/lit/ - Literature

I don't know if I'm cut out for drawing and painting and it's causing a lot of turmoil. I want to do landscape, architecture, and semi-abstract work stemming from those subjects but I'm so autistically detail-focused that everything feels soulless. And I'm not even far enough along in the learning process to be thinking like this, but I find it hard to let go and find freedom in my creation. And I don't practice every day to even improve at a good rate because I'm so depressed. It's frustrating.

I took a trip to the art museum and spent a lot of time with the landscape painting and many had incredible attention to detail but still conveyed great sense of feeling and place. I took a road trip and along the way kept thinking about how so much of the earth is passed by in an hour, while many of these landscape painters would hike in to the mountains, spending days or weeks in the environments they were painting, or paint the untouched landscape around them. I sit in my room and draw from photos.