/lit/ - Literature

>wake up
>feel terrible and want to go back to sleep
>slowly wake up
>first thought is about wanting to die
>head starts filling with thoughts
>think I should meditate
>its too late because I snoozed and have no time now
>go to school and try to pay attention but mind always keep wandering back to poinlessness of life
>work out, and go on 4chan inbetween sets
>eat
>go to BJJ
>finally my mind is distracted from thinking
>at the end of class scary looking MMA dude comes up and is actually a nice guy and says good work today and tells me he'll show me where I fucked up when rolling next class
>feel really happy
>blast music and smile on the ride home

We're all gonna make it bros, I've slowly gotten more depressed after high school with responsibilites and not hanging out with people daily, and even though I think about death like I never did before I know it's not an option because it would ruin the lives of people close to me. Find a hobby where you can improve and people can give you feedback back on it. Even though life is stagnant right now and the future is unclear know that there is so much shit to explore out there, and keep yourself distracted from bad thoughts in the meantime.