/lit/ - Literature

I'm finally facing death as any hero should. I could literally lose my mind today and I don't care, I'm done running from my fears and being a prisoner to them.

Did Posadists really think nuclear war was going to lead to alien communism?

I can't go on. I'm going on.

"Do not give dogs what is holy; do not throw your pearls before swine. If you do, they may trample them under their feet."

I need study and i spend a lot of time playing Chivalry -.-

I recently started dating the most beautiful and sweetest girl I've ever met. Basically she is perfect in my eyes but now I've suddenly gotten this feeling that I don't deserve her. I have also got little experience in intimacy and I am still a virgin. Can't really get hard enough to have sex with her, sometimes I can't even get it hard. Tldr; my insecurities are killing my boners and the ability to love

I like sleeping.
sleepy
I like dreaming about walking on tracks that lead to big rocks, sand, shrubs, bigger rocks and big rocks on top of big rocks red rocks and mountains and rocks, rocks that continue on like I'm walking on an infinite plane full of rocks that stretches out forever it is big.
If I can have a dream where I'm a girl version of me instead of a boy version like I look like physically and I can walk on this track I will be very pleased with my mind who did some good work
I wish my dreams lasted forever, real life is too difficult for me but I like sleeping.

I wanna find some good books about the October Revolution

Only now I start realizing the consequences of my acts. Only 2 or 3 years after. It's hard to accept they were the reason I'm like this, but that's the conclusion I've come to.
It's so rooted on my instincts and personality, I can't figure out how to at least remember how I was before that -years, after all, don't pass by as fast I think they do.
What did I feel? What were my reasons? Did I even need reasons? Was I happy? I only have sad memories (or at least, non-happy memories). Not because I didn't have happy moments, but because somehow I forget about them. It's like putting a teaspoon of a sugar that doesn't sweeten on hot water; a drop of transparent ink on a lake; killing an ant.
Whatever. I now can analyze a bit better my reactions. Still, why does my memory shun happiness?

fuck lefties the gallows will come. We will rule with a fair, but bloody hand. That resembles a spiked mallet more than any human appendage.

i wonder if you could write 300 pages of stream of conscioussnes horror/absurdist bullshittery with some constant revolving themes and characters and pass it off as real literature

Here I stand at the edge of oblivion, ready to dive in headfirst. Before me lies the abyss, from which all has come and all will go. To there I will go, and from which will hopefully never return. No longer shall I dwell among the company of the living, those who call themselves righteous or just. Least of all do I wish to keep company with those who claim to know God. I care not for God, but he certainly knows how I despise his followers, the zealous and the suicidal. So now I go where none of them dwell, beyond the heights of heaven and the depths of hell.

I vehemently oppose all those who seek to reduce mankind to simply another animal species, or worse, a mere plague that deserves to be exterminated.

Cuck cuck cuck cuck jew jew cuck jew cuck cuck jew cuck jew cuck jew jew jew cuck

>>10269611
listen to music or something holy moly
>>10269344
animals are fine enough
humans are obviously more complex and vehicles for higher levels of awareness though
the plague thing comes to me when I see airplane images of cities
it makes humanity look like a grey geometric virus on the surface of earth
though that is not our inherent nature, it is a modality we are working through

>>10267383
a skull :P

Currently in my bedroom listening To Be Kind by Swans for the first time, specifically I'm on track 6, "She Loves Us". Gira is screaming "Your name is fuck! (Hallelujah! Hallelujah!)" and I'm enjoying it.

Also I need a job, I'm running low on cash.Thinking about selling everything I own to moving to NYC and find a job there. I mean I only live about an hour and a half away via train/car. Starting a noise rock band is something I'd like to do even though I've never played an instrument seriously, unless you count when I played the drums for about 2 years in middle school. I fucking hate the winter and really want to move out west, California would be nice but not having a college degree or a job doesnt really help me in anyway.

In the 26 years I've been alive I have never had a girlfriend, luckily i have had sex multiple times and I'm not a total autist otherwise I would've off myself a while ago.

I've been reading more often lately and as soon as I'm finished with the two books Im reading I'll start Moby Dick and hopefully power through that but not to hard as I know reading isn't a race. Anyway I have Don Quixote waiting for me at the end of Moby Dick which is a thick ass book. Speakeing of thick books I got about 200 pages in to Atlas Shrugged and dropped because I found Ayn Rand's writing to be repetitive, although I'll admit she can write a great sex scene. To this day, the funniest book I've read is Confederacy of Dunces.

>>10269832
godless scum belong in concentration camps

>>10269888
god fearing judens should suck my dinkle from the backle

I think I've started down a path whose end I can't begin to guess.

>>10269893
same nigga

I don't like slaughter house five but I can't stop reading it.

the political climate of the interwar period

>>10267716
>Can't really get hard enough to have sex with her, sometimes I can't even get it hard
How is this possible if you're under 40? Maybe you need to stop spanking the monkey so much.

>>10269909
probably porn dude. that shit ruins a lot of men.

I myself am slowing weening (lol) my self off of porn. and giving jacking off a break. I aint a virgin I just don't get laid often.

>>10267383
Just by going to youtube and looking for a song by Ryuichi Sakamoto, somehow it came to my knowledge that Louis CK has some kinda sex scandal thing

I thought I could avoid useless knowledge like this by using only the internet, and only searching for the specific thing I want to know about and nothing else

But I guess not, not youtube anyways
I worry that just using google or youtube will keep my brain filled with useless information about whatever

For that matter so will 4chan
I don't want my mind to be polluted by useless information
Next week some guy is going to gun down a bunch of people in X state
I don't care, it won't affect me. If it does affect me then I'll be dead, and good. I want to read what I want to read, listen to what I want to listen to. Most things people read and listen to are anathema to the soul. I don't want any part of it. There is nothing worth "keeping up with". That is the idiot's past time. To keep up with things. The universe is eternal and archetypal. To know deeply is true new-ness. Not superficial nonsense about whatever. I don't care what war the U.S. gets embroiled in, what stupid policy is being put into law. Those things will dissolve soon enough. They aren't beautiful enough to be sustained for a long period. The foundations of the things people hold sacred were invented by scared heathens. Heathens in the broad sense, not any specific theology.

It is impressive, how much people put up with.
Only in proportion to an immense fear can people put up with a life so dry and void of passion. That fear is the ubiquity of loneliness anyone can sense once they step a mere foot beyond their front door. The world is not a community, it is a collection of strangers, all competing. You may win the lottery and gain the love of a compassionate stranger here and there, but the world outside your door is indifferent. Have you ever had to spend time outside without a house? You're not allowed to be anywhere. That is called "loitering" or "trespassing". The society is structured that all who don't play its stupid game become ostracized and ridiculed. It is that insecure about its own principles that it must ridicule all others who deny it vehemently, to such a degree as to exact force, omnipresent as police, to "remove undesirables".

We are living in hell, and very few are aware. Use your creativity a bit. What would make actual hell all the more hellish? If by some horrid conspiracy, you were always depressed and hated life, but you felt it was only your fault, that there was really something terribly wrong with just you, and not the world. That would be an even more hell than hell. And thus we have it. We think the world is alright, and we are somehow wrong for being incapable to adapt to its hellish programs.

Truly a hell inside a hell, russian doll devil

Going through my camera roll deleting pictures from last year and keep saying "yikes" after each one. Why am I so hard on myself /b/ros

>>10269922
upload all of your yikes and i will answer

>>10269922
post some pics faggot

https://pastebin.com/Gj0YwmjB
https://pastebin.com/X0ksY8kC

>>10269949
Second one was good.

Reminder that any woman with at least half a brain who is aware of the differences in gender knows that men commit the vast majority of violent crimes and thus subconsciously look down on men as being subhuman.

>>10267383
A love letter

When I write, I tend to use flowery language when I describe the world, but when it comes to you I just have to be more authentic, because that’s the way you are. I have to speak from my heart, because that’s where you live. You are what I call Home. I find myself able to communicate with you far better than anyone else I’ve ever met, and I just feel at peace when I’m with you. You’re awkward in the same way I am but it just makes you that much more adorable. It’s such an endearing quality. You know the world I come from, and I know yours, and in that way we have a place to ourselves, our own secret hideaway to carry within each other’s hearts no matter where we go, and it just makes me love you more. You’re someone who gets me, and I know that I get you. I love that you are the only person in earth I feel happy to be vulnerable with, and how the two of us revel in that mutual weakness together. I know you’ve had a rough time of things, that you’ve been chewed up and spit out, a survivor with unique perspective like me. I’m so glad we each understand that because it only makes things better, better because I can actually hold you tighty as you grip me back, knowing in our hearts that what we have is a miracle. We won, and we are still here. You are strong, and brave, and tough as nails, and it just makes you that much more attractive to me. You’re so thoughtful and conscious and you’ve got this tremendous inner world swirling around inside of you and I find myself drawn into it willingly. In that way, you’re the type of person I could never stop exploring. When I first met you, I was terribly injured, coming out of that long winter road I’d been forced to walk by myself. I was cynical, I was finished with everything in the worst way possible, but then somehow you fell into my life, picked me up and dusted me off. You showed me that another human being could believe that I was beautiful too, that there was something of value within me, and that I could learn believe that about myself as well. You showed me that life could be made warm and beautiful, and full of joy again.

