/lit/ - Literature

>>10940039
*I blame this hazardous search ON the idiotic protestant theology I grew up with*

I'm Orthodox now but I still can't turn my mind off. I've realized the essence of evil is actually reason. When you are skeptical of something you are actually suspicious of it. When you try to pry apart great mysteries it is only done out of fear and pride. This is why modern theology handed down through the corrupt Catholic church with its self-deified pontiff is so distasteful. Its the same impulse to put God in a box that atheists are compelled by. The intellect is the spirit of rebellion.

>>10940039

I'm a chaos magician, so I think of religions as outlooks, orientations, or playing styles in a game. You should leave off the occult and study math for a while, whatever ideas of philosophy you can find in math can always be reconciled in some way, even if only through eclecticism.

>>10940163
>im a chaos magician
Lmao

Go practice theurgery and learn something

>>10940163
I am studying math incidentally. Perhaps there is a connection but one morning I woke up and realized how fascinating I found math conceptually and I've decided to go back to school for it. However I don't see how that will ground my view of reality. Right now I ask Christ to know the truth for me, in fact that's what I think faith ultimately is. Christ, know the ultimate purpose of this evil I am seeing. Christ, know the exact value of infinity for me. These are the same quality of faith, to trust in spite of not knowing satisfactorily on your own terms. I can see the importance of this kind of faith. The problem is what remains for me to axiomatically work with in my day to day existence?

>>10940258
If you want to be grounded in reality you must find what it takes to humble your self.

Try exercising by lifting weights, you'll realize how definite your position stands, compared to other men.

>>10940287
Well let me give an example of how my view of reality is distorted. I ditched Easter dinner because I had this sense that my brother had poisoned the food. That might sound like schizophrenia however if you look at the variables the way in which my conclusion was irrational isn't so cut and dry. Both he and his father are very glib. He acts mostly like a sociopath, has had a number of delinquent incidents, utters death threats and even at one point said he wanted to join ISIS. I could even say I've always had the suspicion that he's a sociopath. So why is it unreasonable to think he would do such a thing since its a difficult thing to understand and trust him with the heart? Well the mind took up the slack and given a very shaky world view, the mere improbability of the event couldn't be viewed as especially relevant. I was already assembling a fantastic narrative of how this could play out, laboring under the delusion of divine inspiration and treating a dream I had where he was laughing at me with malice as a premonition. Ultimately I realized that I was being unreasonable but I also had to forgo the festivities given that I believed I might have pulled a Troll 2 at the dinner table that night.

>>10940287
>entire perception of reality breaks down
>just lift bro

>>>/fit/

>>10940107
>"on" not "for"
>he doesn't know the future causes the past
pseud

>>10940145
>>I've realized the essence of evil is actually reason
>Reason doesn't affirm his religion so he demonizes it and shuns the intellect
holy fucking kek

Just believe in Jesus.

The occult is bananas