/lit/ - Literature

How does one deal with the aftermath of Kellhus. In the initialisation you are forcefully taught and humiliated through the eyes of the trapper but with time feel freed from your general metacognitive neglect and fetishised previous self-inflicted suffering. Yet you are human and not Dûnyain, I can now see how much of others and my own mind and will isn't my own yet I don't have the skill to overwhelm it but that sight is constantly there now seeing the self-harm.
I had read stuff like Lasch, Marx, Metzinger and thinkers that Bakker mentions before reading him but there's such a huge difference between simply having knowledge of something you can regurgitate over truly seeing it like I do now.
I feel cleansed and grateful but simultaneously have the eyes to see so much soot within myself and others, true soot, not the fake soot that I saw before.
Is there some way to deeply un-condition yourself and practice to overwhelm my parts that aren't me with whatever I am. The question what I am doesn't bother me anymore at all, that thought was soot. What bothers me now is my own conditioned behaviour, mind and will controlling me and the chains I see around all other people.

>50% Ketyai
>47% Dûnyain
>2.5% Royal Kûniüric
>0.5% Nonman
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