You are an angel, an actual angel and I love you more than words can express, you funny and beautiful, fiery and adventurous little woman. I don’t care how stereotypical it is, you are my best friend.

these FUCKING RETARDS don't even know how to sage
>>10270207
yeah men tend to inhabit the extremes

>>10270329
>and you’ve got this tremendous inner ass world swirling around inside of you and I find myself drawn into it willingly
dude, what

>>10270349
inner ass implies an outer ass implies a double ass
sounds like a love letter to an amerimutt

>>10270329
You should send this to them, it's a very sweet way of feeling what you describe.

I just can't get over the fact of how important everyone seems to consider themselves in society. We're nothing. We're aimless, confused, illusioned creatures just fucking wandering around without any purpose (other than propagation and self preservation) not unlike really any other animal on this planet yet because we can derive meaning from our environment we seem to think of ourselves as meant for something greater. In reality we're no different from an ant or a fly, just as they live and die in an instant without any true impact in something greater we too just live and die, though it is our intelligence that tries to over rationalize this in an attempt to comfort us. With all of this I just can't help but feel how pointless all this is and feels, I feel like I'm in some type of fucked up game or story or something and everyone is trying to their best to stay immersed but I myself have just completely dissociated with it. There is nothing for us here and it makes me feel bad.

>>10270407
I feel like the workaround for this kind of thinking is to see yourself as a part of a larger whole, that there’s a slight possibility you play a minute role in advancing human civilization towards a state where through science and technology, peeling back the veil of our universe, that we can truly transcend the issues you speak of, that we can reach a point where we can alter our existence in such a way that it breaks all of th established rules, that philosophy becomes irrelevant and meaningless. Perhaps it is our awareness of this possibility and the potential of its existence through ya that separates us from the rest of the animals.

I'm having a mental breakdown over the possibility that empathy and compassion are just symptoms of ressentiment

>>10267383
solo tenía un sueño, y el muy maldito se está haciendo realidad, qué me queda?
incluso la muerte está perdiendo sentido.

I've thought things that would land me in institutions and the only thing that's kept me sane is the reassurance that it's all an extension of an innate neurosis I've been dealing with since I was a child. It has gotten progressively worse over the years though.

Do you guys ever wonder what life will be like in the future? I personally do not believe in an afterlife, but i so desperately want to. I despise being bored, and the thouht of nothingness produces a black hole i can only satisfy with dark humor and shitty memes.
I jerk off so much that my endurance is almost unquenchable, and i can outlast my girlfriend almost twofold.
Life seems boring, yet i disrtact myself with the same meaningless games,books, people.
once you get what you want it becomes boring, and you have to find a new thing to work for and it's disgusting.
I'm more devoted to a hentai clicker flash game and a mobile app tycoon game then i am to my own future.
I have a C+ in one of the only classes i enjoy (inb4 emotional teen is dumb) and its mostly because i get abdominal migraines that keep me from leaving my bathroom.
Im stuck to playin Hunie Pop unironically for the puzzles and playing Civ V on the hardest difficulty while listening to creepy pastas in the background.
I aspire to be a writer but I can't commit myself to a story long enough to see it finished.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bXmOCqe6om8

It's been almost a full year now since I last felt a real emotion. I was listening to some music, and it felt important. Like something mattered. Looking back, some of the best experiences I've had in my life so far were through visual novels. Those feelings of love, friendship - art can't come close. Not at all. If I could only enjoy VNs and music, I'd be happy.

But I can't. Something's wrong with my head, and the pills aren't working. I promise I'm still thinking straight - but perhaps that's the sad part. Always praised for being smart, and yet I'm totally helpless where it counts. I haven't written in my diary for months. I'm only 19. I'm still a kid. What if nothing works? Will it be over?

>>10271166
I'd like to be 19 again so I could avoid wasting these two years

>>10270490
http://catholicism.org/goretti.html

>>10270671
>>10271166
http://www.naturalthinker.net/trl/texts/Kierkegaard,Soren/TheSicknessUntoDeath.pdf

>>10267662
What year is it?

>>10271214
It's %CURRENT_YEAR%

bookmark 2:16

>>10271183
I've already screwed up some. I felt so awful at college that I went home at week 2, and I've already begun to accrue massive debt that can only be paid off if I finish my difficult degree. Maybe we're all just bound to screw up.
>>10271203
No prerequisite reading required? Are you sure?

I'm tired of being tired.

>>10267601
>The entire ancient world worships "gods" who demand (sometimes human) sacrifice
>Christianity spreads, calling the pagan gods devils and stamping out idolatry wherever it goes
>Centuries later, materialism has left many wondering whether any spiritual beings exist at all
>Just in time for the "aliens" to come and tell us that they seeded life and watched over our evolution on earth and essentially are our creators or "gods"

Listening to an audiobook, and the guy keeps sipping his tea every minute or so... so tired I can;t sleep.

>>10271223
>No prerequisite reading required? Are you sure?
Yes.

>>10271230
I'll give it a read then.

>>10269949
Good shit

>>10271203
>>10271230
I've made an attempt to understand it, but I feel I'm failing. How on earth am I meant to understand what the purpose of pages like pic related? Always with philosophy I come across such things, where my only option is to assume I grasp the concept by associating them with ideas I already know, and essentially just ignoring half of the content. Do other people just naturally grasp what he means in passages like this?

>>10267383
I now have the chance to start a possibly satisfying long term relationship, however the only urge I feel right now is to reach tranquility through work and fasting(the eastern orthodox fast which started today).

>>10269909
I actually stopped watching porn for over a year now. I did nofap and now I fap only once or twice a week

Ub Iwerks might be one of the most tragic figures of the 20th century - a symbol of how, in this world of illusory truth, the creator is never as revered as the messenger.

I need to take a shit. Byron was a crazy fucker, don't really admire him, but he was an interesting figure.

>>10271400
I fap once a month. Get on my level, nigga.

As a young student I unintentionally built a reputation of being a model student thorugh getting in two selective highschools. I have always been a cheeky fella but last 3 years have been seriously dull. Ive taken few risks and apathetic when i am at an age in which I need to be doing the opposite.

Whats worse is that at uni many people are from my highschool because most students in my highschool do quite well in final exams like myself and move to the top unis in my country which I am currently attending. This not only means that my uni life and the people I tend to meet and social circles and attitudes are similar to uni but I have strangely become a slave or dependent on the expectations and norms of my highschool community.

This is all confusing without context but basically I am living a life which is stereotypical and unoriginal. I am living a life expected of me and most painfully I seek to conform .

I guess its time to break out of this loop ive been living but i am a person of habit and addiction

>tfw you start with the Greeks and press on with the brain gains but your vidyagamer pleb past starts harkening to you
I don't know if I will be able to restrain myself enough to delegate due time to reading and playing if I get started again. Even when I play a grindy MMO I still listen to audiobooks but the reading comprehension is abjectly impacted


I need to start playing WoW and play a Priest or Pally or Hunter dwarf sooooooo hard fuck fuck fuck

>>10271740
I PINE for the high pulp fantasy atmosphere of WoW and I think I'm going to give in really soon, I can't control my plebby side, I'm only half through the odyssey

>>10267383
At this point I think I'm a functioning alcoholic. My only saving grace is that self-reflection is basically my super power. Problem: I'm suffering from depression, so I can't actually bring myself to care to control myself.

I'm lonely, I'm depressed and I'm too tired to be pissed.

I'm honestly a good person- I'm fucked up, but I'm a good person. I don't want people to hurt, or suffer, but I'm also aware that people are stupid and I'm sick of it.

Just... leave people alone. I mean, I get it. I understand, logically, most people. I get why people are homophobic, or racist, or against immigration. It usually comes down to change scary different mmmbad, which I get it. I do. Sometimes, I'll even agree that regulations should be put in place. I'm not a hippy liberal. I understand the importance of rules in a complex system.

It's just- who cares? I can't understand how people can scratch together the vitriol to actively make other people's lives more difficult, rather than just accepting that you don't understand and that's fine. They're other. Let them be other over there and leave them alone.

I don't understand how people can't recognize that the general public doesn't know shit, that there are people in power actively trying to abuse their power. I don't-

Everything's fucking awful, everything's scary and none of us know what the fuck we're doing, but that doesn't mean we have to be mean to each other.

It's stupid. I hate admitting it, because I feel like a retard saying it, but I just don't understand why people can't be nicer to each other.

wish i was a drunken author in post war berlin to be quite honest

>>10271851
>why people can't be nicer to each other.
One answer would be, because people aren't content with themselves.

>>10271868
Yeah. I know that, too. I know how that translates to being mean to others, too. I just don't know why. There's so much better things to do.

And I guess they must, but how do people feel better about themselves that way? It has to be there, right? Even if I do something actually productive, I still think I'm an irredeemable loser. How do people make themselves feel better just by putting others down? If they have that much control over their self-denial, then you'd think that they'd feel much better if they just baked a fucking cake or hung up a tire swing for the neighborhood kids or something. Goddammit.

>>10271893
Are you implying you are always nice to everyone, or do you wish to hold others to a standard you yourself fail to keep? If it's the latter, I suggest you already have plenty of answers as to 'why'.

>>10271957
>Are you implying you are always nice to everyone
No, of course not, but I do try. And snapping at people when you're pissed off or have a headache is vastly different than putting actual effort into being an asshole to make yourself feel better.

