/lit/ - Literature

>Why yes I am an idealist objective realist and think all logical relations and propositions and entities are ideally real existing in an a non-spatial atemporal platonic realm which exists outside of all individual psychological acts and would continue to exist even if no human beings existed to have thoughts and I'm also a transcendental phenomenalist Kantian who does not think that a platonic topos ouranious exists and of course I'm not a platonist idealist objective realist at all why would you ever think that, why do you ask?

HOW DO YOU RESPOND?

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>tfw you twist and distort your perception of women to see if you can denaturalize and defamiliarize them
>tfw try to see how similar they are to male humans, and how the radical difference between genders is actually relative and an illusion
>tfw try to see them as a subspecies of apes, made of matter, possessing the same limbs and figure and hands and feet as shaved chimpanzees
>tfw trying to eidetically suspend my brain's automatic assigning of essential qualities to them, as if those qualities exist "in" them objectively, like "Dainty," "Soft," "Sexual," and "Her anus hole smells like an anus hole but it's a girl's anus hole so that means it smells nice and I love it"
>tfw do all this
>tfw it doesn't help at all
>tfw defamiliarizing them only makes the helpless plunge back down into their chthonic ineffable unheimlichkeit even worse
>tfw defamiliarizing the buttcheek i'm licking as "just a buttcheek, just an ape's fatty deposit, with slight hormonal differences this would be a 'man', gender is fluid and relative and we are 99% similar" just makes it even hotter that i'm such a depraved animal that i want to lick her buttcheek
>tfw forcing myself to notice imperfections and human flaws and irreducibly crass and material aspects of bodily existence just makes it even more hot that my brain compels me to shove my face in them like a dog
>tfw girlfriend is getting weirded out because i keep asking to lick her stomach and legs clean after she exercises