a few weeks ago. During her stay, I felt attraction to her, which quickly left after her stay ended. With that, I thought, it was over. However, today my gf told me that her sister recently had a fling at a conference, and that made me upset.
I would never act on my attraction, as it is purely sexual and furthermore I am extremely happy with my girlfriend.
I think it is Bataille's "you find the taboo sexually desireable" and not that I actually like her. Nonetheless, I don't like it.

>>11562222
>anyone who falls .01 degree to the right of true center, suddenly they are ethno-nationalists?
I'm sorry, I didn't express myself correctly (english is not my first language, so it gets a little confusing). My line of thought would be more like "conservatives are the moderate right-wingers, ethno-nationalists can't be moderate".
Now, about the propaganda, I'm well aware it exists and that's why I stopped supporting the left-wing discourse we see nowdays (I pesonally hold many beliefs that get labeled as alt-right, for instance).
I think my aversion to /pol/ (mainly racism) could be a natural process; A result of finding out my own place on the political spectrum + the residual reflexes of an old SJW mentality, how about that?
Anyways, I think >>11560114 still holds truth, if I'd like to be seen as a nuanced individual, I should do the same with other persons.

>>11562222
>the left-leaning countries have been the ones to cause more famine, poverty, and commit more genocides than the right by far.
those left leaning countries werent ran by (muh not real lefitist!) pink hair rainbow wearing genderqueer vegan women: they were ran by conservatives living in palaces telling the masses: celebrate, you can all be equally poor now

>>11546368
Good for you :)

>>11562665
right is capitalism, left leaning countries had prevailing economic systems that were not capitalism

>>11562703
left leaning countries were sabotaged by rightests to have historical examples to point to to say real leftist leaning countries dont work

>>11558264

I shared your plebs poem with a couple of my friends and we all loved it, thanks for writing it

>>11555210
I can't help it man, I try to enjoy things but I just don't. No hobby, no excitement, it's all just so drab and exhausting. That really hit a nerve because the people im working with are visibly bothered by how depressing I am to be around. I always thought I was the tupe of person that was able to hide my misery. Apperantely my effort to be cheery and normal is not even close to cutting it. Fuck you dude. Who gives a shit how people are feeling. People like you piss me off most of all. with your motivational bullshit about how some impoverished farmerer in Ethiopia can be "le enthused about le nothing". Shit doesn't work that way.

>>11560198

No

Am I a creep for binge watching a female vlogger who is the same age as me and commenting on her videos?

there's got to be a way to redpill my friend on the trans question. right now they've gone full bluepill normie on the issue and it's getting quite annoying to hear them act like they're neutral even tho they are dully submersed in pro-trans propaganda and would recoil from more blunt methods of redpilling

>>11563189
Redpill about what? I just find it weird that there are so many right now. Sometimes I even worry about becoming one, if the cause is some evil, hidden propaganda

>>11546233
I'm debating whether to ignore my friends and masturbate again, or go hang out with other humans.

The struggle is real.

>>11563189
Why do you care?

>>11563268
because i care about my friend, pleb

>>11563183
only if you dont link that ish bruv

>>11563319
how will they be negatively effected?

I can't believe I jerked off to that. Again.

I MOUNT AND FUCK
SHE ASKS ME TO PUNCH HER IN THE RIBS
I OBLIGE BEFORE SHE FINISHES HER SENTENCE
I FUCK FOR HOURS, BUT IT DID NOT USED TO BE THE CASE
WHEN I WAS IN LOVE, I CAME EARLIER AND ALL TOO SOON
NOW I AM OUT OF LOVE AND FEEL ABOVE, I FUCK FOR HOURS
I STAND UP, PLACE ONE LEG ON THE BED AND PUSH MY HIPS FORWARD AND LEAN BACK SLIGHTLY
I LOOK IN THE MIRROR AT MY REFLECTION AND SMILE
I LOOK DOWN AT HER, PLACE MY HAND AT THE BACK OF HER HEAD AND WITH MY OTHER HAND I USE IT TO CONTROL MY SEX ORGAN TO SLAP IT ON HER LIPS AND FACE
I GROW HARDER, SHE MOANS AS I USE THE TOP SIDE OF MY FOOT TO RUB HER
I MOTION WITH MY HAND FOR HER TO OPEN HER MOUTH WIDE
SHE OBEYS
I CLOSE MY EYES AND PUSH FORWARD UNTIL I HEAR HER CHOKING
AGAIN, AGAIN, AND AGAIN
I HAVE BEEN LIVING FOR 25 YEARS AND HAVE NEVER SHOT MY LIFE FORCE ANYWHERE OTHER THAN MY OWN HAND OR DEEP WITHIN A CUNT
TODAY IS NO DIFFERENT.

