/lit/ - Literature

>>11368508
I'm still not as lonely as Shinji since I'm not a pretend homosexual yet.

a hat

>tfw going through diffusing hair loss.
I'm only 22. why does life keep throwing curve balls?

>>11368508
Thinking about how to avoid a sense of self-negation when infatuated by a girl. If I were to act on the infatuation, I mean, as in trying to socialize and being too careful about what to say/do and the other's expectations sort of overriding your mindset.

Do people write interesting stuff here or is it just blog containment?

>>11368564
I guess the latter. I never come in these, though.

>>11368508
I'm 26 and going to be a father this year, and the thought is really scaring me, I've never had a sense of responsibility and I'm always haunted by the fact that I would never be a better father to my kids than my own father was to me, I'm both happy and terrified about this.
I also want to raise my daughter into liking books at an early age but I don't want to alienate her from how her generation will be growing up, a lot of incoherent thoughts and future anxieties are swarming my mind about this.

land.
a cocktail of languid apathy and nagging discontent

>>11368564
both. most of it is drivel, and most people here seem bored and depressed and self-obsessed, because if you're content and occupied with something, why would you come here and write something, right?
but occasionally there's something interesting that pops up. but it's not this post

Guys, guys, I've got a theory. Check this out, just think about it
Babies built the pyramids

>>11368508
To succeed as a novelist I must be political, but I am not a political writer.

i just tasted my own piss. i was in the bathroom and was struck with the urge so i sat on the toilet, put my hand down and pissed on my fingers, then tasted them. it wasnt at all pleasant or unpleasant.
i then spat on my hand and fingered my asshole, ive done this before. without really thinking about it i had decided to taste shit too. there were a few small lumps of shit inside which i dug out and they plopped into the toilet water, then i brought my finger in front of me. it was wet with some brown near the tip and there were a few hairs on it, i plucked them off and sniffed it and it wasnt as bad as i expected, or even bad at all. however i thought that id probably regret going this far and decided to masturbate before making my decision, i came quickly. i decided to wash my hands without sampling the flavour. i also used mouthwash

i think im losing my mind

thinking about the putrid nature of life and all things living

>>11368508
a girl in my classes that I actively avoid because she is too cute gave me a look that I interpreted as ‘well are you gonna do anything?’ and now I want to kill myself

>>11368508
What do the people here even talk about that keeps them coming back? Any time I come here I hope i'l discover some interesting new book or be able to see some interesting discussion about literary concepts but its always some stupid random shit, people from other boards trying to relate there memes to books or trashy teen books usually about sexuality.
I don't know why we need a /lit/ now that we have /his/. Maybe remove the humanities from /his/ and combine it with /lit/ and we might have a more interesting board.

>mfw people never believe you if you say you don't pee in the shower
>mfw I keep hearing shit like "why do people still lie about not doing it"
HEY FUCK YOU
I DON'T PEE IN THE SHOWER
SO FUCK
YOU
I USED TO DO IT AS A KID BUT NOW I DON'T ALRIGHT
FUCK
YOU

>>11368670
that is always suicide inducing, know that feel all too well

>>11368688
/his/ is an incredibly shitty board filled with really unintelligent people that also happens to have all the problems you mentioned.

>>11368699
/his/ was an unironic mistake

>>11368639
bro! i had a close call like that last night, i was smokin weed and fappin it, and was horny from not gettin a stroke in all week, so i nutted twice into one condom, then i tied it off and chucked in on my desk, then later i started getting horny af again and i was like watching some some of those cum slut hypnos and i was like oh no i'm going to end up gulping down that cum before the night is out, i untied the condom and poured the still warm semen into a cup, i took a whiff and was instantly rock hard, but i wanted to wait until the climax of a cum swallowing porno to get a taste, but then as i was settling in, my roommate came back with a bunch of friends whichh made my bone lose some of it's strength, and i so set aside the cup of pungent ejaculate, and continued a less enthusiastic fap without seminal enhancement

I want to die

>>11368639
i always feels good to hear there is someone more perverted than oneself out there

>>11368692
Why wouldn't you? It conserves water, using what you're already running for the shower to wash it down the drain as opposed to flushing the toilet.

>>11368756
>It conserves water
I don't live in a place where that's an issue

>>11368745
You wil! :DD

While reading classical literature, I often get the impression that people back in the day were much more affectionate towards eachother than now. This impression is quite contrary to what I used to think and have been told, namely, that men never shoved emotions, affection etc. Yet in literature, usually from the 1800s, as that's what I read the most, men often openly cry, caress eachother and confess their platonic love to eachother.
The only scenario in which I can imagine me telling a good friend I love him, and for it to not be awkward, is if we're both drunk, even though both of us are aware of our mutual platonic love for eachother.
Maybe the impression I got from reading is unaccurate. And even if it is accurate, that these acts of affection were just part of their social code, and that therefore these actions were, in many cases, only done out of obligation and not pure empathy, but still, I wish that this was more of a norm in our society.
P.S. I wish Alyosha was my brother.

Did anyone else read Stephen Dedalus as a non-artist who tries to use art for pic related?

>>11368801
Same

>>11368768
Neither do I, but it's true.

Why do you refuse to pee in the shower? I mean, it's your choice, but you seem to bear a certain amount of shame regarding the issue.

>>11368801
I assume you're American like I am. Americans have a deep fear of being seen as homosexual and of showing genuine emotions.

>>11368508
my eyes are bloodshot and the discord UI is burned in my retinas.

I often dream about things on the internet.

I'm a pathological liar, a narcissist and probably autistic.

My sexual frustration has been diffused by matching with hot girls on tinder.

>>11368861
not all americans, soibois have no problem showing emotion, but once u chose the keklife u shut off your chance for authentic expression of emotion, enjoy your repression noble white man

>>11368861
I think that's true but I don't know if it's quite from a fear of being seen as gay. As someone who's spent a fair amount of time with Arab, Eastern European, and Persian men; I can say that they're a lot more comfortable with male intimacy and emotion while also being violently homophobic. I think it's more actions of male platonic love have been made gay by Americans because of how visible homosexuality is in their culture as apposed to near eastern cultures where homosexuality is so peripheral that to presume that any normal action is homosexual is absurd.

Need to sort my shit out a bit. I've been fucking around and enjoying myself a lot, but the apollonian side of me is yearning for learning and order. Need to mature and find a balance.

Joy really isn't a thing, is it?

holy shit audible has a huge 2-for-1 sale on "great courses" classes, i have one credit, what to cop, preferably some rare shit that hasn't been on every torrent tracker for the last 10 years, but on the other hand will oldy but goodys if they are longer than the now standard 12 hours

>>11368861
Actually I'm Norwegian, but men have the same fear here too. I find it weird how when homosexuality was forbidden and a taboo, men were more affectionate (as depicted in a lot of literature). However, as homosexuality has gradually become more accepted, men suddenly fear being seen as gay by showing affection and intimacy.

>>11368889
>he thinks the arab world isn't gay af

i don't know how to tell u this, but ...

>>11368904
It is. I felt it yesterday when out walking.

>>11368914
Spill the beans, my man. describe you're feelings, pour the butter. Give it to me.

