/lit/ - Literature

I'm perpetually fascinated by my own self-awareness. (Or qualia, if you wish.) It's so extremely powerful. There's never been a moment since age 12 where I am hasn't been present, it's always me, the "sensation" was sprinkled regularly here and there pre-age-12, constant since. Whenever I perform a physical activity it slightly weakens; I feel this is related to my frequent insomnia and aversion to change—I want to stay, any change is a fracture in the chain of my sentience/a new piece of the chain. I only ever do anything when the impulse/need (like hunger and exhaustion) or necessity demands it, and it now becomes my "will". And my overwhelming episodic memory.
Not even going into "mental time travel", god damn.

I really like music.