/lit/ - Literature

>>10985344
turn off my alarm
and destroy my dream

>>10985350
Sit in bed for an hour. Try not to cry. Make a cup of coffee.

>>10985350
Are you saying you don’t sit perfectly still and try to remember your dream?

I think of my waifu and since I have an erection, I start fapping and I finish with porn the computer

>>10985356
only fat neets have time for this.

>>10985344
When I wake up, the first thing I do is solve math problems on my tablet, because of the alarmy app(no shill). This keeps me sharp and on edge, where I need to be.

Sometimes I pick up a book and read until my second alarm goes off, but as often as not I get up and drink a heroic amount of coffee.

>>10985344
Take my coffee while watching some dumb videos before working/studying.

>>10985356
look at the order of events
in my post

>>10985344
Grab my phone and check 4chan

Idk, anything besides sitting up and still feels incorrect immediately after waking up. Used to grab my phone and start browsing but nowadays that feels like such a cheap start to the day

Piss like a regular person, which is to say like a small racehorse

walk to pc room for the next 18 hr shift

>>10985344
Get ready for work. You do support yourself, don't you? You're not reserving yourself a first class spot at the gallows, are you?

If I had a good dream I lay in bed angry because it wasn't real
Then I think how another uninteresting day is ahead of me
After this I make coffee and eat

>>10985518
Yes, though I’m not a wageslave, one day I very well may turn into one, because I do often dream of some sort of routine.

>>10985344
>turn off my alarm
>go back to sleep
>second alarm goes off in 8 minutes
>turn off my alarm
>go back to sleep
>third alarm goes off in 6 minutes
>turn off my alarm
>go back to sleep
>fourth alarm goes off in 4 minutes
>turn off my alarm
>go back to sleep
>fifth alarm goes off in 2 minutes
>turn off my alarm
>go back to sleep
>sixth alarm goes off in one minute
>turn off my alarm
>wager whether I want to get out of bed or not for 10 minutes
>either go back to sleep or max out the brightness on my screen and burn my retinas with the devil's light so I feel a little bit less tired and a little bit more suicidal
>go about my day and try not to think about anything for too long

>>10985344

>>10985344
>roll over
>kiss wife
>goof around with daughter
>go jogging (hiit)
>do my toilette (shower shaving etc)
>dress up
>sit on the breakfast table
>wake up
>kill myself

>>10985504
>Piss like a regular person, which is to say like a small racehorse
This - at the base of my Locust tree. It loves it. Yes - I go outside.

>wake up around 11 am
>probably check phone for notifications / reminders
>"bin day"
>ok

thats about it

>turn off alarm
>go to the bathroom
>shave
>take a shower
>dress
>take the bus to go to
college

>>10985623
> tfw you will never "goof around" with daugther and wife to get rid of your morning wood

>wake up
>cuddle with gf
>brush teeth
>eat breakfast
>brush teeth
>go read or write

Turn off my alarm, get up, cook breakfast, go on 4chan, drink my coffee.

>>10985504
Get your blood sugars checked for Metabolic Syndrome and Type 2 Diabetes

Check whether I've gotten any (you)s during the night.

Have a shower

>>10985404
m-me too anon

Masturbate

>wake up
>drink water
>go to bathroom, piss and take a fast shower
>place myself in front of computer
>browse 4chan

>>10985839
you could simplify this process by pissing into your mouth

Contemplate suicide

>>10985404
Why the fuck do I do this? The only thing it does is depresses me before I get out of bed rather than once I am in the shower.

Regret that I didn't die in my sleep.

I recite the 10 characteristics of the ubermensch
Meditate
Take a shower
work out
recite the 10 characteristics of the ubermensch
take a shower
work
then read
then write or produce music
eat a small meal for dinner
watch that day's pewdiepie video
throw up my dinner
recite the 10 characteristics of the ubermensch
sleep
repeat

>>10985344
jerk off

Take a shit

Wonder if I can do it all again.

>>10985352
Been there myself. Wish you the best

>>10985344
Pray, of course

>>10985344
I check /lit/. End my life.

>>10985518
I’m doing Uber deliveries till I find a stable job


Fucking sucks.

Usually I go to my desk and have a shot of whiskey before putting the gun I keep in the bottom drawer with only one bullet in it to my head and hoping that today is finally the day I will have courage to do it. I just failed today, but I hope soon I will be able to.

>>10985344
I say "Porcoddio!" out loud and then go clean my face

>>10985357
>I finish with porn
Pathetic...

Anxiety attack

>>10985344
What's the first thing lit does when they awake after wakefulness?