>>11548514
I've had a dream like this before. It really knocked me on my ass and I couldn't stop thinking about it for several days.

Is everyone else alone? Is this the way things are supposed to be? If I didn't value every second of my life then I'd be okay with wasting away but I do and Im not. What is considered a valuable means of spending your time in this world though? Working? Minimum wage is the literal equivalent of equating your life to the least valuable amount of currency earned per second of your physical existence. If I go to school then every minute I spend there feels like a waste of time learning one off garbage that will never apply to anything I ever use again in my life, just to prove that I'm worthy of some arbritary value assigned to the degree of effort I put in to acheive what I did leaving me to believe that only the people who have a mentality of giving their all to even the most menial task are worthy of any greater compensation for the days of their lives wasted than everyone else. Even if I was one of those people. One of those people who has a the value of hard-work ingrained in their mindset, and have had it that way since they were old enough to sit in a chair and hold a pencil, I still wouldn't make enough money to be considered wealthy unless:

A. I scar myself mentally to become a doctor

B. I get lucky and become a good lawyer or basketball player

The other option is finding something you enjoy doing and spending the rest of your life doing that for whatever money it pays. How much do they pay for whining nowadays? Should I just beome a book critic? I read like 7 pages a week.

which version do you like best?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oJJnhp2CYnk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WuSiuMuBLhM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-qTJSzdSuM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G2rUEAyqpEM

Holy shit holy shit FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M7vv7jFexEc

>>11546233
Hey guys you ever realized Glass Bead Game is like /lit/ Harry Potter

>>11564335
kek

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfcTmrDU2Gc

>>11565005
its a metaphor for doing a poo

>>11546233
I'm writing poems for my story and I'm working on one for this one particular battle and it makes me want to go fight, because I can hear the sound of warriors' thundering voices cry it as they crack their spears and stamp their feet. Does anyone have any good source material for old european poems? other than beowulf, the norse eddas, etc.

>>11546433
>quit your job for a year at a time
I plan on doing this with my welding career. I'm saving cash for a lincoln welder that'll be good enough for pipe welding. My instructor will let me practice nothing but downhill pipe welding instead of the other curriculum to help me get ready for going out to alaska and working on the pipeline. That's my midterm goal, to work in a good company and make enough cash for me to take long periods of time off to write/draw stories. I want to TRY to make influential works of sci fi or fantasy. But I was never able to afford art school :(

>>11546233
The younger generations will be in charge one day, 2050 maybe. What will the Earth have become by then?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_JLj3jTtXQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_JLj3jTtXQ

I want to jerk off but at the same time I don't want to jerk off

nice one
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZycqW9lMkU

>>11546250
at least your a lawyer making good money dude

t. another 30y/o boomer

>>11547284
Bronze age pervert?

I think my inferioty complex has developed into a superiority complex, or maybe it's vice versa.

Any suggestions for steps I can take towards getting rid of it?

>>11567408
No.

>>11546368
A young girl is filled with putrefaction. Her malodorous body is made of muscles, bones and other impure substances. Her filth-ridden mouth cuts into everything and her body transforms even the most nutritious food into little lumps of excrement. Her hungry eyes are ever roaming, lusting for shapes and sizes which touch her fancy. She is trapped in her own Maya, like an elephant in rut.

A young girl is a hungry noose, a poisoned needle, an iron hand and a deep pit filled with hair, blood, pus and other noxious discharges of this mortal flesh.

Avoid such creatures at all times.

