/lit/ - Literature

>be me
>hanging out with this girl
>Went on multiple one-on-one date - bike ride, dinner, lunch, movies, etc.
>every night, i was just tormented - just thinking about her, shivering in loneliness
>both stem phd student. first women i met who is smarter than me
>still a normie. an atheist one, at that
>shes getting booost'd and shit
>One day, eventually asked her out.
>"im trying to figure out my sexuality"
>cool. now im over with her, so i thought. my heart was relieved
>later, hangout with her in group setting
>suddenly realize that i still love her. still obsessed with her. my heart still aches.
>has my prudish puritanical upbringing screwed me up? am i just irredeemable sperg? im very sociable, at least on outside....
>you were the first one i ever asked out..... and it ends like this
>now that she said she's figuring out her sexuality, now starting to imagine having threesome with her supposed dyke gf
>getting tired of saying same shit at confession
>pretty sure the priest is tired of my rant
>about to be 30 soon, and still KHHV
>slowly mentally rot
>only coping mechanism is "when i finish school, new city new me tee hee"

help