/lit/ - Literature

anna karenina. am i wasting time?

Realizing that success is generational from an objective standpoint really made me reconsider the way I live my life, but in a really bad way, because it made me realize that a lot of what I want to accomplish for myself is only stuff that will lead to it being passed onto my children, because it's impossible for me; and at that realization, collapsing into a state of shame for the amount of envy I have for other people around me that live the apex of perfection, already, knowing that if I want to ever achieve that for my children, it will be a lifetime's work to do so, and they will always bear the mistakes of my father and mother who brought me to be like this in the first place.

But that's only if I think about it objectively. But if I think about it subjectively, I just get really lost.