/lit/ - Literature

>>11151614
I can't stand where I am but don't know how to change to get to the end result I'm looking for. People keep telling me "it's about the process, anon" "love the journey anon, not the destination" but I couldn't care less about cooking chicken, I'm hungry and want to eat, dammit.

>Have tried dozens of lines of work, no matter how much effort I put into someone else's dream, it does not make me feel remotely happy/satisfied/interested in continuing after 6-12 months.
>Only thing that makes me feel anything positive is stuff I don't make money on yet.

Thinking of taking a loan so I can spend 3-4 years just grinding on what I care about instead of trading 8-10h/day at minimum to pay for food/rent and using leftover energy to do what I love. I can see all the wrenches that could get stuck in these rather frivolous/societally-irresponsible plans, but the gears composing the life I'm living are eroding. Anything I find interesting in all these other places for other people's dreams lose their lustre and make me wonder "What's the point if I'm not advancing, if I'm not working on my dreams day in/day out?"