/lit/ - Literature

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High school was next. I lived in great fear of having elementary school repeat itself.
Thankfully, I was sorta fine.
I could barely talk to my classmates at first, but I got sorta comfortable with them. I already knew what I had to do, just lay low and hopefully nobody would notice.

I was teased a bit sometimes, but the rest of high school was pretty uneventful for me. I didn't go to parties, birthdays or anything else because I was too scared.
I somebow had a crush at the time, but I never acted on it. We would constantly stare at each other and I wanted to meet them a bit more, but as I said, I was too scared so I never acted on it.
Now uni is next and I don't know what the fuck should I expect.

I am now stuck with hating my parents for ever giving birth to me, hating every person who lives and with a lot of repressed memories and feelings with no way out(at least I don't see one).

This is the story of my worthless little life and I am probably meant to kill myself very soon. I was not meant to be loved, I was meant to die in despair. If there is ANY way out, I would probably be happy to know it(I forgot what happiness feels like, it has been a long time).

I think that many of us here can relate to him. He was basically abused since birth and when he tried to fight back - things got even worse. He became Ilmarinen's slave.
Could he have gotten a happy ending or was he doomed to suffer from the start?