/lit/ - Literature

*a wild a hat poster jumps into view*

A hat!

*He flees*

why am i so lazy and how can i not be

I can make things right with this girl I just know it

>Tfw one autistic Rabbi anon keeps posting what amounts to a daily Spinoza thread

>>11463846
The one and only girl I have ever dated is now gone forever. She likes to get fucked by any and everybody and I, in the meantime, was content with this promiscuous behavior simply because of my lack of experience. Did I love her? Absolutely not. I loved myself as I was convincing myself I loved her. She awakened something in me. What, you ask? Desire, passion, longing, and now everything I used to consider dark and encroaching rushes headlong into my embrace and proclaims itself king of my soul. Of course, ever since I first read Spinoza I no longer believe in a soul but if I did you can bet your sweet ass this would be it. Yet, this girl, Jasmine let's call her, was what the youngsters call T H I C C but out of fear of reconciling myself with the Other I refused to fuck her. All those f's arouse that some desire in me even now. Language contrives to awaken everything dormant in our stagnant civilization. Irony, deconstruction my father was a construction worker who warned me at nine years old with my hand in the pants of some cunt sniffing the fingers that have graced god who is, indeed, in the vagina.

>>11463840
Honestly suggesting Dr. Jordan B. Peterson here for you bucko.

>>11463876
i cleaned like a third of my table today it was all dusty and had coffee rings now it doesnt but i should do more

>>11463887
Which table? What is on the other two thirds?

>>11463887
to be honest having a dirty room is one of two reasons why i dont bother trying to get laid anymore, i dont want chicks poking through the piles of books and random crap and noticing all the dust and dirt that i dont see anymore, the other reason is that i always bust too fast, do u know any gud tricks for holding ur nut longer?

>>11463896
Try a cock ring.

>>11463888
my monitor and laptop is on it, but theres a lot of other shit like pens, papers, and just random crap that i dont really have any other place to put

>>11463905
Sort it right now. Maybe look into buying some organisational stuff later.

Trying to decide between learning Russian and Chinese, lads. Or can I just do both?

>>11463831
Now... they look at him in a weird way.
He stand up and wants to speak.
And his mouth forgets what sometime he wanted to say.

La vela puerca - va a escampar.

>>11463911
Neither.

>>11463908
where should i put some of this shit tho, like i have some weird sun screen that looks like a deoderant stick, some sunglasses that are cracked, the controller for google daydream, a small shot size bottle of some mysterious alcohol someone gave me, contact lenses, a usb charger, where can i put this shit, every other surface is covered in books

>>11463916
Throw them away. Stop being a hoarder

>>11463914
:( why not!!

>>11463933
This. The contact lens and maybe the USB charger are the only two things there that you really may need.

>>11463933
hell ya u rite i got hoarding issues like im sort of poor so i always like to be stocked up on stuff even tho it would be better to actually keep the cash and just buy shit only when i need it thus preserving my liquid capital rather than having it all tied up in 12 packs of toilet paper and bags of coffee, i need to declutter like a mother fucker

>>11463939
the usb charged is this cheap chinese one that has a shitty rubber cover on it that collects dust like a magnet, i should just toss it

I am coming up to be a 20 year old virgin. I really want a girl. I have achieved nothing. I have no energy. Waiting to die.

>>11463948
Is it fear that prevents you from finally cashing it all in?

>>11463940
Exactly. Especially if you're poor, before making any purchases question the item and ask yourself "do I NEED this?" Not "Do I WANT this?" You'll end up saving money, being less cluttered and having a cleaner, simpler life.

Living minimalist is the true way

>>11463948
you'll spend so much time trying to get laid and then when u finally get it in you'll nut in like five seconds and then be like "ive had better fap sessions than that"

>>11463949
I like girls and art and stuff more than I like being dead. I want at least a taste of life before I die

>>11463953
I'm more afraid that I won't be able to cum because I've beaten all the nerves out of my dick jerking off

GOD I FUCKING HATE FRENCHIES

>>11463985
how do ppl ruin their dicks from fapping? is that what happens if u dont have a foreskin to protect your cockhead or what?

>>11464000
I do have foreskin, but I swear I don't feel as much sensation anymore. Maybe I have the death grip

>>11463985
But do you think, at the current rate you're going, that you've already reached the best moment of your life?

The UK should be blown up and sunk into the Atlantic. It is devoid of any value it once held.

>>11464013
OR ARE YOU REFERRING TO FRANCE BROTHEEER

It is the cumulation of masculinity to be able to take a life, whether your own or someone else's. To reconcile suicidal and/or murderous impulses is to become a man. (even if u a grill :> )

>>11464017
Francistan is whatever but I hope Croatia wins the World Cup.

Whats a good edition of Pale Fire?

>>11464018
anyone who spent any time in a pre-trial lockup has met a few murderers, they're almost always immature impulsive prideful fucktards

>>11464008
No, I think things can get marginally better if I get help and apply myself. I think I'm comfortable being a loser right now because it's what I'm used to. I just need to find a way to get myself out of this rut. The "current rate I'm going" can be changed.

Stop being a meanie anon. Do you need a hug?

>>11464033
hey, whenever you're sad, just remember, that at least you aren't french

did audible post the daily deal yet i hope its good its been shit all week

I'm proud to be french

>>11464055
did u notice there havent been in any islamic attacks on france since obama fucked off? i sure hope the obama era cia archives are opened in my lifetime

I Took Photos Of Tress And Fences...Somehow It Turned Into This...I Desperately Wished I Like Men...Cause My Chances Of True Love Are Already Low...Like Me Feeling Low...Listening To Low...Drinking Merlot....I Want Someone To Sit & Draw & Sing With Me & We Could Even Make Each Other Laugh...& Help Each Other Get Better & Teach Each Other Things!...If I Needed An Orgasm I Could Do It Alone..I Need Love...& Femininity Is So Beautiful... Pertaining To The Guy I Went With Recently From Rideshare...I Try To Force Myself...I Look For Any Reason To Fall In Love Cause It Is So Unobtainable.. That Of Course My Stubborn Ass Wants It! Well That Was Easier Than Admitting To Being A Sap! I'm Just A Sap...Because Bullshit People Lie To Me & Leave Me All Sticky! I Am Kinda A Shallow...Ugly Girls Have A Right To It Too...It Ain't Self Pity I Know Compared To Most Men I Am Unbelievably Pretty..I Believe But Like...God! Why? Why Isn't Everyone A Chick! I'd Bang A Old Ass Lady Dude I Don't Care! Women Are Like The Only Thing Prettier Than Flowers...So I Want Love But It's Gotta Be A Woman...Doesn't Have To Biological Per Se...The Dude From Rideshare Is A Dick...With A Dick....I Fucked Him & His Friend..I Blew One & Rode The Other...I Went Outside & Cried....Cause He Had Implied That He Liked Me For More Than That...I Fell For It Like A Tweaker Trying To Smoke Kitty Litter...I Also Went Outside Because It Physically Hurt....My Crotch & Throat...I Did Not Like It...& He Told Me He Wants Anal...(Because He's An Asshole).....I Asked Why & Said It's Cause I'm His Girl & He Needs To Fill All My Holes To Possess Me! Earlier That Night He Scolded Me For Picking A Flower & Told Me How That's So Possessive To See Something You Want & Pick It!! Well Shit! He Also Said My Tits Are Too Small...& Mentioned That Women In San Francisco Are Skinnier & How He's Gonna Go Back...Well Why Did You Ever Leave Jackass??? Was It Cause Your Morals Were Offended That They Had Flowers In Their Hair!!!??? & Did They Go Against Your Love Of The God Lord When They Didn't Bend Over & Bleed Profusely..!!!!