>>11368904
we have a finite amount of happiness chemicals and you blew them on cartoons and cocoa puffs sorry

>>11368921
I'm not feeling it right now so I can't give an honest description.

>>11368745
Cute!!

>>11368926
Don't judge me.

>>11368508
my left knee hurts

>>11368616

>>11368913
Hasn't been my experience. But, my experience has been almost exclusively with Shiites so maybe the gayness you're talking about is a Sunni thing or a peninsula thing.

>>11368904
>>11368927
>>11368933
How do you like your new feminized subjectivity?

>>11368979
Could care less

>>11368530

>get rich
>get new hair
>shoot rockets in space
>date Grimes

You are only several millions of dollars away from dating a freakish autistic rapper, that's the best you can have as a bald man, life is over.

>>11368979
I am just an honest compulsive liar.

>>11368967
well i'm thinking more along the lines of north africa, notorious for gay pedo sex, u don't think fags like burroughs and yves st laurent kept residences there for weather do you?

This girl I've been talking to is quiet openly sexual and it's throwing me off.

t. shy virgin

She told me last night that she's asexual and that's why we've never had sex or else we would have
We're not together, but she's always been my >her
We've had a complex and confusing relationship, now a lot of it finally makes sense. I always suspected it but it's different to finally hear it
It's funny, every girl I've been with it's mostly been cause of the sex. I've never really liked them or enjoyed their company that much. Nothing interesting about them. But with this girl it's been the opposite, I've always been more interested in having a nice conversation with her in my arms than having sex.
Fuck

>>11369017
>You entire view of a culture is based off beat smut from 70 years ago

>>11368508
I should be studying for a final I have tomorrow but I've been partaking in evangelion analysis threads instead.

>>11369023
don't fall for the trick, the girls that are shameless flirts rarely give it up, i'm friends with a sexy ass girl who mercilessly flirts with everyone, then when i guy tries to make a move she's telling everyone "omg what a total perv" she looks like a major slut but ive known her for years and she never gives it up, i think she fucked one dude in high school just to not be a virgin, but other than that nothing, maybe the girl flirting with you is different but dont get too excited

>>11369033
>he actually takes anti-gay religious statements at face value
>he doesn't know north africa was always a destination for sex tourism from at least the 19th century

summer child

>>11368508
I want to kill almost everyone at this house, only then, I will have peace

I want a mentor figure who is more educated than me, but I also want to tell said figure to fuck off and stop intruding in my personal life.

i've fallen madly in love with her and i'm almost certain that she feels the same way, yet i'm still hesitant to tell her how i feel. :(

>>11369072
Just fucking do it or else the moment will pass and she'll start seeing Chad and every time you see her she'll mention how into him she is and then you'll go home and cry and consider hanging yourself hahahahaha

>>11369072
have u even fucked this chick yet? lmao why are teens so overdramatic?

>>11369109
>lmao bro imagine if u had feelings 'n shit.

All I think about anymore is gross fetish stuff.

>>11369072
>>11369120
>"I've fallen madly in love with her"
>Not even dating

Are you 14?

>>11369127
I'm not the guy with the crush you originally replied to, I just hate this pedantic "lol bro it's infatuation not real love lmao". Everyone fucking knows, saying shit like "I've fallen in love with her" is idiomatic.

>>11369120
what do you think is going to happen if you make some big pronouncement of deep love to some girl u aren't even intimate with enough to fuck? it's going to be awkward, but you won't believe me even tho the internet is full of advice on why you're dumb, i mean what is the best outcome? she says "oh yes i deeply love you too, here let me take my panties off and assume a doggy position so you can fuck my tight pussy?" no more likely she'll be like "oh that's interesting, i like your company too my friend" then she will have to travel somewhere for the rest of summer even tho when u stalk her facebook you see pics of her at the local movie theater with that guy from the lacrosse team

I'm getting the feeling that I'm not fling to find employment in my field. With every rejection letter I get, I can feel my dreams evaporating. I really don't know what to do.

>>11369152
what the fuck kind of faggy field sends back rejection letters?

Starting to enjoy gore threads a bit too much. I think I'm a moral person, but power is such a fascinating thing.

>>11369166
what's your favorite webm?

>>11369166
what is this? underage hour? one guy things morocco isn't gay af, another kid is about to tell some acquaintance he never even humped that he deeply loves her, and now this fag thinks he's edgy cuz he saw a dead guy on the internet

>>11369178
not him but the best gore webm is that guy with his face shot off who gives a thumbs up to the camera, i'm like now that's what i call stoic

also i found that one where some black kid got stuck to an electrical transformer while trying to steal wires and is slowing burning to death but is still able to stand and struggle occasionally even tho his torso has burnt down to his lungs and his bones are showing on his arm, very compelling just from an anatomy perspective, also makes u realize all those poor bastards who dropped an electric shaver or radio into the tub did not die quickly but probably slowly cooked for an hour at least

>>11369065
I know what you mean. I also want good, satisfying work more than anything. Everything would fall into place if I could just figure this out. Or it'd still be a shitshow, but one I care to manage.

>>11369181
I've seen dead guys on the Internet since before puberty lol. I'm just thinking about my own experiences with power over other people, and how some of my best memories are of when I held power (shared with my friends of course) over others and used it malignantly, despite those acts not being moral.

>>11369198
hey man it's pride today in nyc, go into manhattan and finder a banker dad

I've been really focused on my goals recently. Going to the gym, working on new skills. But part of me feels that the restrictive nature of a regimented lifestyle is holding me back from richer experiences. I'm young and feel like I should be taking more chances.

That said, my friends who live freer lifestyles seem to always end up regretting it and seem unhappy, which usually scares me off sufficiently from moving out of my stable lifestyle.

I'm sure the answer is a certain balance but I can't for the life of me seem to figure out what it is. It's increasingly maddening to watch over my own shoulder and constantly be convinced I'm doing something wrong.

>>11369026
Get some of the platonic intimacy my dude

>>11368904
>Joy really isn't a thing, is it?
fuck that shit man

saying something like this implies you either got some brain chemicals ya need balanced (see a doc) or need to get out of your head. maybe do something physical, or at least all-encompassing and demanding enough mentally to get you focused on it

>>11369253
What do you mean?

I've become so frustrated with everything and it is really getting to me. I am an American and we all know the country is shit and it doesn't seem like there's any way to make it better. Yeah, focus on your own community and everything but when the bigger community AKA the country is kicking ass at every turn it barely helps. I get upset by what I constantly see and experience and I wonder if it'll ever get better. You try to talk to people about it and they sort of understand but then they don't care because it's not them. It's not them so it doesn't matter. They have theirs, and as long as they have theirs it doesn't matter to them what happens until they stop having theirs. Unless it affects them they won't give a shit. Lack of empathy is a problem, and it's encouraged under capitalism. It invades every part of our lives. Constantly beating someone else out in the workforce or something like that or getting ahead at the expense of everyone else. It's not just business, but now it's life. "Fuck you I've got mine." I can't stop it.

I can't stop the destruction of the environment, and that bothers me. I can't help anything, I can only not harm it 0.000000000000001%. You think my recycling matters? You think my vegetarianism matters? I don't do it to be a dick to meat eaters or anything of the sort I do it because I like animals, don't want to see them harmed, and it helps the environment. It doesn't matter. People will still continue to do it. They won't even reduce it for the sake of their kids. They'll say "yeah I like animals" but what they really mean is that they like pets.

