/lit/ - Literature

>>20628091
Nothing amazing ever happened there.

What are some books for someone like me? There are a few issues, some of which have been caused by books.

1. I literally cannot believe in any spooks at all. It feels like mental cuckoldry and humiliation. As a result I can't bear to adhere to any life rules. Giving up junk food is cucked. Setting goals is cucked. It's all a prison. When I see anyone express any of these vague thoughts or rules or pieces of advice, I hate it so much.

2. What can I do about my ugliness, betaness, zero social success, and zero anything with women? I'm incelblackpilled and have been since 2014. I was r9k pulled from 2012 but reading about the lookspill in 2014 really set out how little hope I have in many aspects of life and things have been consistent with that before and after. The lookspill was something that even most of 4chan couldn't bear but now even YouTubers freely talk about it.

I become the ugly loser nobody talks to within a week of all of my jobs. I'm in my early 30s and did nothing with my 20s socially and only just barely managed to start a career job that people in their mid 20s have. I haven't even been outside the UK for over a decade.

3. Are there any novels that are good at all or have I lost all patience with them? I don't really give a fuck about fiction anymore. I went through this painful grinding stage of reading pomo novels and literary fiction in my early 20s and a lot of it was boring as fuck.

4. I can't make myself do anything productive in my free time. I think disliking my degree subject so much while also being a total loser at university destroyed all of my motivation. My university experience involved: total social failure and isolation: procrastination that started in my second year, increased slowly, and then became extreme; experiencing a deluge of graduate intern and job rejections (after interviews) which was demoralising. The idea of doing anything productive in my free time and without any external pressure seems like a giant leap.

>>20309471
>your favorite author
Camus
>your hobbies outside of reading/writing
Combat sport - Boxing, MMA, Kickboxing, BJJ
>what you're currently reading
Kafka By the Shore / Dante's Inferno
>most visited board besides /lit/
/mu/