>>11464070
cringe

>>11463911
russian. chinese is a lifetime committment. russian can be hard, but it won't take a lifetime to learn. and, it's also based on what's your native language. the closer your native language is to the language you're learning, the easier it'll be. my native language is tagalog, and i found russian easy to pick up, easy to read once you get used to the the o's and a's which can be a bit tricky to pick up, but once you get used to the lilting quality of long russian words, it's smooth sailing from there. and, you don't need to go crazy memorizing the grammar rules and shit. just master phrases, a million phrases, and sentences too, and then the grammar will come naturally.

>>11463948
sex isn't as good as you think it is, aspire for something more worthwhile and let it happen when it happens
t. previously 22 year old virgin

>>11464114
yeah, most of the fun of having sex is thinking "fuck yea! i'm having sex!" while you're doing it, the actually humping a pussy with your dick part is fun i suppose but not that different from any fap session

>>11464114
>>11464131
But what if you're really in love with each other?

>>11464152
>in love with someone u didnt even fuck yet

ya ok kid

>>11464131
>vag is the same as hand
lol no

For the past few months I've had this idea for a book in my head - nothing fancy, but fun to think about (and a bit of an escape of my truly dire work life right now)

I got about ten pages of the draft - and now somehow fear kicked in... I always thought of writing as my true destination, but I guess I'm afraid that if the book turned out shit that my true destination is just nothing

thus, it's easier not to write and to think about how good I could be than to actually face truth and the harsh criticism of reality

>>11463831
The path towards success was long and his paper still blank, but, all things considered, he had come into terms with the fact that the brain is a faulty machine and that not everything has to make sense for the complex mechanisms that guide and entangle that tiny, intangible speck of something which is man's will. He wrote the first thought that managed to arise from within his swirling mind and, weaving a quick and simple stream, without any sort of revision so as to not anger his fragile ego wrapped in a muse's cloth; and then the deed was done. There he was: a writer complete. Now he could go back to his daily routine of eating donuts and then skip supper, in a lost battle against two universal forces: weight and time.

The Mind.

i already did

I forgot my book at home and i cant find it online

loneliness leads to a yard of stress and anxiety. Friends cum and go

Tired

>>11464428
Maybe you ought to concentrate more on foreplay, sounds like they aren't too satisfied with the experience if they're leaving straightaway. Don't rush for the climax, the journey is what matters.

>>11463831
I'm actually so fucking smart honestly, haven't met anyone so far whom i would call smarter than me, more enlightened than me.

>>11464537
t. r/iamverysmart

>>11464597
Incredible arrogant isn't it, but that's more or less the exact way i feel. I might be a psychopath but i doubt that since i most certainly feel empathy and all that shit so i'm probably just delusional.

>>11464006
Believe me you'll nut

>>11464164
This. Unless you're wearing a condom, in which case hand> condom

>mates invite me round to watch the world cup final
>cant really be bothered going out today, decline
>"why arent you coming, is it because X will be there?"
>"are you going somewhere else?"
>"whats the real reason?"

I just dont fucking feel like it, why cant people understand this

>>11463866
At least you had a gf.
>Yet, this girl, Jasmine let's call her, was what the youngsters call T H I C C
Oh, she's a fatass. Never mind.

The time is right for the philosophy of Max Tegmark and Stephen Wolfram's Monism-esque mathematical universe to go mainstream, but it's so weird that you can't just start a new religion without being called a crackpot. Starting a new one based on all the scientific progress we've made is actually the most sensible thing to do, but somehow "it's been around for ages" gives the old out-of-date Abrahamic ones legitimacy. Like they can be as fucking retarded as they are, and receive all the political and social free passes that they do, but if you say it's time for a new one, you're a crackpot.

I just want to share in a universal truth based on extrapolating science and mathematics into metaphysics, aesthetics and ethics, but the smug baby-rapists are somehow the legitimate ones.

*tip*

>>11464706
man honestly nigga u got shit mates what country u even from where that kinda culture exists, they're acting like women for godsakes!

Saw people in my room last night, heard voices as well. I don't want to go to sleep tonight /lit/. I'm scared.

>>11465018
Smoke less ice.

>>11465030
I don't do drugs anon

>>11465048
Schizophrenia?

>>11465072
That was the second time I've experienced hallucinations within the past month. Maybe I'm developing Schizophrenia or it stems from something else. I hope it isn't Schizophrenia, I don't want to end up all drugged up for the rest of my life just so I can barely exist.

>>11465092
Tell us more about what you actually experienced. I don't have schizophrenia but I know plenty around these parts do. You could also ask /r9k/ about it.

>>11465098
My cat was laying beside me and started to be sick, I tried to put her on a towel that was on the floor but I wasn't fast enough and she had vomitted on my chair. I remember seeing a very big pile of vomit on the edge of my chair but after putting her outside it wasn't there at all, she hadn't been sick at all actually. I also remember my friends appearing and me asking them to leave over and over but I got ignored, this could have been a dream but I don't remember it as a dream at all, the only dreams I tend to remember are dreams where I interact with other people but there was no interaction in this, I got ignored entirely. The very first auditory hallucination I experienced was a voice in my head speaking fragments of different languages. I don't know what to make of it all.

Tomorrow's the day I'm taking a very important exam. Compared to where I was before I started revising for it, I've definitely improved, but I'm still unsure if my skills will be enough to pass.
I'll study some more today and tomorrow before the exam, but I'm wondering how many breaks to take to not burn myself out and retain the material proper.

The will to live is a primitive biological drive, like the desire to rape, murder, and eat members of ones own species. It is more forceful in the human race, moreso than all other Dionysian pleasures, because none of our best thinkers have had the capacity to identify if the alternative - which is what exists past the border line to eternity - might gratify the ego more than the circumstances in our present state. However, the bounty of a healthily cultivated civilization can be tasted and felt around with one's own hand, with the certainty of material and metaphysical character that need not be questioned because its fruit is so sweet and so ripe that it quashes all curiosity about how man might have gone about the business of living before the cultivation of hegemonic decency, of 'humanity': this is a word that obfuscates a much less noble and far more callow meaning which lies underneath its pretension of antediluvian truth.

Life may be interpreted as the maturity of one's personal cowardice. The human convinces itself that the shameful pleasure of life is noble because it can then justify the pain that comes immediately after, or, moreover, during the experiencing of this pleasure. Simply because man consents to his peer's depravity, he is satisfied with it, and enshrines it in the holy playbook of civilization.