This isn't about vegetarianism, I swear. This is about feeling powerless, I guess. I try to spread some good praxis and help, like I said. It just doesn't work. I try to do some self-reflection because I say, "man, Americans are so stupid just nuke us" but then I get angry at myself for saying or thinking that or something similar because it won't help. Instead of seeing what could be I just think, "man, just fuck us up because nothing will change." I don't think anything will ever change in America because of all the propaganda Americans have been fed. I wonder if any other revolutionaries (not saying I am one, but anyone "big" who took part in something maybe like Lenin or Trotsky) went, "man, we're all too stupid for this and too entrenched in the old ways to ever start something new and help"

It's discouraging, honestly. Yet here I am, trudging on even though I'm basically doing fuck all. I just needed to get this stuff out, I guess.

>>11369265
like, if she's asexual she might still be into cuddling + conversation

and if you're down for the same then... nice

definitely adds some complication but it ain't all bad

>>11369281
True, we'll see
She's been weird the past two months
We'll go a week without talking then she'll just text me late at night some random weird shit, like last night. We hadn't spoke in over a week, then she texted me saying I'm beautiful and apologizing for being asexual

those feels whence you are alone and you long for human interaction but when you're around others you wish you were alone

>>11369275
imagine buying into anti-american propaganda this much

fuckin grow up

>>11369275
I feel you
I too feel powerless in the grand scheme of things

To quell the dread try helping/proselitizing in your community of friends/family

>>11369290
that's rough my dude.

i would imagine it means, at the very least, you mean something to her. even if it's complicated.

finding out the nature of that can be a long and draining process though.

>>11369307
t. "Based" magapede

>>11368508
i need a job so fucking much

>>11368888
There is nothing genuine about them. They're actually the opposite.

>>11368912
It made the realm of straight male friendship and bonding smaller. If you're too close to a man you're gay. Homosexuals ruined straight male bonding.

>>11369318
>college sophomore who discovers he is the only one that can see how stupid america is!

wow man it must be tough being the only one who cares about the world,who cares about injustice, who cares about cows rights, that must be a really tough white man's burden to carry!

you're like a walking cliche

>>11369341
>If you're too close to a man you're gay.

what the fuck are you talking about retard, fags always have a million girlfriends, but few dudes

>>11369341
Homosexuals didn't ruin it. Insecure pussies like you did.

Every time I want to hug one of my bros, some spindly insecure fuck like you sniggers about how gay it is.

>>11369200
that was not true power

>>11369397
Felt damn good though. Good mix of physical and mental fucking around; laughs had by all aside from the recipient.

I am just wondering how everything comes to exist. through the discriminations of the mind perpetuated by habit-energy.

Biscuit. A box of biscuits. A box of mixed biscuits, and a biscuit mixer.

My parents' home country is beautiful, but it is now on the brink of becoming a shithole.
It was always very poor, and it has had some rough times since the decolonization, but now the age-old pattern of "newly elected president starts to imprison political opponents and attacking protestors and speaking of changing the constitution" is being laid.
I wish there were something I could do. It has so much potential.

Last resort lyrics are so fucking gay. If you ever express depression that way you should just kill yourself.

>>11369470
authoritarianism is the way to go. Look at China, soon-to-be the world's largest economy and it's authoritarian to the core. Really, westerners' liberty is overrated and it's also imaginary and unnatural. Yes, unnatural. They say that socialism is unnatural, but look at democracy and the way it distributes power between many institutions. Man has always followed a sole leader -- God, a powerful King, some war leader. Democracy is even more unnatural than sharing resources with other humans which, by the way, the Chinese state does not do directly. Rejoice and ignore CNN friendo.

pussy

>dish cloth disappears
>housemate probably threw it out absentmindedly or something, no big deal
>buy another
>two days later
>it's gone too
wtf. I want to confront my housemates, but they're sequestered in their rooms playing fortnite right now.

>>11369072
Act on it, anon. I fell in love with a girl that never loved me, and I still acted on it. It failed miserably, but at least I am not being haunted by the regret of 'I should have said something'.

>>11369470
I've noticed this being a common tendency of diaspora. They become comfortable with the country they live in, look back to their motherland in the terrible shape it's in and say 'I can do something about it'. Then when they visit, they see how submissive and guilty the population is of letting corruption take place. Then they go back to their first world country in disappointment. I suffer the same idealism as well, and when I go home to visit, I get physically angry at how nonchalant corruption is at the local level and how the general population would rather pay a bribe than to bother with fighting against a force much bigger than them. And all of these people, along with me, have to sit in the mind numbing cynicism of our own country and wonder.

I won a school translation contest where I competed against people who have learnt the language for twice as long, and now I feel overly smug about myself.
They should have obliterated me, but I've prevailed.

>>11369492
I don't necessarily disagree with this point. The country has actually been going downhill for a while (few people are working, the few that work are not getting paid, shitty infrastructure) and I always thought that only something radical could get it out of its rut. It has been tried before in the 70s and people still remember it as the most promising time they had.
But I'm sure this guy is only doing this to stay in place and keep robbing the country of whatever money it still has. That's what is bothering me.

i just read stoner

whats the point of reading more books now

>>11369559
Because there are books about people more interesting than fictional literature nerds

>>11369518
Sorry bro I used it to jack off into
t.your housemate

>>11369530
it should also make us all appreciate how precious living in a relatively low corruption democracy is and how easily it can be destroyed, like for example letting a bunch of people from a corrupt culture flood across the border in violation of the rule of law, but i digress

damn i was wackin it all weekend and now i'm paranoid that my room reeks of jizm

>>11369165
its a feedback loop

>>11369619
>it's all 'cause da illegals, not the retarded boomers and their "fuck you got mine" attitude

>>11369661
last time we let in a mass influx of people from a corrupt culture aka the italians it resulted in a century of organized crime strangling our biggest cities

excited about the new cum town tonight 2bh

I like to start my monday morning giggling with the boys

>>11369470
>>11369530
I'm currently re-reading The Gate of Heavenly Peace, and the first 100 pages are full of inspiring anecdotes about intellectuals involved in the Chinese revolution, most of whom were exiles/expatriates.

>>11368888
Wasted quads

How to stop being a loser?

>>11368508
Never find success.

>>11369818
>determine what things are making you a loser
>stop doing them

>>11369818
>determine what things are making you a loser
>use mental gymnastics to disregard those things as having any relation to your value as a person

>>11368508
now where is it anyway

I once had a roommate who constantly had something playing. She either had music playing or some television show playing. I would be sitting in my room, browsing 4chan or reading, and across the apartment I'd hear the constant noise of whatever she had on.

How many people are like this? I know a lot of normalfags can't bear sustained periods of silence, but it was jarring to actually encounter someone like that. And I realize that wasting time on the internet is a form of distraction in its own right, but at least it's a quiet one.

>>11369891
>And I realize that wasting time on the internet is a form of distraction in its own right, but at least it's a quiet one.

Pussy

>>11369894
YES PLS GIB

>>11369904

Life is a helpless dog writhing in pain as it is boiled alive by an uncaring man.

