/lit/ - Literature

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>be me
>34 years old
>been depressed my whole life

>wake up one day
>"that's it. today's the the day i'm gonna kill myself"

>have an idea

>"i should do drugs first"

>go to teenager cousin's house because he's a druggie
>he gives me weed and teaches me everything i need to know about it

>i wanted to do this alone, because well, i was planning on offing myself that morning

>smoke it
>feel extremely happy for the first time in my life
>couldn't even feel sad, not even if i wanted to
>do all the things stoners say that feel amazing while high
>cry listening to All You Need Is Love
>sleep like baby

It was almost a spirtual experience.
And of course I did it many times after. Nevet got addicted. Never touched any other drugs (yet). I'll save that for when I'm very old.