/lit/ - Literature

iftar with a yuge stack of pancakes for the second day in a row. what a great idea, praise be to God.

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just convert already

mfw

salaam akhis

I think my closest friend is getting tired of my becoming more and more religious. He's more average modern progressive, I have reservations about in particular homosexuality. Maybe about power-structures relating to gender, although that might not be that important (I suspect it is by the empowerment of women that we get things like normalisation of all forms of sexual practices, although this is not really a religiously ordained position/idea). He had a series of experiences with religious people that have made him less and less tolerant, while I only become more religious. God is the very joy of my life, like no other. So... right now I am waiting to see if he'll call like he usually does or if we're drifting apart. I really don't want to, he's the person that I can really hang with out of the already few people that I know, but I can't back down. He'll have to decide if he wants to be close friends with a religious fruitcake.

I have to make a choice between two options. If there is a third option then I don't know it. The question is what to study this coming semester. I am building towards a degree in something, and the quesiton is: how big a part should the russian language have in this degree. Other than russian I have been studying political science, but more and more I feel like this is an imaignary subject, like critical theory or something. Having a degree in political science does not prove that you can DO anything. It does however, most likely I believe, afford a degree of job security, as I am from a country with a very large public sector. This is really why I am in polisci- I find it to be at least somewhat interesting, but moreso very safe. Now you might think "Hold on, I've seen movies since the 80s, I know you should always pick what you're passionate about over that which is safe!" and maybe you're right in the general case, but the complicating factor is that I have suffered from a fair amount of mental illness in my day, and I am probably more or less crippled permanently. Crippled in the sense that I will probably never have the mental energy to work full time. So in -my- case, maybe the dream of the 80s should die, and I should be happy with what I get. It's just that if I learned proper russian, then I would know like 3.2 languages, and that is actually something. I would know how to do something. The problem then being that the occassions to do that something might basically require me to work full time or more, which I think that I can not do. I'm finally getting in physical shape, and I am improving, so maybe this pessimism is exaggerated, but I have been more or less out of the game for 7 years now. Statistically I can not expect to recooperate.

Along comes another complicating factor: I am a muslim, and I live in a country where I'm not so sure Islam will be welcome in the long run. If I learn russian then I would probably be able to find work abroad as a teacher, and so I could emmigrate if I had to. With polisci this is not so much the case. So in the very long run russian might actually be safer. I feel like this all puts me in a very complicated situation.