Life is a baby born with its skin inside out put on life support because it is born into a society where it isn't allowed to die.

Life is the reminder that you will not always be alive.

Life expects you to die.

Forgetting that life is uncaring in its outcome, that fate is merely the fallout of humanity acting whether it wishes to or not.

Are you comfortable? Life will put a stop to that.

If I could learn to live life with the sober thought that I could have been the dog boiled alive maybe I would take it more seriously than I have been.

>>11370061

>>11369891
Always have a 24/7 twitch stream running on mute

>>11370066
(you)

>>11370077
damn now i really see the turth of the situation ....

>>11369866

I am valuable because of what makes me a loser, not in spite of it.

>>11370081
>snap

>>11368508
I like watching annie-may

>>11368642
roll

>>11369300
t

>>11369342

That wasn't what I said at all.

>>11369311

I do help but it's never enough, and it always seems like something is fighting against it.

My best friend is going to die soon. He might live a couple more years, but that's the maximum amount of time we expect him to have, and he might have less. I don't know how I'm going to deal with his loss. We've been through everything together, and he's slowly getting sicker, and it hurts so much. I don't want him to die.

There's no treatment.

>>11368594
That’s early man but good luck, you’ll do great. The earlier the better in my opinion, since you’ll get to spend that much more time with her.
She is lucky to have a /lit/ father and that you care enough to outfather your father.
Do good by her man and godspeed

I'm awaiting the DL of 37,000 albums and I'm going to listen to every one of them to fulfill the boredom in my heart.

I have worked out every day of the week since last Sunday, either weightlifting or cardio. I think I'm going to take a break today and just chill.

>>11368508
I have to wonder how sincere my suffering is, whether its purpose is to garner sympathy and attention. I think I'm suffering. Am I?

>>11368508
The more I read and learn about complex philosophical systems and all these thought labyrinths people have constructed throughout the ages, the more I appreciate simplicity, straightforwardness, temperance, and proud humility. All these great thinkers are impressive, but I feel like I've come full circle in my intellectual journey - these grand displays of logical prowess are excessively combative, condescending, unnecessary and arrogant. The answer to our questions is equally in a casual and friendly exchange with a stranger than a massive tome from a dead genius.

>>11370354
So what you've discovered, in other words, is that Socrates was right.

>>11370354
Read The Analects

>>11370354
>The answer to our questions is equally in a casual and friendly exchange with a stranger than a massive tome from a dead genius.

Not my experience at all.

>>11370253
The heart does not suffer boredom, you are thinking of loneliness

>>11368616
I've considered going to therapy for six years now and today my friend has come out as trans to me and before getting the op has to go see a shrink and says that I should finally go. I said yes but really I'm afraid of learning about myself past the rationalizations that I've built up to justify my behavior my entire life.

>>11370269
Generally one or two chill days a week is good, it lets you get fully recovered and leaves you more energetic to continue.

not my chair not my problem, that's what I always say

I've achieved great success at a very young age; better than 99% of my peers. But I still feel as though I am not living up to my potential.

I'm going to a military school in a week, I've countless numbers of philosophy and mental toughness books to prepare myself for it, but at the end of the day none of that knowledge matters until you've tested it in the real world. The majority of those books were written by philosophy professors sitting in their nice warm offices with a cup of hot coffee in their hand. What do they know about suffering except from theory?

>>11368508
I just want to feel the warm of another human being for at least once.
One with a dick and that looks cute in girls clothes preferably

>>11370354
yeah, that's what death is for. life is for complexity

>>11368608
Mods don't help either, there was a thread on Keats and his odes before that had interesting thoughts but it was archived with like 20 posts, yet rupi basing shitposts get 200+ replies, all with the same circlejerk

>>11368816
Disagree big time, if you characterise ireland and it's socio-political landscape in the novel as hell then to get out of it he just gets up and fuckin leaves. He makes art to explore beauty, and to make something beautiful for beauties own sake. There's plenty of beauty in the book that has nothing to do with your hell you place him in, and while I can see what you're getting at how Dedalus maybe uses art as an escape I think you have it backwards, he escapes ireland so he can bee free from the shackles it places on him, and become his own independent man, and only then can he create something truly beautiful without his ireland twisting what he thinks is beautiful

I am 20 years old and I never learned how to drive. I took a road test last summer and completely failed it. I suppose it doesn’t matter because I will never be able to afford a car or insurance anyways.

sword
meditation practice
sword drills
grip strength conditioning
forearm muscle building
lifting vs running as phys conditioning
naming ritual
enchantment ritual
jefferson deadlifts and barbell lunges leg work
incline bench press ohp, dumbbell incline bench press, dumbbell ohp, dumbbell row

I really wanna speak to this girl from uni that I was acquainted with but I haven't seen in a couple of months. Would it be weird if I hit up a conversation on IG with someone I'm not really friends with? I'm new to this whole internet socializing thing so idk how any of it works.

>>11370531
God I wish that were me

>>11371121
What's stopping?

>>11371123
I honestly don't know anymore. Fug.

>>11370803
what's a naming ritual muh dude?

>>11371125
How old are you? I'm on the same boat anon

>>11371138
24, you? Just don't see much of a future at this point.

>>11371141
23, I think I'm going to tell my parents as soon as I get back from college (yes I haven't graduated). I don't have idea on what is going to happen.

>>11371148
Yeah I had to take some extra time myself. I don't think I'll ever go through with it, it's just interesting to be able to vent and dream on here.

I’m probably the most talented writer in the world but nobody respects me because I’m a transdimensional shapeshifter from outer space who had sex with Kurt Vonnegut an infinite amount of times in infinite timelines and I’m a woman and also Billy Corgan when he had hair.

Spent the last few days helping my friends, I am so drained and mentally I feel horrible. This sucks. I suck.

>>11371159
You don't suck. You were being virtuous. On the bright side, at least you have friends anon.

I read people like Steve Sailer and the late Jerry Pournelle, stable successful 115+ IQ people from stable successfull 115+ IQ communities, and it's not a world I recognize. I don't interact with any real bulwarks of society.

I'm free to do as I like but I don't do anything
aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>11371161
One day I'll likely leave these people but the more I help the more they say how much they appreciate and love me. I can't not help people but at the same time any kind of emotional attachment to people drives me crazy. I suck because I know I'll end up hurting them and I don't even have a good reason for it. Thanks for the reply.

>>11371185
You are welcome. It's no problem at all. It's not like I have anything better to do and at the very least I might do the slightest bit of good here tonight. Have you tried looking into utilitarianism? On the more actionable level I'd suggest trying to help those who are the worst off who you won't even ever have contact with. This way you are fulfilling some desire or imperative to do good while also not being put in a position that forces you to try and make those emotional attachments which trouble you. If I feel up to it I might suggest some readings for you in a future write what is on your mind thread.

>>11371205
I'll take a look into utilitarianism. Part of the issue is I want the emotional connections with people but I'm not sure why it affects me this way. My best guess would be the lack of emotional warmth in my life up until my last years of high school. I'm going to try work on this, I don't want to leave these people if I can change myself.

>>11371151
Sorry anon, I don't know what your life's like but if you really want this you should go for it, take care.

