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/wwoym/ The Out of Bobby Experience edition

previous thread >>21673720

I will never become the figure of manhood i long to be, i don't have the mettle to even try and i refuse to forgive myself for it. Most days i spent fantasizing about running away during the night, climbing on top of some hill then kneeling down on my knees, tying my legs together so i stay erect, and the just wait for the rising sun to shine a final light on my face before i slit my wrists and jugular vein, letting wind and water take me. I'am a pathetic failure.

I can't get over being a manlet, it takes me seeing a single cute girl leaning on her boyfriend's arm to make me begin comtemplating on why i haven't jumped in front of a bus yet

>one chance at life
>born an ugly manlet to a divorced family
At least i can sit at home all day and play/watch/read. Don't know how i would have coped if i was born 100 years ago.

>>15911548
>tfw the dead made you swear off women forever

nothing
i'd fade away in silence

>>10294538

ive been neet and ive also been a worker slave doing hard manual labor to the point where i ruined my knees.

I hate both. When im neet I have no drive to do anything productive, when im a worker slave I have no freetime to do anything productive.

I think the final solution is a gun in my mouth.

>>10276932
because a life void of meaning is worse then death

>>10266654
thanks
i'm not really sad just stressed, unlike the rest of /lit/ i don't have the time to experience existential dread

>>9527460

I'm sorry bro

Them fucking poverty feels.

Are there any good works of non-fiction that deal with a historical analysis on where the concept of the "soul" or "spirit" derives from? It pops up in so many different cultures from humanities earliest civilizations and religions, it just made me kind of curious. Like what is in us as human beings or what did we see that could have constituted the idea of the "soul" so early in our history? It would also be nice to see an analysis on what different cultures view the "soul" as.

>Can't feel a reason to work a real job
>Astonished by the waste of existence having one is
>Wonder why I should live at all
>Realize I'll never really be happy in this world
>I'll never have an escape from it at all
>Should be able to own everything I work for, but the society I live in has stripped that away from me
>Should feel gratification from just getting through the day
>Can't see a reason to bring children into this world now that I'm a laborer in it
>Will spend the majority of my existence tearing through it

It's impossible to change my attitude as all I do is rooted in emotion.

I was contemplating suicide everyday at the last job I worked.

I can't see a valid reason to reproduce into this world now that it's industrialized. I understand my thought process isn't conducive to a healthy life, but it's all I can see.

This world is very lonely due to the way it's structured at large.

Are there any books that can show the value in life in the modern world we live in?

>>8415739

I am finishing up the book right now with A Mother and The Dead left to go, it's a small book but for some reason it took me forever to get through. I don't know why, I respect the artistry and the subtlety of Joyce very much, but at the same time I really didn't feel like moving on to the next chapter every time I finished one. I am hoping Portrait is a more entertaining read.

There is a lot of literary techniques that went over my head when I studied a little bit about this book. Like how he uses colors thematically throughout the whole book, and how the very first paragraph basically sums up the entire theme of the book itself. I am really bad at picking up such subtlety, it makes me feel like a retard, but oh well at least I learned about it now so I can try to look for things like that in the future.

My favorite stories have definitely been Araby, Two Galliants, A Little Cloud, and a Painful Case.

A Painful Case is definitely my favorite so far, so fucking depressing.

I really can't get myself to fucking read anymore, what the hell do I do? I feel so depressed and the only thing I feel like doing is browsing the internet all day and playing maybe an hour of videogames.

Am I brainwashed by modern-day distraction or something? Has my ability to focus and have self-discipline ruined by being raised in contemporary society?

Is this just a phase that I will grow out of? How do I get my fuse lit again?

>>8167638
Bravo

>>8162977

i suffer from being a faggot without willpower to change my life and force myself to do things for my own good.

I don't go outside and I feel empty 24/7

What the fuck do I do? Is this just a phase?

Im fucking tired all the time and sleep for so long every night. I can't get alarms to wake me up.

>tfw 6 word essay due tonight at midnight

Mates, I'm having a fucking panic attack

I shouldn't have put this off for so long