/lit/ - Literature

>>22537263
same bro
I thought I was just lazy when I procrastinate but I realize that it was because I was fearful of failing.

there hasn't been a single noteworthy novel written in the past decade

sci fi after the 80s seems so boring

I'm exhausted and feeling terribly ugly, frens.

Here's a novel paragraph I wrote about this feel:

8:49 PM

I watched as my brother scrolled through his Instagram feed. I saw what he liked: a jacked guy with blue eyes, a platinum blonde woman vacationing in Greece, and more men and women with respectable physiques.

7:45 AM

This morning, I had a glass of chocolate milk for breakfast, and while driving to work, the sky was sunny and blue—a beautiful day for a vacation, playing volleyball with music blaring. However, my peaceful moment was interrupted when a car honked behind me, and the driver gave me the finger for not moving when the light turned green.

11:12 AM

My boss sat in front of me, his hands interlocked, and he questioned the contents of my work. I managed to answer all of his questions, but from his voice, I could sense the distrust in my mouth. How many wrap-ups does he needs from me until he trust me in this job?

8:55 PM

I desperately need some sleep—just lying down and feeling the bed against my skin, waking up earlier than expected tomorrow.

9:25 AM

My heart ached when I checked my phone and realized she hadn't texted. Notifications from Google, Facebook, and Instagram came in, but none from her. I tried to push away intrusive thoughts of her being with someone else because it disgusted me.

11:29 PM

I stared back at my reflection in the newly-renovated bathroom mirror. My eyes had purplish circles, and my lips were the color of peach and lavender. My nose had visible pores, and it seemed to protrude from my face. It was just depression staring back at me, asking for help. I imagined the reflection behind the mirror, begging to be sent to the hospital. The memories of corporate emails instead of her texts broke my heart. She said she wanted to meet me, and I even paid for dinner. But then, she just disappeared, and I am haunted by her absence. The smile I couldn't reach, the conversation that never happened as it did the first time we met, and the coldness in my muscles—all tearing me apart, with no explanation.

12:05 AM

Sitting on the recliner, holding a book I was about to read, I couldn't help but think as a scientist, I always made hypotheses. But these hypotheses about why she ghosted me weren't the answers I wanted to discover. Was I just hideous? Any answer, for or against, would shatter my rationale because I believed I was enough when she agreed to that date. It's making me afraid of meeting new potential lovers because it hurts when the Russian Roulette of searching for the love of your life hands you the bullet.

Already downloaded 5 today

I'm a repressed homosexual Christian. Books for this feel?

>tfw neo-fascist
>tfw almost every book I read are written by cringe Liberal types

>>21644845
haven't been to one in a decade

I just don't like talking online.

It usually gets to me after five or six books

>tfw when probably a boltzmann brain

Can /pol/tards please just leave this board already?

>ywn be a knight, travel to a far land and lop off brown peoples heads in the name of God, as a spanish qt3.14 redhead writes fanfics about you hoping you would return

If I start picturing me receiving awards and giving interviews after writing the first passage of my book, is this a pointer that I won't make it?
I feel pathetic about it, but I can't help it.

>my dog is getting visibly older
Books for this feel?

>have narcissistic personality disorder
>also have social anxiety

>>14523137
>be me
>depressed
>already have tinnitus before depression
>start taking meds for depression
>meds make tinnitus worse
>mfw

>going to update diary
>realize I have an essay due
>end up doing that instead
>never update diary

>Never read Hamlet before
>trying to read Scylla and Charybdis

>>13881451
>tfw you posted cringe

>tfw will never obtain Phds in Philosophy, Math and Physics and become a polymath.

Feels bad man. There always will be an intellectual deficiency in me.

>Be introverted autist
>Choose to be English meme major so I can study literature more in-depth
>Expect to meet other people like me
>90% of everyone in the major is a normie who only reads YA fiction, an SJW who shit-talks anything that wasn't written before the current year, or obnoxious extroverts who talk about anything but literature
>Typically so nervous in front of these kind of people that I don't talk
>Go entire semesters without saying a word to my classmates

I thought people who like to shut themselves up in a book for hours a day would also be introverted and socially incompetent, but I've been disappointed, m8s. The only professors who fit the classic bookworm image also seem to be 70+ year old men. Is literature no longer the domain of the awkward and unlovable?

when did you realize that you're were in love with the idea of reading but not reading itself

that is 90% of this board

How do you prevent yourself from imitating another writer's work too closely?

I wrote a short story, and it was published, and I just had a small panic attack because I remembered another, semi-popular story which begins in a similar kind of way.