>>11371253
That is the thing. I really don't know what I want anymore. Thanks anyways.

>>11371268
Well, I'm definitely not like those people who say that they've always known (even though I've had these thoughts even since I was four) sometimes I feel fine being a normal man but the feeling is always at the back of my head and there's also the problem of getting older, so for now I'm going to try to aim for androginy and then I'll see if I take it a step further (HRT), maybe you could take things slowly too?

>>11371268
>>11371309
Why not pursue whatever romantic interest you may desire without involving your parents?

If the issue is finding someone to be with period well.. best of luck. Go to the gym. Let life come

i sometimes wish i could just rid myself of my emotions and view myself in third person with a kind of apathetic confidence so my overbearing self-consciousness wouldn't get in the way of my daily social interactions. i also wish i wasn't so awkward and disingenuous and that i could have the courage to ask out that girl who goes to the same mass as me each week who shares most of my hobbies and interests. but most of all i long for genuine human connection and for friends who completely understand me. i also have this weird insecurity where people talk to me and are kind and polite to me, but i feel that they are mocking me in some way. and when i open up to people, i realise i don't like having my flaws exposed to judgement so i retreat back into a reserved-polite state. i don't even know why i'm sharing this here. i must just have nothing better to do. i don't even know why i feel so depressed but i suspect it comes from my feelings of green envy towards others with their rich social lives, while i just work and study until i might one day reach a point where all potential of this kind of life is taken from me, and when i have nothing to do but wait for my impending death.

I write cheesy romance fiction. Almost all of the protagonists are straight, good looking, confident, athletic, mostly intelligent guys. I'm terrified of sex and I never mention it in the story, but I always like to make them have at least above average size dicks. I'm a loser with a 3.5 inch erection, so it feels good to vicariously experience being that type of person.

>>11371334
Join the priesthood, become a monk, or do something along those lines microdick anon.

>>11369342
>college sophomore who discovers he is the only one that can see how stupid america is!

The way that you see what he said like this says more about you than it does about him. You're clearly apprehensive to anyone who is willing to take these problems seriously.

just realized I'm actually pretty handsome and had girls crushing on me for years without me even guessing

>>11371363
*doubt*

>>11371380
yeah sounds dubious but I have no doubt now, I was just socially retarded for years

>>11368642
rollin'

>>11368508
Basically, I was assaulted by members of some cult. I was walking home from school one day when this gang of men and women dressed every which way, in military uniforms, in colorful tutus, in tuxedos, wearing mardi gras beads and masquerade masks, some of them hopping up and down like bunnies with strapons approached and encircled me, shuffling around and jumping about open-legged raising their arms and opening and closing their hands chanting in what sounded like some made up language and shaking miracas, blowing on kazoos, and flicking castanets about. I tried asking what they wanted and begged and pleaded but they just stripped me naked and forced me to wear a diaper and a skirt while they played with my dick. Then i realized it was all a dream, it was just a dream.

You still have dreams, I should think? Tell the little doll I said hello.

Why

>>11371474
Tell her yourself you dick

>>11368508
>tfw no job
>tfw no money
>tfw can't get a job
>tfw maybe going to school this autumn in I get accepted
>tfw that's two months from now, have to do something to pass the time
>tfw readind and trying to learn programming

>>11371585
t. actually really scared anon

You sold yourself too cheap, and now you can't afford to come back.

>>11371670
miss being a virgin?

>>11371683
A bit, yes

>>11368508
While re reading blood meridian 7 years laters, it came to my brainlet mind that Judge Holden might just be an expression of true brute force of civilisation. So far he keeps saying that man must extract itself from Nature and master its environment (besides killing puppies and children).

>>11371695
Such is life, I miss it too, I wish I could undo all the promiscuity but we have to live with it

Good morning. Ready for work? I know I'm not, and never will be.

pipe smoking is great but I gotta be careful not to enjoy it too much

>>11369290
>she's asexual

you actually think this is a thing? holy fuck lol

>>11371585
You are a skilled hunter, adept, merciless, half-cut with blood, as the best hunters are. Which is why I must stop you. I should think you still have dreams, well the next time you dream, give some thought to the hunt.

>>11371759
This. Modern society is demented in some pretty strange ways, and this is one of them. People either identify with a sexual identity as though it were a hardwired biological fact, or they treat it as an accessory, a way of differentiating themselves from others, when really the reason why someone isn't interested in sex might be anything from depression to other hormonal imbalances, to simply not seeing themselves as attractive and shying away from the idea of a sexual relationship out of a feeling of inadequacy, or fear of not being able to deal with this kind of rejection.

Human sexuality is a complicated social thing unless you divorce it from all meaning. My flatmate has picked up several girls at parties and the pattern is always the same: The girls want to feel wanted, desired, but not loved. They don't want to deal with attachment, commitment, with coming to know and be known by another human being in all their vulnerability. And girls who do want real intimacy often feel like sex taints this kind of relationship, like they can no longer be sure that their relationship is genuine if they bring bodily pleasure into it. I'm honestly at the point where I think a healthy relationship should develop its sexual aspects slowly, escalating from handholding to light cuddling to kissing over a period of at least a couple of weeks of actually coming to know the person you are interested in before going any farther.

>>11371759
not that anon, but yes, it is a thing. that being said, it's very rare and the vast majority of people who proclaim themselves to be asexual aren't really, whether they know it or not

>>11369275
No one can save the world, anon. I'm not a defeatist because give up. Just stop stressing what is out of your control. Just get you and yours cared for. Provide for yours the best you can and hope they do the same. I know you critisized that but if you can't care for your family of 4, how can you care for your family of 400,000,000? Or 8,000,000,000 for that matter?

>>11368508
Reading aristotle for the first time and i feel like a chimp or a toddler who wandered into a university. Utterly mind-numbing, that someone could be so intelligent

Every weekend I do the same thing. Tell myself I'll do a whole variety of things, and in the end I'll just sit at my computer, get drunk, stoned and play video games.

It wasn't always like this, I used to feel things. I used to feel life sharply. I was always either ecstatic or miserable. I was always excited for whatever life might throw at me next, good or bad. But somewhere along the line (around the time I entered the workforce) it changed, and life became a never ending procession of the same things, never changing.

I do not have any hope for something new, and I am not excited for anything in the future. Is this just a part of getting older? Does everyone eventually end up living the same day over and over?

If I keep going down this path I will become an alcoholic. I want to feel life sharply again, but I don't know how to. I don't remember the last time I really felt something.

>>11372094

I'd like to extend this question to other people in this thread. Did this happen to you as you got older? Is it just a product of experience?

I really would like to understand why this happens. It seems to me to be the root of so many peoples addictions and lifestyles.

>>11369275
>"man, Americans are so stupid just nuke us" but then I get angry at myself for saying or thinking that or something similar because it won't help.

You shouldn't be angry at yourself for saying that "because it won't help," you should be angry at yourself because saying it makes you a faggot and you should be kissing the USA ground you walk on, you ungrateful teenage twink. Maybe recognize that self-debasement doesn't make you honorable, it makes you a cuck

>>11372094
Make sure you start your day well. I find if I start the day with vidya, that's what I'll do for the rest. If I start it with a nice smoke of my pipe, and a good read of a book, then things will go nicely.