In doing so, he commits a cardinal sin against his fellow man, which reaches its peak when he tells him in earnest that his life has absolute worth and that he should regard with privilege his divine place in the kingdom of ends, which is just the opposite thing - it is a kingdom of means, and its ends are finite, nor charitably distributed, and regarded with total certainty in the eye of the beholder, from wherever he might stand in relation to the dais. The protest of humanistic appeal regards the individual in respect to his value as a utility to a greater end which he might not himself, nor the objector, completely apprehend in relation to its goal, but is convinced still that by the sole virtue of humanity's unspoken covenant between its members, which was galvanized the moment one man promised a share of his crop to another when it came to maturity and was taken at his word, the very moment one man curbed his irrational desire - so it has been condemned, rightfully perhaps - to murder his business partner and harvest the flesh from his bone without forethought paid to his position of utility in relation to his victim's, that this covenant is right and true because it is one score short of having occured almost simultaneously with man's conception at the Garden. Longevity is civilization's only badge of merit.

>>11465231
Go to bed Sean.

I got a UTI

>>11463831
God damn it bugs I said stop it with the carrots.

>>11464619
How old are you?

Wow so apparently mods care more about anti-Jezebel posters than the actual Jezebels being posted.

I fucking hate the way I write. Not just stories or whatever, just in general. And I hate the way I speak, too. I just feel self-conscious about whether I sound prententious or not whenever I'm delivering some prepared message. I feel like I must give off a really impersonal, detached, "I'm-smarter-than-everyone-else" vibe.

Trying to get back into reading so I don't just spend all my days drinking and smoking and listening to music.
I can't concentrate that well anymore but I'm trying.
I'm hoping Houellebecqs next release will get me hooked again.

>>11463831
Sometimes i read books that just make me feel narrow minded. Let me try to elaborate, While reading "The invisible man" it goes into depth to show how much so he is isolated from the world. This give me a sense that there is nothing of reference to say, to the "Real or outside world". Even when it (the book) was describing his time spent in college i still had that feeling of narrowness that quite literally gives me a headache upon reading. I don't know if its just the way the story is written but i had this same experience with the book "Night" by Elie Wiesel. Who knows maybe its just the lack of interaction and dialogue the characters have with their surroundings or whatever else it may be. Any other anons deal with something like this?

It happened again. I found a new hobby, spent about a week in excitement about all of the fun it will bring, spent another week accomplishing something in it, felt a brief joy after the accomplishment, and a resultant sadness once I realized that it peaks there - that that's the feeling I've been chasing, that's all you get for those hours, and it just repeats. I won't phrase this ambiguously so that I can get a few pity responses; The truth is, this is the sole fault and reality of biological anhedonia. I've tried exercise, I've tried diet changes, I've tried a dozen supplements, and I'm still taking meds, but there is no change. For a few years now, this has been my life. I haven't had a friend in five or six years because I couldn't enjoy anyone's company. The only way life could be worth living again is if I stumble into a solution and the disease is cured, but it's all up to chance. I felt like posting because this is what it feels like to come down, but soon the process starts all over, and I'll take it because it's all there is to do.

>>11463876
Can someone tell me the context for this image

>>11463896
How do you get girls to fuck you

Would it be incredibly pretentious of me to throw in random passages from poems and other literature into a novel I'm writing?Like, if a character were reciting a poem, could I just include a part of or the whole thing? Can I have my characters quote long passages and short phrases from prose tracts as if from memory, have them burst into song, or even just include this stuff and imply that they are the characters' thoughts, or perhaps even have the narrator intrude upon the text and sum up the scene with a pretty phrase stolen from Keats or Manley Hopkins?
I'm reading Joyce Cary's The Horse's Mouth and the protagonist is an unapologetic con-artist/genius painter and he'll just randomly insert passages from Blake ranging from a few lines thrown into the dialogue to him reciting entire short poems, there's even a passage from the Prophetic Books thrown in. I know inter-textuality is a thing, Sebald does it a lot in The Rings of Saturn, Emerson quotes other poets as much as himself, Thoreau talks about ancient greeks and wild squirrels in the same breath; but, is it possible to do this now?

>>11466413
19

>>11463831
any of you guys know a cheaper (<$950/month) place to live in DC? Want to find a room, but so many places on craigslist say shit like "trans-friendly only". About to start grad school, would appreciate any tips or neighborhoods to look. Don't mind black areas as much as I don't want to live with bugmen.

>>11466680
some dumb photoshoot for an interview

Just started reading the Genesis, the beginning is pretty lame, and sometimes even ugly, doesn't even compare to the poetic mastery of Homer or Hesiod, even Gilgamesh had more beauty and finesse. Did I get memed into reading the Bible?

I'm feeling a bit rough. I don't like NEETing at all. I spend too much money and just feel like pic related.

I can't even fix what's wrong with me, despite all my personal growth I'm still a fragile and broken ego

>>11464114
>>11463953
That's not what matters here. I'm pretty sure he's not disappointed with the lack of pleasure he receives, he's depressed because of what being a virgin represents: unsucess and ineptitude.
On the other hand, you might be trying to comfort him, in which case I kinda fucked it up.

>>11467004
Yup it's really annoying when non-virgins say "sex isn't a big deal blah blah blah." It just shows a complete lack of empathy or understanding. Of course these people don't think it's a big deal because to them it's just a normal part of life, it's just another activity they do and they don't understand that some people don't have it as easy as them.

I think i'm the dumbest anon who posts here

>>11467059
Let me give you a tip. The people who post 200 words per post here weren't born educated and scrutinizing. What makes some of these people stand out is their curiosity and desire to learn, and these come to generate a wider vocabulary, quicker comprehension, better reasoning, and the best thing? You already have these two in you. You just have to apply yourself into becoming the best version of yourself, which requires you to read, read as much as you can.
And if you're thinking about IQ, know that its only purpose is for you to brag about it on the internet. People in real life don't care about it and it serves no real use, with the exception of a few jobs.

TL;DR: Read.

I have a girlfriend. I’m not sure whether I love her, I certainly say I do a lot. Being with her makes me happy and puts me at ease, but I still constantly think about other women. She loves me very much and wants to marry me, but I don’t want that. I’m 20 years old and feel that I still have a lot more to experience. My hairline is also receding so I feel as if I only have a limited amount of time to enjoy all the young fresh pussy that I can. I’m also can’t see myself breaking up with her, she’s all I’ve had since high school and there’s nothing really wrong with the relationship. Also I’m a weak-willed, hyperconscious beta, and would hate myself for hurting her.

I journal prolifically in english(a foreign tongue, to me), yet I've long been convinced that I ought to better my native prose.

I naturally construct and analyse my daily matters in this anglo-norman creole, pulling from an ingrained and profound lexicon that merely comes to me. But I seem to struggle for more than a few mediocre paragraphs in englisg, as if any semblance of wit or even basic literacy were foreign to me.

And it fucking kills me. I come from quite the pedigree, imperial officials, philosophers, teachers to princes, presidents, authors. Few grandiose figures, but all carrying this legacy of "our people". And here I am with a rudimentary volcabulary and taking twice the time to pen a comparitivaly inferior text both in technique and substance.

I am fucking trying though. Entire lists with vocabulary and complex topics to discuss, reading the finest hispanophone literature, poetry, music, theatre, available.

This all stems fron the fact that I studied in an international college, using mainly english since the first grade. What pains me even more is that it's american standard as oppossed to rp, but that's another biching bukake.