>>10267716
Maybe she a thot

>>10267383
I have attempted, never really tried, suicide multiple times. I can't off myself, the universe seems against it. So I tried running away from my problems. Packed up, pointed at a direction and walked. I had this romanticized idea. Maybe I'd meet a dog and we become traveling pals or something. I pissed my pants and slept in cold rain the first night. Couldn't take it the second night cause I'm a fucking whimpering pussy, and just went home.

I like living. I hate feeling like I don't. I don't know what to do anymore. I think I am dead now.

I betrayed everyone's trust. All the secrets and lies piled up now are crushing me. I might be in jail by tomorrow for years and years.

What am I supposed to do? I have one option now, live. You know, out shine all the stars. Because you are either the brightest or you take them all out. That I simply can't do.

So I'll sit here.

>>10267716
you have to love yourself before others can love you

Pretty stoked to go to Kansas City for a week, starting Monday. At least it's better than Syracuse.

>>10271966
There's probably a long and complex process leading up to that. Maybe those people have a perpetual emotional headache, as it were.

>>10272104
Thank you anon this is what I wanted to hear

>>10267716
>>10269909
>>10269919

Excrement is bad, sex is bad. Minimum meditation will reveal this to anyone.

>>10272168
He's wrong though.

Loving yourself is fucking hard, and turning your insecurities into some kind of internal ultimatum is a good way to hate yourself or other people.

I've said this before, and I'll say this again. Communication is the most important part of any relationship. Everyone feels insecure, and a lot of people feel crippling insecurity. Sit your girl down and explain to her how you feel. Encourage her to tell you how she feels.

Feeling insecure but not telling your partner will fuck up a relationship real quick. You'll get weird and she won't know why, because you didn't tell her.

I don't know either of you, so I can't say how much you should throw out there at once, but feel your way up towards that, if you're even insecure about that. That's fine too.

Say you're insecure, but you don't really want to talk about it because you feel like it's stupid. Or something like that. Watch netflix and order pizza. Tell her you want to do right by her, but you don't know the best way to go about it.

TALK TO HER.

>>10271851
So you believe you are a good person simply based upon your opinions, or do you actually do something to help mitigate the suffering which you describe in the world? What actually constitutes a good person in your mind, belief alone or belief combined with action?

>>10272205
this is a good post

you're all gay

>>10272250
I believe I'm a good person in the sense that I don't want to see people hurting. I do try to apply that kind of thing to my everyday life. I try to listen to people, I try to treat everyone well. I give money when I have the means to do so, and donate when I can.

"good" is both belief and action where you can. Sometimes it's helping at a soup kitchen on weekends. Sometimes it's seeing a stranger fall down, and helping them pick up their stuff. Sometimes it's just asking someone if they're okay.

The thing is- I think people are inherently good- I do! But it's... hard. Perfect strangers will work together to help someone who obviously needs help, but if a person has depression...

I often feel bad that I'm not doing enough, but I try to do what I can. Sometimes I can do more. Sometimes all I can do is smile at service workers, even if they're rude.

It's not that I believe in hurting yourself for others, because I don't. I believe everyone reserves the right to focus on themselves, but if you feel good, and have some extra money or time, then yeah.

You just... try. And yeah, you fuck up sometimes, but if you can recognize that, you can do better.

>>10272250

I believe I'm a good person in the sense that I don't want to see people hurting. I do try to apply that kind of thing to my everyday life. I try to listen to people, I try to treat everyone well. I give money when I have the means to do so, and donate when I can.

"good" is both belief and action where you can. Sometimes it's helping at a soup kitchen on weekends. Sometimes it's seeing a stranger fall down, and helping them pick up their stuff. Sometimes it's just asking someone if they're okay.

The thing is- I think people are inherently good- I do! But it's... hard. Perfect strangers will work together to help someone who obviously needs help, but if a person has depression...

I often feel bad that I'm not doing enough, but I try to do what I can. Sometimes I can do more. Sometimes all I can do is smile at service workers, even if they're rude.

It's not that I believe in hurting yourself for others, because I don't. I believe everyone reserves the right to focus on themselves, but if you feel well, and have some extra money or time, or you see something you can do, then yeah.

You just... try. And yeah, you fuck up sometimes, but if you can recognize that, you can do better.

A former school teacher who introduced me into creative writing is being accused for sexual harassment. Poor guy, he is getting a lot of shit from social media.
I don't really care too much about his case because is none of my business, but he used to post one daily exercise of what he called "literary gym" which I try to do every day since September. After the accusations he stopped doing it completely.

Is there a website or another author who does the same thing? I could create my own exercise but I rather have someone else's perspective.

>>10267383
After twenty years of obsessing over literature, I’ve concluded that it’s nothing more than mere entertainment and has left me woefully unequipped to understand our world. I now focus entirely on nonfiction.

I’ve wised up.

>>10272460
t. pesudo intellectual
Next time try understanding what you read.

>>10272566
Wow, great argument. You must read a lot of fiction.

>>10271746
You could always jump out of yourself a level and look at it like this anon:

At best, if you're in your 20's, you /might/ have 600 months left to live in good enough health to be competently functional at the things you like/appreciate in life.

I mean, if you're from North America and born from the ~80's on, you were gifted with an average life expectancy of ~1.7-2.6 billion seconds.

Think for a moment on what you want your crowning memory, left in the annals of humanity, to be. Another one of the mediocre pleb masses mentally confined to a virtual cycle of pleasure-pain psychological tactics employed by corporate cucklords to get money from you and keep you tethered? Or would you rather be a part of, or the hero of your own quest, IRL, and go down in the history books? Hell, what if you became a mythic figure?

>TL;DR Don't know you, anon, but you can do much better than trapping yourself in the fishbox.

>>10272460
It is entertainment if you read it for entertainment.

On the other hand, you could read it as it is: stories that came from the minds of people who have experienced lives different from your own, full of breadcrumbs leading to the way the author may have felt about their family, an old lover, or their days in school. Their style is a cumulative syncretism(?) of their time period, their education, their intelligence, emotions, and even their frigging breakfast.

You could say it's "only" entertainment, or you could look through a combined assortment of anthropological and psychological lenses, leaning a little deeper into yourself and the rest of humanity. Perhaps you'll learn something on your travels inward.

I fucked up. I moved around so much, all through childhood and into adulthood, and now I don't know how to build deep friendships. I don't know who I can trust to what extent, and I feel like I go into every relationship with this disgusting utilitarian attitude of "how much value do I put in at what level of vulnerability or risk to myself to encourage the other person to invest a similar amount and keep us stuck together". I don't know how to just hang out anymore.
Life was easier when I was in high school and had no personality, now I'm just a bitch.

I'm gradually coming around to the idea that rights aren't real. Human rights, natural rights, property rights--it's all a fiction. There's more evidence for the existence of God than the existence of rights.

what's on your mind

>>10271715
university and school is primarily for preparing you for the real world, can you imagine yourself in a few years looking back on your time now, your few current years in school compared to your many after, and say I wish I did this that or what differently, that you will not be able to do after school?

>>10272702
Wow man so edgy and clever hehehehehehehehehehehrhrhehehebebebehehrhehrhrhehehehehehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheh

Fug urshelf

>>10272672
anything that doesn't quite directly contribute to you making money or knowledge for life better is only entertainment

>>10272299
You sound like a very ineffective person who’s principles don’t line up with their actions. I can’t stand people like that.

>>10272205
You're right man, thank you so much. I will talk to my girl. Have you had a similar experience by any chance?

I don't want to think about the word "poontang". Why does it sound so good

>>10272942
Yeah i should sit down and make a plan. Its frustrating because although I live in a large city its like im living in a small town.

Cope with the cringes of the past by dissociating and assuring yourself that you don't matter in the grand scheme of things. That's totally healthy.

Kill me.

>>10273246
Are there really many things you could be doing that you could not do after? Is what I meant, you shouldn't get so bummed out because maybe you are doing so over nothing, fear of missing out, but really everything you can think of that you can miss out on, is possibly to likely accessible after you finish school. What are the things that are bothering you though, mainly about friends? parties?

I'm trying to accept that I am a generally happy dude with a pretty sweet life.
I feel that the climax, the excitement has already passed me by during my childhood, and that the rest will be a meaningless grind, or at the very least, very uneventful.
This isn't even that bad, just a strange thought that I have, and I'm not totally sure how to deal with it, or if I even need to deal with it.

I think I should write down my ideas in a blog, not because they are noteworthy, but because sharing and discussing what's on my mind regarding politics, philosophy and my general interests might be a good method of keeping me entertained and motivate me to finally read hard and lengthy writers. I know I'm lazy and I fear criticism like everyone else, but doing nothing won't help me in the long run.

>>10272089
You say you have "attempted" suicide, but have you really?

>>10273401
never really tried

>>10273390
>I should write down my ideas in a blog.
Do it then. You have nothing to lose but time, but if you enjoy yourself doing it, then it isn't a waste.
>fear criticism like everyone else
Sticks and stones, anon, sticks and stones.

How can I overcome the triviality of the things I do?

>>10269205
check that french book about the algerian war or smthing

Doesn't anyone else want to be great any more?

>>10273421
don't people from /lit/ have blogs or something?
I just want to see what's the general take on this.
I'm not a literary man, my motivation isn't to become some writer, I just want to debate ideas.

>>10273870
Most find it impossible to be great in this 21st century world, or at least be great in the sense of a Napoleon, Vanderbilt, Rockefeller, etc.