>>11371906

That shit on everything I said. It's possible to help yourself, others, and others you don't even know.

>>11372116

Why?

Warm exhaust like a winters scarf
My nostrils sprung
My lungs so throng

>>11371326
Fucking relatable Anon
I swing too far the other way though, I overshare, just find a stranger in a bar and tell them everything, alcohol helps
Being able to objectively self improve is quite difficult but an incredible skill to have, just isolate yourself from distractions and try make yourself aware of any bias you may have when evaluating something about yourself

>>11369026
Other anons speak the truth
A wise man once said
>anon, sex isn't everything, it's good but it's the other twenty three hours fifty five minutes of the day that really matter in a relationship
I desperately miss the feeling of someone in my arms, it's all I can seem to think about. I've ceased all productivity I just work, study and piss my spare time away on social media. It's been two months since ex moved back to Malaysia and I'm usually quite good at dominating my mind but I can't stop thinking about her.
I'm only 21 but I've started hanging out with this 17 year old, she was abused and lives house hopping as a drop out. I drove her into the woods in the middle of the night and made out with her, retrospectively she might've just gone ahead with it because she was frightened. She was usually quite verbose but is now markedly terse
She reminds me of my ex

These issues are petty but I can't shake them, maybe I don't want to on some level, maybe I'm an inane person leading an inane life and this petty stress is some sense of intrigue and purpose

>>11368508
I'm in the process of finally accepting that all that I'm gonna be is a social reject, I'v been trying for the last 3 years to find a meaningful relationship or friendship with no success... either the people I'm trying to get to know end up being repulsed by me, or they are stupid and annoying to be with so I distance myself.

I've spent too much time self-reflecting on how I think and behave around people and I came to the conclusion that very inadequate and I cannot form strong bonds with anyone although I deeply strive for intimacy and friendship.

I just want my life to be full of beauty and sublimity
I value them higher than I do what is thought of as moral, but it is likely I am merely ignorant of the beauty to be found in ethics

>>11372301

The inane life is all there is. That petty intrigue and purpose is essentially as big as any real intrigue and purpose will ever be, and certainly drives you forward as much. I am this guy >>11372094 and if I could go back to how I felt when I was living your life I would in a heartbeat. You might not realize it, but these days might well be the best in your life. Certainly the sharpest days. You will miss the sharpness when it fades.

Also, apologise to that 17 year old girl. I had a very similar experience to you, and those damaged 17 year old girls don't need older guys blindly jumping into something frivolous with them.

>>11372320
>The inane life is all there is

Gosh I hate it when depressed faggots project their lives onto everyone else

>>11372308

That's all sophistry. Everyone can form those bonds, you're just expecting too much of people.

If people are repulsed by you, become better. Stop acting in the ways you acted before. It's not impossible, just recognise the problems and solve them by whatever means are availiable to you

>>11372328

Well, isn't it? Most of your life is going to be taken up by working. At some point you will settle into a certain routine, and there will be no major changes, no big rearrangements until the day that you die. Faced with that, what is there but to enjoy the inanities?

i should be reading

>>11372320
Thanks anon, that perspective actually feels like a weight off my shoulders, it's just stupid fun at the end of the day

>apologise
That's been on my mind as well, not having a go but please explain the problem of frivolous fun with this girl, being someone to just cuddle and kill time with. I want her to trust me and to spend time with her getting her affairs in order. Her current friends sound like scum
I was in a similar situation last year, I refused to get intimate with a troubled younger girl instead just trying to help her and she ended up fucking my best friend behind my back who I now no longer speak to

>>11372334
4 U

>>11372331
I've decided to get into a cocoon mode and do that -get better i mean-.

>>11372372
>cocoon mode

Lol enjoy the malaise and loneliness

>>11368701
IN THE VERY FIRST FEW MONTHS, IT WAS THE MOST ARYAN BOARD ON THE WHOLE WEBSITE

>>11368692
>>11368756
>peeing in the shower
>not puking in the bathtub

>>11372378
You mean it was a fucking mess filled with juvenile /pol/ shitposting? Were you even there?

>>11372358

Well, I guess experience has taught me that trying to fix some percieved younger and less experienced person with the weight of acquired experience and wisdom doesn't work. If they are to become better it will generally need to be through their own experience. You cannot fix her.

Secondly being involved with younger emotionally vulnerable people often backfires, as you can see in the case of your previous best friend.

If it's just frivolous fun, then whatever. But don't think you can fix other people. It rarely works, and when it does it is often due to other factors beyond the scope of your project.

I guess what I'm trying to say here is that these kind of relationships have a tendency to be toxic and damaging to one or both partners. You will be frustrated that she does not mature as you would like her to, doesn't listen as you would like her to, and she may grow tired and annoyed at your attempts. This is all my personal experience though, and maybe my avoidance of this kind of thing is why I'm miserable and bored.

>>11372359
SOMEBODY GET THIS HOTHEAD OUTA HERE

>>11372372
Staying at home and not talking to people is not how you get better at talking to and communicating with people. Being better at your chosen skills does not good relationships make.

>>11368801
Interesting, I learned the same in my HS Shakespeare class, there are scenes in Othello (I think) where some of the characters are all in the same bed, when asked about it the teacher tried explaining that social norms were so different that being so close was simply a sign of friendly companionship.

>>11368861
The sexualization of every relationship has really ruined us. You see it everywhere, that cocksucker Freud and the rest of the cosmololitan pornographers try to sexualize even the most sacred parent child relationships.

>>11372375
>>11372385
I'm really tired of people. I tried everything. I lack personality and im i have SPD or some variant of autism. Social situations make feel drained and exhausted.

Being alone doesn't make feel as lonely and detached as I feel with people.

>>11369017
I'd say Morocco probably has some fruits, men holding hand and interlocking arms in public. I don't see much wrong with it, but the Arabs have such an effete streak that it's hard not to suspect more too it.

>>11372385
Thanks anon
I'd like to think I knew that on some level but you're right, it's not my place

This attitude could be horribly wrong but I feel as though, someone's going to be fucking her, it might as well be me

>maybe that's why I'm bored
Maybe anon, maybe you should go out and make some mistakes
Discontent is the wheel that moves people, maybe you're not sad enough that you're not doing anything
You might enjoy a read/re-read of some Cioran honestly
>The wise man consents to everything for he identifies with nothing, an opportunist without desire


Also I like to live by
>Do it and see what happens
Not Cioran but I like it

>>11372418

Thanks anon. I think I probably should. If this stability is what makes me miserable, then I should tip the boat somehow.

Thanks for listening.

>>11372411
>SPD self-diagnosis

Typical

>>11372412
I'm Moroccan and I confirm. men usually hold hands in public (especially if they are old, the young have been Americanized so they don't do it often).

I can confirm the pedo industry too. The european tourists love the glue sniffers around here.

>>11372434
Yeah, im aware of how stupid I sound. although, Iv done an excessive research i'm not sure what exactly i have...

