/lit/ - Literature

I have talents but no drive. I am the embodiment of the failed gifted kid and I'm so tired of living this way. I know that I have potential, I'm just such a depressed lazy motherfucker, which is terrible to know about yourself.

I have a great self employed job where I could easily make 6 figures if I put in the basic 40 hours a week, but instead I do the bare minimum and barely scrape by in life.

I've been studying music since I was 11, I have a very good understanding of theory and composition, but when it's time to sit at the piano or put the pencil on the staff paper, I just can't push myself to sit there for longer than 5 minutes these days.

I'm not as knowledgable about writing/reading compared to music, but the desire is there for me, though I similarly never follow up.

I don't want to be one of those old people who knows they could have been great but chose not to for whatever reason. It's truly my biggest fear in life to end up like that.

Because of this I'm going to start a journey of reading from the great minds of the past to hopefully find some inspiration. I'm planning on going to the bookstore in the morning when they open to pick up some staple pieces of work. I am going to start with the greeks because that's what I hear from basically everyone on where to start when beginning to understand philosophy. I'm open to hearing suggestions of other places to start or where to go after the greeks, so if anyone has any recommendations I would love to hear them.

I hope we all make it anons, I really really do.