/lit/ - Literature

>>18808671
As I get closer to finishing my book, the more afraid I am of doing so. It's my first full-length written work, I plan on making two more books after it and the first draft is about 65k words.

My biggest problem is I'm terrified to finish it. Mainly because when I put it out there, I already know that chances are it's not gonna get trad published, and if I self-published chances are it would go completely unnoticed.

I don't want extreme success, I just want it to be well like and received enough that maybe I could write as a part-time money boost or something.

Today is my birthday, and like the twenty-two birthdays preceding it, I don't know what the hell I'm doing with my life.

I have a job that barely pays the bills, a messy apartment that is a reflection of my life, crippling debt that keeps me down and a overall fear of trying to do something to get me out of this funk.

I want to go back to school, get a bachelors in something and get a higher paying job. The associates degree I did get though and the experience in which I went through holds me back. I know chances are I won't be bullied again, nor will I face half the issues that plagued me before, but the fear is still there.

I'd like to become a writer, but honestly I don't think I'm cut out for it. I'm sitting on a 60k book that I'm afraid to sit down, edit and publish in some shape or form since, deep down I want it to help get me out of my pit of despair, but I know that it won't. And when it fails I'll lose that little hope spot.

I don't know.