>>11369275
But Donald Trump is making America better bro. Like Jacques Ellul said: Think globally, act localy or something like that. Really, what is a little recycling gonna do if your backyard is trash? We have a duty to preserve the beauty of America for posterity, and it's a noble sentiment for sure. We also have a duty towards animals and our food. If you want to protect the environment and people to treat animals better, start a farm and provide meat locally, raise chickens that aren't housed in cages where they are fattened to unnatural proportions. It's ironic, but it's really like Nassim Taleb says, if you want to make the world a better place, don't go join some NGO, start a business.

>>11372448
End of the day you are what you are. Finding a special label isn't going to change anything.

>>11369470
Turkey?

>>11372465
I helps me find like-minded people and luckily share some coping strategies.

>>11372384

It's still that. /pol/ is a disease that affects everything and it's not a boogeyman. It's a legitimate presence and it shows up everywhere and denies its involvement. You can alwsys spot a /pol/ack.

>>11372460

>make the world better
>partake in calitalism

Lol no.

>>11369661
>implying those things aren't connected
Lol

>>11371141
>>11371148
Jesus fucking Christ, imagine being so obsessed with your own appearance. You are a fetishist, stop watching porn, work out, and never indulge in your vices again.

>>11372497
Yes anons, repress until you finally break at 50 years old as an ugly man in a dress

>>11372497
You should not talk about things you don't understand

>>11371242
It's hard to build relationships like that and to enjoy the company of others if you've been antisocialized like a lot of people. But once you get out of that state is intense how great it is to help and feel with other people, good luck anon, I was in a similar state of emotional indifference after High School, but I reconnected with my extended family and it couldn't be better.

>>11372479
>starting your owm farm to become self sufficient and supply your local community
>partaking in capitalism
Wew

>>11372553

>taking part in the exploitation of animals for human consumption

>>11372563
>>11372553
>>11372479
>>11372460
ISLAMOFASCIST VEGAN CALIPHATE NOW

>>11372508

I can confirm this. Breaking out of that cycle is a very heady drug. Once you begin to move out of it it feels great.

>>11368508
I'm not even horny, but I can't stop thinking about sex. It's driving me up the wall. I can't think about anything else, jerking off is boring and does jack shit for me. How do I get this boring, bourgeois bullshit to leave me alone?

>>11372610
Go have sex you pretentious faggot

FUCKING Fortnite is the only thing that's keeping me connected to my classmates.
I fucking hate myself.

Also I used to talk a lot with my crush on fb before our school year ended. Now as much as I want to talk to her, I can't do it because I don't have anything to talk about.

>>11372624
NO!

>23C today
>mfw
>forecast says it will hit 28 or 29 later this week
I think im going to actually fucking die

Can you be gay if you never liked a guy even an inkling throughout adolescence (upto 18)? I think I'm a tormented Christian

>>11372684
It's 32 here. Not the hot desu.

>>11372646
>FUCKING Fortnite is the only thing that's keeping me connected to my classmates.
And? That's still more than the connection I have with my classmates.

>>11372749
anime is pretty normalfag lately, surely some of your classmates at least watch the really popular stuff
you could talk about that

>>11372749
Well, last week one of them called me a narcissistic asshole on the chat and tried giving me a 10min lecture on how I was no better than anyone else.

Still, it's kinda disappointing, I've been trying to get better at this social stuff for months now, and all I've managed to do is to play squad with them on Fortnite. I don't even like most of them.

>>11372767
This, I actually enjoy Megalo Box.

>>11372767
But I don't watch anime, I just use anime images because they are easy to collect and they are expressive.

>>11372775
>I don't even like most of them.
Same, but why should I spend my time with people I don't like?

>>11372610
I figured it out. Still stupid tho.

>>11372860
the image you used was curiously appropriate desu. that character uses his extensive knowledge of dating simulator games to court various girls

>>11372860
Because I need to improve my social skills

Ultimately I only care about my own experience; I feel this is somehow wrong, but that may just be due to conditioning.

>>11372880
It's one of the few anime that I've actually taken my time to watch. I'd compare it to Pushkin's "Yevgeniy Onegin" in a sense that this one is also a handbook, but not to Russian social life, but to Japanese dating fetishes.

>>11372883
Are your social skills really bad?

>>11372917
>are your social skills really bad ?
I can't say a complete sentence without ending up mumbling in the middle of it, I can be really awkward with some people.
Whenever I start talking with someone, I start thinking about what the other person might be thinking of me, and I mostly think that he's/she's bored.
Also, I find it so DAMN HARD to start or prolong a conversation with someone. Most people think I'm boring, I'm not.
Hell, I'm pretty sure that even my writing is awkward. Just look at this mess.

I have crippling depression

>>11372945
I'm sorry to hear that.
My problem is the complete opposite. I have this crammed speech where I try to say as much as I can, always explaining exactly what I mean, even if it's unnecessary. Not to mention the unnecessary allegories.

>>11368508
All the fat people ive ever known have been evil. Its like their body punishes them for being subhuman

I really wanna yank it but there’s somebody in every room of this fucking house right now.

Life seems meaningless when you're ugly and dumb. The only thing meaningful thing is to procreate. For what? Your children will bear the same curse. They will work all their lives, just like you. They will buy things to occupy themselves with, just like you. Yet no greatness can achieved. Not in sports, not in arts, not in academics. Nowhere. I've been waiting all my life for me to change to someone I want to be, yet I fail to realise that my ideals cannot be achieved. If I were to lower my standards what would it matter? Relatively speaking I'd always be ugly and I'd always be dumb. I daren't take my life away for the slim chance of the existence of God. All I can do is wait

>>11372563
Lmao, if this isn't a meme you are warped antinaturalist moron. Caring for chickens and eating their eggs isn't "exploitation" you are tarded

I want to be NEET again. Wagie life sucks.

>>11373069
I've seen some beautiful children with ugly parents desu

>talking with girl online for a while
>she's actually likes me for some inexplicable reason
>snapchats me constantly
>95% sure she's a real girl because of this
>says we should meet up in real life
>whatever miracle has allowed me to larp as a non-autist isn't going to hold up face to face
>mfw she just sent me a snap saying "I want to see yooooouuuu"
How did I get into this mess

>>11373117
Send the most chad friend you have and pretend he is you

>>11373120
yeah then let chad fuck her so you don't blow your cover and to impress her, then let chad marry her to maintain the cover

Why watching porn and masturbation gives me more joy than anything else? I love books, live stoner rock shows, spending time with friends, going home after hard day at work. It's like my brain is not a part of me, like the chemical kicks of dopamine are artificial, yet most pleasureable. I'm fucked, and there is no way of changing it. The worst part is, that I started to think that even if I quit porn my mind is too deeply rewired, so everything will never compare with hourly marathons of pixel lust, flavoured with self loathing.

land

>>11373120
>>11373140
She knows what I look like though. Which is part of why I'm confused, like I look like an exceptionally disheveled hippie how do you find this attractive.

