/lit/ - Literature

I am having a bit of an existential crisis /lit/, and I figured if anyone on 4chan would understand my problem it would be you. I stopped being religious when I was a teenager, and at first it didn't bother me because I was kept busy with college and filled my spare time by obsessing over various liberal social causes. I guess the first time I ever thought more deeply about what it meant to live in a world without god was when I read Nietzsche (terrible philosopher, btw), who has his own spiel about the avoid. I started to read more existentialist philosophy, and I find their solutions to the existential angst caused by the discovery that nothing matters in the grand scheme of things to be woefully unconvincing. The same is true of the other philosophers I have read- none have been able to convince me that their pitiful concerns are important in a godless universe filled with chaos and suffering. I have started to withdraw into a deep depression as a result of thinking about all of this. My husband doesn't understand what is wrong with me, and I feel like my life is imploding in on itself. Have you ever experienced anything like this /lit/?