>>10273531
Either find something to make it all worth it, like a love or a job you love, or come to terms that very few people do something they feel important in, and either change, or be at peace.

They way I see it is that people are waiting for some "Deus ex Machina" and it never comes, and they die feeling unaccomplished.

>>10273870
I feel as though it is too late, and I've been too corrupted to become someone who can bring light into the world. God alone knows I am trying to change. Perhaps I don't want it, deep down in the unconscious mind. Maybe I don't deserve it. Maybe I can't see the light anymore.

My life is fucking fucked, I will NEVER get all this shit done on time and nobody cares about me except for my work output. FUCK! Why did I take on so much?

>>10273870
I think that deep down everyone has that spark that calls to them to be great, but the lengths and suffering that come from this is something that not everyone can go through. Of course it's not in the nature of everyone to have the strenght to endure that either.

The world we are living is exhausting and requires many people to get to either the highest of human values or the lowest of them in order to be recognized or inspire others, since it's not enough to be above average. We have to compete with a system that has so many distractions and were people are out there trying to obfuscate others so much that in the end I think most give up, and that's senseful for the most part.

I don't think that many people who are midway to greatness realize it, it's only when they reach it that others mention it. I don't think Goethe or Napoleon realized they were great men until they were near the top. Narcisim might be the number one enemy of our times.

>>10273989
To many people, the urge to pursue everything they can is constantly pushed by society, and I've found that living within your means is the best thing you can do. Will you look as "attractive" to most others? No, probably not, but at the end of the day, you only have yourself, for better or worse.

>>10273870
Nope, sorry. The market for greatness is too flooded that nobody can be great anymore. Pack your things, let’s get out of here.

>>10273941
No. No, I can't. I can't bring light to the world. It was never about that anyway; my reasons are always something vague: a strange darkness on the ocean, a solitaire cloud in the night sky, that blind point between your eyes.
I'll manage, I'll fight and it doesn't matter if I die or live -for life and death come to us all, and they don't forgive.
I'll just continue with myself. Corrupted as I've become. I'll just keep going, like the sun and the moon, like the stars and the emptiness (space). Just like you, and just like me.

I feel like the way I behave in real life and my "anonymous persona" are starting to become two conflicting parts of my personality.
When I post on 4chan I'm extremely radical and edgy but in real life I try to control my autistic retardation and keep the extreme shit controlled, this has led me to think that either of these ways of expressing myself is fake, and I tend to believe that my internet self in some way must be the more sincere one. Am I retarded? Should I stop browsing this place?

>>10274476
You forgot the reason and objective of this site.
Shitposting.
Just realize and understand when you are talking sincerely as opposed when shitposting. This also applies to when you reply to a shitpost. If you reply to a shitpost you are shitposting even if you meant what you said

>>10274549
>If you reply to a shitpost you are shitposting even if you meant what you said
>wonders if this is a shitpost
sauce?

>>10267383
Being lied to when you know the truth, and the one lying to you knows you know the truth shatters yourself. This is without a doubt, the worst feeling in the world.

Why?

Why speak untruth into the universe? That which is not true cannot sustain existence, because its very birth is a falsehood and deceit.

>>10267383
Make me

>>10272675
Yeah i know this feel...
Grew up under 10-15 different roofs from 0-18. I made some friends here and there but either A) I began to resent them or B) they began to resent me, usually took less than a year before i never see them anymore

Ive always been contentious and difficult but now im all alone. Except for my brother. I dont have a job and money is running out and I know i need a job but im terrified of meeting other people

On top of being depressed and never getting sleep i just want out. My lifes been a shit show from the beginning, my bipolar isnt going to cure itself, and im just wasting. Burning for nothing. I once legitimately thought i could be useful for the world now I just hate them. Family members tell me oh anon youre a freethinker but sometimes your thoughts lead you too far... yeah because i dont believe in god? Because I read and dont watch tv to cure my desperation for life? Because I exercise and give a fuck about my life?

I always feel like other people bring me down, and 9/10 times im right. Most are pathetic slaves whom i genuinely hate.

today i reread some stuff i had published and it made me happy because it was actually good. it's really apparent in retrospect that it was of higher quality than the dreck i've been writing recently. i need to work harder.

also i've started to see that most of the internet is now being used for propaganda either by the extreme right or the center left. it's honestly hilarious once you pierce the veil a little. the solution is to stop going on the internet as much. normally that would include 4chan but i only have about 5 minutes until my wife finishes making dinner so i might as well dick around a bit.

>>10274607
everything is a shitpost

*hears screams* *hears giggles* truly life is a nightmare for a man who is awake
Sleep is good, death is better and best is to have never been born at all.

>>10274701
I think you're mostly right, but in my own experience the propaganda on this site is really hilariously bad, so it's easier to see through. On other sites it's more subtle and better crafted. Slicker.

>>10274078
I'm not chasing money, I'm trying to create an existence that maximises meaning but also let's me make a living. I've bitten off more than I can chew and letting everyone down, but I have a hunch that I can pull it all off soon and getting everything done. Then things will be better than they were. Just this transition phase is like a trial by fire, I'm scared I won't make it. I'm scared I'll collapse soon.

What we call life is nothing more than a consentual hallucination that people who are not classified as "schizophrenic" agree upon. The other folks see the world for what it is, hell.

i am a threat to myself and others

>>10274961
So the world is hell unless you believe it isn't? Interdasting...

>>10274961
You're a fucking moron

>>10267383
I just watched Jungle and somehow I now can pinpoint why I'm attracted to survival stories, it's the sheer force of will against all odds, the sense of real heroism with a struck of dumb luck, the feeling of really being alive it's something most of us will never understand because we haven't faced the abyss, we haven't slayed the real monster which is our own fear, we will never feel what it is to be alive we will just go on with our mundane lives like automatons taking everything for granted

Where is the pope?

Im going to kill the pope.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAv48Ne5axA

>>10267383
sex, power, violence, society, apes

>>10275570
and conspicuous consumption

>>10267716
>>10269909
i'm over 40, i fap to porn daily, fuck my sweet wife any chance i get and i'm still aroused enough by random qt3.14 encounters that i have to squirm to readjust my penis inside my pants
am i a fucking animal?

>>10269068
>We
kek

>>10269205
you mean like william burrough?

>>10269611
>>>/bant/

>>10269300
words words words

>>10269880
do it and report back anon
yolo
keep writing
godspeed

>>10269888
sensiblecringe.jpg

>>10269920
can relate
that's exactly why my life was so comfy in china when i still couldn't understand anything around me

I was linking Rothfuss's Goodreads profile to someone so they could see how awful he is and noticed he spells "role-play" incorrectly on his own bio.

>>10269922
>camera roll
>deleting pictures
???

i haven't open a book for years and the last time i did i just looked at the pictures

>>10274549
>You forgot the reason and objective of this site.
>Shitposting.
Fuck off back to Ribbit. You're the cancer of this site.

I'm 27. I'm starting a new job soon so I'll have money again and I want to save up for college but I want to do something I'll enjoy like studying history, literature, or philosophy. I hate the American school system and its drain on cash and encouragement of debt but I can't go anywhere else I'd like to, and I honestly don't want to leave behind everything I have.

I hate all of this.

>>10274961

yes

>>10273324
Thanks lad. No i dont really have agonizing problems

>>10275787
you like to complain
so there's that

>>10272647
I'll mull your point anon, but I am much younger than that, and WoW is presently nowhere near as grindy as you think it was. Everybody I've asked alleges that taking a character to the maximum level (now 110 without the latest expansion) takes a total of 8-10 hours, which can take a weekend playing temperately. I would maybe max a few toons while consuming some audiobooks and then hopefully get bored and resume my reading, assuming I even stop reading at all

But it's this thinking I'm nervous will lead me to lapsing into overplay again. I used to play Runescape which is possibly the grindiest popular MMO trafficked in the west, I am recurrently addicted to skinner boxes

>>10275936
>dude you dislike being compelled into debt slavery, uhh, whiner much?

>>10275608
thanks lad

>>10276083
just leave that fucking failure of a country desu

>>10276083
>>10275787

>I moved to germany when I was 15
>got higher education for free
holy shit, yeah. This is actually why I stayed. The american system is fucking insane. People look horrified when I explain why it's so bad. Shit, a couple years ago they tried to implement student costs for universities and millions of people marched against it until they got rid of it again.

My school had a 500 dollar per semester thing going on, but even that got exed because my family was poor.

I'm sorry, but america is fucked up. There's no reason to exclude people from a better future like that.

Should I tear out my eyes now? *beep*
A passage of time sludges on my skin, sinks into the bone, and crumbles through the gut.
I forget who I am. Who cares. Why?
Forget it. Where's nobility? what nobility
A permanent fixture would bring some ease. Maybe the Statue of Liberty. IT at least makes you think it's all permanent.
I wonder what she's up to. I wonder if I wonder that.
columns of red, marching to the tune of the bleeding machine.

>>10275754
ur dumb

>>10267383
I hate myself for being so lazy, arrogant, careless, insecure, tasteless.

>>10275587
no you're a fucking liar

>>10271400
any results?

