/lit/ - Literature

>>17328452
>24 this year
>5th year of Uni
>haven't passed anything since the 1st
>tried, got fucked over
>stopped trying
>started trying again; got fucked over again
>stopped trying entirely, paralyzed by fear
>got a last chance to pick up from where I left this semester
>half the time was lost on hospitals
>too afraid to move
>didn't study
>exam is 6 days away
>I didn't even sign up, because everytime I did I ended up messaging the professors to write me off because I wasn't ready
>waited until the last day just in case, maybe I'd read something (didn't)
>panic set in, went to sign up and figured I'd study 6 days and just try my best
>the Uni's websites are down
>if I lose this semester I won't be able to study the subjects of the next semesters because it's STEM and they all build up on one another
>staying with parents and they think I've been studying all this time, in my tiny room, and are expecting me to pass this time
>mfw
I just don't know anymore. I feel nothing. I want nothing but the ground to swallow me whole and this charade to stop. I'd say I can't take anymore, but, in all honesty, I'm apathetic towards it all. Life treated me like shit, and personally I'm also a shit, so what's the point? I am nothing. The world's going to Hell. Why am I even trying to finish a Physics degree? I'm nothing special. I've got no connections. What am I even doing here? I won't be revolutionizing science. I won't be able to contribute anything. I can't even get a "manual labor" job because I'm physically fucked all over from genetics and accidents. From wobbly knees to faulty backs. I'm balding. Braces ruined my jaw. My glasses make my large nose appear even larger. My stomach's fucked. I've been friendless for a decade. I'm obviously a KHHV. This is it. This is the end. There's no way to unfuck this.

Sometimes I wish my parents were dead so that I could off myself. But then it passes, and I don't care enough to do it, so... Eh. Fuck it. Just go with the flow, I guess...

>>10125178

>>9838387

>>9801236
>Ham is a terrible actor

>tfw 5"6 and scrawny as fuck
just fuck my bloodline up famalam

>>6532186
>tfw I spent 1000+ hours on my novel
>tfw Kim the Kunt made a book of her pictures, with no effort on her part
>tfw I'll never sell as many books as her
>tfw cunts do nothing and get richer and I work hard and get nothing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LicobnLuT2w

You'll never live a real literary lifestyle.

Your best isn't good enough.

Time to DFW.

Shit guys, I'm on the negative swing of my bipolar pendulum.