>>11467025
Sex isn't a big deal. You'll understand if you ever get there, "this is what I was waiting for?" The truth is that sex is just a form of validation, and you do it, for validation that someone likes you enough to let you do that to them, even though masturbation feels better, because autoeroticism is not validating of your worth in the eyes and mind of your opposite sex.

>>11467329
you must be boringly bad at sex, unimaginative dull inner life and/or fucking some very loose pussies

Turns out the copy I bought of War & Peace is not only abridged, but also the translation is from the public domain and 500 pages in it has pages of Fanny Hill instead of a chapter. I suspect the copy I bought of Anna Karenina is on the same state because it's from the publisher.
Now I feel retarded and don't know what to do with them.

>>11467527
Nay bruv. The tempo I like and the tempo my girl likes are not the same. So usually I'm fucking to her satisfaction, lots of girls like hard and fast and she does too, but I literally can't feel shit when I'm going fast (and this is raw). I prefer going slow and feeling every millimeter of friction but that isn't always good for her. It just boils down to when fapping I can go at my ultimate leisure and pleasure but when it's with her I feel far more beholden to what she desires, which I just don't take the same pleasure from. In a manner of speaking, sex up to orgasm feels better than fapping up to orgasm, but fapping orgasm is usually a lot more intense than sexual orgasm. It is what it is. And I nut raw every time so you cant even say "lolcondoms".

>>11467565

Sounds like some Calvino shit

>>11467025
Have you considered the lack of empathy is on your end? A non-virgin has been a virgin, and was possibly in your mindset at one point
>it's just a normal part of life, just another activity they do
the frequency it happens doesn't matter, you'll understand from the very first time you have sex
Trust everyone that's replied to you, you are not unique in feeling the way you do, you are not the one person that isn't having sex, and it will happen at some point. It's not as life changing as you think it is. The best part of my first time was the thought occurring to me that "I just did something every single one of my ancestors had to do for me to exist"

>>11467658
wow then you are supremely cucked and whipped if your girl wont let you ever have sex with her slowly, or 'make love', if you arent brave enough to try and ask her, 'umm sweetie... do you think just this once..maybe...we can take it a little slow...we have sex a lot.. we can all the time... so just like... one time... my way..."
"NOOO!!!"
"okkk.. ok... thats ok.. I understand"

>>11467658
so you were basing all of sex and that other persons possible experience on your one singular experience with one bitchy shitty cunty girl, dont do that

>>11467806
>it will happen at some point
Case. In. Point.

I’m started reading Plato but it makes me feel pretentious to do so. I do enjoy it though.

Shut the fuck up nigger.

>>11467926
*I’ve started

>>11467850
It's actually a mental block. If I feel like she isn't enjoying herself then it sours the experience for me too. Either way, none of that matters. Death grip is real and when you become the master at wanking, pussy doesn't confer the same result as a mastercraft wank. They're different and whether you prefer one or the other is up to you. All I'm saying is I've never had pussy that made my whole body go tingly for like several minutes afterwards. That shit was crazy, and it was all hands baby

progression requires consistency, while consistency requires motivation. Motivation comes from within, yet it always feels like it should come from external forces

>>11468172
Motivation is supposed to be the natural routine of the brain when faced with desirable external factors. If that routine function becomes corrupted, motivation on a primal level completely dries up.

>>11468163
how many pussies have you tried? How many different positions?

>If I feel like she isn't enjoying herself then it sours the experience for me too.

Well she can take one for the team at least once, shes a piece of shit for not considering you at all in that regard. got intimacy issues or something, weirded out by tender love making, she just uses you as a high powered vibrator. Yall 20 years old right?
All that aside, you do understand that it was wrong of you to base your perspective, to attempt to base that other anons personal perspective off your one odd particular peculiar relationship and the fact your not allowed to have slow sex, therefore sex is nothing special for that other anon?

>>11467912
As an anon who lost his virginity at fucking 21 years old, if you are TRYING to have sex, you will have sex.
Inability to have sex is only partially dependent on circumstance, you don't live on a deserted island. Outside of that, it's down to your actions in pursuit of sex. It took me probably 5 good long years of misery to realize that (not counting my actual puberty years) and change my approach and now even though I'm not currently getting laid my whole attitude towards it has changed because it's not a desperate game against what I percieved to be rigged odds anymore.
Also having sex one time will do nothing for you, access to sex is a primary status signifier in the brain while physically having sex is just momentarily gratifying. So even if you do get laid it will mean nothing for you if it isn't either stable or constantly possible (this is why Tinder and the like have taken off)

>>11468183
so the only way to sustain my motivation is to provide myself a more realistic and keepable routine. The “best” routine is the one that I should be most comfortable with. Hard to invent or keep one. Guess it’s all about experimentation

>>11463936
I suggest Learning German instead, if I were to choose one, I would say Russian. Why learn these languages? If for travel purposes, even if you know everything about Russian/Chinese culture, even if you have a good vocabulary, they will all treat you as if you were just another ignorant tourist. either way due to you being a foreigner.

>>11467912
so what exactly is your point, then? Do you assume it's impossible? You assume it's harder for you than someone else. Why is that so? What is the difference between finding someone to fuck and pursuing all of your other ambitions?
If you want to have sex, you're the only person that can make that happen. If it's that important to you, you really should be trying to make it happen. I don't know how to say this in a way that you'll like, but you will have to either actively pursue it or stop caring about it so much.

why are there no writing crtique threads

please tear me a new one, i haven't written for months and am looking to try and do it as a hobby for a bit

https://pastebin.com/rtfSafu4

I hate the people that constantly ramble incessantly about people and lack the capability to discuss ideas. I binge drink to tolerate the presence of such people and all in vain. Nothing seems to motivate my any more than the struggle that may eventually lead me to "high class" living. I shouldn't be this obsessed with the end result so young, other 24 year olds worry not about the future as much as they do their current social standing. I wish to be salvaged from this cesspool of vanity. God illuminate the path so I may proceed post-haste.

>>11468383
Don't forget that highly social-obsessed people serve a critical societal function, otherwise they'd have been selected out by evolution.
Yeah they absolutely suck but you need to find a healthier way of dealing with them.

Was hoping there would be a thinly veiled feels thread on one of the boards I frequent, but I didn't find any. I even went as low as to check the /r9k/ catalog, but I couldn't even find a feels thread on there. I guess it's fucked up that I rely on 4chan for emotional catharsis. I don't know why I indulge my self pity by reading about other self pitying depressed young guys like me. I'm so lonely. I wish I wasn't so useless. I wish my parents didn't love me so I could do everyone a favor and just kill myself.

>>11468432
>I wish I wasn't so useless
Then stop being useless. Find the maximum possible use you can in your current situation, and even if it's completely minimal as long as you maintain that maximum by effort it can only increase.

>>11468432
Welcome home anon. Don't do it.

>>11468432
Don't listen to people who say it just gets worse. It can if you don't try, but in my experience if you put the slightest effort into understanding the world around you, things will slowly improve with age. You're what, 20-something? By the time you are 30 or 35 you may as well be a new person. Absolutely everything seems difficult on the first try but gets easier as you repeat.