I find it hard to believe how dopamine addicted our society is. I quit social media/reddit a few days ago and only spend about 15 minutes/day on 4chan. My attention span and motivation have already increased immensely. Dopamine addiction is in my opinion one of the biggest causes of depression, we find ourselves mindlessly browsing or scrolling websites, clicking on popups and whatnot. No wonder most people can't even read more than 10 pages in a single sitting now, nothing really satisfies you anymore when you're desentisized to everything that isn't porn or social media with it's pop up sounds. If any of you reading this struggle with lethargy and depression, take a close look at your internet habits and try to change them. Not saying that it will help, but it could be a source and will most likely be a factor in your mood. Most people I know that are depressed also spend their days like this, because it's easy, just a quick dopamine fix. Don't be one of them.

>>10274953
Well if you're not chasing money, then it makes it all the easier for "maximizing" your life, although what your maximizing and my maximizing is much different. To solve your bloated schedule problem, I would suggest sitting down and taking a very long time to organize and collect your thoughts.

If you want confirmation, I can't genuinely give it to you, as I have never met you, but it seems like you've been through hell already, so why stop now?

>>10267383
I have this chord progres sion -- on my acoustic Yamaha -- that just won't ring out right, I mean, it goes tang tang, tingling tang, dang dang, and something like a dum (muted) dum (slightly les s muted) and a sort of arpeg gio on the last tingling to bring it back, but the tingling does not work twice, that is, when I repeat the progres sion the tingling of an arpeg gio sounds much worse and this is not just because of the repeating of the progres sion, because the weird thing is that it sounds alright again on the third turn around, and that makes me wonder how that is so, how can a chord progres sion not sound weird the first time around, then sound weird on the second go, and then, finall y, on the third go sound alright again and even interesting insofar as it allows itself from being a third repetition within a span of something like thirty-six seconds -- and all things considered, disregarding the chord progres sion as a whole, my problem has expanded itself into every other daily thing I have to do more than once, so, for example, when I spo on my oatmeal cereals in the mid-mornings (admit tedly, almost no on, the sun takes a slow rise into thick covers of clouds these days, very autumnal) the second spo onful of the go oey mas s, well, I have to put it down, it does not want to enter my mouth so I put it back into the bowl with the rest of the oatmeal to once again dig into it and bring the third spo onful up to my mouth and it goes in, it takes to the tongue to leave the spo on free of oatmeal -- only a slight clanging of te eth against the metal (I despise the sound in others when they bite into the spo on completely unconscious of the act) -- and if it was only when playing my acoustic Yamaha Western guitar and eating oatmeal in the late mid-mornings, I could cope with the inconvenient nature of it all, but when it extends into my every action throughout the day, I am now very conscious of every single action that I take that -- in the case of repetitions -- I should have a second and third op portunities, I have to take account of that, and sometimes I write it down, like I am currently doing (and it bears me great pain to write words like let ter where there's a reocur ring let ter, because I think of it al l the time)

>>10269880
>luckily i have had sex multiple times and I'm not a total autist otherwise I would've off myself a while ago.

If you'd actually had sex you would realize that it isn't a big deal, and that not having it is definitely not something to off yourself about

>>10270671
>>10277410

>>10267383
I just want to get a job.

>>10269920
this is deep as fuck

>>10272399
Anyone knows about this? i havent write anything since then.

>>10267383
I'm afraid I'm not good enough at my current role

>I have a total of 3 years experience and took a role that required 10 years
>I'm simply not good enough in this role right now and I'm lazy as fuck and don't really try hard anymore because I've given up
>I suck as an employee and I am lazy
>I can complete my job and do my projects correctly but honestly i suck and maybe i do have imposter syndrome but I see the way i get treated t work in my dept

The people who have done this for over 10 years they actually get treated well and I'm sitting on my ass being a piece of shit

>>10267383
Everything I've done in regards to improving my life (working out, getting into grad school, improving social skills, reading literature and philosophy) is secretly based on a vague plan of one day winning over my qt oneitis who rejected me

>>10277541
can you record the guitar progres sion?
vocaroo.com

Between my old fanfiction, my novels, my short stories, and my poems, it's possible I have written a million words of storytelling in my lifetime. Yet I still feel like I have so much more to write.

I hate coming up with ideas and then immediately dismissing them because of their immaturity
I hate having a more refined critical sense than creative sense
I hate how I can pretend to have a refined critical sense just by emulating other people's snobbishness
I just want to imagine a school without grades dammit wouldn't that be cool

>>10278481
whats the job? And why would you expect any different from people doing the job 10 years to be treated well, and you just recently doing the job you have -7 years needed experiencing on, complaining of being aware to not be performing the job perfectly, to not be celebrated as much as them?

Dear European whites. And I specify "whites," because, whatever you say about le 56%, you're on the same path, except you're disarmed. You have no recourse. Do you really think you're getting your women un-raped, or your country un-Islamized, by dogpiling on other whites who are being subjected to the same thing that's making
your people into a Smithsonian exhibit 20 years from now? There's a reason the 56% thing exists, and it's the same reason your countries are turning into rape-a-paloozas, why London has a Muslim mayor, why Germany's chancellor keeps letting in thousands of jihadis, etc. You think you're somehow winning with this? You fucking
dolts, you're all equally as fucked as any of us, and instead of weeding out the root cause, you turn on your OWN. My fiancee was right when she said not all whites deserve to live. You're WORSE than race traitors and
coalburners, you know the TRUTH and use it to do what? Wage bizarro pissing contests to see who's the most cucked? Laugh at one another while your entire race across the world slides into oblivion? Good job, you're really
"redpilled," except you're too chickenshit to organize and rise up as a people to preserve yourselves, and feel safer taking potshots at each other than deconstructing the ZOG you bemoan here 24/7. 56% here should alarm you, not tickle you. We're at this point WITH firearms. Where do you see yourselves in a few decades without them? The time for fratricide and subverting ourselves was over a long time ago. Now it's too late.

>>10267383
This is it. This is as far as I go; I can't keep up with you. Don't wait for me -our paths intersected once, but they won't meet a second time. I'm walking towards the emptiness. Vertigo. I'm walking and there is no floor to step on; no air to breath in; no place to look at; only stillness. Sometimes I see the faults of this perfect design (which only erratics recognize) but it doesn't last. It just doesn't last, it doesn't make any sense.
And I'm still walking. Walking in a maze. A labyrinth made of words, made of gazes and implicitness, and made of you. It feels as if I'm still outside it -on that beautiful door some people call desire, just gazing at the shadows of your corridors- but I know this to be a delusion. I'll try to turn left on every corner -they say this way you can get to the center of any labyrinth.

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My mind is set free of its prisons by psychedelic experience; my mind is on drugs. Drugs are on illegal grounds; my physical body moving on lawless land, seeking chemical alteration not scheduled by the prison architects. Freedom rests on my mind, my mind on freedom; freedom is illegal.

>>10277009
no i'm not

>>10278506
stop that shit at once young man

>>10278772
tl;dr

>>10267383
I dreamt of her again a few nights ago. For a reason or another I was suppose to go visit my parents back home and once I got off the bus I realized that I've forgotten something. Without a second thought I tried to follow the bus up the hill and ended in one of Kafka's attics but devoided of clearks and beurocrats. Just wooden stairs and the tiles from the roof. She was standing in the middle and every time I got closer she would inch away, ever so slightly, awkwardly as my presence would somehow embaress her. I reached my claw like hands but couldn't touch her and then as suddenly as I got in the attic I had woken.

I'm addicted to antihistamines, weird

>>10278876
shoot yourself

>>10279368
kino post

>>10279507

Me too. Dyphenhydramine is no joke, really. I had to take it because of poison ivy one time (I break out in hives for days not the normal blisters and stuff) and I've been taking it to go to sleep for four years now.

Admittedly, I've really slowed down my consumption. Used to take three or four a night and shake and shiver because of the muscle spasms driving me crazy. Now it's better. I couldn't imagine taking a ton at a time. Your muscles feel like they're insanely restless and you just need to rub them.

Each time I've tried to completely go off them I suffer withdrawal symptoms. It's crazy.

>>10278768
I tried to go to the webpage you prescribed, vocaro o.com, but it won't work and I only get an er ror when I type it in (likely related to my typing disease) and then I thought to myself, hm m, I don't actual ly have anything to record my acoustic Yamaha Western guitar with in the first place.

>>10277545
>If you'd actually had sex you would realize that it isn't a big deal, and that not having it is definitely not something to off yourself about

its not a big deal but I was writing what was on my mind. Why would I lie about having sex on the internet? i wasn't expecting anyone to reply to my post if we're being honest.

>>10267383
There's so much shit to do

>>10279607
I took 300mg of it once but I didn't get any hallucinations, was disappointing. I think you need to get up 700 mg or so before you get delirious.

>>10267383
I want to be selfish with her but at the same time I can't. It will ruin her.

>>10279746
Good taste in waifus bro

I hate this fucking country and I dream of leaving it since I was a kid but I have nowhere to go.

I’ve always wanted to create something specifically music, but I find it infinitely difficult to separate my influences from my output. Furthermore my “output” is non-existent because of a mixture of laziness, periods of numbing daily life taking control of my activities, and self-esteem telling me anything I create couldn’t possible be good. Recently I’ve started writing without thinking too much. They are short pieces of what I think is important written mostly without a real structure. I cannot waste my time worrying if they are worth my energy, I just have to keep going.

>>10267383

Can you truly write "what's on your mind" or is it just an illusion

>>10280093
How Can This Thread Be Real If Our Eyes Aren't Real

Best and relatively easiest language to learn? I'm not going to start a new thread when this is probably asked every other day

>>10280345
English

>>10267383

All I want to do is make my games but I have neither the space nor the time nor the money nor the help for it. They would have been really good, but instead I guess I'll leave no mark on the universe except as a repository for other people's bullshit. The universe doesn't tend towards justice. I will never be vindicated.
Fuck everything.

