/lit/ - Literature

Hey OP, I'm in the same exact situation as you except with antidepressants instead of alcohol. Keep going man, I know what you're going through.

>>6911778

Think you could post an excerpt?

>>6600826
Thats just the tip of the iceberg my friend.

I've contemplated suicide. Accepting defeat.

But I don't.

This is by choice, not because its all "I CAN'T HELP IT! >>N0 GFFF >>>>>>>>>>>no>>>>>gf>>>>>!>!>>"
I've stooped to an all time low.
I have no shame anymore.
I can't care anymore and thats not a good thing.

This isn't a cry for help or something. This is a disconnection from reality and people, from you and this world.

Everything is so fake, feels so fake.

It's all like clockwork and I swear I end up in different places each time I start walking alone without realizing.

I want to die but I don't want to.
>sick of living/unwilling to die

I want to fall asleep and never wake.
Maybe I'll take up a religion and devote myself to it.
Maybe I'll give myself that false sense of purpose.
Can you tell me you feel the same? Artificial? Fake?