/lit/ - Literature

I went to an all-boy Catholic school where the traditional cliques somewhat broke down. A different clique unique to this system was the "god squad", the group of super Catholic kids who went on every retreat, would read during Mass, try super hard in theology class, and so on. I was initially part of the god squad not because of any desire to fit in but because I found the Bible genuinely interesting. I excelled in the social sciences and was being pushed to join the seminary. I dreamed of becoming an apologist.

In my junior year my parents lost their jobs, got divorced, and everything went to shit. My grades fell, I missed a lot of school, and formed my own clique of the I-didn't-know-you-still-came-here kids. I still can't decide if I'm angrier at myself for trying to attribute the blame to my parents, thus absolving myself of responsibility, or at myself for being too weak to overcome whatever difficulties I was having at home.