>>11567464
based and redpilled

The vast majority of people to an extreme degree just aren't really going to achieve anything of real worth like a great artistic achievement or a great discovery or anything like that. But the vast majority of people to an extreme degree dont care and are content with having a family and an average life. The remainder consists of the geniuses who actually can achieve that and the people like me who can't see any other way to be happy than doing that yet cannot do it because they are a brainlet and should basically just kill themself.

>>11567507
what is it youd like to do?

>>11567507
How strange. I don't remember making this post.

>>11546233
A dread is creeping into my mind that, if I want to publish my writings online and have them read by people, I'll likely have to use Tumblr.

>>11552458
>This motherfucker lost his mind. Videogames have been one of my biggest helps/escapes during tough times. Play 'em up boys, play that shit up.

he's probably thinking about mainstream AAA stuff which is a waste of time. There's a world of difference between Call of Duty and Dark Souls. Even then most video games are innately manipulative in some way since they try to convince you you're something you're not.

>>11567527
I pick things up and then I put them down again. I don't have the monomania a lot of great people have that let them excel in one particular thing.

I think years and years of 4chan use has fucked up my head. But I can't resist coming back, because no matter how shitty this site is, people here are honest to a fault.

>>11567595
well what is one (or two) great things you would want to excel at?

>>11567629
Right now? Music I suppose. But it could be anything.

>>11567629
I'm not the same guy, but isn't wanting to excel at EVERYTHING normal?

I'm so paranoid right now..why am I so paranoid? the light in the closet needs to be on,someone could be in there. gotta lock the door too. no one is going to kidnap me!

>>11567629
To elaborate. Just at the very beginning of deciding to excel at something people are making a massive movement to totally give up a chance at being good at anything else, which is ofcourse fine because the alternative is not being good at anything. But just being able to choose something to do above all and keep at it is massive and I find myself unable to do that.

>>11567397
money ain’t everything mate

>>11567645
i mean, its easy to say that, very easy to say those words, but EVERYTHING is very very big, and saying those words quite practically and theoretically falls short of feasibly possibility

>>11567674
you just need to pick the right thing, build up little by little improvements over time, keep with it, you have to truly value (and believe youre correct in doing so, and slightly be correct in that belief) the potential results to bear through the difficulties of the 'keep with it'. Painting, photography, knitting, cooking, sailing, bowling, paintball, welding, woodwork, swimming, dancing, cycling, snorkeling, horseback riding, jewelry making, clothing design

You need to look into the future and say, what abilities would be truly good for me to possess, aim for them, and then work on them

There are some things a person can do and get sick of and never do again, or get sick of for a week, then come back to, and again and again, or find a valuable activity they can grow with and improve on for the rest of their lives

>>11567735
You must be one of those fellows with an IQ below 130. I heard there was a few of you on /lit/. Us normal posters with a 200+ IQ have no problem at excelling at EVERYTHING.

>>11567771
Its literally impossible to do everything humanely possible on Earth in a life time... I think...

>>11567771
are you a surgeon and astronaut and deep sea diver and inventor and racecar driver (winner, excelling and all) and goldmedal gymnast?

>>11567758
I know what my interests are, I just feel inadequate at my own interest in them to ever make anything of it. Even if I were to force myself to do it constantly I feel like I wouldn't be in the state of mind that actual successful people are when they do their thing.

Of course all you can say is 'keep with it'. But I'm just trying to reckon with what an insurmountable hill it is to become recognisably good at anything and how much you have to give up just to do that.

>>11567835
Of course, friend. Are you not?

>>11567860
>insurmountable hill it is to become recognisably good at anything and how much you have to give up just to do that.
aye, yeah, every great person started off with very little ability, gotta start somewhere somehow, and if you give up after a week, or month, or year, than you will never know how much better you could have gotten if you stuck with it, and slow and steady, incremental, yes set backs and hardships, but improvements over years and years

>>11566776
i like these photos
how cute

>>11565451
scary shit

>>11567420
Realize that
a) you are overly hudgemental towards people to find an excuse to not approach
b) what you dislike/admire in someone is what you dislkike/want to achive in your own life. Projection, basically

At least that's what I learned doing therapy, I felt a bit like you.

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