/lit/ - Literature

>>11629961
Most of people like us are from fucked up families with dead or weak father figure. Just swap feminism in your post with christianity in mine and we have the functionally same situation. My mother was also abusive and probably borderline.

That being said I still have compassion for her since she is sometimes okay to me and had it hard during her life.

She was heavily abused by my granpa who was an alchoholic and on an ocasion raped my uncle who later became a disturbed person and was arrested for spying kids after school. Aside from that he and grandma accidentally killed my moms newborn sister. while arguing and throwing logs and stones around fireplace one of them hit the baby in the head with a bootle. They latter disposed of the corpse by throwing it into the pit. Since this is a shithole and such thing as a organised police was only present in big cities and the north noone noticed. Noone could do anything to stop my grandfather since he was the only literate person in the area and was sort of a village chieftain in a highly tribal region. Type of region where old people are beheaded by family when they reach certain age as they're not useful for labor anymore and where parents intentionally cripple one of their children and isolate him to become dumb in order to have someone stay with them with no wife or children to take care of them at an older age.

Eventually my mother ran away and was sheltered in local monastery in exchange for labour since honor killing were still a thing at the time.

Later on my grandpa tried to change himslef and stoped drinking and went to commune where priests forced him to stop drinking. He tried to compensate all of his wrongs by being too kind to me whenbI was a kid. However when he would occasionally get angry everyone had to hide and lock themselves in rooms and hide. I still sort of (try) to understand why he went crazy since its hard not to if you are the only literate person with 75<iq in the whole part of the country.