>>11468455
I can't remember the last time anything has gotten any better. It has been getting worse. And things will precipitously worsen now that I am weeks away from graduating from university with no career lined up. Just thinking of the future fills me with dread and anxiety. I don't plan on living to 30.
>>11468446
Guys who tell anons not to kill themselves are the least powerful race on Earth

>>11468470
It took me almost a year to find a job after graduating anon. You have to have faith, it's as simple as that. Don't just apply online, do as much alternative shit as possible, cold email people, shamelessly beg anyone you know to help network, it's not like anybody doesn't know the feeling in today's world, they'll understand.

In all honesty, feeling massively hesitant and fearful that I'm really not good enough for the career path that I've chosen. Im supposed to finish my classes this semester to have a degree and all I can keep thinking about is that I'm a complete fucking waste and am going to truly fail and not be able to bring myself out of it.

i am tired, my eyes sail lazily into a spectral marsh, tufts of moss and dribbling toads, I ramble i scramble mumbo jumbo, the screen is a magnet , buzzes me on and on, on and on through the night

>>11468514
If you really, really feel down then I would suggest amphetamine (or adderall if you get a scrip). It's what got me out of these exact set of problems. I wouldn't reccomend it unless you're on the verge of suicide or just can't go on, since it will introduce an element into your life that you will need to deal with or control for a very long time. Just wanted to mention it in case you feel you have no options left. There are always viable alternatives to anheroing.

>>11468497
No, anon. My degree is utterly useless, I have no work experience outside of menial labor and I don't have the grades for grad school. I am barely qualified to tie my own shoes. An interviewer laughed in my face, in an interview for an unpaid internship.

>>11468184
Bruh you're positing way too much shit for given in this situation. I only have the time to give half or even quarter responses but when I read the replies to my shit I just scoff. We've been together 6 years, it's nothing to do with her depriving or not allowing me or some such, it's not that she has to "take one for the team". None of that. If she wants to get off then I help her with that in whatever way conducive to her, if I want to get off I just wank it because it's easier and more intense. "Well then get her to rub your pecker" a girl can never tug your shit as masterfully as you can. It just is what it is. You wank it fot 20 years you become an expert. The best pussy I ever had was when I was 15 but even were I to reexperience it now I know it would be trash because my dick ain't feel shit these days. I'm too old, and embedded. Sex is purely visual at this point. And I could go on but again I won't because I have much other shit to pay my attendance.

>>11468529
what degree?

>>11468562
>Bruh you're positing way too much shit for given in this situation
You took it upon yourself to potentially be a large effect on a strangers like under the guise of good advice and you may have been bullshittingly wrong.

"dont worry anon, sex isnt even that good (objective statement!) because...
>it now I know it would be trash because my dick ain't feel shit these days. I'm too old,
>We've been together 6 years, it's nothing to do with her depriving or not allowing me or some such
You brought up the fact that you are not allowed to have slow sex, and that may be something you might be into, 6 years is a long time, lots of hours in that time, that one could be dedicated to slow sex if you wanted, sounds like shes depriving and not allowing, or your scared to ask or talk to her about it. And/or are a whipped beta

>>11468674
Political science

>>11463866
Being this touched over a fat girl with low standards

J-J-J-JUST

>>11466890
Grad school for what though anon?

>>11463950
Not like he has s choice

evangelion is popular because the protagonist has social anxiety, and most anime fans can identify with that

>>11468470
Ok do it then you little bitch.

>>11465134
Get tested for toxoplasmosis.

>>11468707
Shinji has a lot more that social anxiety, he has GAD and probably PTSD as well as a sexual deficiency, but you're right in that people's opinion of NGE correlates heavily with their opinion of Shinji.

>>11468744
also there is lots of sexual fan service

>>11468696
There are a variety of career opportunities available to graduates of political science degree programs. Many graduates work in government as elected officials or in various other capacities. Other career options include journalism, law, business and teaching.

>>11468782
(you)

>>11468696
>>11468801
you can get a job, another state, another town, local governments, just keep trying, relations with another country

went onto an incel forum to talk to people in the same kind of situation as me but got banned because im 6'2" and got a blowjob once

>>11468771
Well sure but that's in everything GAINAX, NGE didn't go as heavy on the fanservice as it could have and by EoE it was attacking the audience for partaking in the fanservice. People like the girls of NGE but people don't stick with the show just because of the girls.

Shitposting does nothing to repel Redditors. It's why they're here in the first place. They use this place as a toilet while keeping their own home clean. When you see a post that says "4chan is for shitposting, reddit is for discussion" it is a tacit admission the poster is a redditor as well as an invitation for you to join him for "real" discussion. The idea becomes so much more of a farce when you think of just what discussion is really like on reddit. The word "circlejerk" automatically springs to the minds of those familiar with it but not indoctrinated by it. In fact, the redditor's predilection towards such heavily regulated and censored "discussion" may be why he despises the idea of discussion on 4chan, a more anarchic website, so much.

>>11468926
Reddit is a hugbox, we know this. The thing is, Reddit tourists are given to brief flights of fancy when visiting 4chan and trying to stir up some epic screencaps "for the luls"
They don't stick around very long and if you can call them out on being Redditors and otherwise not break the flow of the thread they're in, they'll eventually go back to browsing their preferred hugbox and will have accomplished nothing.

The cross-posting Redditors who stay on very long inevitably become either tripfags or avatarfags/spammers of some variety, and you can just filter or report them out of threads usually.

I'm asking my girlfriend's father for permission to take her hand in marriage soon. I'm beyond nervous, not because I'm afraid he'll say no, but because we don't share a common language. I have my little speech ready to go and my pronoucation isn't the worst I've heard, but I've never spoken more than a simple sentence in his language.

>>11468933
I fear that too many reddit squatters have gotten wise to filtering and found alternative methods to being recognized. For example, Gammon Favreau on /tv/ changes the MD5 of every image he posts. This is mainly to cover his tracks in the 4plebs archives, but it has the added benefit of making him nigh impossible to filter. Add to this the fact that the mods themselves are malicious redditors who are looking out for their own kind and everything becomes a complete nightmare.

>>11468948
/tv/ is a reddit board dude
It's like complaining that there are 12 yearolds on /v/, at this point it doesn't fucking matter.

>>11468936
Get some practice on some language-learning site or app, if you're gonna marry this girl you owe it to her to not completely fuck this thing up.

>>11468955
You're missing the point. This isn't something that exists only on one board. They move across the site like locusts and mods are protecting them.

>>11468926
I think the thing about reddit that sucks the most is 90% of it is bullshit. I go there sometimes to read up on new medications that I've been prescribed and there are people there that have very clearly never been to a pychiatrist pulling shit out of their assholes like they were paid to do it, and everyone just eats it up while spamming upboats from their 17 different accounts so everyone else sees the shit they enjoyed the most first when they look it up on google. Have you ever read a drug report on reddit? I've read at least 30 comments that are practically copied and pasted verbatim from bluelight about redditors who "just tripped yesterday with their wife of 7 years" who probably have never tried flinstones vitamins without mommy's say so.

>>11468973
>like they were paid to do it
There's the rub.

>>11468959
Sadly her language isn't really a common one to study so I've had to rely on her and her family to practice. She thinks it's funny that I'm even bothering to do it because the tradition died out in her country a long time ago but I also was raised that it's an important thing to do.

>>11468991
What language?