>>10986284
how can I predict it if it's outside habit?

I always start the day with 15-20mins of ERP (spamming myself with intrusive obsessive thoughts) while I'm still in bed, then I make myself lemonade and smoke a cigarette.

>>10985732
it's normal to piss a lot after 8 hours of not pissing.

have a good slug of moonshine

>>10985609
Same.

Get out of bed and go to work.
On the weekends I usually start by doing some anki for my languages, followed by reading, followed by more intensive language study, then a run if it's a running day, then I get drunk and play videogames.

>>10985623
>wake up
Books for this feel?

>Eat breakfast
>Try to read some spiritually uplifting literature
>Can't focus, begin deep introspection and think about how I hate my life
>Browse 4chan
>Skip classes
>Do homework and study
>browse 4chan
>sleep

>>10986616

>>10985344
I keep dreaming, often followed up with intermittent, half-hearted masturbation. It ends in one of two ways: I finish and get up to clean my mess, or I finally give up and get out to make my first cup of coffee.

Take a piss, make some tea then study Latin for 90 minutes.

>>10985344
Think about my dream, which inevitably was about my ex or the Armenian girl I met in Spain last summer.

>>10985344
I stay woke for 12 more hours

>>10985344
Dread about my future
Dread about not working on my scifi
Dread about giving up on my dream of making a scifi by getting a trade
Dread about my family
Dread about whether or not women leave me because my family is too weird when I introduce them
Dread about having too many hobbies that distract me from my scifi novel
Dread about my scifi being shitty
Dread about bills
Dread about not having been laid in 6 months
Dread about losing my strength each passing moment by not going to the gym
Dread about losing motivation
Dread about health issues that pop up from drinking too much

The list goes on and on.

>>10987030

Don't worry about your parents anon. My dad is an emotionally abusive alcoholic who gave a load of racial abuse to a taxi driver the second time my gf met him, and she's still with me. People are very forgiving of crazy families

Half of you should try antidepressants. Life's too short to be suffering through it. If you're suffering, how can you produce? You're not Dostoevsky, you're just an amerifat anon, so take the pills, guys.

look at my shelf to see if it is still in the same state i left it the night before.

>>10987292
suffering doesnt make you a better person, but it sure as hell makes you more profound.
I say SUFFER! Take it all in. To live is to suffer. ENJOY THE SUFFER

>>10987030
>Dread about not having been laid in 6 months
2.75 years

>>10987292
>take the pills
>lose personality
>become psychotic
>dick doesn’t work
>start overworking yourself without noticing because you can’t feel emotions like exhaustion or psychological dissatisfaction
>disgust response disappears
>sexual standards plummet
>begin talking in a way that’s rote
>associate with people you wouldn’t if healthy
>become semi-autistic
>dead eyes
>fucked up libido
>gain weight
>uglification
>stop thinking critically
>complacent punching bag worker drone
>but its ok because im not suffering im not dostoyevsky
>at least i have a fat SSR-eye asian gf
>at least i have my STEM labrat job
>at least i get to eat eggs, sandwich and chicken every day
>at least i have sex twice a year
>at least i take a week off to see my hateful disappointed boomer family in the suburbs every year
>at least i can’t cry or get angry because of work anymore
wowowow really makes you think man

>>10985344
>Wake up
>Piss
>Make breakfast and coffee
>Chain smoke and browse 4chan

>>10987340
I've never tried to commit suicide before they gave me pills to (((help))) me with my anxiety, after the psychologist who ironically was a Jew kept upping my dose while I was at the psycward for my first attempt I tried to kill myself a second time. After that I stopped taking them. I'd rather have anxiety on its own. Not to mention waking up shivering with cold sweats on a hot summer day.

>>10987369
Not just that, it lowers your iq, it makes your dreams macabre or extinguishes them, you shed the ability to react aggressively to stimuli, and then you are correct, it promotes psychosis in the user. Random waves of suicidal ideation or homicidal aggression have been reported in depressed individuals taking anti-depressants. Weight gain, vague floating autism, all of these directly connected with those pills.

>>10987340
>>10987369
>>10987396

really seriously should do real drugs instead

>>10987403
Not good advice for the chronically/suicidally depressed anon. Please don’t reccomend dysfunctional minds such self-destructive behavior. Drugs+depression is guaranteed calamity

Just because i reject pharmacotherapy and anglo-judaic cbt/psychoanalysis doesn’t mean i encourage self-harm

Brush teeth, drink coffee and SSRI, take a shit, drink water/eat, and then whatever I have to do that day.

