/lit/ - Literature

I'm very thankful for these threads. It's nice to vent or just get my weird thoughts out into the open.

It's mid fall here and very depressing. There is something about this season that always makes me feel lonely; magnificent desolation. Maybe it's the darkness. One of the main struggles of my life is possibly being close to resolving: I have an appointment with a gender therapist this weekend, I'm very anxious about it. I've had obsessive thoughts about my gender my whole life and am now going to expose and reveal my most inward self to some strange therapist to get his professional opinion. I don't like being this vulnerable, but I am forcing myself to. I'm not hopeful about the results, but at least I'll get some manner of closure.

I went on a dusk horse wagon ride last night. Very cold. I saw too baby calf's on the ride, they were adorable. Cows are an underrated cute animals in my opinion. (Picrel)

Goddamn, I hate having a male body. Why can't I just be a completely androgynous elfling. I hate
>Facial hair
>Adams apple
>Low voice
>Giant ribcage
>Hair loss
>Lack of Barr bodies (increased risk of genetic disease)
>Oily skin
>Brow ridge
>Expanded facial planes
>Giant skull
Et cetera

(Went on a horse wagon ride today, vv comfy)