/lit/ - Literature

>>12595516
Though I'm deeply upset with the sadistic direction this went into, hoping it would describe a kind and sweet feminine woman's fantasy to dominate a shy and cute submissive boy, I will say that your writing is genuinely impeccable and you should feel very proud of yourself. I hope you are working towards a literary profession of some kind, because you absolutely have the talent for it. On top of the character of your writing here, you used so many words here, so welI am deeply impressed if you wrote this just now, and didn't have it written earlier somewhere, or pulled it off the internet.

My only request is that you don't write such cruel fantasies anymore. Please put your gift to writing sweet stories about the first part - feminine ladies who want to dominate a shy and cute boy and show him such nurturing and affection like him, the sweetheart he is, has never received before. Yet absolutely does he deserve it, for being such a sweet boy. So many other boys are rude, and violent, getting into fights and hurting others, and making life harder for everyone. They live off p*rnographic imagery, highly disgusting in nature and also cruel towards women. But not him, the one you desire. He's a sweetheart. He never fights - he never has, nor will he ever. He never speaks meanly to people. Only words of kindness and positivity. He wants only to love the people around him, and care for and help everyone. Even when the world is mean to him, he does not retaliate with his own insults. He remains as sweet as before, but is naturally a bit sadder now. Nor does he watch any such disgusting media, finding it absolutely horrible in every way. But he's never had a girlfriend, or even held a girl's hand yet. He's so kind, but no girls around him seem to really notice him. They're still young, and their wild hormones drive them to men of the first variety, whom they find a thrill in pursuing, and desire to be desired by. And so our sweet boy goes unnoticed by most of the female population he's near to. But he didn't escape your eyes, no. You saw everything about him clearly - his kindness towards others, his sweetness of demeanor, the innocence he intrinsically carries, his slight fluster when around girls, who he's clearly and adorably not so easily capable of interacting with. All of these things you notice in him, and all of these charm you beyond anything you've seen in any boy. Those violent, primal men don't interest you, at all. They never have, only resounding as a lower-order species of human for you. You want the cute one. You want to enter his life, as the first girl who has ever saw and sought after him romantically, and to change his world. To hold him, and let him know that his sweetness is very acknowledged, and appreciated. To shower his face with a million kisses, especially when he's least expecting it, or feeling like he deserves it.

My letter-cap is reached, sorry. But please use your gift for stories like the kind above.

>>12535071
same, i wish I could be Killua from HxH so badly, and live in that world too. except not be gay (no offense to gay people)

I am truly tired of it all. My ADHD has sealed my fate in never being able to know "normal", in that I'll never be able to outwardly perform at the pace my peers do, or be able to dully connect with them due to the difference of the worlds we live in. I tried to ignore all this before - to pretend I was the same as any other and only making up artificial issues to feel different or special or whatever, but I can't do that any longer. I genuinely have a form of cognitive retardation, and I accept this now. I have also lost much hope in my "nurturing girlfriend" fantasies as ever coming true, and at this point just desire to detach from my identity and all the miseries it brings to me. I've had the idea of creating altar ego-characters that I write from the POV of, and basically making a fictional universe out of them. I think it'll be very fun, and hopefully the therapy that'll help me with the earlier problems. I was originally aiming to write stories for the enjoyment of it, but I procrastinated on that and now, returning to it, am doing it for therapeutic reasons, relating to my psyche and desiring to escape from the remembrance of myself (hence losing myself in other personalities). I hope it helps me, because I really have little else in life I presently want anything to do with.

I've also been pondering the existence of the material world, and how and why it exists when there are simultaneously far higher, more heavenly realms, which astral-travellers and the like have directly experienced. The problem of pain, especially. Why does pain exist at all, and especially so if it only applies to our physical bodies? I have absolutely no answers to these questions, and I'm aware myself to be an infantile tourist in my musings of such a long-standing problem, but it's really come to bother me lately. The notion of a "Demiurge" is something I've been seriously pondering.

>>12520818
I found myself relistening to HxH's OST as of a few days ago. Emperor's Time, Hyori Ittai, Nagarere Boshikirari, and a few others. The show is definitely overrated, and it's fanbase can be very pretentious. But it has many strengths, and I enjoyed several aspects of it. Killua is the main draw for me - he's such a real-feeling character and I desperately wish I could be a young boy again like him, so seeing him is like seeing an avatar of me on screen. Oh, how I wish I could go back to those days..