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despite choosing career as an economist I still want a formal education in philosophy, ontology and onto-theology. What do I do?

>>15002686
By age 8 I had seen hardcore pornography. I was also really curious as a kid, so I used to google a lot of cultist/conspiracy stuff. It would have been nice if I wouldn't have been picturing kink/fetish stuff when thinking about girls I liked, for starters. It would have been nice if someone introduced me to proper philosophy to satiate my curiosity about people and the world instead of me seeing everyone as the enemy for so long. Idk man, I'm older now and looking back I had serious issues with anger not unrelated to being introduced to all the worst humanity has to offer at that age.

if a tree falls in the forest and there is no one there to perceive it with their senses, then there is neither forest, nor tree, nor standing, nor falling, neither space nor time. the human mind is like a lantern that puts a faint circle of light into the night, or like a fishnet that covers an invisible person and marks his contours. a senseless space is empty.

the depth of the world, within the perceived area, increases with the number of senses and with their strength. the small area behind your monitor, for example, is, according to its sensual being (and there is no other being than sensual), smaller, weaker, more blurred than the area in front of the monitor that is visible to you. we receive information through our ears and nose and other sensitive measuring instruments, but we miss the great creative power of the eye. the range of even our finest measuring instruments is limited. behind this limit lies nothingness & memory.

this does not say anything about whether what we perceive is material or immaterial. it simply says that outside the very narrow circle of our senses, things (however they may exist in our presence, as matter or as ideas) are inaccessible to us if we do not sense them, and therefore non-existent. what we falsely consider to be their existence is 1) remembrance of them and 2) the experience of temporal and spatial continuity. to a certain extent, we ascribe magical powers to these two activities of our brain: we see images of things in our head, but instead of thinking of them as photographs, we think of them as windows. we make a sensual experience, and transfer this experience to that which is not sensual.

behind the walls of my room is nothingness. through my window i see treetops, the sky. my eyes are like a spotlight. instead of light into darkness, they cast being into nothingness. the whole sky, right now, is but a window-sized square.