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Im also 22 and in a similar situation OP.But I dont think that knowing this helps anyone,it doesnt help me at least.
I should be graduating this year,but I have postponed it by failing classes just by not doing anything.
I dealt with online classes reasonably well but I screwed up again some months ago and maybe I will have to stay longer to graduate.If I do graduate,I will surely feel like I dont deserve it,being mostly by luck and professors that dont care enough to grade you in a just way.
Ive taken up music as a hobby and reading again after years during this pandemic.I dropped exercising and am trying to ditch pornography.But to be honest in my best moments I dont feel fulfilled,I only think about things that make me embarassed of myself and when or if I overcome them I dont actually feel anything.

I noticed my dreams are populated by imagery that is not mine,in the sense that I experienced it,it is mostly stuff from movies,videos etc.
Also,is butterfly the Sapphos of contemporaneity?