/lit/ - Literature

I post about being lonely and tfw no gf and all that shit a lot but the truth is that a lot of my life is lived alone and wouldn't be the same with someone else with me.
I value stillness. What is most comforting and enjoyable for me are places with little human presence and little to do with human beings. If I had someone to share those things with, they would be spoiled by the presence of a social connection in what should be unstained solitude. When I'm alone I can focus on what's around me and forget that I'm a human being too, but with others I am forced to return to humanity.
And yet I still get lonely and crave intimacy. Not very often, but it does happen, and when it does it can be unbearable. There doesn't seem to be a way to resolve this conundrum.