>take pills
>Get normie glow
>Can finally focus on others instead of being distracted by bodily tension and the regret of losing my exes 5 plus years ago
>Normies realize I'm actually normal
>They like me
>They trust me
>I get the job I'm trying to get (social skills more important than resume and experience
>Clean room
>Wash penis
>Stop taking pills or not it doesn't matter because I'm not a fucking NEET

>>10987424
>taking pills to become normal
what if you were normal and now you're something else?

>>10987434
It's not normal to become a NEET. I'll do anything to avoid being a lonely depressed poor dateless fag. Even if that means taking some pills to "fit in". Exercise, religion, and therapy isn't cutting it. I have to curb my whims and woes in order to make it. Be me, 30 years old with no real career. Then you'd understand.

>>10985344
go back to /v/, dumbo:)

>>10987424
What are the "normal persona" pills again?

smoke a cigarette, drink coffee, choke down an antidepressant and play a game of chess

>>10987501
Prozac probably

>>10987471
This. I wanted to kill myself, so I decided to go on antidepressants. If I hate myself so much and antidepressants would change me... It sounded like a good alternative to suicide. Ofc, I didn't change. The only difference is that I can deal with the shitty reality in which I live in now, without lying in bed and wishing I were dead all the time.

>>10985825
Only true answer

>>10986266
Thiiiiiiis

>>10987424
Yeah, you're a fucking subhuman taking pills to be le normie instead, next big step is killing yourself.

>>10985344
on days where I have to wageslave, miserably jump into the shower
on days where I don't have to wageslave, continue my routine of mindlessly browsing 4chan (and I don't use that word lightly, I feel fucking braindead wasting my time here at this point)

>>10987424
>the regret of losing my exes 5 plus years ago
Stopped reading there

Daydream about my waifu, usually about cuddling with her and whispering sweet nothings, and then often continuing with dreams of our future, key moments in our relationship, dull and quiet evenings together, revisited multiple times like memories, with a slight smile.

If I don't have to get up early, I do it for hours, only to come out of bed when I become sore.
Then I open up a beer and try to distract myself for the rest of the day.

>>10987332
8 years reporting in

>>10985344
I hastily put clothes on and go to work without eating or brushing my teeth

>>10987593
I also take pills first thing in the morning. Vitamin D, magnesium, creatine, and fish oil. Fite me feget.

>>10988791
try 25 years

>>10988821
>>10988791
>>10987332
>>10987030

Get a girlfriend.

>smoke a cigarette and drink shitty burnt coffee on the terrace
>eat some goat cheese and cucumber
>drive to the office to optimize HVAC systems
>consider suicide

>>10985344
Wake up at 5 am, brush my theet, make a cup of tea because coffee is bad for me in the morning, go to bus, see people who are empty or dead inside, see ignorance, go to work, do my work, pay attention to people who gets happy for such a dumb things like drink and fuck in lunch, end work, go home, sit and shitpost here until midnight, then i stop time, make a cup of coffee, turn the lights off, go to my couch, i turn my lamp on, grab a book and read until i go to bed, and repeat.

>>10988831
ROASTIE GET OUT REEEEEEEE

>>10988936
That gets women wet everytime

>>10985344

if day of work, it takes me a cold shower to look semi-sentient. I'm not a morning person. If unemployed, A sip of 4chan while browsing coffee

>>10988831
no thanks femme i'm done with that part of life

celibacy is altogether more rewarding for me.

>>10989001

>>10989001
>>10989263
The absolute state of /lit/. LARPing as a monk and Christian.

>>10989630
>the absolute state of /lit/. “Don’t ever imagine being anything else just drink your soy, wagecuck, read French philosophy, and smoke some weed bro. Lamenting things past or ‘dead’ is so 20th century dude.”

>>10986050
what a pretty photograph. do you have any more?

Subvocalize the appearance of fighting with myself to wake up to my alarm, when in reality I know I'll turn it off and go back to bed to collect the remaining drops of joy from whatever dream I've been dreaming. This takes anywhere from thirty minutes to an hour and a half. For some reason I always replay the same memory in my head courtesy of morning wood, of a pretty Russian-Jewish girl that I made out with in the same bed when I was a sophomore in high school years and years ago. I wanted to have sex with her but she only allowed me to take off her shirt, and we would repeat this one weekend night every other week for a month or two. I had a cousin living below me at this time, and my floors are thin, so I could never persuade her (seduce her) into anything more than kissing because I would die of shame at the thought of my cousin overhearing a girl say "no", "stop", "don't" when attempting to take off her pants.