>>10280353
can't tell if subtle jab at my post or not

>>10280358
what kind of games?

>>10280369
why do you want to learn a language? Purposes? To teach english in that country? To travel to that country and be able to speak with those people? To become a translator someday at an embassy or delegation or airport or something? To read works in their original? Because you want to impress people and theres nothing better to do and people that speak multiple languages have a vague amount of auto respect?

Was corn naturally selected to have the popcorn ability or was that just (((coincidence))) lucky feature?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDqFkQRIqTU

wit is the brevity of soul

just killed my mum
fancy gud dai

>>10280491
>*my mum
*me

>>10280030
and then one day you'll be too old to do anything about it

>>10280472
is popcorn just like a fast motion version of frying an egg?

>>10280485
Brevity; soul of wit.

>>10280530
soul est le vwit of la brevité

>only 40gb out of 1tb hdd space left
>only have my OS and porn on this pc
>know that I will have to spend at least 5 hours to sort through everything and delete that stuff that I wouldn't fap to anymore. Being a porn addict is hell.

>>10280369
It's really a jab at you asking such a silly question, expecting any two people to agree upon the answer.
Learn Chinese, though not easy, it ought to be useful in the coming decades as the world slants to their rule. Knowing good recipes for dog would also help.

>>10280530
>>10280563
wit is cool

>>10280589

Post pics of folders

lil peep will most probably come to be seen as a more relevant poet than anybody on /lit/, and nobody will prove me wrong itt
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poetry is gay anyway

>hate people for being stupid
>go to a shitty college and satisfy myself with the idea I'm here only because I don't care
>hate my peers for not being stupid enough
>hate myself
fuck

>>10280718
kekek

>>10280658
>be seen as a more relevant poet
Post choice lyrics

I want to live in absence of compromise without consigning myself to hermititude.

127 IQ: god to brainlets, brainlet to gods

>>10281127
Nice GET

I CANT FUCKING READ MORE THAN FUCKING 10 MINUTES A DAY

I WISH I FUCKING COULD BUT I FIND SO MANY MORE INTERESTING THINGS TO DO LIKE READING POL OR LIT

FUCK BEING A BRAINLET JUST KILL ME GOD

I WANT TO READ BUT IC ANT

>>10281127

>>10281142
dang, you too man, kek must be with us, Praise!

>>10281143
read outloud, try audiobook (people complain about them, but if you aren't going to read at all at all, than while doing other things is better than nothing, maybe it will motivate you to pick up the book and read along

I became fevered and chilled. I thought I was just sick and overworked. A strange light entered my room at an angle that I believed at the time must have been the moon. But it frightened me because it was so bright and because of how it seemed to move up and down while slightly changing the angle so that it shown on my wall and dresser. The light also faded and grew in intensity, which I assumed was clouds passing by the moon. At the time I was too exhausted to check what the source of this light was and all I could do was try to dismiss the fear that it was not the moon at all. I realise it sounds like something I should post on /x/, but because of my scepticism, I'd rather approach the incident as simply something I need to vent about in order to have any absurd theory invalidated. I'm sure it is explainable, but the timing with the strange illness that passed within two days as though a flu and the fact that I was incapacitated for those two days makes me wonder if what I saw is even worth investigating. I'm about ready to pinpoint the date and check for the position of the moon at this point, and I'd rather not even have to prove to myself that it was just a weird trick of light or that I was seeing something due to an unknown illness - mostly because either will leave me with that weird suspicion that it was neither, that it was other.

[Feels good to finally not hold this back anymore, even if it is only here.]

>>10269949

FUCKING WEW lad, second one was very cringy. I'm sure it will impress prepubescent members of antifa though

Aside from the cringe derived from forcing the reader's hand in making him assume that this is the authorial interpretation of today's political climate, more cringe drips from the very simplistic moral dimension of your characters and the predictable actions that follow. It really is terrible. And the writing's just as choppy and infantile as your characters.

Haven't read the first one in its entirety (only a few paragraphs), but your writing style and rhythm are much better right off the bat.

Indolence is slowly destroying me

>>10280448

Vidjya. A shmup, an on rails 3d shooter that's sort of a panzer dragoon alike, a technical swordfighting game, a black powder shooter, and a survival horror puzzle game.

jesus christ wheel of time is so amazing i wish it was 40 books

I would have never attempted to read this anons >>10269949 writing if it wasn't for this anons >>10281327 review

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAv48Ne5axA

Is this a good performance?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvN2dZFROYM

>>10281865
sounds awesome, do you know anyone with computer technability or have you ever asked around on is it /g/ or /v/, sounds real cool and interesting, lots of variety and aspects, a unique meshing of artistic and scientific proportions to create your grand work, it should happen

>>10282493

I have everything I need except a sprite artist, in principle. I dunno how I would ask on /v/

>>10282481

>>10282499
Wish I could help, maybe with any story line, or character, I really like the large range of mixtures of styles of game play and conception, usually with games or media, entertainment, etc. I enjoy a large variety and display and amount of different things and ideas, like why not have a pacman type game, or mini games in the rpg and have graphic novel and myst like deep games and final fantasy like exploring and grinding and maybe cut scenes, and maybe abstract experimental stuff too, I just like that you have a large array of ideas that you believe you see can successfully fit together into something worthy and great, and thats cool

>>10282515

I hate whatever phenotype that is. Is it German? Repulsive.

>>10282515

>>10282519

I'm excited for tomorrow. I've worked a shitty degrading job for so long it almost crushed my spirit, but now I actually have the opportunity to make a substantiated income and it's exhilarating.

I've also finally gotten back into writing an the TV was the bane of my existence. It's so easy to sit there and passively consume content that it utterly dominated my life, and just sitting quietly listening to the hum of my fridge is so much more stimulating. Now I go for walks, I touch some leaves, I even eat hamburgers instead of just sitting pounding whatever nonsense I could find into my noggin.

I hope I can write something while I work at this job because writing is my passion in life, but I've accepted that I need to be humble enough to consistently work at it. I'm never going to be Hemmingway, particularly if I never practice. I just want to have my name on something, and to have a legacy. Writing seems to be the way to do that, so I need to put it at the forefront of my life and create something worth remembering.

>>10282519
I think she is rare looking tending towards positive

>>10282519
Heres another performance of hers, 2 or so years ago, what do you think? She starts at: 37:54
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqwCYUbS2Y4

Being alone all of the time becomes very boring very quickly. I feel uneasy and energetic, but I also don't feel like doing anything productive.

>>10282481
damn this version has some things about it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BV0opTtWS6g


Last piece and im out, goodnight or morning yall:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLtqZewjwgA

i asked my doctor if i could be euthanized and she said no. made me even more depressed.

>>10282635
bye

>>10282638
later
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dK-HHwVVAB0

>>10282481
I think if the close white mic in the shot is in the mix it shouldn't be because its too close, might not even be though
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zEDnmGnYb6I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkUb0HKTU2w

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2JHxWqVarc

Allan watts was a hippy faggot

Life without emotions is not worth living.

The most painful feeling I've ever felt is when you realize that you love a group of people that can't stand you, to the point where you are told to either change or leave. I honestly haven't felt this bad in years. I've been in this situation before and I know that it won't really make a difference even if I am able to change, as people see what they already think of you. Either that or I just can't change so I should just leave now to not drag out the inevitable. The problem with departure is that it's the cowards way out, and will only confirm to them that I am all that they thought me to be, never going to change, and that I refuse to believe.

I never really fit into the bourgeoisie. You’d think that I’d become more accustomed to it as I aged, but the opposite is true. With every passing day I grow more embarrassed to sit in their trendy cafés, walk their pleasant streets, hear their limp-wristed conversations. “Oh, woe is you. Truly a tragedy that you should grow in such grotesque wealth. If only there were a way to relieve you of the burden that is wealth?”
Yes, I know. Not a very pitiable situation. While I’m entirely capable of removing myself from my immediate capital (i.e. giving away my assets), the broader issue is not so simple. I cannot undo what is done, and I cannot choose another family. Not that there is anything wrong with my family in themselves, they’re lovely people. But to truly separate myself I would need to remove myself from everything I’ve ever known, which is a difficult thing to do at the tender age of 19. Not that I couldn’t if I was presented with more compelling difficulties, I feel quite equipped in fact. I have all the necessary deficits of proper social maturity and attachment, and a quite indifferent attitude to the concept of ‘home’.
The plan is to one day leave, though it probably won't be as swift and absolute as it is in my day dreams. I'll move to somewhere far away for some reasonable reason, and I'll see them every now and then. By then I'll probably have gotten over myself.

>>10267387
>I'm finally facing death

And you're going to fail. Death is not something you need to "face" or confront.

>>10267383
If It's Just Semen, Ask Nicely And All In Earshot Would Cum Running (Lit.)

~Simon Troy Cosgrove, STC

>>10273870
Other anon said it, market's flooded bro. And I really don't give half a fuck, life is so short.

>>10273353
do you ever create things?