>>11463896
I know this is late anon but I have a few tips.
1. Don't hold your breath while pounding, breathing steadily as you would while exercising
2. Change positions when you get close to cumming. This will delay your orgasm immensely.
3. Rub her pussy while in her so she reaches quicker.
4. If none of the above work drink a beer and smoke weed before hitting the bedroom, being crossfaded will make you last 30mins to 1hr depending on your height/weight.

>>11469017
Finnish.

>>11469051
People learn Finnish, I thought you were going to say some southeast asian language nobody gives a shit about. Just go on duolingo or something and practice.
Also since this is a speech you've got mapped out what do you plan to do if he gives an unusually worded response or interjects?

>fantasising about being a qt girl and travelling around the world taking all of my /lit/bros virginitys

i must stop this degeneracy

>>11469065
Her sister will be there as a translator afterwards. But I thought it was important that I say at least the important bit.

I need to stop procrastinating

>>11469051
lol don't bother learning finnish, shitty lil' language, can you share your speech? i can check if it's correct.

>>11469280
It includes her name several times in it and I'm paranoid about getting Doxx'd. But I had it checked by her sister and friends and it's all good. It's pretty basic and cliché truth be told. Just about how I've never been so in love despite our time apart and how I honestly can't imagine growing old with anyone else.

>>11469619
eeh? just change the name lol, also what did you say about upholding tradition or whatever, are these finns living in america or what?

>>11469729
Nope, in Finland right now for some vacation. My family is just a bit old fashion and wouldn't view it as right to ask for her hand in marriage without his permission/blessing.

>>11468696
Can you still use career services from your university even though you've graduated anon? Any proper and decent-sized uni should be willing to help you out with some resources

>>11469949
The career services are none existent for arts students

>>11463831
I keep wanting to rewrite the film adaptation of Starship Troopers to be more thematically accurate to the book. Because I just know that Sony is going to fuck up their inevitable reboot.
That being said, Verhoeven's SST is my favorite film of all time.

>>11469949
>career services

hehehehe

thank god for foreskins man i was just wackin it to some porno and i passed the point of no return, i try to stay super still and think of super non-erotic shit like going to work in an office, but i could tell i was too far gone so i pinched off the tip and run to get a condom, ripped it open with my teeth and managed to roll enough down over my cock head to catch the jizz, that could have been a very shitty monday morning but instead it was pretty clean, as an aside it was fucking weird to be like walking across the room and busting a nut at the same time

i love anime

>>11470705
*snap*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
BAZZZZTT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
A

>>11467025
I really do understand. Sex is not a part of my everyday life but I still don't care about it that much anymore. Maybe its because I'm older but the activity itself loses its luster after while. You'll have a chance someday if you focus on improving yourself but its best to try not to worry about it too much, its great but it likely won't live up to your expectations.

I'm so fucking angry

Liberalism has destroyed everything beautiful in this world. Nothing matters but money. There is no home, identity, beauty, religion, spirituality, meaning, nothing is left but money.

It's not the sullen mystery meat's fault, really. They aren't even sentient human beings; it's stupid to expect them to do anything other than follow their appetites. Of course they want to stuff their faces in Western countries, of course they feel entitled to the successes of others. They're children and incapable of self-doubt. If something feels good then it is right, period.

It's not entirely the liberal progressives' fault either. These suicidal creeps crop up in every comfortable society. It's the job of conscientious citizens to cull them before they get out of hand, and we failed to do that.

But ultimately, the real culprit is the liberal apologists--boomers, Republicans, libertarians, the National Review--the white middle classes who knew better, who smiled and said nothing as everything that mattered was taken away, for fear of an uppity mulatto wagging his finger on their nose.

>>11471083
>There is no home, identity, beauty, religion, spirituality, meaning,

nice spooks nerd

>>11470116
Are you me?
I've also considered writing a screenplay for Armor

>>11471083
>everything that mattered was taken away,
dude... it sucks that you live in a shitty town in the middle of nowhere, or near the ghetto in your suburb/urburb, but just try to make a bit more money to move into a more affluent neighborhood, and look online for meetups and friendmakers

I found a 19yo slutty and pretty girl who is gets wet from calling me daddy and who rather has me cuming on her face every time than inside her where she doesn't see it.
Feels like jackpot, how do I do it so she sticks around... How to keep sex interesting?
Also, which of the ne Moto G cell phones is the best?
Also, how do I stick to this intermittent fasting routine this time?
Also, will reading non-fiction books make me better at writing textbooks? I'm a STEM type.

>>11471120
you are obviously a trolling female

>>11471101
should move to a tiny island that barely anyone lives on to just get away from it all desu

>>11471129
yeah but in practice how would that be different from your mom's basement where u live now? she won't bring u tendies if u move to the south pacific

i wish my mom had a basement i could live in, but my house was really old and had a creepy basement full of spiders and dusty old cat feces, and the foundation was made of like rocks with cement in between, i mean the shit was like one of those random stonewalls u see around new england, although it might have some charm playing rpgs down there, like imagine going through some spooky skyrim cave and u smelling all the wet musty rock stench and then u sneakin around and a spider falls on u, shit that could be immersive, also it could work as a bdsm dungeon, but like actually living down there and like eating tendies and shit, hell mother fuckin no.

>>11471129
Good luck with that, all Islands are owned now. This isn't the 17th century. If it's owned by a country then you are going to need a passport to get there. Unless you actually have a boat that you plan on crashing close to some rock then you are going to need to go through someone else to get there.

>>11471101
I live in a wealthy suburb outside Washington, D.C.

It is infested with Salvadorans and Muslims and Ethiopians and Koreans

I have a well-paying job as a software engineer

I am disgusted with every aspect of modern life.

I am physically repulsed by this strip mall culture that you have created. Sometimes when I go outside I quite sincerely feel bile creeping up the back of my throat. It tastes hot and watery and sour

Human beings were not meant to live like this. I reject your world completely and will either escape from it or kill myself, perhaps bringing some of you with me

>>11471168
>I live in a wealthy suburb
>It is infested with Salvadorans and Muslims and Ethiopians and Koreans
Ohhh.... alright anon.... *backs away slowly*

>>11471136
might wanna put up a white sheet before you project like that lad

>>11471168
>software engineer
>repulsed by this strip mall culture that you have created.

>>11471168
Come on bud, its not so bad, you live in one little place, a bit of change of scenery maybe would do you good, do you work from home, could you? you view one little sliver of the totality of land, cant make a good judgement about it all

>>11471168
>lives in some shitty suburb outside a shitty sprawl city
>tries to generalize the tasteless strip malls in his tacky burb to all of the modern world
>works as a software dev but since its dc its probably some lame government contractor that is inefficient and a decade behind trend

try moving to a city that isn't just a giant splash of taxpayer tiddy milk before u cry

>>11471154
does your country not have islands

Those types of feminists who talk about toxic masculinity but then laugh about 'fragile masculinity' are parodies of themselves. I can't imagine they're serious.

>>11471273
They are serious.
If they were being ironic, even conservatives like me who try to be as sincere as they can in life could have a laugh with them.

>>11471273
Google "cognitive dissonance"

>yfw the herbal jew is real!