>>11372698
one of the greatest delusions (and lies) of our time is the idea of "sexual orientation".
there is no such thing.
there's (1) sexual perversion;
and (2) sexual trauma.

the former is a slippery slope, the more you indulge your lust the wider the spectrum of your lust and the more your lust requires to be sated(for the little time it lasts), this is why people get into weird fetishes and this is why people go further and further with pornography until they're watching shit that would utterly repulse their own younger selves. very many, not to say all, people are potentially "bisexual", simply because it's another step in sexual perversion. there's a good chance one will start lusting for dicks after feeding their lust long enough in the right direction. this is what pornography is doing to our culture, ordinary people are now becoming as degenerate as only the depraved upper classes and aristocrats used to be. everything at the tip of your fingers, further and further into lust.

the latter should be self explanatory, this involves people who were abused as children or suffered some other interference with their natural development, which can result in extremes

if you come to the realizations which are behind these points you've just read, you'll have a much wiser perspective on sex. there's no homosexuality. based on your description, you've just allowed yourself to get too deep into fleshly desire. which is extraordinarily easy to do, and only getting easier.
hope my post wasn't too much of a ramble to read. this perspective should be easier to accept to a Christian, I would think, otherwise it may not make all that much sense. I don't know or currently care, but I hope the idea is intelligible at least to (You)

>>11373318
what about the gays that all have that same lisp and flamboyant mannerisms

How the fuck do they do it?

>>11373318
unsubstantiated rubbish

>>11373253
>fucking up /lit/'s IRL cyrano adaptation
you should consider faking your death so you can start this thread again

I'm fucked
Am I

>>11368861
Affection for your brother effendi is the one thing I really envy about Islamic culture. Backwards maybe but they’ve maintained history through tradition and that should be appreciated

>>11373416
I don't really understand this site, I hope this works. Rob (who posted here under "Anon" I think) has died. It was some kind of autoerotic asphyxiation accident, I haven't heard the details yet. He left a note before he did the deed for the last time reading "tell /lit/ the adaptation is still on". As his brother I felt compelled to fulfill his last wish. This was the only site open on his computer, so I hope it's the right one.

>>11368508
I love the woman from the School of Life. Her voice lets me melt away and makes me want to shove my hard cock in her tender mouth. I want to come into the room while she is lying in her bed, writing down her thoughts. Then I pull down my pants and show her my erect penis. Aroused she starts to move her pen down between her legs while I walk towards her. I join her in the bed. With a powerful thrust my cock speeds in her pussy. 'AAAHHH,' I scream and pull my penis out. Blood is starting to imbue the entire sheet. 'What is it?!' she screams. Only then she realizes what has happened. In my hard penis there was her pen, which she shoved in her soaking wet hole.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WlckdvjK0Io

>>11368508
I desperately need to leave my boyfriend, but don't have the strength to do so. I don't manage to take action or make decisions, and I stay in this situation I desperately need to escape from. I can't live like this, but can't change.

>>11373318
you're mostly right, but there are some "born" gays. it's not the majority, because most of it is from sexual trauma, but they've done some pretty robust twin studies now which indicate a small percentage (~10-15%) of faggots were always going to be that way.
the majority of human sexuality is due to circumstance, but i think your christian idea is off base. there's plenty of similar things said in other major non abrahamic faiths, and even more focus on the natural "bisexuality" of humans from which both genders must guard themselves from exploiting in deviant ways (yin and yang is an obvious example).
[scare quotes throughout because i subscribed the gore vidal's idea there's only acts which are homo/hetero/bisexual and a virgin foreveralone straight man is as gay/straight as his virgin foreveralone "homosexual" counterpart.]
the natural "bisexuality" of most humans which is socially redirected into their roles [whether that's gay or straight] does serve a point, and not just to do with boredom. it's the same reason there's a child sex scene in IT, at its core. humans are apes who like sex. depending on the social atmosphere and environmental concerns, homosexuality can be seen as normal, and sexual reproduction as dangerous to stability. attitudes to infanticide similarly can be changed by social attitudes and concerns for resources, so some societies kill girls to increase male competition, while some kill boys to increase female subservience. whether everyone expects you to not fuck your wife unless she dresses in drag like sparta, or everyone expects you to fuck five mistresses and never your wife except for conception purposes like france, or they think frottage makes for better bonded soldiers like athens, most societies operate better if genetic competition is not flatlined by lifelong heterosexual monogamy for the whole population, which is why you probably see deviance most among the upper class (though they're usually fucking other classes too). putting all your sperm in one egg basket is not a genetically successful strategy, and it's only marginally better than masturbating it onto your wall, especially if there's anyone called chad within 100 miles of your wife ever. that's also why definitions of sexual perversion change so much between societies (e.g. it would be sexually perverse to fuck your wife for a reason other than babies when you have a mistress/concubine for fun is a common trope, as is it would be sexually perverse to fuck your wife without a condom when you're fucking prostitutes without a condom the rest of the time)
>tl;dr- it's like a social construct maaaan

>>11369407
Get help.

>>11368639
nice

>>11373318
Imagine actually believing this

>>11373695
I don't need to. Bullying other people is a key part of my culture. A very useful skill in the workplace.

ooga booga

>>11369062
will it last?

>>11368508
I like Jesus.
The morbidly obese scare me.

>>11369042
these are the best threads anon. worth it if you can re-take the final.

Whipping my self with a cable right now. Enjoying it.

>>11368513
Shinji never loved anyone lustfully; he just wanted someone to sincerely love him back, someone who accepted him for whom he was, which Rei two and Kaworu showed him.

Not sure there is a better thread but I need help finding a book. Written in the 21st century I'm pretty sure. I think the author was Jewish. Involved trains or at least a railway station and travel a good deal. Please help. OP's pic is what reminded me of it. Should I start a new thread or something if I don't have much luck?

>>11368594
Congratulations man I couldn't imagine having kids until I was older than you. I can say from personal experience if you want your kid to like reading don't force it down his/her throat. I did not get into reading for a while because when I was young I had bad memories of being forced to read. Good luck, I am sure you will be better than 99% of parents now because you won't just let an phone raise your kid.

>>11368692
You OK?

>>11368861
Is that you John Wayne?

>>11374119
Atlas shrugged

>>11374156
No. More obscure and written in the 21st century or at least the late 1990s at the earliest. Probably came out sometime after 2010 if I had to guess.

>>11373117
Same happened to me and we've been together for over 7 months now. No idea how she manages to like me so much but I'm not complaining.

Sorry for the blog posting, i'm just so mentally tired, guys, and i have no one to talk to. I had a really hard exam today and couldn't sleep very well yesterday (4h at maximum), had to drink energy drink and i also ate tons of sugary stuff trying to get a little bit of energy to survive today. Tomorrow theres another test and i feel so fucking sad because theres no way i'll be able to do my best, and its kinda big deal because i'm being a piece of shit for so long. Theres also a paper i need to deliver for a teacher that will definately hate it no matter what i do. If i sleep for 4~5 hours, i'm not sure i'll finish the paper, so here it comes a shitty night for me.

After the stressful era, the progress we said we'd make has been replaced with automatic contentment, due to the ease of no great worry
Now we wait to become concerned with that fact before acting

>>11368508
At what point should you cut out the people who love you for their own sake?

>>11374515
Anon dont lose your faith. It is only a period of time but if you have freedom in your soul you should not feel trapped in your body. Relax just for a bit amd learn how to escape from all the superficial factors. good luck and hope ull be better in time

Haven't read a book in two months, can't concentrate. All I do is get drunk and listen to punk rock.

Waiting for the new Houellebecq release in 2019, maybe that'll get me back on track.

>>11373706

>>11374566
when you find out