/lit/ - Literature

>>18889267
Yeah I also got over shit like that, don't do that because it's depressing, it's autistic, it's pathetic, those are traps that losers who want to feel like they have integrity fall in, dumb people. I realise this is just a cope of mine, but it's the only way to enjoy life for me. I am literally not content with living if my every moment doesn't feel like I am blasting with euphoria, nice thoughts and enjoying life. I don't even like sex as much as I like zoning out on my own beauty and on the beauty of the world, I also listen to trance and after I lift I am in complete god zone, no bad thought or emotion can touch me, and it's all good. I remember being spiritually dead, and it was hell compared to how I feel now. I also get my happiness from thinking really deep about how complex the world is and how everything ties together so well, it's unbelivable.