>>11471287
>>11471273
Something can be fragile and toxic at the same time. Fragile and strong. For example toxic masculinity could be "hey bros wanna go out tonight and beat some old ladies with canes and then rape some teens?" "yeah bro that sounds awesome, but first lets bother feminists on twitter for a few hours" "yeah!" "yeah!" ..... woman: "hey, I dont think you guys should be doing that"
guys: "wahhhh! rapee! why dont you go back to your hug box bitch! dont criticize us! fuck you! my dick is big! how dare you consider otherwise, look at my pecs... look at these glutes.. touch them... touch them... do it!!! tell me you like it, please, give me likes and thumbs up and share this please.. touch them... they are hard right... big right... yeah, you like that.. come on i wanna hear you say it.. tell me you like it ... please come on do it... "

>>11471306
Marijuana is one of natures truly great ideas, that isnt like food and wood and metal and stuff

>>11471306
i like how murphy legalized sports gambling in about ten seconds so all these world cup degenerates could bet their kids college fund, but he's now in a contest with cuomo to see who can move more slowly on legal weed

>>11467196
Just focuse on improving your current relationship until it ends and forget about this 'fresh pussy'.

>>11471317
>>11471287
>>11471273
>Something can be fragile and toxic at the same time. Fragile and strong
or you know, like, sick inducing bacteria

>>11471343
>>11471287
>>11471273
>Something can be fragile and toxic at the same time. Fragile and strong
Or a china plate.. its quite strong.. but one little drop on the floor can show how fragile it really is

>>11471273
>>11471287
>>11471317
>>11471343
>>11471344
Or like a woodlouse. Very hardy for their size, but get in the way of my high heels and you're getting stomped. That's what men are.

>>11471356
Okay

Somebody bless me with a (You)

11471382
No
u >>No.11471382

>>11471382
what up my dude, i see u

>>11471382
11471382
No
u >>11471382

>>11471399
>>11471402
>>11471410
Y-(You) too

Here you, that will be right
I heard you tried to knock my stash last night
Here you, what's the fucking script?
You're a wee bawbag, your jaws getting ripped
Here you, you stupid wee dafty
Don't want to give you the malkie but I think I'm gonna have tae
I'm gonna have to jump all over your heed
That'll teach you for stealing my weed

Am I missing out a lot in terms of personal/spiritual development if I haven't tried psychedelics?

I am PARANOID

I am RIGHT-WING

I am WATCHING AMATEUR GAY PORN

haha dude
*consumes products*
SEIZE
*denies atrocities commited by communist nations*
THE
*refuses criticism of any communist nation unless it adheres to his personal ideals*
MEANS
*blames everything bad that happens to poor people on the fact that they're poor*
OF
*buys new iphone*
PRODUCTION
*stifles free will and agency*
XD
*starves*

>>11471090
Spooks are just a spook. Hehe nothing personal kid.

>>11471083
Based.

>>11471168
based, heroic and redpilled

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KYx3qdwqumY&list=PLlO0ckvbly9Wz3ZcXEl6Td_2cSnXNFxOi

>>11472347
personnel*

>>11463831
Some sinister is going to happen to the United States. Its been too long and you can almost feel dark clouds looming.

>>11472694
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cR1kloYoPjs

>>11472694
ya a straight white male with a gun is going to kill a lot of people in september or october so democrats have an issue to run on in november since abolishing ice and tranny bathrooms aint gonna cut it, of course they could always try something people care about like economics, but that might piss of the billionaires who fund them

There was a girl I was dating for a few weeks. I mentioned at the start of our relationship that I wasn't interested in having sex (I am Catholic), and she was initially fine with that. Eventually, however, she wanted to just stay friends, and I suspect a big reason for this is that I refused to put out.

I was messaging her just now, and she told me she's pregnant. I suddenly feel like I managed to get off a bus just before it burst into flames.

>>11472861
she almost had you for 18 years bro.

>>11472347
No they aren't.

>>11472893
I know, right? I should pop some champagne.

I wake up at 12-1 pm to eat a breakfast of eggs, same as yesterday. I lounge around and keep looking for new videogames, only to play them for an hour then uninstall, while watching cooking and drift videos, even those "top 20 facts about" fillers where the narrator always sounds like he smells of onions or might have an overbite, or those trendy Hitler's youth haircuts. My controller usually sits on top of the stacks of TS Eliot, selected Joyce works, and last semester's college poetry compilation. I might open an art twitch stream, and photoshop, then close it because the new game finally installed. Then it's time to go to the gym, or to boxing (sometimes both), where I lift weights because looking fit looks better than last year when I was bigger than I am now. Lately there's been church activities almost every day, and I have responsibilities, so I go to those either before or after lifting, sure to bring my bag or clothes. On my drive home, listening to Death Grips, or Snail Mail or Frank, I vow to write down lyric ideas because to write songs you've got to write honest poetry. I lust finally recording with my guitar and flesh out those ideas, eventually release bedroom pop indie eps and albums that will grant me popularity enough to tour. My long distance friends would listen to my songs but not know it's me, I won't tell them it's me, and they would find out impressed and jealous. I then get home and maybe cook some eggs or maybe a chicken breast, and eat them while watching a cooking or drift video. I sleep at 2 am. 4chan threads open on my phone, dimmed and endlessly scrolling

I wish I could be masculine and have my testosterone increased. Too tired to be cucked by everyone literally, but it seem that is simply inevitable.

Jesus christ this song is the shit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71i8VSExOKY

>>11473314


hell ya puts is sick brah

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjZN_adJKv8

I hate having acne so much. I hate having red splotches and craters all over my face. I hate how my skin always hurts. I hate how I can’t leave the house because of how embarrassed I am of my fucked up face. God damn I wish I went to the dermatologist when I got my first pimple. I’ve had acne for almost a fucking decade. The year when my skin cleared up was the best year of my life. If you have clear skin you don’t know how good you have it. Fuck I hate being disfigured. What’s worse is that I know it’s going to take at least another year for these scars fade. I just want to be able to talk to a person without being self conscious of my disfigured fucking face. Thank you for reading my diary.

goodnight lit.

>>11473384
there's this chick who comes in my work who has acne and the most perfect ass, she likes to show it off, i was into her for a while, but then i found out she has some deadbeat druggie bf probably cuz she has low self-esteem from the acne, too bad

>>11473384
I was you until I was 24.

After you don't have it anymore, you quickly won't be able to remember how it felt to have it. And you'll suddenly start seeing other people with acne the way people without acne always saw you, and you'll realize what they all meant when they said "It isn't a big deal." And you'll wish you had known.

This probably won't help me, but I wish I had known. Your self-consciousness is 4-8x as much as it should be.

I am having a hard time not being a consumerist. Usually i don't have money but now i do. I upgraded my computer and bought a rifle that i wanted. Donated some to a dog adoption place.

I still have a decent amount left but i am having trilouble spending it. I want to spend it and buy stuff i want but i also want to save it. It's killing me. I'm being marketed to and the fomo is messing with my brain.

>>11472629
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwX7nC-LpKs

I fucking hate having anhedonia

>>11472893
The kicker is that, as I messaged her further, I found out that her due date is around the end of next February. That would make her date of pregnancy some time around the end of this past May. That is about the time we broke up. So she basically broke up with me and immediately hopped on the nearest dick, and then immediately got knocked up.