I get up feeling nauseous and physically weak and unable to get a proper breath in. Have to debate myself as to whether I will brush my teeth and put on clothes or go straight to making coffee, or whether I should eat before making coffee, and the procedure usually goes that I brush my teeth and then make a large french-press of coffee. Then I turn on my computer.

>>10986611
>get drunk
Why are you even running if you get drunk on a regular basis? It's not like running balances out casual alcoholism.

Stare at the ceiling for half an hour - contemplating how terrible my existence is and has been.

>>10989657
Didn't say that at all. I favour the views you espouse. That doesn't mean I can't scoff at degenerate NEETs pretending to be something they're not.

open my windows

Insta good feel

Drink tap water from my thermos

>>10985344
pray the breviary

>>10989804

its not alcoholism until its nightly and exceeds 4 drinks

>>10990113
based

>>10985344
I wake up, maybe stay lying in bed for a little longer watching TV, get up, go for a pee, have a coffee/breakfast, get on computer to work/write/read/procrastinate

sometimes I wake up so early to do this I'm still in that semi sleepwalking state and this morning I heard a very loud bird by my window making an odd call like a rustling screech and my semi-awake/asleep self thought what the fuck when could centipedes sing and it genuinely freaked me the fuck out

Morning is the hardest time of day for me. Not because I have trouble waking up but because each morning I'm hit by an intense intense feeling of dread for the day ahead. This will last ten or thirty minutes, or an hour, until whenever I drag myself out. Usually then I either shower or make a coffee, breakfast. After I've done these things the dread subsides a little, but it never truly goes away.

>>10987544
tfw on antidepressants and still lie in bed wishing I were dead

>wake up
>realize i haven't died in my sleep (why would i?)
>scream in pillow
>take antidepressants, wondering why i even do it
>take shower
>force myself to eat something
>drink coffee
>go to school
>sit in school semi asleep
>go home
>force myself to eat something
>browse chan, youtube, procrastinate for school
>maybe read 5-10 pages before getting bored
>force myself to eat dinner
>watch a movie in bed
>sleep, repeat

when does it end

>>10989970
>degenerate
>NEET
pick one.

>>10985359
>calls other people fat neets with too much time
>on 4chan

pick one you fucking autist

>wake up before alarm
>roll out of bed after 5 minute existential crisis
>stretch
>30 pushups
>stretch
>30 squats
>stretch
>30 crunches
>rinse n' repeat
>drink water
>make lunch for work
>read approx 30 mins
>walk to work

A basic workout like this feels fucking incredible and I'm always a lot happier than when I decide to jack off instead.

I love you guys and would encourage you all to muscle yourselves out of the comfy hole you've dug for yourselves. You should be the one that fucks the world, not the other way around.

>>10991301
based neetposter

>>10985344
check my phone unfortunately.

Have sex with your mother

>>10986284

Utter all the names of all the things in the universe all at once.

>>10991269
You know what to do.

>>10985344

>>10989804
He's clearly just running away from his problems.

>>10991045
What exactly is it that youre dreading? I hate mornings too but the usually subside when I get out of bed.

Put on the kettle. Stretch a little while the water boils. Pour my tea. Open the curtains.

>>10992428
GOOD image

Touch myself inappropriately

make bed
shower
shave (shave after shower b/c my mirror is some new age shit that doesn't fog, and the hair goes easier post-shower)
spend too long in the mirror picking clothes (I'm a man so this is quite embarrassing)
go to work

on the weekends I just do the same without shave and just get on my computer instead of work

>>10992490
>spend too long in the mirror picking clothes
There is literally nothing wrong with creating nice outfits, and don't let any cargo shorts-wearing pseuds tell you otherwise.

go for a run

>>10985344
check texts and emails

>>10985344
>no one has replied have sex with gf because /lit/ is mostly degenerate bachelors and incels
lol i don’t know why this isn’t suicidally depressing to more people

>>10992812
it is, tho. we just hide it in multiple layers of irony.

>>10992415
an hero?

I'm a cocaine addict so that

>>10985344
Make sweet, morning love to my girlfriend (who lets me cum inside of her because she is infertile).

>>10985344
>wake up
>not dead
>mfw

Assess the damage from last nights drinking. Gradually check my joints, starting with big toe, up through knees and hips to shoulders and down through elbows and hands. Work up the courage to register any brain or heart, lung and liver damage. See if there might perhaps be a sniff of whisky left in the bottle. Light a cigarette.

Coffee and a cigarette
Browse 4chan
Think
Shower

I usually analyze my dreams, the days which I don’t have a dream I tend to just get up at get ready for school