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going to see my doctor who gave me antidepressants which don't help for the first time in two months. I did AA for about two months and made sober friends and then worked 5 shitty days in a row and caved in and bought a six pack. I'm a lightweight but I abuse alcohol and marijuana. I haven't been able to stop drinking and smoking. Prozac actually makes me crave alcohol and marijuana more, and prevents me from getting too stoned, so I'm more "functional". Lately, I have been on kind of a reading and writing kick, and feeling more creative. I would like to stop taking prozac and welbutrin. I am afraid to stop. Also, sometimes I think I'm an alcoholic, and sometimes just a hard drinker. Anyone here ever read the Big Book? The funny thing, if I am an alcoholic, then I know exactly what will make me feel better. And it works every time. When I stopped drinking for two months, perhaps i should have given it more time, I was still antisocial and depressed. If I have to keep living in clown world, I might as well drink and smoke.