And if I had succumbed to her protests and had sex with her, then given her fertile state the odds are that I would have knocked her up, and I'D be the one dealing with a kid right now.

Man, I'm going to have to delete two of my best characterization moments (one of which is honestly hilarious) to make my mc's character arc work

I hate editing

This is wont be read.

What is that which makes all lifes boredom, and tedium worth it? Dipping onself into Mans collective history by lifting your newborn towards heaven? Why in that direction, why does that pose contain a sense of holiness? Could she be the most intimate representation of your flesh, a particular with the backdrop of an infinite horizon and a transcendent star dotted infinity behind the eggshell sky..

No holliness in solitude..

I’ve become a cum dumpster diver, a bacchanalian degenerate in the truest sense. Moisten the hole, and hole, and I slide in, pound and pounce. I crush puss. Any and all puss. Oedipuss. Platypuss. Priapuss. I popped a blood vessel last night shredding mature dry-aged puss-cheese. I took a hypodermic needle and drained the hemorrhaging throb-goblin so I could bludgeon more savory puss. Face means nothing to me. Head has no face, and neither does puss if taken right. I also bust them buttcheeks. I take cheeks. Any cheeks I want. Any way I want. I take cheeks tight, I take them loose. I take cheeks smooth, I take them lumpy. It’s only a matter of time, not probability, before I take your cheeks. I’m talking to you Dan, and you too John, and 100% you Sharon. I take them cheeks, and I make them mine. Them and the puss. And if you ain’t got no puss, I’ll make one for you. All I need is a moist hole, and I’m ready to crush. You already know who it is.

I'm so fucking tired of unstable people talking about how broken and unstable they are. Literally everywhere I turn in the internet is suicidal, depressed, anxiety-ridden messes hugging each other and making fun of each other's depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts.

I have no sympathy for these people, because every single one of these "suicidal" and "depressed" people that I have known and talked to turn out to be selfish narcissists, self-proclaimed victims, and genuinely terrible human beings that are rotten to the core.

Real suicidal people don't talk about it. They hide their pain. Real depressed people don't make jokes about their condition. They suffer in silence. They bear this great weight, and because of you narcissistic, unsympathetic attention whores, you fucking gluttons for love, they believe that the pain they feel is trivial and slight, and they continue to let it fester, and they suffer, and these truly good and selfless people, these ones that honestly deserve to live, end up taking their own lives.

You, the victims. You, the products of upbringing. You, who take no responsibility for your own decisions, and the actions that follow them. You are the ones that kill these honest people. Their blood is on your hands.

It's your fault.

There is nothing in this life that can wake you from this horrifying sleepwalk that is narcissism. My message to you is simple:

Fuck you. Fuck you all.

>>11473614
^ this

>>11463831
no

>>11473614
>" "real" suicidal people hide their pain"
>tips trilby
>sheds tear

>>11473726
Fuck you.

>>11473726
Agreed. This man is literally just upset that there are people now voicing out how they feel with others and then learning how to cope with the pain and grow rather than just burrow deep and run away from it until it swallows them. He's not wrong that the topic has been made a joke now and that there are a lot of people out there that act like they're depressed for attention or some form of recognition but to say that the recent efforts in communicating on how to heal from it for those who actually suffer haven't made it worth it is selfish in its own right. Just ignore the fucks who make a joke of it like every other person who puts their whole life into garnering attention for nothing and focus on developing yourself and others who help you.

>>11473614
You sound like you've invested heavily into your self image of this stoic hero. And now you're mad at others for taking the attention you "deserve." Maybe you should kill yourself and complete the picture.

This is a dream I had recently:

It was a small concrete room with a pillar in the middle. In the room with me was an elephant lying on it's side, and I was taking great pleasure in beating it savagely with my fists. My subconscious personified came to my side and noted with approval, "you're causing it quite a lot of pain," pointing out how it had begun to vomit in anquish. This gave me pause; I hadn't given a single thought as to what effect my beatings were having on the elephant. He continued: "But if we want to get it to commit suicide, what we really need is emotional neglect." "Suicide?" I thought, "That isnt what I wanted," but he was already leading me behind the pillar out of view of the elephant. A moment later I heard the piteous cry of the elephant as it staggered to it's feet to find where we had gone. "Don't make eye contact!" My guide told me as he pulled me with him, circling behind the pillar to keep hidden. This continued with fervor until rounding the corner of the square pillar we beheld the elephant dead, swinging from a noose tied with it's own trunk.

I awoke with a feeling of profound guilt.

>>11467527
t.virgin

>>11473747
There is a difference between confiding your issues with trusted friends and colleagues, and bellowing them out for the whole world to hear. I do not advocate keeping your issues entirely to yourself, on the contrary. I am not giving advice, I am giving observation.

>>11473770
I am not suicidal, those are only my own observations of others. I myself deserve nothing. I am nobody. I want nothing beyond a better quality of life for those that truly deserve it.

>>11473784
>isn't suicidal
>knows how "real" suicidals feel and think
Try the bleachpill my friend

>>11473788
This is such a weak fucking argument. Do you have to be a sailor to understand Moby Dick? Do you have to be a Greek warrior to understand the Iliad? Do you have to be a fucking physicist to understand gravity?

https://streetvoice.com/meukomeuko/songs/559869/

this shit goes p hard

>>11473801
Here you are thinking you're some master psychologist. Gtfo random

>>11473614
^this

>>11473781
why dont you think sex is that good?

>>11471317
stop drinking tap water

>>11471168
What's up Takoma Park bro? Why don't you like kitfo?

How did this thread come to be identified by a picture of a fat Bugs Bunny?

>>11473614
On one hand I agree with you that it gets really old really quick, especially when it's all people talk about or make it the key feature in their life. Random strangers will never truly care because there's no investment in it. All they know is your depressed or have anxiety.

On the other hand though, I know when I finally opened up about how I felt to people close to me, it helped. I finally got my life on track and I'm doing wonderful now. I do think talking about it helps, but with people close to you who can at least attempt to help you.

my life is so utterly boring yet my ambitions are so great. i want to live my life like the protagonist of a novel - to be satisfied on death's door knowing my life, my magnum opus, is beautiful like the lives of Diogenes of Sinope or of Alexander the Great or of Socrates or Jesus or Achilles or Patroclus. i want to perform moonlit serenades and to befriend larger-than-life characters. sorry for the cringe-fest but i find it extremely difficult to properly articulate these feelings. i suppose what i want to know is how to make my life match my ambitions and my sense of aesthetics.

I really want to write a short story about a final battle but I have no idea

>>11473426
wisdomposting

>>11473385
goodnight

I just want to say 'I love you' but I know that I never could, so I will just say it here.

>>11474077
>Finally, from so little sleeping and so much reading, his brain dried up and he went completely out of his mind

>>11472724
Imagine being this retarded guys

>>11473784
>I do not advocate keeping your issues entirely to yourself
>Real suicidal people don't talk about it

>>11474077
I think you need to be more realistic anon. Life is a constant flow of tedium with a few bright spots here and there. I doubt there's anyone who ever had it otherwise.

>>11473614
Cringe

>>11473384
Go to a fucking doctor dude. They do miracles these days.