>>10280755
Bother me, tell me awful things
You know I love it when you do that
Helps me get through this without you
You like attention, I find it obvious
She makes it obvious for me
She feels the tension
It's just the two of us, it's just the two of us tonight
Burn me down 'til I'm nothin' but memories

>>10280755
I had no one by my side
Till this pretty young white bitch hopped up in my ride
Took her to the crib and I show her how I die
Every night, then I wake up and I'm still fuckin' high
Lord why, Lord why do I gotta wake up?
More wine, more wine, baby pour another cup

I need to get back on track on tackling the important pieces of literature I was going to read, but I have been playing the S.T.A.L.K.E.R series and it's fucking tiiiite.

>>10280755
You know it's fucked when the pain feel nice
Cheap liquor on ice, nice
I'm tryna get you out my head tonight (tonight)
I'm tryna get you out my fuckin' life (fuckin' life, right)
Then we fucked, then she sucked me off twice
Then I left that bitch alone like I was right, fuckin' right (wrong)
In your thong smokin' strong outta bong
What the fuck, and I'm tryna make this song (ay, ay)
Young white prick, I get a kick out hittin' licks
Watch out I kick out yo bitch, just so I could cut my wrist
Bitch, I'm tatted out my shirt so I can't work, I make it flip
Pour my 40 in the dirt, then light my dutch and take a sip
I hear voices in my head, they tellin' me to call it quits
I found some Xanax in my bed, I took that shit, went back to sleep
They gon' miss me when I'm dead, I lay my head and rest in peace
I'm prayin' to the sky and I don't even know why

Oh, I don't think I can take this anymore
No, I shed the blood from my wrist on the floor
Oh, fuck is you talkin' bout my shit is dope
Play this shit when they put me in a hole
For eternity so they can reap what they sow
Oh, I don't think I can do nothin' but flow
No, I don't know what she be fuckin' me for
Oh, I don't know why you in love with me hoe
I keep amphetamines up in my coat
I'm in the zone, I'm all on my own

>>10282515

Thanks. This is everything I've bothered to write down about it so far, but I've thought about it a lot more of course: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1VmBvTAHyZQVpWgImzvc0r0y6X2ylMxddhpI69NzEz64/edit?usp=sharing

>>10284317

Disregard, that document glitched for some reason. Here are the full notes:

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1YxoMMIA81XLFDqgB-ZW1YnBcWBnAHEhNOTsl2sCCOL8/edit?usp=sharing

I stole pretty much all my ideas from Stargate SG-1

>>10279368
Books for these feels?

Anyone?

>>10271228
Sounds like a trick people came up with.

>>10267383
I want to throw all of my shit into the car, drive 2,000 miles to where you are, ring the doorbell and kiss you when you open it. I want to scare you in ge best way possible. I want to leave my life behind and travel the country with you, living on road and in wilderness, like we’ve dreamed about so many times. I want to make love to you atop the highest mesas under the brightest stars, in the still clear air of the open desert, reveling in the ecstasy we could be. We could be that oasis in the wasteland. I want to do this nonstop until we are tired and a little bit older, until we decide to settle down on a piece of land somewhere like you once told me you wanted to. I want to grow fruit trees and children, and chickens with you, until we’re two gross old farts who still love to fuck each other, and are ready to die.

Sorry I couldn’t stay and do all of that.

>>10283240
appreciate it, enjoy it, love, respect, cherish and honor your family

>>10267383
I quit my job to enrol into a grad school. Now I am having second thoughts after I got a better offer.
Then there is also the thought that I could be a Neet for sometime doing what I like. Decisions , decisions. The problem is whatever decision I take now will affect me for the rest of my life. The women who toyed with me are doing well for themselves. I don't really know how I feel about this.

Self improvement seems like I am chasing something that doesn't exist sometimes . Why did I have to quit smoking, marijuana, the other psychedelics that led to a mania. What would it have been like if I had remained permanently manic. Would they have thrown me in am asylum? What if I enter that state again, it's not very nice when you can't trust your own perceptions.

The most important thing that I learned about in the worst phase of my life, which has been the past 26 years, seriously, living through child abuse , having a warped sense of reality, not being physically mature until 25 (this one takes the cake) , is that I just have to remain cool and that's it. Just do my thing ignore everything else and stay in the zone. Do not be afraid of anything, hell I was robbed at knife point by 6 guys and I told them off while they were leaving all at the same time I hid my costlier cellphone from them. Most important of all - don't try to get into people's heads, they are fucked up, yes, even the "nice" ones.

>>10282540
All the best anon.

>>10285269
You sound like you're on the right track with your general vibe of self-reliance. But I study psychology and I get the hint that you are sublimating some lingering anxiety/unease into overdoing things, over-committing to your "fuck it, this is what I'll do from now on!" pronouncement in a way that will make it TOO strong, not soft enough to readjust later on.

I would recommend seeing a therapist or psychoanalyst who can talk to you and engage with your problems with you. It's good to be self-reliant but don't get closed off. Other people will show you sides of yourself and your problems that you didn't realise were there, and you'll get a more complete picture of your options in life.

I woke up at 1pm after solid insomnia til 7am. I roll over to the left and look through the crack in door of my bedroom (door is always 95% shut) and I see a flicker as if something passed behind the door

At first I thought I was just seeing something that wasnt real. Then I hear my front door opening, my front door is quite close to the bedroom. Blood flushes from my face. I live alone and i dont know anyone in this city. Instantly I flash back to about a month ago when at 3am I get loud obvious knocks at the door for about 5 minutes. In that scene I never answered the door, and when they left I heard an old beater car rev up and coast into the night

I was being robbed. Strapped to my
bed, the knife is on the nightstand next to my bed. I just have to reach without making any noise...

Deep mutter near the door: “scuse me.” I hope they dont know I am here. I hope they are ready to die. Im not afraid to murder

I keep seeing flickers through the crack in my door, yeah I was right. Multiple large males walking back and forth taking stuff out

I wake up and sit up. And creep towards my bedroom door knife in hand, shaking, chilled breath

No one. Dead silence.

This isnt the first time ive hallucinated without any drug use. Always paranoid. Sometimes I go through conspiratorial spells where I am sure someone is watching me and I sneak around my house for hours all alone checking the blinds to see if I can see them.

I now know they werent here this morning but now im not sure if I heard those knocks at 3am. I was sure of it. I was sleeping and it woke me up... same as this time... but I looked outside and saw the car drive off...

>>10285299
You might be right about this. What are my alternatives if I can't see a therapist , at least at this point in time. To add to my problems , all the self help related things focus on "positivity goddamit!" , Which might not be the best for me, this has led to some problems in the past as well.
Is there something I can read to make my decision making ability better? Anything else that could help?

>>10285341
I feel distant from myself, or the internal fragments left inside. I feel withered, shriveled. I know im losing my mind, but I simultaneously dont know it: the things I see are so real. Somehow I exercise and read and meditate and sometimes things seem ok and maybe it was just a temporary unhinging

But as the years go on I know what this is, Its not going to stop. Its going to keep harassing me and taunting me with petty belief, making me unbearable to witness. Ive started lying to my psychologist and I dont know why. I want to be stable so badly i guess

Even when things arent that bad I still find waves of clenching depression and this dying need to stop my world so I can feel suffering

All the medication ive ever been given suffocates me. I have a reoccuring nightmare where I cant scream. I wake up gasping for breath nearly choking. When i take medication I feel mentally suffocated, and id rather be unhinged than mentally suffocated. At least I can still feel

I want others around but I know they dont want to deal with me. The ups and downs and genuine confusion is exhausting. And i cant control it. Stuck again... like always

I have this fear, this constant fear. Not of dying. Of being forgotten.
I want to make my mark on the world, I want to be remembered. I tried and tried to be above the average but I always failed. I don’t want to die a nobody. I want to be something big, to be someone other people can aspire to. People tell me I’m good at acting, but I don’t think I’ll ever make it big in that business. My social life is also a mess, nobody reaches out to hang out with me, and I haven’t figured out why. Am I unapproachable? Am I ugly? Scary? Is it because I say stupid stuff in a vain attempt to make up the other persons day, and as a result they never take me seriously? I feel I’m just “that person” people know, but nobody hangs out with.
Something I always did like doing is making someone’s day, making them smile, making them laugh. Regardless if f wether they laughed at my joke, or just laughing at me and making fun of me. I didn’t care. They smiled/laughed they were hopefully feeing better than before. I just want to help people smile I think. Maybe I should try acting at some point... ya never know. Better than wasting a bullet and waking up the neighborhood atleast.

>>10267383
I can't see my mind, you drab ninnymacker.

>>10284397

Everybody Poops

>>10285939
What happened to your minds eye, anon?

I've posted in these threads several times about strange things happening to me, seeing things and hearing things and having dreams. Another one happened last month. At this point I'm not sure what it's all leading to.

I don't give a flying fuck about my English degree. I just want to make LP and comedy videos, get drunk on the weekends, and eat good food. Such is life. There is nothing else. I'm so glad I cut back on my drinking and took weed out of my life. I've honestly never felt better. I've been closer to my life since I decided to take it seriously.

Will I ever find a wife? I'm not sure I care anymore. Faced with a soulmate I would be sure to say "It's my career and my lifestyle or bust" and a lot of the women I meet these days don't seem equal to that uncompromising attitude. But I know that girls like that exist. I'm in my mid-20s' and still at university though, so who knows if anyone's gonna look my way except for a token "older guy" fuck. I wish sometimes I was still my pretentious old poet self who wanted to write the next great American novel but then I remember that all that exists now is the present and I have to pursue it non-stop. Que sera sera.

