/lit/ - Literature

I really think it's time for me to move on from this place
I've never hated 4chan, in fact in some ways I appreciate finding it. I thought me some about myself and helped me to discover a lot of new things. But all the negativity started getting to me lately. I used to be a really bright person. I remember when a girl from my class in high school said I'll probably achieve a lot, and it really hit me now. I want to live damn it, no matter how much of pathetic piece of shit I am at the moment. I already expect
>hurr durr see you tomorrow fagget
>you're here forever,
which proves my point exactly. I just can't go in circles anymore guys. And I don't give a fuck about being blackpilled, or whatever the fuck. I believe your outlook shapes your reality to some extent. It's like looking outside of the window- sure you can't necessarily change the scenery outside, but you can wipe the shit off the glass and open it up- let some sunlight and fresh air in. I refuse to accept that bleak reality, I'd rather swallow the cyanide.
And no I won't go to reddit/facebook/twitter whatever. If my years of isolation thought me anything, is that online communities are all a joke. Community is a physical, living thing. It's people genuinely caring about each other. Bunch or online strangers connected by some vague common interest is nowhere near that. It's a shame it took me so long to realize such a simple truth- I need people.

Now all I need is the courage to take the plunge