/lit/ - Literature

Holy shit, I hate my body so much

Yeah, just waiting for a doctor's appointment at the end of the week. Kind of a big day for me. I've been having:
>Extreme muscle tension in my shoulders, phone neck
>Nerve pain in both knees
>Uneven balding
>Obsession with the idea that I might be trans
So I hope I can get a referral to a physical therapist and a gender therapist.

I've also been struggling with alcohol use and an anon suggested replacing it with phenibut, so I ordered some tonight, it's supposedly one of the quickest ways to relax yourself.

Work is okay for now, and I'm going to watch Serial Experiments Lain this week. Oh, and the Insurance company denied my claim for glasses replacement even though I made sure I had the benefits before I bought them, so I'm gonna have to call in

It's nice to be busy and distracted again

>>13791219
>>13791397
Slice of life animes produce me an intense feeling of nostalgy, not for my high school memories but for another plane of existance imposible to achieve where the ugliness and imperfection of mundane life have been purified and the characters ans his ideals have attained their absolute and sincere form. Yet this feels so fake and remote in contrast with the stark reality that I can't avoid melancholy. But for some reason I don't stop watching these shows, the sensation of "saudade" is addictive. Pessoa would be watching anime this days.

>>13482353
I feel you, fellow midwit. Life is hell when you can understand and appreciate intelligence, but are barred from experiencing it yourself forever, leaving you to rot at the fringes of intellectual society, merely observing and evying the greatness.

>>13483039
>took the RAVEN and another test at age 9 for giftedness identification, which was extremely inaccurate with my adult IQ due to heritability of IQ increasing dramatically with age

yeah, same here, fuck that shit. being raised well is a curse more than a blessing because it gives you a headstart in intelligence, deluding you into thinking you’re more than painfully mediocre, which makes the eventual realization that you’re but a pathetic midwit all the more soul-crushing.

>>12858645
Damn Anon, I love this quote. And what I love about stoicism ironically enough given the context of this thread is how it says reputation, glory and materliastic success are essentially all useless, only your present self and maintaining your principles and virtue in whatever environment fate has landed you in is all that matters.

OP here. I have a problem with drain flies. I have to keep killing them in order for them to not harm my family through sickness and uncleanliness, yet I feel great guilt in killing another sentient being. I can only hope I am not reborn in the hell realms for my transgression.

>>12371185
based and lainpilled

>>12289065
>>12289085
This right here is proof positive that /lit/ is nothing but psueds

>>12289057
The rundown is that it provides a very in-depth visual and literary representation on the nature of reality existing solely as a matter of perception and group-think, how 'objective' quickly fades away and is replaced by this as our lives become more ingrained with technology, and how all of it affects one's ego
The thing is that it also becomes increasingly open-ended and obtuse towards certain plot points, so this, combined with a general reaction to the '2deep4u fag' meme of the actually pretentious Evangelion and how Lain can actually be 2deep4u, means people write it off as pretentious naval gazing
A summary of the plot consists of pic related

An ambitious but weak-willed young man struggles with the cognitive dissonance between his failings in the material world and the high expectations and hopes he's placed on himself, drowning his depression with a lifelong internet addiction, which results in worse work performance. This creates a perpetual cycle of addiction he tries to overcome.

So I'd like to be a better writer, but beyond shitposting what are some good ideas on casual ways to practice? Some ideas I have to get you started:
>Reviewing albums, movies, books etc
>Documenting my dreams
>???

I'd especially like to get into creative writing and poetry, but have a hard time doing so.