/lit/ - Literature

>>22244891
I had to spend a night with a prostitute in some third world country for the sake of my friend's birthday and that was legitimately one of the worst things I've ever experienced, I genuinely feel like my life is now worse off for it.
We did *not* have sex, because I am so disgusted by the whole prostitution experience, but I did have to play the talking-entertainer role for a good chunk of the night because I didn't want to be a sourpuss and spoil the mood on my friend's birthday night.
Even so, the mere act of having to walk around town with this girl, occasionally give her a kiss, chit chat, etc. Was harrowing. I physically cringe remembering it all. I am truly ashamed, and paranoid about pictures of us existing out there (friend wanted to take them for the bantz in our group chat). Worst yet, I am now afraid that whatever woman I get into a relationship with in the future will somehow discover those pictures and think of me as a sex tourist degenerate.
I'm not scared of sex, I've had it before with a girl I met in college, but this might legitimately have ruined my ability to do it in the future.
Books for this feel?