/lit/ - Literature

In my normal day to day life, I must put a lot of effort into to normal interactions with other people. When I'm at home alone I usually think about why I feel like an outsider and how everyone else knows how to act naturally in most situations. As a result of not being able to read people well and get into social situations I have never gotten romantically involved with anyone. I often contemplate about the meaning of my own life, why I am like I am, and if there is any greater meaning which I should strive for. Do you guys have any advice as to improve my state of mind?