These threads have gone to shit. They are basically /adv/ now.
We used to post our insecurities and questions in a literary way. In your best prose or verse. And people would reply in the same way.
I used to role play a lot. Some anon would post something directed to someone and I would reply as if that anon was someone from my past that was directing it to me. The details didn't matter -they were never specified anyways.

>>10286813
You mean we're becoming less pretentious? Good.

>>10286824
Why would that have been pretentious?
It's an anonymous board. It's a thread that appeals to creativity. It was the last bastion of what /lit/ should be about.

>>10286828
I don't think insecurities nor questions should be "literary" when on a discussion board and not an actual work of literature

part me of finds the idea of joining military attractive because i feel like im too dumb to make any meaningful amount of money anyways; in the military maybe i will find some satisfaction. Then again, maybe that's complete folly

>>10286837
It's not folly, just join the Chair Force and stick to administration. Go in on a technical degree and you'll most likely be situated somewhere safe with a cozy little job. Worked for my sister.

>>10286773
this is the gayest thing I've read all night

>>10287008
no u

>>10287025
he's kind of right you now
you should eat a bag of dicks
just for the experience

Its kinda fucked up. Without any physical fitness I cannot do any work. I'm lacking any ID's and what's worse is that the parents I am leeching off are dying. There's no drive to work inside me and I see the world in black and white. I hate my father and I want him to die. My mother is pretty bitchy and every day I am losing any will to survive. Maybe I have delusion myself. Maybe I am tired of living this repeated loop. How many days it has been since I stood up from bed with a smile on my face? How many days has it been since I felt alive?

Everyday my chest gets heavier. I want to live my life and be a good young man but I found that hard. Maybe there's something wrong with me or that I am huge gigantic coward. It has been four years since I started locking myself.

I convinced myself that I can be a good writer but its obvious that I failed. You can see it through this writing of mine. I hate everything and even if I do work my ass off. What next? I don't want to start a family because my doctor told me that there might a chance that my children would caught my disease. I don't want to see my child suffering from gangrene, screaming as needles poke their skin.

My hands are small and fragile. I always insult myself and even I grew to accept my shitty self yet I am unable to stop feeling.

Fuck, what I should do?

Never been this happy in my life.

>>10282540
I like this post, your motivation has rubbed off on me. I'm so happy i don't have cable anymore. I'm watching sports less frequently too - oh man, i used to spend an entire Sunday just fucking sitting there, watching football. Or an entire night after work with baseball in the background while I fucked around on the computer. Loving sports is just fine, but that amount of passivity is unhealthy.

>>10285568
You sound like a good dude
>Maybe I should try acting
Do it. Actualize your will

>>10277410
Could you please elaborate more?
This is very interesting. I've been dealing with depression for some time now, but when it was at it's worst point was when I spent a lot of time on the internet. I tried to google dopamine addiction but all that came up was how dopamine was related to drug addiction. How can I lower my dopamine levels except for quitting social media? Also this does and doesn't make much sense..isn't dopamine the neurotransmitter that is responsible for happiness? Doesn't lowering that lower our happiness? Can you please link some articles or talk some more about this, thank you in advance.

>>10288763
first of all i recommend the subreddit /r/nosurf, it's not advocating not using the internet, but using it in a purposeful manner rather than just mindless scrolling and browsing etc. they have a useful wiki and a sidebar that will most likely answer your questions, but i'll still try to.

>how can i lower my dopamine levels except for quitting social media

social media is a big factor, though i don't know how much time you spend there. try to cut down on it as much as possible. asides from that, mindlessly browsing reddit/4chan/etc. try to use these sites with a goal in mind (researching something, looking for a certain topic etc) instead of just going there by default because you're used to it. i installed an app on my phone called "space" which enables you to add a delay before opening apps (i chose reddit and 4chan). i realized how often i just tapped on those without actually having a reason to, just out of habit. mmo's can also be rather damaging, they are basically shiny skinner boxes (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operant_conditioning_chamber)) which stimulate your reward circuits extremely. and last but not least PORN. quit all porn, masturbation is fine (don't fall for the nofap meme)

>isn't dopamine the neurotransmitter that is responsible for happiness? Doesn't lowering that lower our happiness?

you might be feeling a bit down or even depressed when quitting cold turkey, though the brain starts craving dopamine and you'll get it from other sources, reading a book, completing your coursework, going for a run etc. that's kind of the point, getting pleasure from things again, i too suffered from anhedonia and still have it from time to time.

as for literature, you'll find a lot on the /r/nosurf sidebar, but i still looked for some studies (there are literally tons of them, but these should do):

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4538113/
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4600144/
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3480687/

>>10289049
thank you so much for the effort anon, really appreciate it

>>10267383
someone please ban me for a week so I can finish grad school apps

>>10287796
Okay? Sounds like you went from reason to rage pretty quick there, bud.

I have no reason to be sad, but I am. I tell everybody that I'm ecstatic to be alive and sometimes I believe it. My mom and dad want to know about my life and I wont let them in. I'm afraid that I broke up with the girl that was too good for me. I'm afraid I'm on the spectrum. I am terribly bored. I'm terrified that I have stagnated. I have so many people in my life that long to be around me, but I am lonely. I am waiting for something to just happen and change my life over night. An adventure. A novel. A tragedy. Anything. I'm afraid that the rest of my life will be like this.

>>10290668
You sound like a narcissist. S'okay, so am I.

>I am waiting for something to just happen and change my life over night
>A novel

Yeah, no. In fact, ditch this attitude entirely. Nothing worth pursuing is easy. Start putting in work, chump.

>>10286835
why can't discussion boards be an actual work of literature

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xc6-KozGK3c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZntL9Y7vcDM

>>10291296
Because you haven't published them yet, Tao

>>10290052
i tried that in one of these threads once, didn't work. if you really want a ban you'll need to go break some rules over on a board with actual mods.

>>10267383
Why do my attempts at being genuine feel disingenuous

>>10289049
This is fantastic info. If someone is feeling these things and realizes their use of the internet may be involved, yet they do not know of this information, it could lead to new realizations and perhaps a lighthouse amongst the storm for people who feel lost.
I know, because this post helped me.

>>10291394
Because you're attempting. I assume it isn't coming naturally. Being yourself with only light social masks is how you be genuine.
You also don't have to be genuine. You just have to be comfortable with what you are. Slide into yourself.

>>10291421
>SLIDE

>>10291310
>implying publishing is required for something to be an actual work of literature
have you ever read my diary baka senpai

>>10291445
No, and no one ever will

>>10291454
exactly
and it's still the best work of literature

>>10291462
prove it

>>10291467
I've posted several fragments of it in these threads

>>10291474
nothing sticks out in my memory as particularly good... sorry dawg, it's gonna be a no from me

>>10291479
plebs like you won't understand it
it's cryptic (like cortazar's rayuela)

>>10291495
Sorry dawg, it looks like it's a no-go, better luck next time.

my sharona

>>10291496
;_;
I still love you

>>10291547
I HATE YOU. I WOULD NEVER AGREE TO THIS NONSENSICAL SHOW IF I DIDN'T HATE YOU. FUCKING DIE. FUCKING DIE SO THE SOULS OF US JUDGES CAN BE REDEEMED. YOU GAY FAGGOT FUCK JESUS FUCK

>>10291553
b-but I'm Anonymous and you are Anonymous too
WHY DO YOU HATE YOURSELF

>>10291600
I HATE EVERY1

>>10291611
i love everyone

>>10291613
NO WAY U LOVE GARY GILMORE AND CHARLIE MANSON AND JESUS

>>10291615
YES, EVEN THEM
but I keep too little for myself
will you love me

>>10291617
IF JESUS LOVED EVERYONE THEN NO ONE ELSE NEEDS TO LOVE

GET READY FOR HELL ON EARTH

>>10267383
I feel like a fraud. I teach English but I've not written anything in years.

>>10291624
HE WHO TEACHES KNOWS NOTHING THEY'RE JUST TRYING TO RESTART THE CYCLE AND TEACH SOMETHING TO SOMEONE WHO MIGHT USE SOMETHING

YOU'RE FUCKING USELESS

KYS
KYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

>>10291621
YOU THINK I'M A PUSSY RIGHT? THAT LOVING EVERYONE IS LIKE BEING A LITTLE INOFFENSIVE KITTEN? GOD HOW MISTAKEN ARE YOU
I'M NOT AFRAID OF HELL, I'VE BEEN THERE BEFORE
i'm just asking for a little bit of understanding OF ACCEPTANCE

>>10291653
NEVER
NEVER
YOU ARE NOTHING TO ME

>>10291660
if you hate everyone then that means you only love nothing
if i'm nothing then you love only me
CHECKMATE MORTAL

>>10291665
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS NOTHING

EVERY THING IS EVERY THING

YOU ARE NONEXISTENT

>>10291668
oh but you or there is, alas there is
that darkness that's not simply the absence of light
that emptiness in your chest that's not just the absence of a soul
something far more terrifying than death
that is nothing
and you love it
YOU LOVE ME

A couple weeks ago, I began working on an amateur indie game, and made a lot of progress. I had grand visions, a basic sketch of the plot, over a dozen maps designed, and the movement code plus player sprite fully done. And then it immediately fizzled out. Now I couldn't care less about it. I kept the project a secret, worked diligently, and made some headway, but it went toes up and I don't really know why.