/lit/ - Literature

>>22074792
>whorephobia

>>21806206
>who cares about the future

"It appears that the Zulu word for “future” — isikhati — is the same as the word for time, as well as for space. Realistically, this means that these concepts probably do not exist in Zulu thought. It also appears that there is no word for the past — meaning, the time preceding the present. The past did exist, but no longer exists. Hence, people who may have problems thinking of things that do not exist will have trouble thinking of the past as well as the future."

I woke up with terrible vertigo and haven't been able to do much more than sit in bed since. I really hope this isn't a new chronic illness I'm going to have because I'm already somewhat disabled and this would just be cruel.

Also if I end up bed ridden while still in my twenties I'm actually going to kill myself.

I just drank more than a serving of alcohol for the first time (tfw sheltered, autistic child) and things are spinning. Is this what drunkenness feels like? Pretty nice desu, I get the appeal now.

>tfw can't fully accept either idealism or materialism
Help me out of this self-contradictory hell

>do you like Finnish books

>matched with someone on tinder
>have to actually talk with with now
oh fuck

>optional essay is due whenever I want

>it's another crisis day

>>10821826

Books about the philosophic dread caused by thinking about the world too much? I don't know how to reconcile my desire for knowledge and understanding with how maddening it can be to look at the chaos and disorder that permeate existence.

Dude I am also having a spiritual crisis due to Eckhart Tolle.

Is he teaching nonduality, or is he teaching living in the moment as a human being?

Because I don't get nonduality at all, and if that's what he's teaching, then I don't want it. These nonduality teachers consider themselves disembodied balls of light or some shit.

But being in the moment, and shutting down the mind. That is something I can get behind.

I have applied his teaching of 'presence' of living in the moment. Basically keeping perpetual continuity of mind and awareness of awareness.

He says shit like 'Be present to the moment', which I love, and has helped me greatly, and then goes on to say 'ultimately you ARE the present moment.'

So what the fuck am I. Am I a human, or am I the present moment? What the fuck is he teaching? What's going on here?

Is presence being human, but having nondual awareness in the background, or is it perpetual nondual awareness?

Is anyone following me? I'm probably going to end killing myself.