/lit/ - Literature

>>19663001>We are living in the age of shifting perspectives – from looking down to looking up.
>We see the world in an entirely different way than we did before.
>The universe has changed from being something small, static, mystic, and unintelligable, to something vast dynamic, coherent, and comprehensible.
>We understand reality in a completely new way that would be difficult to imagine happening again – despite the inability to predict such shifts being a prerequisite for them to happen.
>Yet, undergoing a similar change seems unlikely.
>We stand now at the edge.
>This is it.

>>19534551
>It is BAUDOUIN who saved her from being cut
>She spent a whole night with BAUDOUIN - fellatio and sodomy
why ... why is my dicc hard

>>19056824
Last night, I smoked some herb for the first time in a long while. I sat down in my living room, and turned off my phone and pc. I wanted to spend a moment alone with my thoughts. As soon as I sat down, I was overcome by this heavy feeling of dread and discomfort. I became acutely aware that I am altogether unhappy - unhappy with my decisions in life, unhappy with what has become my station, unhappy in my relationships with my friends, family, and wife, unhappy with the person I am. It felt like I was physically burdened by every choice I have ever made, and nothing I have ever done was right, or has led me to feel like a living, breathing human being. I am now sitting alone in my office, contemplating going out to get wasted, getting my car, and driving into traffic.

I do not feel like a person. I feel like a vague, shadow-like collection of emotion. Uncertainty, regret, self loathing, and a desire for death - that is all I have become. I feel like smoking once more, to maybe try and change the focus my mind has taken, and perhaps think better thoughts after. But I feel it would be disingenuous. I feel this is what I really am. I have just now, for the first time, become aware of my own self. I should have never been.

All I do is write simply or I write cringey...

How do I fix this? Should I just stop and go read more or what?